Vlog - May! - Leaving Mexico, Work and Life

hello hello hello just making myself a drink guys hey oh my gosh i know it's been a while since i did a vlog and so much has been happening and i'm like i need to just come here record it right now otherwise i'm just gonna forget again and life gets in the way and i just all over the place so the first news is that i am leaving mexico don't know for how long but for right now i'm starting my digital nomad traveling life which is very exciting uh and i'm actually going to austin and that's gonna be my first stop i'm not going there by chance in fact i'm going there because of a work event but this whole thing sparkled the whole traveling idea because i know so many people in u.s and everyone's like oh you need to go there and here and i have already so many friends and baking students and i i think most of you are from america anyway so let me know in a video under under the video like which um city you're from and if it's definitely worth visiting i'm not promising that i'm gonna be there but i'm gonna kind of travel around and see what happens i have no plans i'm kind of kind of like a rough guideline where i should be and uh yeah I am leaving Mexico usually every summer because it's way too hot for me yes it can get like too hot I'm probably gonna be freezing in Europe for sure and I'm obviously gonna go visit my family my grandma my granddad in Latvia in summer well summer is actually in like a few weeks in a week or two uh I might look really happy right now which I am you know I'm in good mood because the secret is i was like feeling very stiff and tight and i went to do a 90 minute massage yesterday guys and it was incredible it was like 90 minutes like she massaged my whole body it was like deep tissue and then 30 minutes on my feet which was a game changer okay and now i just feel all like loose loose and free i'm in my new kitchen by the way did anyone recognize it's a weird angle because i don't have a tripod yet anyway so a lot of stuff been happening actually a lot of ----'s been happening you know from my business to my apartment to lots of other problems and you know yesterday i woke up early and i was like you know what just breathe out you've done this before you can sit down and you can plan everything so i just want to remind everyone when you're starting to feel really really overwhelmed stressed out when you know there's so much going on and not in a good way you know like there's things that are happening but no good oh just breathe make a list i love making my list oh i thought someone's at the door i love making my list it's something that helps me of course it might not help you i'm just sharing what helps me and i just make a list you know things like what is important right now what can i do what is non-important what can i move to next month or next week as a task and then that helps me okay but generally yeah like i'm in a position right now where um i had a team of three people or more actually anyway regardless the point is everyone's gone for personal things uh i had to fire some people um either way i am back to me and my editor is not doing well he's going through divorce so he's just kind of disappeared on me so yeah like with business sense you know it's been really hard you can imagine having like a whole team and then having nobody again so it's been very stressful but you know i've already built so many systems and i've just hired like two new people so i'm teaching them again uh circle of life i'm you know i've been through this so many times that it doesn't really bother me but it's still stressful and it's upsetting but i'm strong enough and then all these things to sort out you know uh in apartments like this the ceiling needs painting the internet needs sorting the electricity needs doing that the water you know all the admin stuff and then and then i had this whole argument with uh my landlord where i used to live literally just like a few weeks ago she just refused to give me my full deposit back guys you're not gonna believe she took nearly thousand dollars from my deposit like 800 or something like that it was crazy i was arguing her for three weeks you know and it really upset me because this time like she seemed like a normal landlord i swear i'm not having good luck in Mexico with landlords they just so just no good um yeah she just yeah it's just doesn't want to go into it I was thinking about like making it public again and exposing her but then I was just like you know well I don't even have energy anymore like these people it's karma it's gonna get to them you know and what I realized karma is real you know whenever you are doing something and you're hurting someone whether that's intentional or not intentional or if it's intentional you're definitely going to get your karma if it's not intentional but you know that someone else is hurting it's going to come back to you you know what i mean like so just be careful what you do you know consider other people's things consider other people because in this life what we call life game everything is back you know if you don't you if you don't learn your lesson in one way it's going to come to you in another way and uh yeah it's just a lot been going on and you know trying to like organize and plan and you know all these things and i was just like literally like going crazy i was going crazy um but right now like in the last year you know i've learned so much on how to handle myself like how to handle my emotions because before i mean it's been a long journey you know i've changed so much in the last three years since i moved to mexico it's crazy i'm like a completely different person um and i'm just so much more you know like i feel so much more calm and rational inside like when ---- happens i'm just like okay i'm gonna allow myself to like cry to get angry to name every single emotion that might be feeling at that moment and then i just move on you know or sort out or fix the fix the issue or whatever and i actually realized this year has already been so much better for me you know i've I've been traveling a lot I've been seeing so many places and I decided that you know like I need to just keep going I need to keep going and that's why I decided to go traveling again I have no idea what's gonna happen I'm kind of just going with open mind and it is a little bit scary again I really really really want to find like my partner to travel with I really do like I keep seeing it in my vision I just I just want to have someone you know that I share life with that um is into same things as me that likes food that likes adventure and travel and you know we can connect on many levels and it's just I'm finally finally opening for that because I've had you know really really kind of I would say like painful no yeah really painful I'm not gonna sugarcoat it it was really painful um ending to my relationship and you know it took me a while to really just come to terms with it and just to kind of really feel at peace and really like let it all go but i feel like finally the circles you know are are closing and closed and i am finally ready and open it's been a while as well it's been you know quite quite some time um and i've learned so many lessons like it's crazy and i'm just kind of ready to build life with someone and i know more things are gonna come up and more lessons are gonna come up and oh it's just it's it's been a rough journey for me you know in the last couple of years like really rough and last year like really tested me you know when you think things are going really bad and you're like surely it can't get worse and then it just hits you more and then it gets worse and worse and worse and I'm just so you know like proud of myself that I'm you know standing here doing this video for you guys because it's it was really really extreme like I was really in a bad place I didn't really tell many people but last September October like honestly I was scared for myself so I'm just proud of me and how far I've come and like where I am now and that I'm able to kind of just laugh enjoy and be happy again and enjoy little things and look forward to this thing called life again and, you know, become myself, and yeah, like, and of course, like, I met, like, an amazing friend, and it just kind of gave me hope that there's so many amazing people out there, there's so many amazing men and women, and there's so many good people out there, you know, and I feel that you are obviously going to attract what you are right now, and the main thing is to always, always work on yourself you know always always always become the better version of you become the best best person that you can be and one you once you're like the best you're gonna attract the same type of person who is the best or who is gonna marry you and be the best i'm sweating here by the way it's getting hot you see this is why i need to leave mexico apparently though texas where i'm going my first stop is really hot as well so i don't know what i'm doing if i'm trading one to another anyway I just wanted to be real with you and honest that I'm not going to show you like videos of me crying or you know but but you know like I I've just I still keep going through these waves of emotions and you know life happens and things happen but at the same time you know we just we just got to keep pushing forward and we're just gonna keep believing in ourselves and yeah just just one step at a time anyway I feel like I'm giving like a whole lecture here while I'm sweating in my kitchen oh my gosh it's really hot i think it's probably true i'm having electrolytes because here for some reason every time i stand up like i feel dizzy so i was like yeah i think i need some vitamins in me anyway this is my update what's been going on i am okay guys i promise you i'm gonna do updates now every week as i've mentioned to you before and i'm gonna send you free recipes every week it's just because my whole team fell apart so now i have to like redo the whole system wow i'm like really sweating i have to redo the whole system but um you will be hearing more from me so stay tuned let me know if you want to see my adventures let me know if you want me to do like a traveling vlog or whatever uh i post a lot of my stories of course but stories is really hard on instagram it's only limited to like a few seconds that you can talk here i feel like i can express myself and talk to you and share a lot more with you and um yeah my table has arrived i know this is so random but i'm very very excited i will show you in a picture i guess because my friends are coming over tonight to help me fix it some of my male friends coming to put like the smoke alarm and set up the table and it's just you know all these things anyway i hope you all have amazing week uh i love you loads guys if you're having a hard time right now just remember that it will pass and don't you know don't throw your life away you know um i know when you're feeling really tough and it's really really hard and you feel at your lowest it's really hard to see anything positive it's really hard to see any point in anything but if you're watching this video and you're hearing this message think of me as your someone that you really love like your angel that's talking through me okay to you and everything's gonna be okay everything's gonna be okay um it's a period it's like a bad wave you know and then it's gonna pass and you're gonna be on a different wave okay so i love you loads i believe in you you're amazing you are good enough everything in life you're doing is right okay so lots of kisses and I'll see you hopefully next week already in USA bye