Moving to Mexico instead of Spain.. for now VLOG!

hi everyone welcome welcome welcome i thought i'll do a quick update and a little vlog about what's actually happening um at the minute i'm actually in mexico and um yeah just i posted a story yesterday on my instagram and all of you wanted to know how come i'm here what happened and why am i not moving to spain right now why am i moving to mexico so i don't even know where to start so first of all of course like i've wanted to leave uk for a long time and i planned to go well i planned to go on the 9th of march which was yesterday as well and i had to move out of my apartment on the 8th because they started doing renovations so i couldn't be there anymore so i did have a final deadline um i was really stressed out you know before moving to spain anyway because that's like really stressful situation you know as you know when you're moving a country and my plan was to move to Marbella and settle down you know I was going to rent I was going to stay in a hotel for a couple of days for like a week and then find an apartment and now with all the current situation that's going on in the world um uk is completely banned from traveling to Spain and not only that you can't even travel there unless you have residency so i started quickly realizing there's no way I'm going to be able to move to Spain until probably like end of May or beginning of June which kind of defeated the purpose of me going there i wanted to go there for about three months to figure out if you know if this is for me like settle down find an apartment so I can move with my dog in a you know in september um yeah so when that plan has completely got ruined i was feeling very very stressed and if i'm completely 100% honest i've been so anxious for the last sort of two months I've been like in a really bad place mentally i haven't really realized how bad I feel until kind of the last sort of few weeks when I just kept losing it you know I kept having breakdowns and crying a lot because I was like I feel stuck I feel trapped I couldn't go anywhere and yeah i just felt like my whole life is just not going to a direction where i wanted to go and that's obviously been happening for a lot of people in the last year um so then i just joined a bunch of groups and someone said that Mexico has no quarantining rules and you can just come in here with a negative PCR test and basically enjoy living here so i thought why not why don't I just consider this as an option in fact I did look for many many things you know I looked online how to get uh to Spain and the only way for me was to get to Spain was to travel to Mexico and then from Mexico to Spain um and that was kind of my original plan I thought okay I'll go to Mexico I'll have a holiday I'll have a break you know for two weeks because I've been working like crazy hours non-stop and I thought you know I just need to get out from the tiny flat in London i need to get away i need to just you know clear clear my head with with all the stress and anxiety and everything that's been going on and then i thought actually no like there's no point you know moving to Spain right now there are still regulations i don't even know if i'll be let in anyway even if i do come from Mexico um so i've made a decision this was literally a decision that was made a few days ago i booked my flight to Mexico um i was stressed out that i might not get in here because UK introduced brand new laws from Monday about filling a new form and yeah it's just just very very complicated things um i don't want to get into too much detail with that because everyone's got their own opinions on this um and i respect everyone's opinions you know i'm just i just needed to get out you know and i can work from anywhere so technically um they can't keep me in uk i'm not you know like i'm not prisoner to be kept um i'm very free spirit i'm very creative i love you know creating cakes and and this is my my my life my business so for me to be locked up that i have been for the last year it's just really really affected my health my mental health so I feel immediately right now actually it's only been like a few hours but I just feel I just feel free you know I feel like I can I can do what I want I can go where I want I can just yeah I can just relax I can just take a breather yeah so now I've decided that I'm gonna live here for the next maybe two three months we'll see how things go i literally have no plan um i don't really know where i'm gonna live exactly i'm staying in a nice hotel at the minute for a week and then i'm gonna find myself an accommodation uh maybe something close to the beach because that's what i wanted to do in spain anyway and i can work from anywhere in the world it doesn't really matter as long as i have a kitchen i came here by myself it's gonna be an adventure i don't know anyone in mexico um but that would be the same situation if i did move to spain as well and it's really funny because they also speak spanish here and i haven't started learning my spanish yet so hopefully uh so hopefully i'll be more encouraged to start learning a new language so yeah to cut shoring to cut the story in short i wasn't allowed to really move to Spain right now and i didn't want to wait another two three months uh not knowing what the situation would be and Mexico presented itself with open open open heart and and open hands and yeah just took the opportunity i realized that you know in life you have to make quick decisions you have to be fast otherwise you can't you can't have your business you can't and you know you can't do anything and it is scary it is very very uncomfortable i'm not gonna tell you that i feel very comfortable right now obviously i'm gonna enjoy the next week or so but i'm really out of my comfort zone um you know i don't know anything and i guess it's it's it's you know it's an adventure i am a bit crazy and i think sometimes i just make decisions and then i think i don't know if anyone else does that um but at the end of the day I just thought this is my path this is my journey and I'm just gonna see where it takes me I am I guess lucky in a sense that I don't have any commitments uh I didn't plan to be here on my own you know obviously I thought I would be here with my partner uh and I thought I would have a partner by now but since I've been working crazy hours you know for the last sort of two years I'm with no weekends off no breaks nothing I obviously wasn't even able to meet anyone let alone with a with a whole situation that's going on there is really no many opportunities to meet a guy and so you know i'm kind of just ready for this journey on my own um and i guess we just we never where we thought maybe we would be um with our plans that we have for ourselves but i'm just trying to embrace it and trying to just kind of go with the flow which i've never done before I do control everything about my business I do control everything about my life like I want to know what's happening and when but for the first time in my life I just realized I can't control I can't control this anymore and I haven't planned anything I booked my ticket literally last week I had to find all these forms and that was really stressful to leave the UK I booked this accommodation 10 minutes before I boarded my flight to Cancun um because I wasn't sure if I'm gonna make it you know like with everything that's happening I wasn't even sure 100% they're gonna let me go and everything's just happened so quickly and now yeah now I'm here and I don't have any plan but I feel so relieved I can't explain it I feel like a huge weight has been dropped from my shoulders that I am not kind of trapped anymore that's the feeling I had for a very very long time and I really really hate it and I am about freedom and I like to feel like we can be free and I just yeah I just it just started to really annoy me and affect me a lot so yeah that's that's the whole story about it um I will be back in London because all my belongings are there i just took a luggage i don't have a lot of things with me but i also realized you don't need a lot in life like in terms of materialistic things like whenever you travel you don't have a lot of things with you well i don't anyway and um yeah so i'm gonna obviously come back in summer hopefully uh things will look better and really like pack my stuff and I don't really know again which is freaking me out a little bit because I do like to know what's happening like stability wise like where I'm gonna live in like six months but I genuinely don't know and I'm just letting it go and I might have to move here who knows I really don't know I might love Mexico so much that I'll fully relocate here I might think this is not for me and I might move to Spain like that was my original plan in September or I don't know I might move somewhere else who knows so that's the that's the adventure so far i invite you to follow my adventure i'm yeah i'm just gonna be sharing what's happening and where i'm at but yeah i hope that was fun story for you if anyone wants to you know relocate to another country um i i can give you some tips but i'm not really you know last time i relocated like i lived in thailand i lived in asia i lived in um in latvia i lived obviously in london uh i moved a lot before but i usually had a plan i had i don't know i had some sort of a plan but now i really don't and it's freaking me out but at the same time i'm excited okay well ask any questions in the comments down below if you want to know more or you know what you want to find out and i'll happily answer them Thank you.