Living in Mexico - Week 11 - Vlog

to do a vlog oh my gosh it's been so long since i've done a vlog in mexico or just a vlog in general obviously you know i've got my new hair oh gosh i don't even know where to begin um i haven't updated you in so long and i'm so sorry first issue was that i have recorded some vlogs and then i tried to i ran out of space on my phone so i tried to like move my stuff um and i somehow deleted it i don't know basically then i tried to cloud it and then i lost a couple of days of my footage anyway so there were some vlogs on there but i do have some vlogs still unedited on my uh on my laptop which i will get into i just wanted to drop you know a quick message just to say hi and kind of update you on the most recent thing that's been happening as you guys know uh or maybe you don't know i just i feel like i've told my instagram audience so if you're not on instagram please follow me there you see like every day updates and uh literally what's happening in real life and obviously on youtube i just share the highlights but anyway i did a two-week juice cleanse after my uh health situation and um yeah we did a lot of uh colon hydrotherapy uh juicing for 14 days which is insane i drank seven juices a day every two hours my whole life was around those juices and also unfortunately my best friend came in the time and i had to juice and so i still went out with her we still went on islands and even went for dinners with her where she was eating and i was literally salivating looking at her steaks dying inside um but drinking my juice believing that that's gonna help me to cut this story short uh the juices did help me in a sense that you know i didn't have a lot of bloatness i still am permanently bloated now i do get a lot a lot of messages from you guys you know on all social media platforms and you can imagine it's a lot of messages i do read them all i do go through them all as you check every advice that you give me because you know you never know what can pop up and the point is that i think i need to make it really clear again and let people know that I don't have a typical bloat it's not like I eat something and I bloat up for me I'm constantly bloated I have been constantly chronically bloated which I only realized just now that this is a term so I am chronically bloated for the last one year and four months now the more I look into this the more people I find that have the same issues so actually made me feel good that I'm not the only one because it does make you feel horrible it does make you feel like there's something really not right uh with your body and of course it's not a nice feeling uh because it does feel like a lonely journey especially because i am you know trying um really really hard to you know get everything ready and try all the things to help me and nothing's helping anyway after the juicing actually what's interesting as well that i didn't lose any weight on juicing which is bizarre because any normal person if they juiced for two weeks you would have lost a lot of weight right and so i still had so my point is that i'm constantly bloated um which is level i would say four four to five out of ten and then sometimes i get bloated on top of the bloat that i already have by some sort of food reaction or something that i'm eating and it you know blows me up and that's it gets to really bad bloat when i feel like i'm nine months pregnant and i have pain and i can't really move much and it hurts and i can't sleep and that's obviously the worst um out of all of these and the fact that i'm constantly bloated you know now at the level of five i'm so used to it because it's been five years but i logically understand that that's not a normal that is not a normal feeling you know you should have like that's not normal to be bloated and it's not normal to have you know uncomfortable feelings or pain so anyway so after the cleanse um i did blow it up twice during the cleanse like to a really bad point and then they figured out that they were being giving me something wrong you know they said it was supposed to be sugar-free but they added honey sometimes sometimes they didn't anyway like there were a lot of signs that this this doctor um there was some sort of miscommunication with the kitchen and so i think they were giving me juices they were actually making me feel worse which you know shouldn't be the case but majority of them were really disgusting uh really really gross and obviously i did a lot of visits to the clinic to do the colon hydrotherapy so you know after two weeks and i stayed literally so you know i did the whole diet like fully i didn't mess up once and um yeah and then they told me you know what your colon is clean absolutely got rid of all the toxins which is great news because you know that's what i was worried about and also that's what the other doctor told me is that my bloat is all these toxins that i need to get out of my body and obviously after two weeks of intense you know diet and cleaning i was completely clean right and she said that i was doing really well uh but the bloat never went away like i am still inflamed i am still inflamed and i still have pain in my right side which is my colon so they decided to put me then on a vegan diet to transfer me from the juicing which was you know i couldn't wait to eat honestly it was like i couldn't wait to eat and so i go on this vegan diet within the first day i felt so sick you know i'm not going to go into details but i did not feel good the second day i felt a little bit better but still pretty bad and on the third day i felt really bad again and i started bloating cramping gas everything started coming back if if not it was much worse than before so they decided to add eggs and meat and fish back into my diet because they you know they said okay maybe you know the 100% vegan diet is not the right diet for you right now but even then um you know i just kept constantly feeling bad so it's been one week uh today's my last day on this uh you know diet that they gave me but they constantly had a lot of issues there you know like i would come for an appointment they would forget that i have an appointment you know they'll just forget everything like you know and i started to feel like i don't trust them anymore you know and i think when you start to lose the trust with your doctors like that's kind of like really bad because you just don't believe them anymore and then so you know i'm telling her that i'm being inflated by the food that you're giving me so she kept changing my diet every single day so that i'm not inflated but it didn't help because i was still inflated and then at some point i said to her can you just send me the diet so i can just see like if you know like like what am i eating maybe i should go on the low FODMAP diet because that's the diet diet that a lot of you suggested. And she said the low FODMAP diet was too restrictive and you know, it's, um, you know, we shouldn't do it. But then obviously after I've been inflaming and feeling bad, um, she agreed to change me on the low FODMAP diet. And then I realized quickly that she has no idea what that is. I asked her to give me a plan. She didn't know how to do it. And then the worst part was that, you know, literally yesterday I sent her a photo of the food that i've been sent by you know by the same kitchen where they all work and she's like oh you can't have avocado and you can't have this and you can't have that and i was like why the hell are you sending me food that i cannot have and i'm paying a lot of money for this service you know i'm paying for the food that is supposed to be organic that is supposed to be you know cooked with no like oils additives like none of that inflammatory stuff to help my gut and basically clicked with me that they have been sending me wrong foods every single day and I have to be honest I don't even think the juices were right either because obviously I had inflammation and I had insane flare-ups so I'm just you know I started to feel very annoyed because I've spent a lot of money I've spent over a thousand pounds which is a lot which is like I don't know one thousand two three hundred dollars already on this whole like treatment and everything and you know to me that's a lot of money like that's all my money like that's more than my rent here that's that that's a lot of money you know for anyone even if you have money but in my case you know like i literally spend all my money now on this stuff on doctor visits treatments and food and i'm not even getting i'm not even getting the stuff that i'm supposed to be getting so obviously i'm really annoyed i'm still really pissed off i had a little cry because you know I feel frustrated I feel that I'm literally doing everything to to you know to heal to to help myself to feel better and now I just feel like I've just been doing it for nothing and I think all the vegetables are inflaming me right now so I decided I'm gonna go uh I'm gonna stop working with these doctors I asked for a refund because I'm supposed to do another week with them which i have paid up front but i just don't i don't want to anymore i just don't trust them you know how can you get wrong such an important thing you know like this this is not this is not a typical just diet like this this is literally you need to make sure that it's anti-inflammatory they were giving me tomatoes you know aubergine and then the more i was reading i was like hang on a second like i shouldn't be having this like this is inflammatory anyway i do feel very pissed off i feel i feel very annoyed i just feel that you know i've been struggling with this for the last year and four months and i've gone to so many doctors in latvia in london now in mexico and you know i kind of had a glimpse of hope here that for example you know i would be able to do something uh get some help but seems like it's really not happening right now so i'm just gonna take a break i think i'm gonna go on my next plan with no doctors i've just done a lot of research about it um a lot of people have talked about it they just healed their gut and inflammation and i'm just gonna go on a carnivore diet with intermittent fasting and i'm gonna try and heal myself myself so that's that's kind of what's happening right now i know it's a very extreme diet and you know some people might have a lot of um thoughts and ideas about it i don't really unless you've done it please don't comment because you know i don't need negativity i actually need a lot of positive affirmations right now because i mentally feel exhausted and i need energy to to believe in something and i need energy to believe that this carnivore diet will work for me because i have literally spent a whole weekend reading comments watching youtube videos watching and following people who have done it and there's there's been a lot of amazing reviews and feedback so i do feel that it will help me and i've made up my mind and i made my decision i'm gonna try it so yeah that's my update but sorry for the rant guys you know it's just so frustrating um so frustrating to be in this situation anyway i love you i'm gonna edit the other videos and i will post them soon bye