Mindfulness with Leia - 06 Desire

The Desire to be a good meditator. Today we will look at one of the most refined forms of sensual desire. The wish to be someone in a practice. It shows up as

I hope I am doing this right. Where you look at validation outside yourself.
I should be better at this by now. This isn’t about a mood or pleasure this is about your self image.

This kind of wanting can be hidden behind self-discipline. But what is behind this subtle tension?

Searching for external validation you ask yourself would my teacher be proud of this practice? Do I seem calm and wise to others?

When these questions are active you are managing an identity rather than being present.

A mindfulness practice invites you to let go of performance and return to the truth of direct experience. Not who you are but what is here.

Today is a simple Qigong movement —can it be enough?

Mindful Contemplation

Can you drop the image of someone who meditates well and just feel?
let the breath move and let the body settle. Let the movement be enough.

Resting in the ordinary moment Desire pulls us into fantasies. This moment—just as it is—is already whole.
See you in the next video,
Leia

Filmed around the temples in the Wudang Mountains of China