6 WEEK WEIGHT LOSS PROGRESS! 😱 😱 😱

Okay, there we go. Time to measure. It's been four weeks exactly since I started my fitness journey. A lot of you have been encouraging me on the way, so thank you for that. We're going to do the measurements, we're going to do the weight, and we're going to do the photos. I'm wearing exactly the same clothes I wore on the first day when I went training. So yeah, wish me luck. i'm not sure how much i lost it's kind of important to me i know it's all the measurements blah blah blah but you know it's like i still want to know how much weight i lost it's like important to me so i will let you know after the session do update of week four in the pool those bicep videos so it's been really interesting week um in terms of my physical strength i started to feel a lot weaker i couldn't do my daily walks as much as i did in the first three and a half weeks so i skipped a couple of days because my body was just exhausted and also with food it's been really challenging i had a couple of days where i overate my calories um and then i was obviously still really excited to see my results after like four weeks of training and eating super healthy and the results are really disappointing i only lost two kilos two kilos is not a lot given the amount of exercise that i've been doing i've literally been walking every day for an hour plus training four times a week for one and a half hours and eating a super clean basically like super clean diet like i haven't even eaten it once i haven't had a cheat day i haven't had anything like usually i would have like you know a chocolate or a bar or whatever and um i haven't had anything like literally no refined sugar nothing no bread um so i was i was really disappointed but then at the same time you know i realized also that i build a lot of muscle we talked with my trainer you know uh we took pictures before now so which i'll share um and you can see a visible difference in terms of the photos that's why obviously it's so important to take photos to do the measurements in terms of measurements i have lost some inches or whatever you call it um you know everywhere but again not like dramatic effect like i was hoping for i don't know why i thought i lost like five kilos and also um i'm extremely bloated so i don't know what happened but in the last week i've started to have a lot of flare-ups for those of you who followed my bloating journey it's been a year going on journey and i actually you know fixed it for a while with like natural medicine doctor and everything's just come back in the last sort of three months but it was it wasn't bothering me as much but literally yesterday i had my biggest flare-up um i spent all day in bed i couldn't sleep all night it was so painful insane amount of uh bloating like literally i looked pregnant and today as well i tried to i had like a massage like a belly massage um tried to drink lots of water and tea but uh yeah the flare-up is still there and like it kind of calmed down in the morning but it's kind of coming back again so it is really really frustrating for me uh to constantly have and battle with this uh bloating issue it's almost like every time i'm trying to get healthy lose weight something comes up if it's my back my legs my belly um and you know i read somewhere about this that your body you know if you have extra weight and maybe you've already also tried losing weight maybe you tried going on some sort of special eating or diet um or you know healthy plan and then your body suddenly starts to like go and strike like you hurt your arm you hurt your leg whatever it is basically i read about it and it talks a lot about how psychologically deep down you actually don't want to get rid of that weight and so your body's trying to do everything for you to stop losing that weight i mean i just thought really interesting um i don't feel like i'm trying to stop myself but clearly um clearly my body is um and a lot of the times extra weight on your body it resembles some sort of trauma or emotions um you know something from your past that you know hurt you i suppose and um you pile that extra weight because it's safety it's like your body's way of being safe and of course you know know looking at my history I've had a lot of traumas and really difficult situations in my life so no wonder I pile you know weight on really easily and quickly and the other question is like why do I not want to get rid of it like I really do so I was really disappointed and a bit bummed down so I wasn't in a good mood and today is Sunday and next week is week five so I decided it to just keep going you know i usually stop i usually stop something or start eating again or stop exercising but i realized you know i'm really successful in my work and i never stop i never give up and things get hard and i cry for a day or two and then i get back up so i don't see why it should be different with this whole transformational journey for me it just feels harder somehow i don't know why even though it's difficult as well as building a business or whatever else you might be doing in your life so you know and i'm sharing this as my diary so i am 100% honest with you all and i get these comments a lot that you feel that i'm honest and you can relate to me because i'm just telling you how it is there's no magic pills there's no magic workout um there's no magic and it's upsetting and it's really hard and i'm definitely struggling every day about this um i have had thoughts about pizza i want to eat all the bad food in the world because i felt again it's like the cycle of my thoughts you know i haven't had the result i wanted so instead of being more motivated to go and get the result i actually want to self-sabotage myself i want to go out and get more food because i know it's going to make me happy for a while because I'm sad and then if I did actually do that it would make me even more sad and then I would totally give up so if any of you are on similar journeys in terms of you know maybe you're losing weight as well maybe you're trying to get back into fitness whatever it is it doesn't matter what it is it just gets hard all the time and at some point your brain is trying to fight you and convince you that you should give up or you should do this or that so yeah um so i just wanted to hopefully inspire you all that i'm finding it difficult but i've had a swim i've just swam for an hour and i'm gonna go for a walk and i'm gonna get up early tomorrow and start again you know and i'm not starting from scratch i already have been training for four weeks so nothing's changed i'm just gonna keep going and you know we'll see what happens We'll be right back.