Mindfulness with Leia - 04 restlessness

What We Don’t Want to Feel. In today's video, we will explore one of the deeper roots of restlessness: unfelt emotion. This is a powerful hindrance for me personally.

Sometimes the mind races or the body fidgets, not because we’re full of energy, but because we’re avoiding something.

A sadness.
A fear.
A dull ache.
Something we’d rather not feel fully.

Restlessness can be a cover. A way to stay just busy enough that certain feelings never quite break the surface.

I have travelled all over the world all my life to avoid feeling emotions.

We scroll, we clean, we meditate, but we “do” it more than we feel it. All to keep that emotion at arm’s length.

Here’s the truth:
What we avoid doesn’t go away; it just waits. In a lifetime of world travel, I have never been able to outrun myself.

If you can stop running and turn around to face yourself, you don’t have to force anything open, you just need to stop long enough to see.

This doesn’t just happen once, though, (I wish) you have to do it again and again throughout your life. You have to constantly face yourself.

Ask yourself:
“What’s here that I haven’t wanted to feel?”
You won't always have the answer, but just being willing to ask will open you up to the answer.

Just remember that even restlessness belongs. Let it walk beside you.
I hope this was helpful, as it was for me.
Leia

These videos were filmed in the temples around Wudang China