MEET THE ALTERS | SALLY | DissociaDID | Dissociative Identity Disorder | REUPLOAD

hello everybody i am sally and this is my meet the altars video [Music] i'm sorry it's a little bit loud there is a neighbour doing some work in the garden unfortunately it can't be avoided possibly chloe will be able to take that noise out a little bit with some movie magic after this but we will have to see so yes my name is sally some of you may recognize me from the video that i did all about alters part three i believe it was all about animal alters uh that was me with amira co-conscious most of the way through so i guess this video is just to tell you a little bit about myself i'm technically a protector i guess really i'm more of a caretaker um like an emotional protector i i help chloe especially i'm mainly one of the ones who deals with the outside world i front relatively regularly and we have other alters who deal with looking after people on the inside whereas i look after chloe for example on the outside for example sometimes chloe can get herself into a little bit of a state and previously in the past when there have been breakdowns or very severe depressive states if it's of crying self-harm pulling out her hair i have been able to take that pain away for her and front if necessary or just repeat soothing things um she she used to call me baby before i told her that my name was sally before she even really knew that i was a person um it's interesting looking and talking to a camera lens but knowing that there are people behind it essentially um i kind of like to imagine it like i'm looking through a laptop screen or something um to whoever's watching on the other side so forgive me if i'm a little bit awkward this is still new to me chloe used to know me as baby because i used to repeat that to her um even last night it was just generally things if i'm not able to front would be like you're doing so well and it's okay baby it's okay baby you've got this baby you're doing really well sweetheart don't worry you're okay you've got this keep going baby don't give up baby you've got this things like that um the kind of things that i guess if you're in a state like that you need to hear but not in a condescending way because she knows that i'm 100 honest about it and i don't lie if i have to i'll leave out information but i would never lie um i guess i'm similar to jade in that regard and i know that jade has already done her meet the altars video and i guess this will be the second one so yes what else is there to know about me i have blonde hair curly wavy curly wavy blonde hair which comes down to round clearish so just kind of upper boob area is the length of my hair i have freckles i have pale skin um yellow undertone pale skin so not very pink undertone like our body skin tone is but yellowy pale um i have green eyes lots of freckles many many freckles i'm a lot taller than this body i'm around five foot seven i think i am slender a little bit more slender than this body is um i have a longer neck for this body a smaller nose um probably a similar mouth to be honest my favorite color is yellow a lot of people in our system and outside of our system seem to relate me with sunshine i've heard a lot not just on this channel but generally of me being the human embodiment of sunshine which is very sweet but i don't i don't think that's quite accurate but it's nice to hear all the same i'm quite a homely person i like to think i'm quite a calm person a warm person i look after the littles a lot i really enjoy gardening in the inner world i don't think we've ever done gardening really in the outside world so goodness knows how good i'd be at it in this body but i have the knowledge for it um at least in terms of how it works in the inner world and i have a garden in the inner world my favorite flowers are baby's breath and i like to grow lavender because that's chloe's favorite and also one of my favorites i'm also very fond of buttercups and i know that weeds and dandelions and things like that aren't really what people generally choose to be a favorite flower but i am quite keen on buttercups i i like oh it's hard when someone tells you to you know tell the group about yourself and you're always like i like to sit in my rocking chair i read and i journal a lot i write poetry in the internal world i don't in the external world that's generally chloe who writes poetry in the external world um usually in terms of heartbreak or depression um or abuse is what she writes about i don't think she's ever shared any of her poems but i quite like them i think that they're different and unique and intense i often sit in what's known as my living room but really it's the living room in my rocking chair and i will journal by the fireplace and there will usually be some of the littles at my feet wrapped in a little blanket and i'll tell them stories before they go to bed i don't usually leave the inner world house so i don't communicate with jade very often or i'm on i'm on a first name basis with gregory but um i know him better than i know jade but as i said i didn't really leave the house that often most of my interactions are in mansion a lot of people tend to ask what do you like to do when fronting i really really enjoy reading i like to practice calligraphy not that i'm any good at it but i do like to try my best i find it calming i like to play with ink i really enjoy watching videos of wax seals you know when people mix different color wax and they use a wax stamp and seal like a letter with these multi-colored waxed seals i find that so satisfying to watch i like appreciating nature i guess i'm similar to nadia in that sense of that i could just sit and look out this window for hours and just look at the birds and the sun the sky and the color just think about what it means to be human i don't necessarily think i'm a deep thinker not in the same way chloe and nadia are or even jade is but i think that i have some immediate sense of i don't know mythical wisdom i'm told that things i say are quite wise but i never really have to think about it too deeply i just say what comes from my heart and to a lot of people that seems to mean a lot so that's something that i know will never change about myself my favorite season is spring closely tied with summer i don't generally do makeup when i do makeup it's usually very minimal um chloe did this makeup today which i actually really like i think it's it's very autumnal um very sweet and i i like the the more sweet look rather than the um edgy look that um jade and chloe and nadia seem to prefer but we all share this body now so as long as we're trying to keep it as healthy as possible then that's what matters to me i will often make sure that we have eaten enough drunk enough i'm not as good as i should be with taking medicine but i do try and remind the body as often as i can that we do need to take our medicine i know that i have been around probably from the age of around 15 possibly before that i wasn't really paying attention to be honest i'm not sure if it even matters i'm here now and i've been here for a long time it feels like a long time seven years long time oh i'm an age slider i move between the ages of 24 and 27. currently i'm 27. um and this is who i am i'm here to keep us safe to keep us calm to keep us gentle and to make sure that we don't assimilate the trauma and the horror that we've experienced in the world into a bitterness because i know none of us would want that not really it's the other protectors job to keep us solid to keep us protected but it's my job to keep us soft and gentle as long as that's at the right time you can't be soft and gentle all the time it's not safe but when needs be i'm here to make sure that we keep that aspect of who we are because we're all gentle really even ruby even ruby i mean she essentially raised jade she's sweet she wouldn't like me saying that at all but i'm so proud of how far everybody's come i really am and i don't think that our system would have made as much progress with communication and collaboration as we have if it wasn't for the support that we've received through dissociated just dissociated it's a play on words isn't it dissociated dissociated dissociated dissociated so she did so thank you for that and your support and your interest and your humility really does help us more than you know so yes that's me and if you have any questions for me please do leave them in the comments i will be looking at these comments on my first video i suppose and thank you so much for listening to what i have to say and thank you for your support and your love and i guess i need to do the outro that we do with the little kiss so all my love to everybody watching and goodbye [Music] so [Music]