BECAUSE THE TRAUMA DID NOT MAKE YOU STRONGER ‼️

Hey Ashley Renee, what's up? My beautiful empath sister in the house. Shout out to you, member. Thanks for being here. Discern Target 6891. Shout out to you beautiful people. How are you doing? So good to see you ladies in the house. Ashley Renee, you got a new picture up, I see. Okay, gorgeous. Elisa Williams, how are you? Good evening. Vernon Phibbs, peace and blessings. Brother Hype Man! Hey, hey, hey! What's up? How y'all doing? It's Monday! New week, right? So good to see you guys. Good evening, good morning, good afternoon somewhere. Let me just get myself ready here so we can have this wonderful conversation today. Warrior on deck, viewers watching in the house, what's up? What's up, soldier? What's up, soldier? Mary White hello hello Queen Leandria what up family good to see you in the house how you doing fam blessings on top of blessings Anita Jenkins hello beautiful lady how are you tonight so blessed to see you on the live Queen Misty Green what's up what's up Houston Texas Amarachi good to see you Adrian hello queen i'm good how are you doing how are you doing so blessed to be here y'all come on in this Monday night this Monday night thrivers let's take a moment let's take a moment and join hands spiritually you know just come together let's just come together and have our our thrivers moment thank you for checking in y'all come on in come on in y'all y'all hear me jamming to that that jazz y'all know y'all know how i love the jazz and the music for sure for sure another week step on the devil's neck you got that right you got that right man absolutely absolutely right you guys just bear with me while I get myself set up here because today's conversation is oh man y'all bear with me while I get through this one because this one means a lot to me and it's going to mean a lot to you too many of you are going to resonate with today's message because the truth of the matter is the trauma that you have gone through has nothing to do with the strength that you now have. We're going to stop minimizing the pain of people who are true survivors of NPD abuse. Because the strength that we have now, there's so many losses that came with that strength. A lot of times we hear how what we went through made us stronger. And I want to talk about that perspective a little bit because that's not quite true. That's not quite true. The trauma did not make you stronger. The trauma does not make you stronger. Welcome to the channel, guys. Shout out to those of you who are just joining. Shout out to those of you who've always been here, you know, my day one-ers. So happy to see you in the house. Shout out to my members. Members, if this is your first time, I'm so happy you're here. I'm so happy you're here. I'm so glad that you are on your healing journey and you're a part of this community. If you have not joined the channel, you know, feel free to dive in and join this beautiful thriving community of true survivors of MPD. This is your girl, Mommy So True. And you're catching me on a Monday night live. I'm so happy you're here. If it's your first time, welcome. Welcome, welcome, welcome. You're more than welcome here. I see Carol CA said, unbreakable. Oh my God. We're going to talk about it, y'all. We are going to talk about it. Lorraine Bublet. Okay. Good to see you. Good to see you. Greetings, Adrian Williams. Mary White says, my first time. Glad to be here. Everything you say resonates with what I'm dealing with. That's awesome. That's awesome. Thank you. Someone said, I like your mirror. Thank you. I appreciate that. I think I'm a day one-er of Mommy So True Ministry. Yes, you are. brother hype man, nerve for the word you've been, you're one of my, you are one of the day one-ers seriously been on here since video number one, live number one, never missed a beat you are so appreciated, you are so appreciated Adam Rutherford, good to see you here Alisa, how are you Alicia, we are good to see you today we are happy to see you today, it's good to see you today gosh I'm getting twisted up on my words because I'm sitting here, I'm, I'm really ready to let this off my chest in today's moment. Today, I am here to speak strictly to a true survivor of NPD, a true survivor of NPD, because you guys hear me say it all the time. Everybody that's in this community is not a survivor. Everybody has not been through what you've been through. some people have not walked in your shoes and talking about NPD we're referring to narcissistic personality disorder if you're on this live and you've dealt with toxic relationships you've been in some type of toxic manipulation maybe you grew up with toxic people my perspective is there's something narcissistic about your upbringing and there's a lot of damage that comes with that. There's a whole lot of damage that comes with that. If you just bear with me a few moments this evening, I want to talk to you from survivor to survivor, because like I said, let's stop minimizing the pain of what a true survivor goes through. Because instead of telling someone who survived NPD how strong they are, I think it's more effective to ask them, what did it cost you? What did it cost you to go through what you went through? People downplay what victims actually are coming out of on this healing journey. People don't really understand the in-depth of what healing looks like, what it consists of, and how much it takes. And even furthermore, people don't realize that your strength comes from choosing to heal. You have to choose healing because the abuse is so damaging that it can kind of hurt to want to heal it can kind of it can kind of feel impossible to heal some of us this pain have been so deep so gruesome so evil that it's not as simple as many people think it is and and and it's not as easy to just suck it up and move on it's not as simple to just put your life back together and thrive sometimes it's way easier said than done because healing is a choice and making that choice in itself takes a lot of strength to make if you've really been dragged through the mud by narcissists in your life and you are now thriving you must understand how powerful you are to still be standing and choosing to thrive because you chose it. You chose it. You have to. You have to choose it and you don't choose to heal because it sounds brave and it sounds good. No, no, no, no, no, no. You're choosing to heal because the pain has been ruling your life. The pain becomes unbearable and you want relief. You want peace. You want to be set free. That's why you choose to heal and choosing to heal. It shows you how much people around you are not on the same path as you are because just because you're healing don't mean they are. And so another thing a survivor has to be prepared for is being isolated and walking alone on this journey. This is a very lonely journey. It costs you a lot to be the thriver that you are. It costs a lot to be the survivor that you are. Let's talk about it. Let's remind yourself what a champion you are for standing tall through this. Those of you who I'm speaking to, you know, you sacrifice your health. You sacrifice your your mental. Your sanity was at stake here. You lost a lot internally, externally, financially. You lost a lot. You took a lot of L's, some repairable, some not. Some L's are permanent. You have to learn how to live with that. It's not the trauma that made you strong. It's the fact that you choose to learn how to live with it. It's the fact that you choose to say, you know what? I can't do nothing about that. I can't change what I can't control. But what I can control is to make sure that I establish a happier life for myself. What I can do is make sure that I don't allow myself to fall back into the pit of hell. Choosing to heal means choosing to adapt to being a different type of empath. I'm awoken now. I'm empowered now. I am unbothered now. These are choices we make. The pain doesn't, doesn't just make you this strong person. This ---- is painful. It hurts. It takes a lot to recover from it. Just think of the mental agony alone. The fact that you have to sit there, many of you alone in your homes going through this mental rollercoaster of, am I crazy? Are they crazy? What have I been doing with my life? I have wasted my time. I have wasted my life. I can't get this back. I can't get that back. I am sending love your way because your story does matter. I am sending love and compassion your way because what you went through does matter. Your feelings do matter. It matters a whole lot. It matters a whole lot. And instead of being someone to judge how somebody is being too much on their healing process be grateful that you haven't experienced this too much that that that someone is healing from when you're where you're on the other end of things and you can point fingers and you can judge and you got something to say and this person is doing this and they're doing that you should be you hey the next time somebody judges you for how you're healing how slow you're healing how much you're stuck according to them they feel like you're not moving fast enough tell them they should be grateful that they don't have to go through the healing that you're going through they you should be grateful that you don't have to sit somewhere and try to explain how much you've been treated like trash they should be grateful they should mind their own business and be grateful that they're not walking in your shoes because if it were them they would probably commit suicide the same suicidal thoughts that's come across your mind survivor going through this evilness you hear about people shooting themselves all the time it could have been you it should have been you let's be all the way real here because this is the type of abuse that does that they have you walking around in public with a fake ass smile inside you feel just so dead just so unseen just just you just don't you just you're just existing really many of you you've learned how to put on a show going through this you know you learn how to just stick with your daily routine wake up go to work put on put on a fake smile a fake whatever just to make it through the day make it you know make it around co-workers don't want no one to see that you're going through it don't want no one to feel that you're weak when you feel weak as hell inside because you dealt with somebody who literally sucked life out of you most of you covertly sucked life out of you meaning that you did you had no idea that you were being manipulated like that you had no idea this person was robbing you of everything you represent robbing you of everything you've ever worked hard for, robbing you of your own self-worth, they will have you feeling small and low all because truly they feel small and low. The losses that a survivor has to take is extreme. Most of it is unwilling. You don't, you don't willingly just allow them to abuse you and do that. They just do it. And then you have to sit somewhere and undo all of the mess. man shout out to those of you who make it look good healing you make it look so good you make it look so easy only God knows only God knows where your strength comes from on a daily basis because the truth about it is as a as a survivor as a thriver the healing journey is not linear and some days you will not feel your best but for many of you even on those days you make it look the best and it's like wow you are amazing you wearing that trauma like I almost want to cry because many of you that's been abused by narcissists you've been abused by them your whole life I almost want to cry because your strength just speaks volumes on the being that you are for you to not be narcy like the people who raised you oh my god because as a kid you had to comfort your parents when they needed comforting that wasn't your job you've always been parentifying everybody by force as a kid you took care of your siblings because no one else was that was your job and you took on everybody's baggage and then some and it became normal to take baggage that's why you ended up in narcissistic relationships baggage after baggage after baggage and before you knew it you became bag damn lady. All these damn bags hurting your back. Let's talk about the emotional damage of holding on to all these people's problems because that's what you've been doing. Your empathy has been used against you. So you've just been, you've just been volunteered as a doormat for everybody. Everybody's a soundboard Healing that, that taught you how to, how to become high boundaries so you can put a stop to all of that. It wasn't the trauma. It's the healing, the part that you chose to heal you're like you know what I know I'm an empath but I'm tired of being an abused empath I'm tired of being an overlooked empath because empath does not mean I'm just a fool so the pain will cause you to wake up and choose to stop being a fool normalizing trauma in order to survive that's many of us we've been doing that we've been doing it our whole life this this this survival mechanism that kicks in because we've all we've dwelled in these extreme toxic environments. Those of us who grew up in the hood, let's just put it out there. Those of us who grew up in black families, let's put it out there. Those of us who grew up in foreign households, let's put it out there. The toxicity in these houses are high. They're terrible. The trauma is bad. The abuse is extreme. And you're either going to come out an empath or you're going to come out a narcissist. Thank God for keeping you, for not allowing you to ever exchange anything with the devil on behalf of your pain. Many of you, these environments you grew up in, it was so bad. You really should have been in a straitjacket in a mental house somewhere right now. Thank God for keeping you. Thank God for being with you the whole time. That's the only reason why we are standing. Y'all know that, right? Chosen to be here. Chosen to be here. Many of us are seeing that now because choosing to heal is helping us wake up on a spiritual level you're seeing the importance of why you exist why you're here you're noticing why you you've been hating on hated on because that's just that's what it is your light these dark people are jealous of your light darkness needs light to thrive y'all darkness can't thrive with darkness it needs light and you have that light that's why it's after you that's why it's chasing you that's why it hasn't left you alone that's why you were born into it but it's also why you're standing and why you have all this strength because the light inside of you is is what helps you choose to be a thriver no matter what the pain has done what it's brought you to the losses that it's caused you will never be on the dark side you can't by design it's just not possible it's just not possible man that's why I encourage people to stay on that healing journey and trust God it gets better it will because God knows God has seen it God knows that's why light will always win I see that Carol can not in our DNA no it's not it's not in our DNA to be you know to be defeated we get the last laugh we will always be the last man standing always Ashley Renee oh thank you for super chat she said this ---- is deep for me to just laugh it off I gotta cry it out even though I feel weak when I cry and I also feel like his clown ass is winning when I cry oh man I love that but don't believe that don't believe that absolutely not one thing about our healing journey is we gotta face our emotions when it's time to cry cry when it's time to laugh laugh when it's time to be angry be angry don't ignore your feelings we can't heal if we don't embrace how we feel. Sis, don't give that man the power. Don't give that demon no power over your emotions. That demon ain't winning when you cry. Matter of fact, God is ready to make moves when you cry. Your tears activates God's heart and God is ready to change it on your behalf. many of you start to see that you start to you start to witness things that you never thought would happen that's God that's God stepping in and taking control letting you know I'm with you your tears remind God how wrong you've been dealt so sister cry those tears cry those tears they're more than necessary let God know how you feel don't hide the pain from the universe because the universe will will always be here to fight on your behalf what we do when we keep our feelings inside is we're killing ourselves and this is something narcissistic abuse teaches you to do as well silence you keep your pain inside cry inside cry to yourself why because you've been taught your feelings really don't matter you've been taught nobody's listening to you nobody cares but like Kathy Manley put right there crying is healing it absolutely is and when we don't cry when we don't let those emotions out we're hurting ourselves inside now we start having pains everywhere we start having issues we start having anxiety and depression that those are things that come as an attack of the enemy when we are not able to let our emotions out i'm telling you healing is a beautiful place to be but it's definitely some place where you want to you have to choose to be you have to want to be there because it's going to come with a lot that you have to face it's gonna it's gonna it's gonna come with a lot of breaking you on the inside pointing out things you don't want to face and look at making you tap back into memories that you need to go back and process because you've never properly cried about it it's the healing that makes us strong it's not the trauma it's not the trauma once you realized love did not live in these places where they should have been you know parental family marriage relationship once you realize love did not live there you learned how to fear for your safety you never got honest answers and this is why you got or you have gotten to a place where choosing to heal has become your priority that's why you're on these lives that's why you're watching all these content videos trying to heal your life many of you the urgency to heal became so potent so strong that God literally sent certain videos your way you touch that app all of it's like it's just like the universe knew what you needed to hear that day in that time once you started to choose to heal a lot of resources started to come your way different connections started to become available because when you're when you're dealing with the trauma part of it when you're stuck on the trauma part of it you're not you're not trying to heal you're not focused on healing you're more so focused on trying to figure out why somebody played you you know can they change people who are still asking those kind of questions to me they're stuck in the trauma you're not healing you're worried about the wrong thing that's why i say that you know you're healing when you stop asking questions about the narcissist and you start asking questions about yourself. How did I get into this? How do I get out of this? What do I need to learn from this? That's a healer. That's a thriver. That's somebody who has obtained strength because they're choosing to heal. Somebody who cannot disconnect from the trauma is still looking for the whys, the ifs, the ands, the maybes. Still trying to find somebody to help them pray with the narcissist so the narcissist can change. No, no, no, no, no. You won't heal with that kind of mindset. You can't, and you won't be strong. You will forever be weak thinking like that and being stuck on that because truly what you went through has nothing to do with them. You went through this matrix so you can learn what it is for your life. Many of you, this is a generational curse that you are designed to break for your life so you went through it so you can discover something impactful for your life what what is it what is it that i am here for to to do what is the purpose that i have somebody said you can't pray for satan viewers watching no no people are literally killing themselves trying to pray for their narcissistic spouses and family members and you are wasting your breath you are wasting your breath because just like viewers watching said these are satanic people and if you if you are choosing to unsee that you're stuck you're stuck healing is a choice you must want to heal you must want to be there it's definitely lonely though yeah but it's it's designed to be that way you're not going to properly heal if there's distractions and if you're still worried about other people because the thing is you're an empath and by nature many of you are permanently, you know, this people pleasing person. You can't seem to shake. And you'll go through this many times until you learn how to stop being like that. There's no other way God will teach you besides making you isolated and putting you in a place of isolation, forcing you to face yourself because the healed version of yourself is the one you need the most. But you cannot focus on that healed version of yourself if you are still people pleasing and worried about everybody else and and still trying to you know keep people in your circle who don't belong there still trying to hang on to narcissistic people who don't belong there the more you choose healing the more you realize yeah it's lonely but it's necessary because there's a lot of things you need to pay attention to and work on for you because it's about you it's definitely about you if you know you know because the thing about going through narcissistic abuse man once you choose healing, one of the things you will lose is empathy. I'm going to tell you that right now. You're not losing empathy because you're becoming a narcissist. You're losing empathy because you learn that your empathy doesn't need to go everywhere. It should not be universal. You should not be giving empathy to intentionally cruel people. The healing saves you. Because the thing about empathy is that childhood abuse, that abusive environment you were in, it made you overly empathetic it made you too empathetic for your own good so healing and isolation is necessary because you need to face those things about yourself it's our empathy that keeps getting us pulled into these matrix when you choose to heal you learn the power of losing all of that unnecessary empathy you ain't got to be out here just oh I'm an empath so you know I'm down for whatever. No, you're not. Because losing empathy means you're becoming wiser. You're learning how to value yourself. You're learning how to discern. I'm going to give my empathy where it's necessary. I'm going to protect my empathy because when I don't, abusers, users, and manipulators pull me into their narcissistic cobweb. So I am going to learn how to manage that empathy by choosing to heal and working on myself, getting to my internal issues wounds addressing my problems so I can better manage that empath that I am so now I'm not just a broken empath or a weak empath I'm empowered I'm awoken I'm an awoken dangerous dangerous the trauma don't do it it's not it's not because of the trauma that you get strong man nope don't ever give them that much credit don't give these demons that much credit for doing you wrong give yourself credit for having the strength to carry on for having the heart to seek God when you were going through all of this wickedness and all this darkness man have compassion if you if you're if you're struggling have compassion for yourself have a lot of compassion for yourself because you are on a healing journey that is very very deep and very very difficult very very difficult depending on what you're going through, how long you've been going through it, and so many other factors. It's just very deep and very difficult, but it's possible to heal. You just got to want to. The trauma caused you to lose yourself. Healing, making the choice to heal is what helps you get yourself back. The only way you're going to get yourself back is choosing to heal. It's done to me, but this is where I'm going This is the only place I have interest in going. Am I frozen? I feel like I froze up. Guys, let me know. I'm sorry. I don't know what's going on. Are you guys with me? You guys can hear me, but you can't see me, huh? That's crazy. Y'all see how the devil likes to play? On my end, the screen is frozen. I don't know what's going on, but it's okay because we're ending the live and I'm going to let you guys go here shortly. the good thing is I got my message out and that's all I needed you know there's so many losses losing friends having to grieve all of this stuff having to replenish your life it's real and today I just wanted to sit here and bring some some some validation to those that are struggling on this healing journey those that are new on the healing journey I just want to motivate you to keep going i just want to motivate you to never give up like you know this moment right here where the devil has blocked out the screen the devil is trying to disconnect the message you gotta keep going but i'm gonna let you guys go for whatever technical issues this is it is it's okay i'll be back you will see me soon if you haven't subscribed subscribe hit the notification bell don't miss those videos and lives because i will be back the devil does not stop anything they will never win they'll just be mad for the rest of their life i told y'all they're gonna die mad they're gonna die mad the more we're healing the more pissed off satan is i hope you guys know that the more we're thriving the higher we're going the more pissed off satan is but those of you who need to reach me please text me WhatsApp me or email me look for information in the description box i'm let you guys go thank you guys for being here so much love and so much light until next time bless people take care guys