I Escaped for 2 Nights... I Just Needed to Get Away | Solo Female Vanlife

I'm heading out in the van for the night. I don't know where I'm going. It's a gloriously hot, beautiful day. This summer has been so wonderful. You're never I'm not going to complain about these heatwaves. I absolutely love it. The hotter, the better. Bring it on. Although, to be fair, I might be complaining later when I'm trying to sleep. in a hot van. But while the sun's out, I won't be complaining. I'm going to... There's a McLaren there. What was I saying? I got distracted by that car. Yeah, I don't know where I'm going, but I think I'm going to head to some water because I'm just so, so not good right now. I'm just really, really not good. Being around water gives me a kind of peace that I really desperately need. I think I'm I'm going to head to a river or something. Going to the lakes would be just wonderful becauseominated It's a larger body of water. There's something about the Lake District. I just absolutely love it. The Lake District. Honestly, it's just a bit too far for me to travel for just one night. It's probably about two and a half hours. Yeah, so we're roughly two and a half hours away. So it's just a bit too far for one night for me. So, a river—it will have to do for now. To be honest, I'm not very hopeful about this trip. I've already mentioned before how I'm feeling. Really stressed and overwhelmed with Boston House, just life in general. Things have just been really hard for me lately, just really difficult. And now, to add on to that, for the past over For two years, I had been hoping that the situation would turn out a certain way, and it has. made perfectly clear to me. It had already been made clear to me, but they have now been made perfectly clear to me yesterday that that is not the case. And now, editing Sarah here, and I said a little a bit too much in this that I don't want to share on the internet, so I've cut it out. Sorry about that. That. I'm not going to cry. I am. We all know I am. It's honestly just gut-wrenching for me. And I just don't know how to deal with this on top of everything else. Like, I was just about Holding it together before, and now to add this to it, I just... I don't know. I don't know, like... The next period of time is going to be really difficult. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to Get through it. I guess that's all we can do. We all go through tough times, and we just push through. It. I just feel kind of numb right now, and like, everything. Yeah, I'll shut up now. But I'm just going through some stuff, and it's hard. I won't go on about it anymore. of this video, though. This is my spot. I'm just behind those two vans there. Oh, there's a nice Little River Walk here. Oh, I love picking whatever these are—raspberries. They're not ripe. yet. I'm going to mark this place on my map as one to return to, I reckon. Oh, it's Lovely. It's not quite as peaceful as I would have liked, but it's still nice. You know, the The car park and the van are just there. That was a lovely little walk. I've been gone for, like, Half an hour. I just locked the doors. To be honest, I'm absolutely shattered. With everything going on, I haven't been sleeping well at all, and I might just see if I can have something like, I don't know, half past five, six o'clock, something like that, but I might just See if I can have a little nap. It's been about 30 seconds. I don't know what I'm thinking. It's like trying to sleep in a sauna. I'm tripping. I'm going to stop trying. Okay, no, It's not working. No, not working at all. Ridiculous idea. Right, as soon as that sleep It's not happening; it's going to crack up in the evening. I'm going to try to see if I can focus. And do some work. I've brought along some lemonade and pizza to make my evening pleasant. If you ever want to be nice to me, cheer me up, or anything, bring me pizza and lemonade. or vodka, and I'll love you forever. Busy as usual, this little place. Quite a few bands have come through. I'm going to take a quick look outside in a moment. It's packed in here. I'm glad I made it. When I did. I think this lady wants a spot. Look at everyone having fun in the river. Honestly, it looks kind of gross. Should we head down? Head down here? No, I'll follow my heart. I reckon, yeah, I'll fall if I try to get down there. Maybe in the morning, I might head over. That bridge. It's obviously easier to get over on that side. Maybe I'll take a little stroll. We'll See, I was justiser in the van. I was getting a little bit miserable. I figured I'd come out. One of the things I love so much about being in the van is just opening the door and stepping out. My door isn't closed. It was too hot. Just walk out. I might have a really heavy heart right now. Now, but this is nice. I think just being out here means that I can, I don't mean focus. about that one heartache thing, but when I'm at home, it's all of them. As I said before, They all just seem too much all at once. So here, doing what I love, being in the van, There's just one thing that's weighing on my mind. I kind of forget about everything else. When I come out in the van, so I know it's waiting for me tomorrow, and I've got to go home. and everything, all of that is waiting for me. And it feels a bit like just running away from It all, I suppose, but it's needed right now. It really is. A quarter at a time in this little air fryer I have. It's okay. Plenty of power with all this sun. Closed up for the night. I'm I'm going to get sad now. I know I am. Time to go to bed. And it still matters all the time to feel sad. I was just talking to a lovely guy who's parked next to me. Just about van life and all that stuff. I love the van life community so much. Someone else has just showed up at the door. He's been coming here for several years. I said it's really, It's become really popular recently with lots of fans. It's too warm. I told you I wasn't even playing. until it was bedtime and it was far too warm. I'm not joking. Wow. I guess I'll just have to sleep naked tonight. So good night. Good morning. I had a lovely sleep. The cleaner isn't peaceful. It might have been noisy or something, but it wasn't. Yeah, look at this place. Popular spot. I'm trying to get down to the river. I have no idea. How to get there, but I'm going to try. I've got my towel. I might go in. Down here, maybe. Maybe this little bridge. Oh, I think this is it. That was easy. Knuckles. I made it. There's a bit of scrambling at the bottom, but I made it. Leftover fragments from students Last night. A little party they had down here. Is it nice? Shall we have a dip? Maybe a little Quick dip. Let's see how cold it is. Oh, it's not actually too bad. Oh yeah, I'm going in. It's lovely down here. So peaceful. Even though they like that bridge, it's like a really main one. Road. It's lovely. I think I'll sit here and dry off in the sun for a bit. Okay, I'm so glad I came away last night because yesterday I was really, well, as you saw, and I'm still struggling. It hasn't gone away, but being out here has made me realize that I can't just sit around feeling sorry for myself because this is what I want to be doing. And I've got to get back to putting in that effort to do it and just suck it up. up. And as hard as everything is for me right now, I've just got to get through it. This is what I want to do it. I need to earn enough money so that I can be doing this. I've just been editing some. Videos. I'm starting to feel really anxious about going back. I have to leave soon. I don't like this. Feeling. This is a very busy road. Can you hear me? I'm walking to the shop. I need some supplies. I don't know whether, I don't know how far the shop is. I've just come up from the river. And I have to go left or right, turn right. I'm hoping there are some shops soon. There's a Gregg's there. Oh no, Gregg's Outlet. What the hell is a Gregg's Outlet? I don't want Gregg's. What the hell do I need to go in there for? What on earth is a Gregg's Outlet? Maybe I'll go in here. Got some odds and ends. I don't know why, but before, well, when we got Back from Silverstone the other week, I completely emptied my van. I didn't put everything back in. I usually have a few small tins and some other items in there, but they're not there. Also, Actually, I'm just thinking about it now. I feel like I've bought a tin, and I don't know whether I've taken my tin opener out of the van. Okay, hunt for the tin opener. Oh, first place I looked. Oh, I'm an idiot. I just found this. I know, I know, it's not soup, brother. I'm going to have This is because I probably need to eat it. I probably don't mind it cold, to be honest. I quite like cold. vegans and super foods. Yeah, I eat that cold. Oh, I absolutely love this place. People have got Their SUPs in the water. I'm definitely going to come back and bring my SUP next time. It's windy. It's so windy. You're getting black sand, aren't you? All over in here. This isn't going to work. My best unreal. It won't be my worst either, if I'm honest. It's actually going to be all right. I'm thinking that the black sand I just mentioned is just dry soil. What am I talking about? It's not. black sand, it's soil. It's actually getting a little bit chilly now, to be honest. I don't I want to close my doors. It's nice, but a little bit chilly. To be fair, it's 10 o'clock at night. Oh, come on, England. It's another beautiful, sunny day. Unfortunately for me, it's really Quiet today, actually. It's time to pack up and go home. It would be fantastic if I were packing. up and heading to... Oh, it can't... Oh, wait. That's why I can't close the door. It would be wonderful if I were packing up and going to a new location, But that's not my life right now. It will be soon, one day, but right now it's time to go. Back to reality. This has been a wonderful trip. In 100 yards, take a sharp left onto London Road. Walton Bridge. Sharp left onto London Road, Walton Bridge. I'm pretty depressed about going. Back, but let's just suck it up and do what we have to do.