Run Free Oakley the Husky RIP We Will Miss You

This is not a video that I thought I would be making as soon as we are. This is not a video that I ever wanted to have to make, but I knew I would. I will tell you now that I will cry in this video. And I'm sure you already know what's going on by the title. And I hate to tell you guys, but Oakley passed away on August 18th, around like one in the morning. I'm sorry, I don't want to make you guys cry. I don't like sharing sad things. Come here Memphis. Memphis is like, I am done watching you cry. You've been crying for two days. It's not an easy thing to talk about. It's not an easy thing to tell you guys. I mean, we've been doing this for a long time. And five years ago when Shiloh passed away, I think everybody knew and understood it was happening. And I think with Oakley, Jamie and I are still in shock. I don't think we were expecting this to happen as fast as it did. I don't think we... I mean, I literally... I have a vlog from her of, what was it? Thursday. I vlogged all day Thursday. So I have a vlog of her on Thursday and she was okay. I mean, she was having a day, but she was okay. And so what happened was... So I'm sure you guys are going to want to know what happened. I'll give you kind of a backstory for those of you that may not have been here for a while. Oakley had a soft tissue sarcoma on her back leg. She'd actually had two on that same leg and she had had one on the other leg. The one on the bad leg, we had it debulked a couple of months ago. You guys may have seen those videos when Oakley came out of her anesthesia. She had problems walking and things like that. So we knew she could never have surgery again. But at the same time we knew that the tumor would come back. And it had been over the past couple months. It had definitely been coming back and we had tried many different all-natural things. And she was on Canapet and she was taken to Merrick and we were doing all these things. None of it seemed to matter. The tumor was still coming back. She was 14 years old. And the tumor had been starting to give her a little bit of issue with walking and falling. So we did a lot of things around the house. We changed a lot of things. We put more rugs in. We put a soft landing for her at the landing. So that if she did fell, she wouldn't fall hard. Because she fell like two weeks ago down the steps. So like we made all these changes for her. I mean in the end she was 14 years old and no matter what we did she wasn't gonna get better. But anyway what happened was she fell again. But this time when she fell it was like something in her back just let go. And I don't think it was the fall that did it. I think it was the over time the degenerative issues that she had. But I don't know. Anyway she fell and Jamie was out in the garage and I was yelling for him. And he came in and we got her up. When I got her up by myself she went down immediately and that really scared me. And she was panting a lot so... Um anyway we got her up and she couldn't really use her back legs anymore. Like she could stand a little bit but she was putting all her weight forward. And you could tell that really hurt for her to try to stand on her back legs. I called the emergency vet. We took her outside. Jamie got her to walk a little bit but she was very... All of her weight forward. If she leaned back at all her back end just went out. So he was like walking around holding her so she could at least try to move. And we took her to the vet and Dr. Ryan who's amazing. If you live in Alpena, Schweitzer is a veterinary office. Everybody there is amazing. Dr. Ryan checked her over and we kind of knew. I think we knew when we left the house that we weren't gonna come home with her. But he checked her over and he confirmed what we thought it was. We're pretty sure that she damaged her sciatic nerve. Something in her back that was causing paralysis in her back legs. I don't know how much you guys know about dogs but there's a thing you can do to see how dog's backs are working and you can take their feet when they're standing and you can flip their feet over and if they can't flip it back over it means something from their brain that's sending signal down to their feet isn't working and the leg that she had the tumor on she could not flip her foot over. The other leg she tried but couldn't actually flip it over. So she did have quite a bit of paralysis in her back end and you guys she was so tired. She was she just kept looking at us like you could just tell she was in so much pain. You know we asked about options and they said well we can sedate her and you can take her home but you're gonna end up back here tomorrow and there's not really a whole lot we can do and so we had to let her go didn't we? We had to let her go. So she passed away at like 1 30 in the morning on August 18th 2018. We spent the whole weekend with friends. They brought their dogs over and I didn't post anything on the internet and it that in itself like broke us both. I'm like I want to tell everybody but I but I wanted to take the time to process before I just I don't know I just needed a couple days before I told you guys. I just feel like it's gonna be such a shock because we've the video I uploaded Friday she was fine. I filmed that on Thursday the vlog I have I filmed that on Thursday and she looked okay and I just feel like I don't know like it's gonna be really hard for everybody to understand but just know that it's really hard for us to understand too because we weren't ready and you're never gonna be ready and I'm sorry that you guys get to watch me cry but I wanted to make a video and let you guys know and I'll probably be doing a memorial video but I'm not doing that in this video. I'll probably just do that on Friday if I upload a video Friday and I know a lot of you guys are gonna say take your time don't worry about the videos don't worry about us but you guys also have to understand that we really do see you as like our extended family and we see you guys as our friends and we've come to know so many of you over the years and that made it really hard not to immediately let everybody know but I knew I had to take the time for us and I'm sorry that this is the news that I have to give today and I'm sorry that I was sorry we couldn't fix her I would have given anything and I know all this sounds crazy I don't know how many of them how much of this will actually make it in the video I really don't I don't even know what to say to you guys she's gone she's gone my big fluffy butt is gone my rescue dog I learned a lot about rescue from her and now she's not here but I do have to say and again I'll probably make a memorial video for her because I want to but I do have to say that Jamie and I talked about this a lot that Oakley taught us so much she really did we changed so much in our lives for her based you know moving changing the way the staircase is changing the landing making sure she had her kennel here the rugs we had down there were so many things what are you doing that we did for her and we're gonna miss her a lot and I know you guys are gonna miss her and and I understand if it's hard for you to watch the videos from now on because she's not in them and I know a lot of you guys are gonna say you know take a break and don't worry about us but making these videos is kind of even making this and talking to you guys what are you doing um as much as I'm crying and look like a fool it does make me feel better because I know you guys will leave comments and I'll be able to read what you say and those will help and I don't know it's a weird life but what are you doing what are you doing but yeah for those of you that are worried about how the other dogs are doing um they actually seem to be doing okay Memphis seems oblivious she doesn't seem to know what's going on she doesn't seem to understand why we're all sad she's seems fine Shelby on the other hand um Shelby was Oakley's protector for the past few weeks and helped make it outside and wouldn't come in if she was out there and Shelby definitely looked for her but I think when we came back after everything was over I think Shelby knew Shelby is definitely mourning she's she's having a much harder time with it than snuggle buggle over here who's just pet me love me okay which is great because we totally need this we need the dog that's like hey pay attention to me hey I'm still here you still love me um but yeah anyway I think I'm done rambling you may notice that this video is identical uploaded on gone to the snow dogs and snow dogs vlogs because there was no way I was going to do this twice I knew I could do it once I made Jamie leave I'm like I can't record this video while you're here go hang out with friends and when I'm done I will call you and we will go out to dinner or something I do have to say to any of our friends and family that knew before this uh video went up because I did message a lot of really close friends and family um to any of you that knew before this if you're watching this thank you thank you for coming over and hanging out with us and for the messages and for worrying about us and bringing us food it's appreciated more than you'll know and I know that life goes on and over time the pain will never go away but we will learn to deal with it in a different way because that is just what we do five years ago we lost Shiloh now we've lost Oakley and that's gonna happen when you have dogs you know it's life is a series of dogs you have dogs that come into your life and there's always a point in life when you can think back to what what you were doing and what dogs you had at that time and as long as we keep bringing them into our lives they're still gonna more than likely pass away before we do so we're gonna have to go through this many times and this that's the reality of owning pets sometimes it just sucks bad and it hurts and you just want to give anything to make them better and bring them back but we did everything we could for her she had a good life she really did especially compared to where she was and all the things she had been through I think I'm done talking I'm sure I'll make another video please feel free to comment Jamie and I will be reading them all we always do I know I don't comment back to you guys all the time but we read all of them and uh I'm sorry to everybody that was looking forward to meeting her at the Novi Pet Expo and the New York Pet Con but we're still going we'll be there and I will accept many hugs from you guys for this it'll be good to see you guys I really like those those opportunities to be able to meet you guys face to face it means a lot to us more than you'll more than I could ever explain thank you for listening and watching me cry um we loved Oakley so much even if she was a pain in the butt and she shed all over and she was loud my little announcement dog she had to announce when anybody was walking by we'll probably do something eventually where we talk about our favorite memories of her which will probably make us cry I'm sorry I never got to do a day in the life of Oakley routine video I we wanted to do one of each of the dogs and I just wanted to show you guys how much she slept all the time like it was her favorite thing Oakley's two favorite things were napping and eating that was her favorite thing oh I did want to say and I don't know how many of you are still watching this I should have put this sooner um the apples on the apple tree have just started coming in and the the morning of Friday so Friday morning we were out in the yard and I was walking around with her and I pulled the apple off the tree and I gave it to her and I didn't vlog Friday I was taking a day off so I didn't actually vlog on Friday um and uh anyway I gave her the apple and it was kind of bitter and kind of hard and when she bit into it it stuck in her tooth and I had she was like pawing at her face and I had to pull it out of her mouth and then I gave it to her again and she was able to bite it in half and she ate it even though it was bitter so those of you that have been around for a long time Oakley's favorite thing was those apples she used to bury them and find them frozen in the winter and so she got to have an apple she did get to have an apple and there are a lot of things I can say I wish I would have done but you can't if you can't you can't do that in situations like this there's always something more you wish you would have done but you just have to remember the good times keep moving forward stay positive and dream big I know I say it all the time even when I'm sad I try to live by that you'll get through this too we'll heal together I'm sorry we miss her a lot everything in the house reminds around us reminds us of her I think I said that wrong and we miss her and things won't ever be the same but we're still here we still got Miss Memphis and Shelby that's laying behind the camera bless you so we're still gonna have those moments but uh we love you guys thank you for listening I'm sorry that I had to be the bearer of bad news and yeah we love you thanks for watching stay positive dream big and we will we're not going anywhere we've been through this before we still love to share our lives with you guys the ups and the downs and this is just one of those really crappy downs but we'll still be here we might disappear for a few days but we'll still be here love you guys thanks for thanks for being a part of everything we do Shelby they're not gonna make anybody feel better she I miss you Oakley I hope your life with us was everything that you ever wanted even if you weren't a big fan of pets and you weren't a big fan of everything all the other dogs loved we tried to make your life the best we could and I hope we did a good job I think we did I think we did goodbye guys