Do You ‘Die Before You Die’ Only Once?

I was wondering about today's meditation, it's again about dying, but it's now about this dying before dying, and I'm wondering if this is something that just like happens once and then there's this experience that you keep for the rest of your life or if it's something that like has to happen more often or like the question is could this also like turn into a kind of practice I can watch my mind like already trying to to find like okay how can I do that yes it very occasionally this this dying before we die happens just once but for most of us it's a series of near-death experiences you go through the process of of dying but then you come back again you get a glimpse of your true nature that is we taste our being our being tastes itself as it essentially is that is divested of all the qualities that it borrows from the content of experience but that is the death of the separate self it's not really a death of the separate self there was no separate self there to die but let's for the sake of this conversation credit the separate self with an existence of its own and say that that separate self dies in this glimpse or taste recognition of our true nature but in almost all cases through force of habit the separate self reconfigures itself again but it's never quite the same it's been mortally wounded by this glimpse of our true nature and that one who has had this glimpse is haunted by it for the rest of their life and that and and as a result there is this it keeps nagging them they can't quite go back to their old life and even if they do there's something in the background that keeps knocking on the door and sooner or later we pay attention to that and we find a book or a friend or a youtube clip or something that gives us a pathway whereby we can retrace our steps back to our being and taste or know ourselves again recognize ourselves again again through force of habit the separate self reconfigures so that for some time there's this back and forth so it's not one death it's a series of near-death experiences where our being is temporarily divested of its limitations we have that recognition of the pure I am and then we go back so there's this back and forth but every time every time we return through our effort or practice or conscious intention every time we go back to our true nature we are weakening the power that objective experience has to take us away from ourself that pull of experience that to take us away from ourself it gets weaker and weaker every time we counteract it and go back to ourself and as it becomes weaker and weaker we notice that we don't just visit so to speak our true nature for brief moments we spend longer periods of time there less and less experiences have the capacity to take us away from ourself in other words we begin to be established in our true nature and it could be that there are always just one or two experiences that retain the capacity to take us away from ourself but that takes place less and less often and when it does take place it lasts for less and less time and so in that sense like the meditation we did this morning to me it almost felt like a near-death experience so everything vanished yes i i hope that this morning's meditation would precipitate a near-death experience in in all of us yes if not permanent death but a near-death experience would be would be sufficient yeah oh that's great