Gemischte Gefühle...

Hello everyone! Today I'm meeting you from a completely different location. You can already see it behind me, it's closer. I'm currently at a bachata dance festival. It's a dance weekend with a lot of workshops and dances from all over the place. And behind me is the sea. It's the first time in my life that I have a room with a sea view. But the thing up there, the ventilation, is very loud. So that's it with the sea view and we'd rather go in. I think that's a lot more pleasant. It took me a while to find my way into the vacation here. I had a really nice dive yesterday. So I got over the loneliness completely. I also took you with me on Instagram. We can take a look at the story together. I can't tell it again as authentically as yesterday. You know that I always take you with me into my world of feelings. And by now I'm at 99%. I'm really, really good. I have no more fears. I feel alive and everything is fine. But then there are evenings or days when I just feel incredibly lonely. And that's today. Although I'm going to go dancing soon. I mean, I'm at the beach in Barcelona. It's awesome. The day was great. I'm here with a couple who also spend time with me. And actually, I'm not really on my own. But still, I was alone on the beach in the dark. Complete loneliness. That's my new project. I definitely want to get that under control. If you have any tips, let me know. But what was really nice. I felt so lonely that I was crying all the time. And I wasn't in the mood anymore. And I still want to go dancing. I don't want to look like that now. I thought about what I should do. And then I went to the reception. And I asked the woman if she had time to talk to me. Because I feel lonely. Which you definitely saw. That it's not particularly good for me. And she was super nice. And talked to me for 10 minutes. She also said, if I wait another half hour, the night shift guy will come. And he would love to talk to me all night. So there would be someone there if I wanted to talk to him. So that distracted me a bit. And then I could breathe again. Now I'm getting ready. And then I hope I don't look like I do. And then I go dancing. And then it will be a great night. Anyway, I walked back from the party to the hotel. And started crying again. I had no idea what was going on. All the emotions just came up. I was completely overwhelmed. And so I didn't want to go into my hotel room alone. And just sat down in front of the hotel. To come down. But I had no chance. So I sat there crying. And then a man came out of the hotel. A hotel guest came out. And asked if everything was okay. At 3 o'clock at night. And then I told him that I feel super lonely. And then he said, come on, I'll sit in the lobby. To his wife. They are waiting for their bus transfer to the airport. And still have half an hour. And we can just spend some time there. They were from Holland. We talked in English. More or less. It was wild. But really nice. And the guy from the reception made me tea. And also brought me bread. So it was so unreal. What situations arise from something terrible. But something nice can also arise. And that really touched me. And surprised me. In which situation I find myself. And somehow it felt like a movie. But I enjoyed it. I calmed down. And then I thanked myself. And went to the hotel room. And it was much better there. And this morning everything was fine again. I was totally flat. And skipped all the workshops. But I just decided. That I make myself a nice time. No matter what. Whether it's the workshops. Which take place there. And which you normally visit. Or whether I just lie here. And sleep. Or swim around a bit in the pool. And enjoy the colors. And I just let myself go well. I was just dancing again. It was also really nice. There was a pool party. With a lot of different people. There are so many people. That you only dance one dance. And then you change partners. A lot of impressions. That you get there. I had a nice time. And I discovered dancing. You are welcome to write in the comments. What your hobby is. Because I don't think. I have such a dance-averse community here. But maybe you have sports. Or nature. Or something that fulfills you so much. That it helps you to switch off. Maybe we can collect something there. And there is an inspiration for one or the other. That would be very nice. Then I wish you a wonderful day. I send you a loving hug. From Spain. Have a wonderful time. See you in the next video. Take care. And thank you very much for being here.