lazy home vlog🧸 finishing true beauty, cutting my hair, lots of eating.

Hello and happy February, friends. We are officially one month away from hitting our quarantineversary. I don't know how I feel about that, but it is what it is. I saw a TikTok this morning that made me feel quite nostalgic of the good old days of quarantine, so I thought that I would make myself a dalgona coffee, but I forgot how much effort it takes to actually whisk these babies up. Even with an electric mixer, it still took me a while to get it nice and frothy, but the end result is just so satisfying. Also, I'm not sure if you guys can tell, you probably can't because I'm wearing black, but I finally cut my hair. I did it a few days ago, it was just getting way too long, so I will insert the clips of me attempting to cut my hair right here. Okay, so it's been almost a year since I last got my hair cut, and as you can see, it has gotten quite long. I believe it's almost or basically, it's basically at my belly button now. So today, I will be attempting to cut my hair. I am quite nervous, but I did watch a YouTube tutorial, so we'll see how this goes. So my hair is dry and straightened, so I can see what I'm working with. Just going to bring my hair to the front, and then I think you're supposed to tie it. Okay, so I think I'm going to start with cutting this much. Oh my god, my hair is so thick. Oh my god, this is not even. Oh my god, that is so uneven. Okay, that's still not even, but okay, this is what we're working with. Oh my god, it's so much shorter. So it doesn't look awful, but it also doesn't look good, and I think since my hair is so thick, I'm going to have to do it in sections. Okay, I moved to the bathroom because the sun went down, and I need a better lighting, but this is what it's looking like so far. It's not terrible. It's not good, but it's also not as bad as I was expecting. So I think next, I'm going to move on to my bangs. So yeah, this is the finished result. It's honestly not that much shorter. I feel like I probably could have gone shorter, but I just don't look good with short hair. I wish I did, but it feels a lot lighter, and I like how I have my bangs back, and what I'm most excited about is that I can finally use these claw clips because I've wanted to use them for so long, but my hair was just always way too long and heavy, but now I can finally use them. Also, I just want to say thank you so so much for everyone who left such kind comments and messages on my last video. It was definitely hard and scary opening up about certain things that I've been going through, but it was really fun just reading all your comments about your goals, and just knowing that I wasn't the only one who was going through stuff. I think it can be really hard and isolating seeing everyone live these quote-unquote perfect curated lives on social media, myself included. Like, I know that my life online may seem like picture perfect, but it's really not. I actually live quite a boring life. I just film it at different angles. Another thing that I want to work on for 2021 is detachment. I recently watched a Lavendaire video, which I feel like literally spoke to me, but it was just talking about detaching your self-worth from literally everything, especially like your job, career, but those are the same things, but like school, money, like all the stuff that you can't control because your self-worth, I think she said like your self-worth is not what you have, it's what you are. I think that's it. I really hope I didn't **** that up, but I talked about this in my last video. As someone who is currently doing YouTube social media as like their full-time job, I find myself putting way too much of my worth and validation into the numbers, and as a result, I feel this constant need to constantly pump out content, even if it's mediocre, just to stay relevant because if I don't, then I'll feel like a failure, which as I'm saying that out loud, just I know it sounds crazy and ridiculous, but I don't know, I guess it's just something that's been like engraved in me, like just the constant need to work to climb to success. So yeah, this year, I really want to focus on being more present and slowly but surely detaching my sense of worth from things that are out of my control and just doing more self-work, whether it's finding a new hobby, learning a new language, and just enjoying life, man. Start your computations. I think we're getting into a weird area here. Oh my god, this looks so good, and I'm currently watching The Promised Neverland because I heard a lot of good things about it, but was I the only one who thought that this was gonna be like a cute, feel-good kind of anime based off of the Netflix art? Yeah, I was very shocked the first episode, but it was really good, so I kept watching. Oh my god, I've been craving this for so long. I'm so happy. I'm about to watch the last episodes of True Beauty, and I'm not ready for this drama to end. I just, I've become so emotionally invested in the plot line and the characters. Okay, I finished episode 15. Now I'm going to start the last episode. So I finished True Beauty, and I feel very empty, but overall, I didn't hate the ending. I do think that Seojun deserved better than just his debut as his happy ending, but I mean, I do like Seojun and Joohyung together. I think they're cute. I love both Suho and Seojun, but I don't know. I was kind of getting annoyed at how she was treating Seojun. Like, he literally bought her flowers and basically saved her relationship, and she didn't even thank him. So like, in my head, I think that he deserves way better than her. Like, she can go be happy with Suho, and then hopefully one day, Seojun will find a girl who actually appreciates him. Um, I know that these are fictional characters, but like I said before, I just am very emotionally invested. Overall, I really liked the drama. I think it did finish strong, unlike Start Up. So yeah, this is my True Beauty review that literally no one asked for. It's like midnight now, because it literally took me like two hours to watch each episode, because I was just pausing and replaying so many times. Um, so I'm gonna go to bed, and I will see you guys tomorrow, or on another day. I'm gonna try this little boba biscuit. I don't like it. It's like a weird mix between sweet and salty with the biscuit, but not in a good way. Hahaha. I Please tell me I'm not the only one who felt like February it just a flu by I'm editing my footage right now And I'm realizing that it didn't really vlog much this month And it's basically because I didn't really do much this month other than it set up my new desk, which you know is something But yeah this month Franklin officially and moved in with us so that took some adjusting But I'm very happy to have him and be a full-time and dog mom now And other than that, I've just been binging a bunch of anime and I'm also back on tick-tock So that's been like a fun little new creative hobby It's obviously a lot less time-consuming and stressful than making YouTube videos And the best part about it is that even though they may look cute and aesthetic I don't really show my face too much of my tick-tock. So behind the camera. I'm actually looking quite crusty I've also been working on something very exciting that I'll be finally ready to share with you guys Very very soon, and I'm really excited and nervous about it. Um So yeah, that's basically been at my February Can I just say that tick-tock is very bad for my wallet? I have bought so much stuff this month just from being on that app way too much But I ordered some new stationery because I really want to get into journaling I've been wanting to get into like bullet journaling for I think years now But I just never really got around to it, but I got some stationery. So hopefully at this time I'll actually follow through I Ordered all this stuff off of jet pens. I got some glue Dot adhesive these adorable pink scissors, which are a lot bigger than I was expecting But it's fine and then for pens I got these because I saw them in a tick-tock and they're supposed to be like the best Non smudging or bleeding pens and as a lefty I really struggle with that. So I got the Pentel Energel pens and then also the pigma micron pens So yeah, I'm really excited to see how these work. And I also got a pair of pink tweezers for my new sticker obsession So Originally I was going to use this as my bedside table But it's a lot bigger than I was expecting Like it's basically the same height as my bed and it also comes out a lot more than I was expecting So yeah, I'm not completely in love with it. Also. I really don't know what I'm going to do with all this space Yeah, I don't really know what to do with this now that I've built it. Um, but I will figure it out, I guess But here I just have a little bubble candle this heart LED light for some mood lighting, I guess My glasses and then I've been really liking these melatonin gummies. My sleep schedule is Completely trashed right now. So I've been taking these to help me go to sleep at a slightly reasonable time