#3: Go "Home" Series: Magic of the Universe - Part 1

Welcome back to my channel. As I promised in episode 2, in this Go Home series, I'm going to make an episode about the luck, miracles and support that I have received during my trip in Vietnam. And that is the journey that I came back to find myself, to find the version that I lost for a long time. This podcast is very special to me because it's not only a place where I keep my journey, share my experiences to the outside world with you. But this podcast is also an episode for myself as well as to thank everyone who has always been by my side, supported me and always accompanied me no matter how difficult my decisions are. Everyone has always been by my side and listened to me. It's just a place for me to rely on, not judge and always accompany me. Those are the fate, those are the relationships, those are the supports that mean a lot to me in this journey and also in my next journeys. I know that at least some of you who are listening to this podcast will have the feeling that you are lonely and no one in this world understands you, no one supports you, no one listens to what you say, no one supports your decisions. And that's me. I'm in a very long journey and this will only change until I return to Vietnam. Because I was born in an environment where I can use a word that I think you all know which is black sheep. Because everything I do, everything I think is so different from all the young people, all the brothers and sisters in my family, in my family line. So I always see that something can be confusing, messy, or worse, I can't do anything. Although in my journey of studying, I have achieved success, but just because of my hobbies, my thoughts are too different, it makes it difficult for everyone to accept it. And that's why I grew up thinking that in this world, only I understand me, and no one will understand what I'm saying, no one will be able to share my thoughts, my thoughts, no one will support me in my decisions, and I will always be alone like that. However, everything will come to a point that I often call turning point, when my beliefs will change. And this happens in the journey that I return home. And I am very grateful for this turning point, because it has come and happened to me. I just see that I should use a word that is full of love and sweetness. I never expected and never thought in my previous life that there would be a time when I live in so much love, I will be heard like that, I will be sympathized like that, and I understand that when someone loves you, it is enough for them to be ready to be by your side, support you, agree with you, no matter what decision you make, no matter how crazy it is, no matter how difficult it is for the person next to you to listen to that decision. Before, I only saw it in the movies, but when I experienced it, I felt that my life was really lucky and it has changed a lot from my point of view. This journey of mine obviously cannot be successful, I temporarily call it successful, because for today I can sit here and share this podcast with you is an unimaginable thing. I never thought in my life that I would make a podcast and share these things. I even hated when I thought about making a video or making an audio podcast. But if there was not this journey, if there were not people that I could call extremely special people in my journey, there would never be a day that I could sit here and do this, share these thoughts, these experiences with you. When I came back to Vietnam, I met the relationships that I only thought of as close, but from close it turned into like a relative, not close anymore. There are many relationships out there that you used to think that they were just a social relationship, a friendship relationship, a relationship that for many years, maybe tens of years, you have not met them again. There are relationships that even close family members in their circle you used to think that you could never sit down and talk, you could never find empathy. Well, today, everything is different. I realize one thing, and it changes my thinking, that you should never set a limit for any situation or any person around you. Because everything always changes. There is one thing for sure in this universe, that is change. It always changes. It changes to surprise you every second, every minute, in your life. The person you met or made friends with or talked to today, you meet again. It will be different. It is no longer the person you used to meet. So don't rush to set a limit or limit your thinking. Because your experience will be the evidence for this. A small study, as you know, is number 7. Number 7 in this universe is very special. Number 7 is also the year when all the cells in our body were completely changed. In those 7 years, each cell in our body, each number was changed, and after 7 years, it ended. The person you met 7 years ago and 7 years later is completely different. This is very interesting, isn't it? And I realized that not only with the people around me but also with myself. My 7 years ago and I think with you, it is completely different. You try to stop here and think about whether what I say is right or not. Your thoughts 7 years ago and 7 years later, is there any difference? From your external body to your inner thoughts inside, is there any difference? I'm sure you will realize this miracle is happening. The people I thought I knew about them, the people I had certain opinions about them, that they can only understand me here, that they can only understand like this, and so on. Today, after 7 years, I met them again, it gave me so many surprises and really it is beyond my imagination. There are people I think will never be able to have such conversations. There are people I think they will never understand what I'm saying. There are even people I'm very close to, but I never thought they could accept and understand me like that. I never thought they could love me so much. They love me so much that I'm their daughter, that I'm their sister, that I'm their relative, that I'm really in the same blood with them. And that's why I have to come up with a new idea about the concept of relatives. To me, now, relatives are not people who have the same blood with you, people who have the same biology with you, but they are people who are always ready to be with you, people who love you unconditionally, people who are ready to be there, people who are ready to be with you when you need them the most. It's not that they have to do something for you, but they just need to be there, to believe, to be a anchor for you to lean on, to feel peaceful when there are too many waves out there. And from there, the concept of relatives has completely changed in me from that moment. I don't know in this recent podcast, when I record it, can I keep a firm feeling or a very calm feeling throughout this podcast or not? Because for me, it's very emotional to be able to talk about experiences, memories, love that I have received during my time in Vietnam. So if during the recording, you see that my voice has changed, I hope you will sympathize and understand that those are very real threads in my feelings. I don't want to edit it or cut it out because for me, it's the truth in my feelings as well as the name of my podcast. It talks about the nature as well as my sharing. It really comes from experiences, knowledge and it's very real. I don't want to edit it, I don't want to cut it out because it's boring. The truth of it is the most beautiful thing to me. To start, Tri An also told about her experiences, her experiences and the help and luck that she got when she was in Vietnam. She cannot not mention her parents, her relatives. Of course, I was very lucky when I was born in a family where my parents could support me financially. Although I was always self-employed since I was working, when I had health problems, when I couldn't work anymore, besides the saving I had, If you can afford it, you can also get help from your parents. Simply put, you can live in your parents' house without having to pay rent. That is a special luck that we often forget and take for granted. Your parents can feed you meals every day. That is also a special thing that we are lucky to have. If we don't have parents who have such conditions, then think about it. How much more difficult it will be for us? I tell you this in detail because I want all of you, when you listen to this podcast, you can start to see everything around you. From the smallest things around you, they are all luck and miracle. Don't take it for granted. Because if you compare it to everything else, many people are luckier than us. That is really something extraordinary that not everyone can have. So talking about your parents, I can't thank you enough. Although you know that in life, between children and parents, there are contradictions, there are differences on the face of the generation. However, it is not something that we can say that we can't be grateful for. No matter how big that difference is, no matter how far it is, no matter how far it goes, the support, the luck that we have, we should still consider it as luck that we can't deny. So during my trip to Vietnam, in addition to the money that I saved for myself while I was working, I also received support from my parents. Not only from giving me a place to stay, to take care of me during my daily meals, but also from sponsoring and supporting me in the expenses, when I need to go to the hospital, or when I need to travel, as well as everything that can be supported by money. My parents also supported me a lot. And this is something that I am very grateful for. The second thing I want to talk about is on a spiritual level. Although my parents can support me physically, but as you know, between parents and children, sometimes there are differences. And I have been like that since I was a child. And of course, I don't need to change my mind and my understanding or perception of my parents. That is very difficult, guys. When we are living in a generation that is as mature as today, with technology, with the approach of modernity, and sometimes we have too many things that we can't accept, then we are forced to accept those who have lived in the past. So I am very lucky when it comes to my spirit, my thoughts, my decisions. Although my thoughts are not the same as my parents' thoughts, I have empathy for my relatives. Although they are not the same bloodline as me, they understand me very well. It's like they grew up with me, they feel me, they love me, and they are always there to listen to me and to be a role model for me whenever I need it. One of the problems that has contradictions and differences between me and my family is in my treatment method. I have chosen my own way, but of course because my parents are very worried about me, so they want me to follow that path. But I chose to follow my own path. At that time, I had to face a lot of pressure from my family in that decision. But luckily, I have friends who are very special to me. They are always by my side at that time. They are a very strong role model for me. They support all my decisions. They are the place where when I have a problem in my mind, I can find them. They can only sit there and listen, and share with me. Sharing here is sometimes not that they have to say something, but their presence there, I can feel that they are listening, they are feeling me, and that's enough for me. There are things that we cannot change by action, by substance. The spiritual support to me is very big. Because when we are at the bottom of our emotions, we play with it, we don't even know if our path is right or not. We are still doubting, we are still afraid of our decisions. When we are at the bottom of our emotions, we sometimes don't believe in ourselves, but they are the ones who believe in us the most. They put their faith in us. They believe and support all our decisions. For me, that has a great spiritual value. That's all you need to keep you calm, so that you can make adjustments, as well as the best choices you can make for yourself. The first person I want to mention is my friend's mother. After that, I saw her as my second mother. I and my best friend have been together for more than 20 years. My friend's mother meets us often, and is quite close to us. However, I never thought that one day, we would have a close relationship, just like a mother and her child. She can even feel the pain of my sadness, just like she feels for her best friend. She also said that she has never had such a feeling before. It's like a spiritual connection. It's the same for anyone, except for my friend. This is very special. You have to understand that only when you love someone very much, you must love that person very much, so that you can have this kind of spiritual connection. I don't think you can have this kind of connection just because you love someone. So to me, she is not just my friend's mother, but also my second mother. I don't remember when, but the conversations between me and my friend's mother became so easy, and so close. I feel like she understands everything I say. And above all, I see that she is a very open-minded person. And she listens to everything I say. If there is something that she has never heard before, or finds it difficult to understand, I can see that she is processing it, taking it very seriously, and slowly thinking about it. It appears on her face, not like my relatives who immediately oppose it. This gives me a very special feeling. You have to know that when you share something with someone, whether they are listening to you or not is extremely important. Whether they judge you or not is even more important. It will decide the next story you want to share with them. And just like that, the conversation between me and my friend's mother happens every day. We see each other every day, or we call each other every day so that she can check in to see if we are okay or not. And just like that, the relationship gets more and more intense. She loves me more and more, and she takes care of me as if I were her daughter. Sometimes when I'm at home and I'm sick, she doesn't even have to call me, but she has a very special feeling about me. She feels something in me and she thinks I'm sick. And in fact, I'm really sick. She comes to my house and cooks for me. She cooks a lot of delicious food and buys a lot of food that I like. And especially, she is very attentive and spends time looking for organic food for me. Because she knows I'm eating in a very clean and organic way. So she is very attentive and spends a lot of time looking for those fruit foods for me. She brings them to my house. And you have to understand that there are days when I practice dancing and when I come back to my room, there is a lady who has already cooked a meal or brought a lot of delicious food and put it in the fridge or washed it clean and put it on the table for me. I have never had that experience in my life. So it makes me feel a little uncomfortable at first. It's not that I don't like it but I don't know how to accept it. I feel very embarrassed. And I told her that. And she gave me another way of thinking. She told me not to think too much about it. This is just a matter of love and she wants to take care of me. Don't think too much about it. She taught me a lot of things in this story. And it's related to my problem. It's about giving and receiving. It's very easy for me to give. But I don't know how to receive. I find it very difficult to receive something from someone. I feel overwhelmed. I don't know how to process it. So when I received too many things it's not just material but it's too much emotion. So I don't know how to face it and handle it. But she taught me how to accept it. And since then I feel more comfortable and accept things from someone compared to the past. It's not just an experience of love but I learned a very important lesson in my life. I didn't know how to accept it and I never thought about it again. She loves me like a friend. She worries and thinks. She's not like my second mom. I often joke that she and I are mother and daughter. She can feel my thoughts and emotions when she hasn't met me yet. She takes care of me. I think it's great. It's amazing. I've been independent in taking care of myself even when I was young. So I think it's special. I'm not used to it. But when I open my heart to her I feel so happy. But I can't tell her everything. It's just a small part of my experience at home. I've never thought that I could develop such a special relationship. Next is about my sister. She's my classmate that I met in Saigon. I've known her for many years and we're close. But because we've been abroad for a while we don't get to know each other as much as we do in Vietnam. But when I came back I realized that she's not just a friend but a sister to me. She's like my mother. She takes care of me and takes care of my health. She even takes care of me when I want to go out for a meal. But I have to stop myself because I know it's not good for me. She reminds me of my experience when I lived with my grandmother. When I went to the market I saw some fruits that were my favorite. For example, I love Vietnamese grapes but not the ones that are too sweet. I like sweet and sour grapes. I also like bananas. In short, she's very considerate. Even though I don't ask her to buy me something or I don't like this or that but sometimes she loves me enough to listen to me and take care of me. When I go to the market she always comes to my house and gives me some fruits. I feel like she's my sister because I don't have a sister but only a brother. It's a wonderful experience that I've never had in my life. My sister usually takes care of me but I don't know how it feels when someone takes care of me like that. We go to the gym together and we meet almost every day. In the morning, we have breakfast and then have coffee. In the afternoon, we go to the gym and then we go to the beach and eat together. It's like my activity chain is related to her a lot. That's why I have the chance to know more about her and myself. Just like my friend's mother I don't think that she has an open mind in many things like that. She understands and shares with me things that I think not everyone can understand. Even though I haven't experienced that but somehow she understands me in a very strange way and she doesn't judge my decisions. She supports everything I choose to do and even gives me a lot of help. The most important thing besides the love and care she gives me like a sister to a sister is that I feel like I can be myself completely because she always shows the truth. She gives people the feeling that she is always herself. She doesn't need to pretend she doesn't need to show off she doesn't need to show this and that. I can always see her open-mindedness in her soul. I have never seen that from any girl I have ever met. It's a surprise to me because I have known her for many years but I have never had a chance to know her so deeply. When we talk to each other I can see her sincerity. You know, when you hang out with someone it's very important because the way they treat you also affects the way you treat them. For example, even though you have a simple life but if you hang out with someone and they treat you badly even though they don't mean it they sometimes have some secrets in their show-off. Even though that show-off is not negative but girls usually do that I don't have that. If you hang out with someone and they treat you badly it will make you feel uncomfortable and there will be 2 options. 1. You don't hang out with that person 2. If you continue to hang out with that person it will lead to you talking and reacting in the same way as if you want to show off to prove yourself because you are influenced by what that person says. That's why relationships especially friendship are very important. You don't have to hang out with a lot of people even though they are few but they have to be high quality and they have to feed you and you have to feed them and when 2 souls are in sync and share the same thoughts they will feed each other and if in a relationship there is a quarrel or a fight when you hang out with that person you will feel it's not you it's not you for example you want to praise that person because you are good but when they see you succeed or you are good even though they are your best friend they still want to praise you or you can feel that they have something against you at some point you don't want to praise that person you don't want to support that person it's an interaction and I think if you understand what I'm saying I feel like I don't have anything to hide I've been honest I don't hide anything but for me when I'm with you I don't have any feelings I don't want to praise you everyday because it's like they are living in your house even though 3 people live in 3 different houses but I always feel like I'm taken care of to the point that it's like 3 people live in the same house to let you know how lucky I am because if you don't live in Vietnam you don't know this or that and there are many things you will understand that this help is too much even your family can't help you but for me I feel like I'm being taken care of in my house this is beyond my imagination because I can't imagine 10 years ago or even 2-3 years ago my friend's mom and my friend's sister become like my family and they can feel the pain and the joy but I know they don't say it when they see me but I feel like they are feeling it and they are always there in the moment that I feel like I'm in the bottom and the spirit is very important if you don't have the spirit you can't get through the hardest time in your life even if you are supported but imagine you have to face a lot of hard decisions and you feel like you can't find empathy or support they are always there to support you they don't force you to do this or that they are always there and they always trust you with all the decisions you make and they are always here if they can do something for you they will do it if you need help or something they can do to make you happy they are always there and they never judge you and they don't force you to do this or that they respect your decision I feel like I've seen in foreign movies when a child has a health issue in a treatment or something the parents will agree and support the child they just give their opinion but they always listen and respect the decision I don't have that feeling in my relationship I don't have that feeling in my relationship with these two special people I call them my lovebirds because no matter what time I call them or whatever time they are always there and they are always ready not only physically but also mentally so whenever I need them they are always there for me this is very meaningful I don't know if I can find this in other relationships I can't say it all but it's just one of the small things that I want to share today so you can understand when you face big decisions you don't know what to do I am one of the examples when I come back I always think I will be alone I will always be alone but when I listen to myself I follow the voice inside me and when I really listen and follow it there are always help sent to me they are two special people I feel like they are angels they have been in my life and they are always there when I need them they are always there for me this is a very special experience and I want to make this podcast about this experience and about these two special people in the next episodes I will continue to talk about the special people the help that I have but in this episode I just want to talk about these two special people because it is almost continuous during my time in Vietnam they accompany me in every second and their help I can't express it in words and I can't count it in numbers because their help to me is too big and it takes me through many obstacles as well as deep feelings in life I remember the days I cried the days I wanted to give up I can't express it to anyone I can't share it with my family I always have them by my side they are like my mother they are always there for me so I believe that when you live with yourself and listen to your inner voice and follow it you will always receive amazing support and you will never think that you will be helped and loved like that there are so many amazing things that happen to me every day during my time in Vietnam that I can't describe for example when I was buying fruits and they were out of stock I had to find a place to buy them and when I got home my mom or my friend bought them for me and they were found in another place and when you think of a dish that you crave for and you don't know where to buy it when you get home it's already in your house for me it's so amazing this love and support it's not just about the spirit it's about the essence I feel so lucky so guys in your life when you doubt about this universe doubt about this life doubt that you will never be loved keep that thought because you are a witness but it comes from your action when you dare to act when you dare to live for yourself when you dare to listen to your inner voice your true voice you will always be supported I will see you in the next episode and talk about the amazing things the amazing relationships that I have met during my stay in Vietnam that I couldn't find out so I will see you in the next episode