#1: Go "Home" Series

Hello everyone, welcome back to my channel. I've prepared a cup of English Breakfast Tea and I'm ready to talk about my first podcast episode in this special podcast series. To be able to sit here today to do this first podcast is a very long journey. It's been a very long journey for many years. I started in about 2020. I started to have very itching thoughts. I don't know how to say it. It's very annoying. It happens to me in the moments I go to work. I look at the traffic on the street and I feel like, why are we like robots? Why do we have to go to work every day with a 9-to-5 job like that? And how long does it take? Because when you get home, you only have a few hours to take a shower, wash up, eat, take care of your child, and then you only have about 1-2 hours for yourself and then go to bed the next day. Not to mention, the remaining 1-2 hours are just the last remaining energy. It's not when you're in the best state, the most energetic state. So where do we get our best energy? We've been at work for all those 8 hours. But it's not those 8 hours at work where everything is always fun, always makes us feel happy. I'm sure everyone here, and most of the people who come to watch this podcast, I'm sure it's in you. I believe that it is impossible that you will always feel happy I'm sure of that. I'm the same. I was there. And I feel very uncomfortable with why it has to be like that. And I think work has to be something that makes people feel that when you work with it, you have to feel happy every second you're in that job. That's how it's called alive. But the fact that we keep going to work I use the word go to work because you know what? There are mornings when you wake up and you really don't want to go to work. You feel tired. But I don't dare to think because I'm tired. I think, oh, other people are tired too. But they still have to try to get to work. So why would you think about it? And you can't work according to your emotions. If you like it, go to work. If you don't like it, take a break. But there's a truth that our body is not a machine that you turn on and off. If you want it to go to work, go to work. If you want it to take a break, take a break. Because our body is a chain of mind that combines with each other. And it will have to be sometimes. We are affected by so many things. So we can't ask it to be always at full capacity. Such energy to work. And we always have to force it. If we are tired, we have to have a reason. If we take a break, we will be judged. We will be told by the boss, colleagues, relatives. And we judge ourselves if we are being lazy or not. And if we take a break, we will think that if we take a break too much, we won't have a salary. Life is just like that. And that moment in the morning, I suddenly realized that because I live abroad and I go to work, the bus on the street in the morning usually has a stop at high point. And like other mornings, that morning was more special to me. Suddenly, I sat in the bus and I realized that it was like a robot. We were trained from small to large to go through schools, to go to university, and then continue like that. It just went on like that from generation to generation. And I also understood why the word robot appeared in my head. But that moment really calmed me down. Because from that day on, I couldn't think normally. And I think if you come to my channel and listen to my first podcast, if you listen to it and continue to listen to it, it will be hard for you to go back to the way you were. So I decided to find a way and I thought there must be a way so that I can still make money without pushing myself to go to work like that. Because in fact, when science researches, we only work a few hours a day So we have to take a break. We were born to be close to nature, to be flexible, to stand up, walk around, talk to people, not to be designed to sit in a fixed position and do that for 8 hours. Actually, during my work, there are times when I really focus and do a lot of things that I don't leave my desk at all. And I sit like that for 8 hours, I don't even go to the bathroom. You understand that humans were not born to do things like that, to sit in a fixed position like that. So in the office, there are a lot of diseases. We have a lot of diseases about life, about everything. And we find all doctors, we go to the massage once or twice a week. We find a way to solve that problem. But in fact, all those problems are just a tip. It's not that you're solving the root of the problem. You can't just go for a 45-minute massage or 2-3 times a week to solve the problem in one day. Because we humans, we suppose that we have to work, we have to exercise, we have to make our body flexible, we have to move. It's not just a few massages that can solve the problem. So the physiotherapy services abroad, or I think in Vietnam probably also have similar services to help office workers who have neck pain, shoulder pain, they feel better, but it's just a temporary problem. And I used to go to that service a lot. But in fact, when I came back to Vietnam, I went to the clinic and they told me that if I continue to go to the clinic, it will only make it worse. And in fact, it's not good. The nature of the problem is that humans have to exercise and everyone has to exercise. Only by exercising can those problems be solved because our blood vessels have to circulate. If we have pain, it's because we sit in one place for too long, the blood can't circulate, it's blocked. So we have to exercise, warm up so that the blood in our veins can circulate evenly, then we can be healthy. But if we don't do that, it leads to diseases, even going to the clinic. In fact, people may not tell me and I just go to the clinic and they charge me. But I really feel grateful that the person in the clinic told me that. Because before that, in Vietnam, I exercised very evenly. I participated in a lot of sports activities. I am a person who loves to go to the gym, so I exercise all the time. But when I went abroad, there were a lot of push-ups and a lot of things, so I started to be more lazy, I exercised more on-off, I didn't do it evenly. I started to see these signs plus the fact that I went to work and I went to the clinic. During that process, I also asked questions. What I asked, the universe will give me in a very good way. After a while, I asked myself, why did I feel so weird? Why did it happen again? I heard that answer. Then step by step, I understood more about human body health. About health, I will talk more in a separate playlist about health. Back to today's topic, from the day I asked why we have to be like that, like robots, to do what, to get what. I asked if I was really feeling the happiness of what I was doing. And that question made me stand up. If I remember correctly, I cried. Because I had never asked myself that question. Actually, now that I mention it again, I feel a little emotional. Because at that time, I realized that if you are happy, it's too easy, right? Your answer must come immediately. But at that time, I stood up. I had to think. Because at that moment, I had to stand up and think. I thought, oh no, it's not okay. Since then, I asked myself more and more every day, what do I really want? What is real? Alive? With true essence? With my soul, with my reality? What is the job I want? I asked myself, clearly, this is the job I want. What I am doing is my dream. Why? Why is it like this now? I think at this stage, if everyone goes through it, I'm sure everyone will know that it's terrible. It's like a wall collapsed. All beliefs have to change. And it's no longer as normal as we think. When all old beliefs collapse, I think everyone will be like me. I don't know, oh no, what should I do now? How should I live? How should I understand? What should I believe in? Why is everyone okay? Everyone is okay. Why am I like this? Am I abnormal? Because since I was young, I have always been seen as an abnormal child in the family. Like a black sheep. So that day, that question made me, it triggered my question again. Oh my God, is it because I'm abnormal since I was a child? I'm always abnormal. That's why I feel like this today. Everyone is normal. But it's not like that. When I started that question, it was like I was touching another energy source. Another world opened up. From there, suddenly there was a lot of information and everything came to me. And I felt like, oh no, I'm not alone, I'm not lonely, and I'm not abnormal. It's just that the place where I was born and grew up, the mindset of everyone else. It's not that I'm abnormal. We may be abnormal here, but we will be very normal somewhere. And just because we are in the wrong time and space, the environment. Then when I received all the information and everything came to me very naturally, I found out that I was lost in it. And I knew that it was time for me to live for myself. I had to go the real path that made me happy. After that, I continued to struggle with going to work, chasing ambitions and dreams. Even though I knew that I would quit my job and go to work. I tried many ways. I tried a lot of things. But when I tried those things, it was still stuck by the fears about money. So my direction was not right. But I believe that there must be a reason. That's why I'm here to share my story with you. Because I know that we will have similar points on the journey to find ourselves. Everyone will have a time to drift from one direction to another. But in the end, if we believe, we will go back to the main path. After many years, I... After 4-5 years, I still went to work. And you know that when you have questions in your head, you can't choose one person to go to work. You go to work with two different attitudes. It's like two people conflict in your head. And I felt that I survived during those years. Even though, I still achieved my ambitions in my career. I worked in big organizations such as oil and gas, education. In general, I feel very lucky to experience everything and my working environment. I have to say that it's wonderful. The people there are very humble, they are very cute, they are very knowledgeable, they support each other. There is nothing to criticize. That's what I want to tell you. Why do I do this? To show you that the environment around us doesn't affect us. It makes us feel tired, but everything is fine. Everything is fine. It's just in us. Another person has already woken up. So we can't continue the way we used to live. So we will definitely feel bad. And I feel very lucky from the beginning to now, the people I work with, the bosses, the colleagues, they are wonderful, they are very intelligent. I learned a lot from them. From the COs, CFOs I work with, they are wonderful. And although I hear a lot of complaints about their bosses, even when I work for my boss, my arms company in the US, they usually, I don't mean to criticize anything here, but people usually talk about the US because it's more open-minded and the way they work, like you see in the movies, it's not as close as other countries. But even though everyone's experience is like that, but for me, my boss, my CFO, my CO, they are American, they are wonderful, they are very cute. So I feel like I've experienced the most wonderful things. But I still feel like I struggle with my life. I feel like I have to question if I really have a passion for my job or not. And when it comes to 2023, I feel like my body can't take it anymore. And it shows physically. Before that, I knew that sooner or later this would happen. But as the old saying goes, I haven't seen the coffin yet. So I still continue. I think we humans are very stubborn. The more we say something, the more we prove the opposite. And moreover, we are always pulled out by fear, by many things that we cling to. We can't let go. If we want to let go of something, we will immediately think that if I don't go to work anymore, what should I do? Where will I get the money? At that time, imagine that in 2020, I had such a thought. I continued like that for 3 years. It's really a lot. For a person who started to think that going to work is annoying, you have to accept living with 2 people. Like that for 3 years. And the consequence is that in 2023, I had a lot of physical symptoms and tiredness. I don't know why I lost a lot of weight. I lost 5-7 kg. And I ate normally. I did a lot of tests. From cancer tests, everything. The doctor didn't find any problem. And I don't know why I feel like I'm weak, getting tired, losing energy. I just want to be alone in my room. I lost myself completely. I don't want to see anyone. It turned me into something very different. But I still tried. Until one day, I almost collapsed in a week. I couldn't go to work anymore. I couldn't stand it anymore. If I had a cold, I would take medicine and go to work. I always think about responsibility. Because I see my team, my boss, they have a cold but they still go to work. They still try. Then I think that everyone is like that. I'm shy. This is related to the problem of the damage to the children inside. I think you hear this term a lot. I will do it in another podcast. I feel like taking a break or taking a rest is very difficult. I always feel like I'm at fault. I keep trying. Until one day, I collapsed. I couldn't do anything anymore. I was too tired. Before that, I thought about quitting my job. But I had a lot of worries. Why? I worked in a gas company with a high salary. I had a lot of benefits. The company paid me to go to school. A lot of things came. A lot of wonderful things. My career path was going up like that. What if I quit now? I was getting paid every month. Now I lost that money. There are a lot of things to think about. You think about your location. You think about your position. You think about your future. Everything is too bright. You are not brave enough to quit. Until one day, I collapsed for a week. Because I have never been so tired and exhausted like that. I was so tired that I cried. The next week, I immediately Sometimes we have to be like that. I was so tired that I couldn't try to think about the future or money. The next week, I emailed my boss and told him that I wanted to talk to him. I quit. It was a decision that was not easy for me. After many years, and when I was at the top of my career, I felt that when I was sick, it was a very easy decision. But when I was sick, it was so hard. That was the journey that decided me to come back to Vietnam to recover my body and find the person that I lost for a long time since I lived abroad. It was about 10 years. I felt that I lost myself for a long time. Before that, I heard a lot of news that I lost myself. I was shocked. When I looked back, I felt that I was not the same as before. I felt that I couldn't live like that anymore. Living like that is no different than living with a soullessness. That was the reason why I decided to quit my job and come back to Vietnam. I will tell you more and share more information about my journey in the next podcast. Please stay tuned for the next episode.