A Mother’s Day Message for Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse #npd #narcissist #mothersday

Hey everyone, it's a spiritual whistleblower here with a Mother's Day very special message to you all on Mother's Day. Those of you who grew up around the narcissistic mother, I made this video specifically for you. This time of year is difficult for a lot of people. For anyone that has either lost their mother their mother is passed away deceased dead gone um people have a hard time on mother's day because they're still grieving the loss of their mother and then there is those of us you and me who was raised reared by a narcissistic mother and if you are a scapegoat of the family. And when I say scapegoat, I mean you are the chosen child. You are forced to be responsible at a very young age. You are ordered to take care of your siblings. You are more of a parent than your parents. Because see, if your parents are narcissists, then they're really toddlers. They really behave like children. They're childish, even though they're adults. so they force you to be the mature one and you end up being the caretaker of the whole family and you're still a child you're still in the developmental stages emotionally physically mentally you're a child you're a preteen I had all this responsibility dumped on me as a child I remember so many nights my parents and their dysfunction and their instability we slept in piss poor motels. When I say these were the bottom of the barrel motels, roach infested motels all over New Jersey, Bordentown, Willingboro, Hamilton, Pennsauken, Cherry Hill. We slept in all types of horrible motels. And I'm sitting there like I'm the oldest child. I got a brother and a sister and I'm the oldest. And I just always would sit there like it's two of y'all. it's two of y'all you mean to tell me both of y'all can't put y'all heads together make sure your children are living in a stable home y'all can't stop fighting for ---- y'all can't stop what the **** is wrong with both of y'all all my parents did was fist fight in front of us they didn't care who was around they didn't care if it affected their children they didn't they didn't care about ---- they were both very selfish motherfuckers this is how I grew up y'all have no idea both of my parents are narcissists now when we talk about narcissistic abuse you got to understand there's a spectrum okay there is low level narcissistic personality disorder and then there's a spectrum it goes to mid-level and it goes to high level I believe my father my father is a covert narcissist and coverts are the worst because they know how to hide their narcissistic behavior so well. My father is a Bible thumper. He knows how to quote Bible scripture. He knows how to praise the Lord, his way into things. And he knows how to smile and be happy and look cheerful and goody two shoes. But what people don't understand, my father has a nasty competitive feminine feminine feminine misogynistic side to him that i've seen he hides it from the public but i've seen it so what i've seen behind closed doors is what i judge him off of not what he shows to the public i i judge him off of what he shows me behind closed doors and i don't like it it's nasty it's demonic he's very good at hiding his abusive behavior behind bible scripture behind religion there's many covert narcissists it took me many years to figure this out but i got it now and that's why he got cut the **** off because he's manipulative and he uses the bible to manipulate he can manipulate his other children but he'll never manipulate me i shut that down now in terms of my mother my mother is the overt narcissist she's malignant she's out there with it she's nasty she doesn't give a **** her girlfriends her inner circle of friends her sisters her family everybody knows that she don't like me this is the fucked up ---- family and all her inner circle they know what's up and they just walk around pretending not to see like the ---- don't exist and you know what i don't respect none of them because it's like they're enabling her behavior she knows she's a narcissist oh my mother knows what she is she's miss goody two shoes to the public eye but but behind closed doors she's a ******* demon she's trash so when you come to understand the nature of your parents illness I call it an illness because that's what it is you know these scientists these doctors they call it a personality disorder I call it a spiritual ******* illness you got to be spiritually and morally fucked up to want to destroy your children you got to be spiritually and morally fucked up to be jealous of your children you got to be spiritually and morally fucked up to want to destroy your children tear them down all of that my mother is jealous of me she's jealous of my beauty she tried to compare me to her my other sister she thinks by buying gifts and doing more for my sister that it will devalue me and all that I don't give a **** about that my mother could never buy me because I have everything I bought everything I got everything that bitch can't do ---- for me I drive a beautiful ******* jeep grand a jeep grand cherokee paid for mine I got all my degrees my sister has nothing my baby sister is slow dumb and she's a gold digging bitch she can't run a business on her own all she does is clout chase and kiss ass and she thinks by being pretty that it'll get her by in life and she's learning fast. You got to put in work, sister. Those of us that put in the work, we going to reap the benefits in the long run. Your good looks can't get you. But so far, because bitches out here, all these pretty bitches on Instagram, they bossing up because they smart and they get into the money. You can't get to the money because you you stuck on your mother. You let your mother block your blessings. I don't let my mother block my motherfucking blessings. See, I check my mother. I called the cops on my mother and I know my mother watches my social media and my mother knows to stay the **** away from me because if she ever approaches me I'm gonna ******* kill her ass I'm gonna bust her upside her motherfucking head the old Chanel is gone that quiet girl the quiet fat girl that y'all thought y'all could bully is gone I'm snapping on bitches I black out on bitches. So my mother, my sister, my female cousins, anyone step to me, bitch, you're going to get your ass beaten and bloody. And then I'm gonna go to jail and bail myself out. I don't tolerate ---- off a family. I don't give a **** what family thinks about me. When you understand what narcissistic abuse is, you will not tolerate nothing off your family. So many of you are like contemplating on whether if you should call your mama should you buy her a gift even though she treated you like ---- for years you've grown and she's still ******* treating you like ---- you tell her about good news going on your life and she acts like so what who cares or it ain't all that important you still seeking validation from that bitch she's not gonna give it to you you're gonna keep putting yourself in a position to get burnt your mother is a narcissist she's jealous of you she does not love you i will repeat again she does not love you don't take it personal because she don't love herself she don't love nobody this is empty inside of here see narcissists have an emotional void all they know how to do is emulate and copy and pretend they know how to pretend to have emotions. They can get on their Facebook page and say, oh, praise the Lord. And oh, I love my daughter and I love my grandchildren and dah, dah, dah, dah, dah. That's all fake. It's all about presentation. That's the facade, but get to know them behind closed doors. And you're going to find out you're going to deal with a whole different person. So on mother's day, you sitting there going back and forth, like, damn, should I send my mother a gift? Should I give her a car should I call her up and say happy mother's day and this bitch has abused you your entire childhood now I'm gonna give it to you straight whether you want to hear it or not and what you do with this information in this video is up to you but I'm gonna tell you how I'm gonna spend my mother's day I damn sure ain't gonna call that bitch she don't deserve to hear from me is she forgiven I totally forgive her she's human I absolutely forgive her for everything she's done to me. There was one mother's day when I was about 12 years old. I will never forget. I went to this, um, flea market because New Jersey, there's flea markets all over New Jersey. And I remember I don't know who I went with. Some adult took me to a flea market and there was a craft. There was like a person that made special crafts. So it was a very pretty pink balloon and they would, they, they, um, painted her name on it. It was a mother's day gift. And I had her name painted on the really pretty pink balloon it was made out of acrylic was so cute I gave that to her on Mother's Day and you know what she did she said get this ---- the **** out of here I don't want this ---- I didn't ask for this ---- my mother was so disgustingly materialistic she wanted money she wanted diamonds she wanted jewelry she wanted furs I'm 12 years old where the **** am I gonna get money to buy you anything materialistic you ******* selfish ass bitch totally selfish where is a young child where's a small child going to get all this money to ******* appease you on your birthday or mother's day or Christmas she was selfish she felt like her children owed her something because you know hey I raised you no we didn't ask to be here you can't dump your ******* animosity on your children because you're pissed that you gotta raise them you brought them into this world we didn't ask to be here it is your responsibility she tried to make us pay out of anger because she didn't want to be a mother she hated the idea of even being financially responsible she wasn't a nurturer she wasn't emotional she was never emotionally connected to me and my siblings it was always about money and finance and she was mad that she had to take care of us she was mad that my daddy was a piece of ---- and didn't pay his child support why would you punish your children for your bad bad choices but I forgave her I forgave her now that I'm 45 years old she know good and goddamn well she can't run no more game on me I have grieved the loss of my mother if you ask me about my mother right now I feel nothing I feel nothing I don't feel a hatred I don't hate her but I don't feel any love for her I feel totally empty I feel totally indifferent I don't want her around my child she's a snake she's a demon totally forgive her but the gig is up she can't run that game on me she can't buy me I can't be bought I have everything I don't need her for her money or nothing she can't do ---- for me and she's a weaker woman than I am I'm more of a woman she's not more accomplished than me I'm not getting my PhD she doesn't have not a single degree all she does is scam and hurt people and use people but then she tries to play like goody two-shoes and and you know be a good doer to the community she knows she ain't ---- behind closed doors so on mother's day she can kiss my ass see the bible says honor your mother father mother and father but the bible also says when your mother and father forsake you the lord will take you up you don't have to take no abuse off your mother on mother's day you don't have to kiss her ass and feel guilty go enjoy your mother's day