Because YOU died for them. THEY have become dead to you. #narcissist #empath #narcissism #npd

Forever. Nobody got me right now, but I'm okay. Road made rocky right now, but not forever. What's up, guys? Nobody got me right now, but I'm okay. Hey, y'all. What up? Man, y'all know I had to come through. It's Monday night, y'all. What's going on? Listen to one of my favorite songs. listen to one of my favorite songs y'all know i'll be coming in here rocking with the music you know can't help it it's become a thing for me now okay i wonder how many people know this song it's a caribbean song jamaican song called legend by jamil masika or that's two different people i don't know if i'm saying it right but what's up y'all. Welcome to my live. The song, the reason why I'm in love with this song is the lyrics. I'm very lyrical. The song says, road may rocky right now, but not forever. Nobody got me right now, but I'm okay. Road may rocky right now, but not forever. What? Nobody got me right now, but i'm okay that resonates so heavily with me that song has been on repeat for days i don't know anybody else who loves music who's passionate about music but when i find a song that pierced my soul it stays on repeat but yes sincerely tiffany says i know that song i'm trinidadian i rocks with jamaica yes yes legend that song is amazing that song is amazing but what's up beautiful people how y'all doing checking in checking in i see y'all in the chats oh my god ashley renee hi i see you thank you so much for the super chat welcome welcome welcome to all my beautiful people those who have been here with me my day oners my new oners what's up guys i see y'all checking in, G Palau, I richly and greatly appreciate you. You are a beautiful soul, I saw your message early on. As soon as you jumped in the live, I see it. And I thank you so much for being here. Queen Leandria, you know, I have to shout you out. I love seeing your name pop up in my live. Thank you for being here. Ashley Renee, you just made my night. Thank you for doing that. Tanya Rogers, I see you. Anybody else, Pauline Edwards, Scorpio Mama, I see you all here tonight. Thank y'all for stopping in and anybody who is joining in and, you know, coming in as we begin today's live. I'm excited to talk to y'all. I am so excited to talk to y'all. Oh, my gosh. G. Palau, you're so sweet. Listen, as much as I'd be ready to just have a whole concert up here, I'm going to spare y'all because that is not why. that is not why i invited y'all to live i just can't help but be myself so that music is always gonna be there y'all i can't help it so thank you guys for those who are jammers singers dancers life livers i'm with y'all one day we're gonna party together you hear me i need to i need to i need to meet a lot of y'all y'all are my twins we are gonna have a ball one day when i get y'all together i promise we are we all deserve it and i'm so excited for what is what is to come in the future. But thank you guys so much. Thanks for being here with me as I join in with y'all live today to talk to you guys, to talk to you guys, because you died for them. And now a lot of these people have become dead to so many of you. And we need to talk about it. We need to talk about it, y'all, because it's so necessary. So just want to give a few minutes and just let some more people come on in i don't want to get started too soon and and miss out or have people miss out but i see all of my thrivers checking in sincerely tiffany said i want every single one of you to go and download the album clarity by doe d-o-e that album has gotten me through rough times especially after being with a narcissist wow thank you for that matter of fact i'm gonna do that right now you know what i love music so much and i love to be put on to new music and not even just that anything that's going to add to healing from this oh yeah i'm all about it thank you thank you sis thank you for the resource this is why we're here this is why this is a community because somebody in the chat can drop something that'll change your life you know so we are all here for each other and um yeah that's really dope i found it all right bet let's go ahead and download that listen to that later. I'll let you know what I think. Yeah, let's go, y'all. Let's go, man. What's up, Thrivers? What's up from all over the world? I see someone checking in. Karen Sanquino from Argentina. Hi, good evening or good morning. I don't even know what time it is in Argentina, but lovely to see you here today. Thank you for being here with us. Y'all are so amazing, man. It's always great to come in on Mondays and talk to you guys. The reason why I do this on Mondays is because it's the start of a week for us. And I feel like we just need a kickoff. Thrivers need a little kickoff to start our week. We need to come back after the long weekend and just kind of have a conversation that's going to help us get through the remaining days of this week because we still have to get through those remaining days. So today we're joining in in this beautiful community join us if you're new to the um channel guys this is your girl mommy so true welcome to my channel make sure to subscribe um hit the notification bell so you're not missing those weekly videos and um yeah and if you want to join the membership program where i talk to my members a little bit um like a one-on-one group session however you want to call it a little bit more private, in-depth conversations about what I'm going through as a survivor of narcissistic abuse. This channel is really my journey. You know, it's really my journey. God being so good, I just happened to have studied mental health in school and I have a true passion for helping people and for just research. I have a passion for research and I have a passion for learning and the abuse had purpose behind it. So here I am today. I'm able to share not only what I know and what I've learned about narcissistic abuse, but I'm also able to share my journey as a testimony because you are not alone. You're not by yourself. You're not crazy. No, you're not. So here I am. I want to talk to people from wherever you are today. Just take a seat back and bear with me while I talk and just let you know what's on my mind and where my thoughts are. This might be very hard for me to get out because what I'm feeling today is very real for me. And I don't know how many people are going to resonate with what I'm going to share on today's live. But if it does resonate, you know, please make sure, you know, hit that like button, leave your comments, share your perspective, share your thoughts. And let's talk about it because you did die for this person. And of course, I'm gonna go through the chat as I go through. So y'all bear with me. But let's get right into today's topic, you guys, because so many of us, we did die for these people. And when I talk about this person, it's not necessarily just a spouse. It's not necessarily this this person you happen to marry. It's not this wife or this husband. It's not always a love relationship. This could have been a parent. This could be your mom, your dad. This could be whoever that narcissist played in your role. I mean, whoever the narcissist played, whatever role they had in your life, it could be whoever. So the dynamic fits for anybody. But for you, the one who is now on the other end talking about being a survivor, the one who is now identifying themselves as the one who was victimized, the one who was in the hands of an abuser, for you, there are so many ways that you died for this person. And today I want to talk about it deep with you all because I think it's important for us to understand as survivors what we gave, why we gave it, so that we can understand the importance of forgiving ourselves so that we can move on and be strong. And so many times the narcissist gets too much credit for no reason. And I am a firm believer that survivors of narcissistic abuse must take their power back, must know who they are. And if they never knew who they were, they're going to figure it out because mommy so truth is here to pull that out of you. We are not losers. We are more than conquerors. And because we died for them, they have become dead to us. Let's talk about it, y'all. Let's break it down. Somebody's thinking, what does she mean by that? What are you talking about? Because I died for them. I didn't die for him. Yes, you did. Let me talk about the interesting factor of the beginning, the love bomb phase, that first phase cycle that we go through with narcissistic abuse, that first phase that they do all the work to try to get us and pull us in and entice us and hypnotize us, however you want to put it. Love bomb phase only worked because we allowed it. We were open to it. Not only have many of us been conditioned to just think that love is conditional, but many of us are really designed to be pure lovers. And through love bombing phase, we sacrifice so much of ourselves so that we can show that love that we have deep within us so yeah we call it the love bomb phase but before that terminology came into mind what I've known about the love bomb phase is simply falling deeply in love simply going through a process because when you're being love bombed you're innocent at that time you had no idea you were being love bombed you had no idea who this thing was you were just being you And at whatever cost, you being you, you were willing to sacrifice certain things, certain parts of you to try and coexist and love this person who you didn't know yet. Yeah, they love bombed you. Yeah, they tricked you. It was very enticing. It was very deceptive. They lied a lot, but you were innocent to it all. You had no idea who this fake person really was. They made it look so good. They tried their hardest to make sure that you would get pulled and sucked all the way in. They did that. They did it in a way where you didn't think twice about some of the things you did. They love-bombed you so severely. You made choices that you can never take back. You did a lot of things that you probably thought you would never do. They had you committing in sexual acts you probably thought you never would commit in. They had you forgetting your own personal beliefs and morals to an extent. You literally neglected, abandoned, and forsaken so many parts of yourself for this person because they made you believe that they were your person. Remember, I said you were innocent in this. People can say, yeah, you ignored red flags. Okay. Every situation, that's not it. That's not the truth. Because so many of us, we knew our self-worth before the narcissist, but a lot of us, this was an assignment. It's almost like you couldn't even dodge this person. It's almost like you were forced to have to deal with them for this very season of your life. It was a humbling experience for you. This is somebody that probably wasn't even your typical type, but for some reason, there was a pull and a hold on you that made you feel the need to proceed with this relationship go ahead and continue something with somebody who didn't even really deserve a conversation from you to begin with if you really sit back and think about it now but for so many of us it seems like we could not avoid what happened because this person really came to put us exactly where we needed to be in life yes they did but all along from the beginning, we had no idea. Innocent, empath, old little you. You had no idea that you were marrying and having children with somebody that you would one day have to run away from or turn your back on. Because if you did, you wouldn't have done all the things that you've done. You wouldn't have given all the time that you gave. There's so much you would have never done. The furthest that you would have gone was probably maybe a week or two. But that's not our story. A lot of us gave our all and that's how we ended up dying for them. We chose to work with them over and over and over. We chose to ignore certain things over and over and over because we died for them. At some point, our existence with the narcissist was just existing with the narcissist. For so many of us, at some point, we lost who we were. We had no idea who we were. We couldn't differentiate who we were from from before them to to being with them and then to after them who is who am I all because in so many ways we died for this person we died for these people we took major L's for these people major losses and at the time when decisions were being made we did it selflessly when they discarded and left and came back and used you again you let it happen because you die for them man the the pain of surviving a relationship with a narcissist is very real from the beginning they strip you naked from the beginning they rip you apart from the beginning everything that they told you they love about you they start to use to weaponize against you you die for them over and over and over and over again because you think that if I work on me if I fix myself, if I work, if I walk on eggshells, maybe they'll change. If I go away for a little while, maybe it'll get better. If I pray a little bit more, if I dress a little cuter, if I change my perfume, but none of that made a difference. You end up killing your entire self. You're dead spiritually, you're dead physically, mentally dead. These people are vampires on every level. They drain you on every single level and you end up really killing yourself because in the beginning you didn't voluntarily do this in the beginning you didn't walk in the door sacrificing yourself you walked in the door thinking that you were going to be validated and loved by the person who made it seem like that's what they wanted from you but while you were giving all of that to them you never received it back for yourself so eventually you were left dry you were left dry eventually there's no more left to give so you die because they hurt you so deeply these people cause you to have to go you have to go see therapy when they need a damn therapist you have to suffer so much humiliation because of the the events that happen while you're in the relationship with them it's so much embarrassment the lying the cheating the public humiliation because they can't control their emotions, the constant babysitting that you did, it was so draining you were married but you wanted to be dead, it was that draining. Wow, what a feeling to lay up next to somebody every night but wishing either they're dead or you're dead, one of us have to go because this is the, this is awful, this feels terrible this was you, they forced you to have to die in so many ways on so many levels. You had to kill yourself off. They showed you that you wasn't good enough so you worked your ass off. You tried to make the relationship work. You stuck around in the cycle of abuse for as long as you could. For as long as you could. For years and years and years and years and years. You did it. You put in the work. You stood by their side no matter what. You put on a smile no matter how bad it was. For so many of you, you never even spoke bad about them and you still remained faithful in spite of how they made you feel in spite of how they made you see the world while you were with them completely isolated sheltered you killed yourself off in so many ways trying to keep peace, tippy-toeing on eggshells in your own house, you gotta watch what you say, you gotta watch what you do, where you go, you gotta explain everything you're doing but they won't explain nothing to you. They torture you with silent treatment to make you suffer and wander. Torture you with no sex or too much sex. Torture you with belittling words, demeaning words, useless and pointless drug out arguments. Eventually being the person that you are, you die in a different way because one day you woke up and you realize you're dealing with a monster and the fight has to be different. And for so many, what that meant is one day you woke up and you realize you got to silently get away, in the process of being silent and getting away when you choose to go no contact when you disappear when you cut these people off when you take your power back and put your clothes back on because they have stripped you completely naked to humiliate you in the eyes of the world when you wake up and say no, wait a minute I don't belong here I don't belong here because I'm not wanted here this isn't for me there's no way in that very moment that was the old you that died the day you decided enough was enough the day you decided I am done the old you this time you voluntarily chose to kill that old version of yourself because no more enough is enough Ashley Renee thank you so much enough is enough I'm with you sister I'm with you sister God bless you thank you so much for that no more as painful as it was to walk away from somebody that you love the day you decided to let the old you go was the day that you chose yourself because that person does not love you back and you had to painfully accept that the day that you chose to walk away was the most painful day of your life for so many while you're sitting in no contact sometimes you you feel how painful it is because you've had to walk away from somebody that you truly cared for somebody that you fought for somebody you gave your all to somebody that you died in so many ways for and here you are now you have to figure out a way to move on without them and that hurts even though you know what they did being the you that you are the heart that you carry there's still some lingering love there and it hurts but you had to kill that version of yourself that used to care enough to want to hang on to it that version of yourself that used to want to call them and cry and have them come back home that's the day you cut that version of yourself loose because the pain is too much you can't do it anymore they've already shown you exactly what you need to see and the day that you saw it the day that they said the worst thing that they could have ever said to you to seal the deal the day that they really gave you that deal breaker that moment where that light bulb went off in your mind and you became a woken empath and you said you know what enough is enough I cannot do this to myself anymore so for you I've died for you in so many ways and that's still not enough so you know what you've got to be dead to me now I've got to get away from you because if I don't I'm gonna lose my mind if I don't cut you off if I don't block you if I don't find a way to forget you I am going to lose my mind so now you have become dead to me. You have become dead to me because I died for you so much. I died for you. I died for your family. Bank account died for you. Now you've become dead to me and there cannot be no remorse because what did I not do? What did I not give? How much more? How much more can you prove to that parent that all you want was just love? How much more? If you've had a narcissistic parent. You fought your entire life trying to be seen, trying to be heard. You never really knew who you were because you died for them. And then one day you woke up and you said, you know what? I'm going to get myself together. I'm going to discover who I am. Matter of fact, I really know who I am. It's time for me to birth that out because I've died for all these people. And now I am living in honor of the cycle of creation, death, and rebirth. Now I know that something new is emerging and something old has slipped away. Oh my God. Oh my God. Because you died for them. So many of you have done and given things in these relationships that you can't even tell nobody about. Things that have cost you. It's going to take you years to get out of it. So now they're dead to you. They're dead to you because you died for them. The plot twist of the whole thing is they didn't even know. They had no idea what they were doing because now you are rewriting this same very story that they thought they had control of because they are dead to you. When they died to you you took over the whole narrative you realize yo this is my life I control it that was the whole plot twist because for so many of us this person did not deserve you and it took for you to wake up and see it all this time that you bent over backwards all this time that you chose love and got nothing back for it their doubt about you has become your motivation somebody out there right now a narcissist has tried so hard to to tear you down but you are so motivated and so determined and it's because of them they doubted you they counted you out oh my god for so many because you died for them in the pain that has come with that you've changed the narrative and because of that there is new profound and solid opportunities waiting for you there are new doors ready to be opened up for you so many are thriving now because they are dead to you you took your power back after dying so much for them now you're getting new homes new cars new relationships because they are dead to you you're put in a position to go harder than you've ever been before anything that you lost you're getting it back a million times fold because you died for them and now they're dead to you you didn't deserve none of this that happened to you you did not it's not your fault you didn't cause it so because you woke up you can now see the light on the other side because it's there it is definitely there my god what's so amazing is as much as the narcissist may have tried to kill you off you're unstoppable see one thing i want you guys to know as survivors, as thrivers, those who know and know who they truly are to their core. I need you to understand how beautiful, magnificent, and sweet your aura is. Red man, hello. Thank you for the super chat. I'm waiting to open those doors. Love you, sis. God bless you. They coming. They right there. You on the right path, brother. Keep thriving. I'm with you. But for so many of us y'all we need to understand the magnificence of our aura because let me tell you something about you that you may not know let me give you this beautiful example right here you are like a perfume vase a perfume bottle a real perfume bottle the narcissist tried to shatter that bottle that shot that that bottle might have shattered it might have cracked but what they could not stop was the aroma that came out of that perfume bottle, that cologne. It still had the stench that it held in that bottle. The scents that you carry, the sweetness of your aroma can never be stopped or seized. They cannot stop you. They can hurt you. Yeah, they did that in a lot of ways, but you must prevail. You shall prevail. You're designed to prevail. You're not you're not created to be the bottom stuck at the bottom no absolutely not the sweetness of your aroma is is salivating it has a salivating taste in the air oh my god when you enter the room the room becomes beautiful your spirit your your aura your energy is magnificent and you need to understand that and when the new you arose you even got a whiff of that scent that's why so many can stay no contact. The longer you remain no contact, the more you smell your own self. You're like, oh my God. Oh, self-love. Oh, this is me. Oh yeah. Wow. I smell so beautiful. I'm such a beautiful person. Wow. Why did I settle for this? What did I see in this clown? Oh my God. Why did I want to be loved by some people who don't even know what love is? They don't even carry it in their heart. You smell your own sweet aroma. That's when you start to visualize and pay attention to what real love looks like and what it should be for your life. That's when you start paying attention to what setting clear boundaries really look like and should look like for your life. Sometimes being discarded will force us to pay attention to our own self-worth. While you're sitting there in discard, you end up thriving. You end up figuring out life slowly but surely. You end up recognizing your own sweet aroma because the funny thing that you don't know is and this ain't even funny, this is a fact what I need you to know you cannot be contained you could not be contained in that little perfume bottle it had to be shattered that bottle was too small your aroma had to be noticed the narcissist wanted to ignore you but when they shattered that bottle here you were everything started flowing out of you you needed that breakage you needed them to shatter you you needed them to hurt you because now you can't do nothing but pay attention to yourself when they shattered you they were even scared of you they had to discard and run away that scent was too sweet they weren't ready for it they didn't know that you couldn't be contained that you're not meant to be contained that your essence is meant to be shared because you are a healer you are a nurturer you are a lover you could not be contained in that little bottle you're not to be controlled by nobody. In the beginning, when you gave those parts of yourself, when you sacrificed those parts of yourself, you did that because you were just, you thought it was love. You thought you were doing the right thing, but they got it misconstrued They thought that meant that you said, control me because I'm a fool Nah, messed up. Because many survivors will rise from ashes and become beautiful, unstoppable creatures of divine wrath with healing on their wings many many of you so many are doing it right now so many are doing it right now because the thing is we didn't ask for it but we got it but we've survived it though we survived it though we are surviving it and we will rise above it this is something the narcissist cannot do we are winners we are winners forever winners man they crushed us they broke us yeah they did that but they cannot stop us how sad it is for them to watch you sit here and glow watch you sit here bloom and grow in your life watch you sit here get better oh how sad it is for them while their sad sorry miserable life just withers away you somewhere crying it out the new you recognizes what the old you went through and you're crying it out you are crying it out because there's so much self-betrayal that you have to forgive yourself for but as you do that as you choose to heal as you choose to get help you are the winner you are the one walking into the light my god my god they will forever remain on the on the path of destruction they will forever be lost in self-delusion they will forever be stuck blaming the world for their own self-created sorrows because they're dead to you oh my god there's so many comments i love y'all in these engagements i'm gonna try to go through i'm gonna try to go through g palau said i supplied a lot of things just to please no more i was discarded onto the garbage dump many many times guess what i i pretty is the place making it sanctuary i actually live it love it here love it there i think it says you I think you're trying to say you've made the place pretty and made it sanctuary. So you changed the narrative is what I'm getting from that. You took something bad and made it beautiful is what I'm getting from that. Now, that's a survivor. That's a thriver. That's a winner's testimony. I love it. Fly away beautifully, healing from narcissistic abuse, say four times, never again. Yeah, a lot of us go back, give them chance after chance after chance. Go back and take another sacrifice. Go back and get hung again. go back and serve another prison sentence go back and get trapped with another child just for them to disappoint you and let you down again at some point they become dead to you because the pain is too much, Sugarsk Michael says i left before she drained everything good job i'm proud of you i'm proud of you that's what's up, Scorpio Mama said mine was money hungry crazy my eggshells have turned into egg powder, Mark Lewis what's up oh man you're right Queen Leandria, they tried to leave us broken and hateful they did still owe me money from divorce after five years says Scorpio Mama jesus oh man it's crazy i know what you're going through, Dario 05 says crazy thing i can't get this woman out my head yeah i know what you're going through i know what you're going through it's because you died for her that's why it's crazy it's hard to let somebody go that you fully gave your all to i'm talking about your all a lot of y'all would have gave these people the last piece of the last follicle on your head if you had to. I'm talking about real, real unconditional love. Some people may argue that, but I call it unconditional love because you were innocent to it. A lot of empaths are highly codependent. But to me, what that means is a lot of empaths are just selfless lovers because they go into love situations innocent they do it's not fair for for people to want people to feel like you know just because they have codependency issues that it's their fault that someone abuses them that is sick thinking to me like if anything use that as okay let me work on my codependency issues but some people may never be able to stop being who they are you know so I'm just like you got to punish yourself for being who you are that's to me is crazy it's crazy but we live in a world where you have to understand that everybody is not like you everybody is not like you no they are not and one of the things that we learn when the old version of us die is we learn to be more firm and we change and update those beliefs that we all have carried those those beliefs that's made us become conditional lovers because to fall in love with a narcissist means that we accepted being conditional lovers we thought we were unconditionally loving them but the love they were giving us was conditional love and we accepted it because we were so used to that but when we die at the end of the abuse at the end of the relationship when we entered into our healing moment that old version of us let go of some of those beliefs and I really strongly believe that one of those, at least for me, is the abuse damaged my belief that underneath it all, we've all got a heart. I had to change that belief because that has cost me. I've always had a belief of everybody is like me. Everybody has a heart. Everybody is kind. Everybody is nice. Everybody is going to treat you like you treat everybody. And that is not true. That is not true that old version of you to to to damage beliefs like there's goodness in everybody there isn't there isn't to to to damage a belief like okay we can easily see the bad in people no we can't no we can't easily see the bad in people so the old me that thought that we can easily see the bad in me and people had to die and now the new me knows better because i've learned that it takes a lot more to discern and to fully know what you're dealing with because before I married a narcissist I was way too open to love way too open to love and I had my own vision of love that now I see clearly was never realistic and I have to be fully transparent and honest with myself about it fully. My belief of we all have a good heart is the reason why I chose to ignore red flags. So when I chose to end that relationship, I didn't only choose to end the relationship. I chose to end that version of myself that had beliefs that has cost me a lot of pain in my life because I felt like I had died for that person to even get me to where I was. So that meant that it was time for me to treat them like they were dead because the sacrifice that I made got me nowhere and I quickly had to change the narrative I quickly had to change the narrative I strongly believe that empaths will always always beat the narcissist always because we live in the grace of God and the narcissist does everything to please the devil and that is my strongest belief That is why we're able to survive what we went through and come out as survivors. We died for these people. And after so much, we accept that we have to move on, forgive ourselves, move forward. And that means to treat them like they're dead. You have to. This is a survivor's most painful story. It is. One of the most painful things to do is walking away from people that you care about and love. but we have to kill those old versions of ourselves because these people don't love us and they are not loving people. They're not to be loved. It's a waste to love these people. To love them is to just accept a prison sentence. I think it was a good thing that in the beginning we killed certain versions of ourselves because we almost had to allow ourselves to be broken. Like I said with the perfume bottle example, we almost had to allow ourselves to be broken so that we can smell who we are. Our aura needed to take control of us. We needed to be consumed by our own aura so we can wake the hell up. A lot of us, that's what we need. We need an ultimate wake-up call. That's what we needed. And a lot of us got it. A lot of us got exactly that. Exactly that. Andrea Ansley, I see you. She said, it's in me. Queenly Andrea, I choose me. Self-love and I'm still thriving. Amen brother, hype man, nerd for the word, what's up, I see you in the house, oh my goodness, I see y'all here in this chat though but yes, I definitely had to stop in and drop that word on tonight because oh my god, Rosemary Valentine, Ohio in the house, what up Ohio, okay I see y'all, the ghetto guru, it's crazy because I had a dream last night with you and my narcissist ex in it, I'm trying to still break down the meaning of it with you who is you, that sound crazy, Chicago in the house, what up Chicago, Alexandria Summit says new job, see that's what's up, that's what's up, blessings that's what's up, I love it, I love it, Oasis, no contact and low contact family for all narcs yep, that's the best way to go, get away if you can, Tina Summer, summer, summer, I am awake now and don't like this person anymore, I can't stand his voice anymore, trying to figure out how I fell in love with him, trying to make my exit for me and my boys, whoo, you have woke up, the old you is dead welcome the new you, embrace, embrace new beginnings that's all that means, it means it's time for new beginnings, it's time for a new life, you have been awoke, I love it, I love when people wake up to what's happening to them in their world with a narcissist because the motivation behind getting away, it's a, it's a game changer, you become determined to really get your life in order like whatever that means for you, you're just like man, I can't believe I've been doing this Oh my goodness, who is this just dropping in checking in, Mitchell Williams, what's up? Thanks for the interview, hope all is well. Good word tonight, don't be crying on here mommy Mitchell Williams, God bless you. Why you do that to me tonight, man? You didn't even have to do that somebody don't be crying on here, I'm trying to get off so I don't cry, oh my god, and today was today was very sensitive for me, um you guys because I don't know if y'all know, but um I am coming out of a marriage with a narcissistic man um and actually next month will be a year that I jumped on YouTube to share my story and and created this community with all of you and um this past Friday I was reminded that that was the two-year mark of that marriage Friday the 13th, isn't that crazy? We got married on October 13th and um it's so crazy, that's what led for me to talk about this tonight and I want to just share that briefly before I let you guys go, um it forced me to think about it this entire weekend, you know, just just being in my thoughts about everything, like God, how did I get here, you know because I, I thought I was just getting married and then I woke up one day and I'm on YouTube telling people about a damn narcissist like how did I get here, you know and um God just been dealing with me and um I've had to face a lot of myself and um you know just be real with myself, be real with everything that's happening and that's what led me to the word for today, I'm just like you know what, so many of us we we we gave ourselves to these people in so many ways that you literally feel like you're dead at the end of this um I don't even know how to explain it but if you know you know you know if you know you know for so many of us we should have probably died in the hands of a narcissist like really died many of us are suffering with chronic illnesses many of us have PTSD many of us have CPTSD complex post-traumatic stress disorder um many of us suffer from chronic depression many of us are stuck in bed many of us are you know just going through a lot and um I just I went to God I'm like we were so innocent Lord like why you know and the way my relationship with God is set up God was just like girl you know you did too much you gave a lot but essentially you probably had to do that because you dealt with somebody who is struggling with who they are. So while they were struggling with who they are, they helped you identify who you are. And in order for you to identify who you are, I had to kill that version of you that existed, that attracted that in the first place. And so today I just wanted to make sure that I'm letting you guys understand what's happening to us and what's happening in our world. And I need you guys to stay focused and make sure that you thrive and make sure that you have compassion for yourself because you didn't ask for this but it did happen to you and you are surviving it because God is with you and we're not perfect we make mistakes you know we make mistakes and because of that the divine is on our side his grace is sufficient for us and I just want you guys all to know to hang on to know that in so many crazy ways this was meant to happen to wake you up it had to for so many of us this really saved our life we may not see that now but it's it has saved your life it has positioned you and put you right where you need to be because you think different now your mind is in a different place now some of you are praying like you've never prayed before and because of that life is going to be different doors are going to open you're manifesting differently now because you died for them they have become dead to you And I hope that message helps somebody today. That's just where I'm at. I wanted to share that with all of y'all because like Queen Leandra just said, I'm at peace. That's where we want to be. That's where we want to be. As painful as the experience is and has been, peace is where we end up going. because we've now understood the power of peace and the importance of peace and we so many of us we will never sacrifice our peace for anything ever again we will never we'll never put ourselves below anyone we'll never make somebody a priority over us and over God ever again for so many of us AJ said I never knew what peace was until now the peace that surpassed all understanding yes true peace we are all we are all loving what true peace and what true love is now and i think that is so powerful that's what makes us winners that's what makes us winners y'all so thank you guys for joining me on today's live it was beautiful to stop in and talk to you i appreciate you listening to what i had on my heart i had to let it out i'm glad i did i feel so much better ha mitchell williams thank you for making me cry because soon as you said that the tears started flowing but this is my therapy session with y'all I ain't gonna lie I needed to let it go I needed to let it out wow you guys are beautiful you guys are amazing I'm so glad you stopped in and talked to me today um and shared this time with me I will let you all go um if I didn't get a chance to read your your chat don't worry I'm gonna go back through um but I appreciate everyone who stopped in who shared their thoughts who stopped in and listened to me thank you for your time again if you are interested in memberships or contacting me for life coaching sessions all that information is in the description box below if you're interested in booking an interview to share your life story from survivor to survivor that information is in the description box below as well i'm with you all beautiful people thank you all for your time stay blessed stay true and i'll be back very soon i will see you all soon take care wherever you are greetings from germany i see you nicole nicole little niggie tort and more that's funny all right stay blessed you guys oh y'all have some very creative names i love it y'all stay blessed until next time beautiful people