BECAUSE THEY HIDE Behind A MASK. #narcissist #narcissism #npd

Hello, it's a lovely, beautiful Sunday. Hello, lady. Hey, Jennifer, Sam, Kayla. How you ladies doing? Cecilia Valdez, hola. I see y'all stopping in, checking in. It's a beautiful Sunday. Yes, it is indeed. Even better now, I get to check in with my people. I had to. I've been sick, y'all. I have been, man. y'all probably can hear it a little bit today bear with me keeping it 100 how you doing i see you thank you for stopping in what's up guys how y'all weekend going yeah i'm i'm pushing through man i've been sick this week i had to take some time and just recover recover man the the weather change up is getting to me sometimes you gotta listen to your body and just you know take a step back Hey, a one of God, chosen vessel. Hi, sweetie. Binti Mohammed. Hello. So lovely to see you all here with me. What's up, family? Queen Leandria. I see you stopping in, sis. How you doing, love? So good to see y'all here on this beautiful Sunday. It's been a while since I've checked in with my live family. What's up? Hello from Dallas, Texas. Queen Lovely Johnson. Hello. we are happy to have you here how you doing how is dallas probably hot y'all not going through the weather change that we're going through here in georgia are y'all because my body couldn't take it and i had to i had to get myself together but i'm back today y'all i've i've changed my scheduling a little bit um because of just you know i'm trying to get stable i am now post one year since I've started my YouTube journey and so we're entering year two y'all we are officially in the second year of the journey I'm so excited she said it's cold here oh man dang I can't imagine it being cold in Texas but stay warm girl stay warm don't don't sound like me um hey Kendrick Bullock how you doing what's up family yeah man I um I moved my lives to Sunday daytime I prefer the daytime energy I don't know it's just something about the sunlight and just getting it started in the in the earlier on in the day for me you know um so I had to make that change and as time goes on I want to be able to do more lives I just haven't gotten that far in life yet, but y'all bear with me, though. I'm definitely happy to be celebrating entering year two on this YouTube journey. A lot of y'all have been rocking with me since day one, and I am so happy that y'all are here. I'm so happy that y'all are still here with me. We've been growing together, learning together, crying together, praying together. Boy, we've been going through it together, y'all, and I'm so happy to have this family. Somebody said it's 80 degrees somewhere. I need to be over there. I need to be over there. Truth Johnson, what's up? Good to have you. Good to have you. Queen Leandra, I rock with you, sis. I'm so happy you've been here since day one. Kareem Mills, that's another sister of mine. You guys, I'm just so happy to have all of y'all here. Y'all are so, so amazing to me as a support. And I just want to open up by telling you guys that and just catching y'all up on where I've been and what mommy so true been doing um but man I haven't I'm not going nowhere I haven't stopped nothing is stopping sometimes it's just you know you got to take a little time off and just regroup reset and make sure that I'm healthy for my people you know what I mean so here I am back at it bear with me if I cough a little bit today um gosh I I was hoping it'd be gone by Sunday but bear with me y'all bear with me oh 84 in Ocala, Florida, that's where you at, Queen Leandra, you in Florida I need to come see you girl I need to get out of this, get out of this cold but y'all man today I'm I'm checking in to talk to you guys about the fact that narcissists will always and forever hide behind a mask. Always and forever. Somebody said the sun is my energy. Yeah, the sun is my energy. It is. It feels great. I love it. Paris, Texas in the house. What's up, Deborah? We see you. We see you. But yeah, man, today's topic, today's title we're talking about because they hide behind a mask why am I talking about today why am I talking about that today man listen like I said this is my year two of this YouTube journey and what made me start it um initially what made me start it was I wanted a family channel when I got married, my goal was to, you know, put my family out there and share my journey as a married woman entering into married life and entering into family life. Little did I know that I was dealing with somebody who was hiding behind a mask. But because this person was hiding behind a mask, I have rediscovered my purpose. And it has brought me to being this mommy so true that I am right now and I know all of you I've connected with all of you and I've met all of you I've encountered all of you I've heard so many stories and I now know that I am not alone I never was and I'm not the only one who has dealt with someone who hides or has hidden behind this narcissistic mask man because so many times I can't help but to think back and look back and wonder like how did this happen like dang I was really tricked for real for real so like and and and just like a lot of survivors a lot of people who go through this initially we think that narcissists are some some people that are maybe just really into their selves these highly confident people and that's kind of what we're attracted to but it's it's it's not even real That whole aspect of what we thought is not even real because they don't even like themselves. They don't like who they are at their core at all. That's why in order to get us the way they got us, they had to mirror us. They had to mirror us and they had to mirror things around them that would make trapping us easier. so whatever the environment is however we encountered the narcissist they mirrored things out and things around that environment they watched they listened they analyzed they observed they paid close attention very very close attention they knew that you somebody who love a man who's confident they knew that you knew that was attractive they know that everybody wants that Who doesn't want somebody who comes off as confident, comes off with high self-esteem, comes off as somebody who knows what they're talking about, got their T's crossed, their I's dotted, they got a clear vision for what they want in life. They saw you and they were amazed. So it made it seem like, oh, okay, you know what you want. You see value. You're chasing it. So, okay, it's an empath. You're attracted to that. But little did you know that you were being set up. Man, I mistaken narcissists for being strong and confident. Initially, I thought, dang, these are some strong people. But I've quickly learned these are one of the most weakest people you are ever going to encounter on this earth because they hide behind a mask. The only reason why we got involved in the situations we got involved in is because they were hiding behind a mask so many of us we would have never gotten in these situationships with these people had we not had we seen what we what we know now the only way they could have got us how they've gotten us was to pretend was to lie was to be completely fake was to have this mask on, that was the only way it was going to work for me, you had to make me think that you was the ish, you had to make me think that you was like me like you want commitment like you carry some good morals, like you really value marriage, you had to love bomb me so strongly to make me feel like this was the way for me to go I have met my match I have met my partner this is my soulmate, can't nobody tell me nothing, oh they had to, they had to marry you, it was the only way, in a lot of us were very strong-minded if they, if they didn't come the way they came we were never going to go for it, they were never going to be able to tear, tear down our walls of insecurities, they were never going to be able to get us to say hey, they were never going to be able to get our phone numbers to start a conversation with us, it would have never went that far had we known what we know now, they had to come fake, they had to plot and make sure that it was strategically planned for you to be tricked because there's no other way, I look back and I'm like man, I've spoken to so many survivors and I'm like man hold up sis you're so strong, you're so intelligent, you're you're, you're amazing, you went through that, I talked to some men, I'm like whoa, the type of man you are, you went through that, oh yeah they plotted, they planned and they only got you how they got you because they hide behind a mask, the greatest pretenders of all time, the greatest deceivers of all time. And they're doing it not only to just deceive you and not only to just get into your life and to ruin you, but because they desperately need you. They hate who they are. They most likely don't even know who they are. They're running from who they are because who they are is somebody who is tied into a whole bunch of past of perverted situations, a whole bunch of sexual trauma that they can't even talk about because a lot of it they probably initiated these people are some really sick people and when they meet you they're hiding behind a mask because they're too ashamed to be upfront and honest about the sick person that they've actually been their whole life their whole entire life they were extremely sick before you these people carry some deep dark disgusting secrets that nobody can ever find out. The only way to make sure nobody ever finds out is to make sure that I be a different person. I switch up and change up around everybody. I be a certain way for this person, that person, and that person so nobody can ever really figure out the real me because they hide behind a mask. That's the only way they can get into the life of people like me and you. You had to lie. You had to. You had to come off as something that you're not. That was the only way that I was going to entertain you. You had to make me think that you were something like me. My light shines so bright. You couldn't help but to notice it. So off rip, you're like, oh, I got to do whatever I can do to match up to that energy. But little do they know that you can never match up to the energy of a real one. The significance about being a survivor of narcissistic abuse is knowing how victorious you are because you know you you see that you've been dealing with such a weak individual such a powerless individual because if you had to come into my life on a lie you're weak you are so weak and I don't have no reason to be afraid of you there's no reason for me to think that you could ever beat me in your own sick game you're weak you came into the door weak you came into the door with weak tactics so weak that you had it misconstrued and you thought that I was never going to catch on and rip that mask off your face oh that's where they had us messed up at that's where they had us messed up at because as sick as they are they didn't realize that this because they're fake it doesn't mean that you are just because they're weak it doesn't mean that you're weak yeah you came in you did all of this now everything you loved about me you hate everything you know about me all this data that you've collected you're using against me now in the relationship now it's now a competition and a fight we're fighting about stuff that shouldn't even be fought about because they're weak and because they've been hiding behind a mask and the longer that a real one has been in a relationship with them they can no longer contain that mask it slips and slips and slips and slips every argument no matter how much they twist your words no matter how much they try to make it seem like you're the problem or you're at fault for things you're so real your realness overrides them all the time that's why the relationship does not escalate to nothing great as time goes on the mass just slips and slips and slips until they cannot they can't contain it no more they can't pretend no more they can't fake be sweet no more some of them don't even care to lie after a point they don't they don't even care to lie and sneak they just belligerently do it in your face now they just letting you see exactly who they are for who they are the truth is out it's exposed at first you did it to win me over you mimicked me you tried to create a sense of connection that's how you got into my world you tried to show genuine interest as if you cared about the things I care about because you're not a fool for falling in love with a narcissist. You're not a fool for marrying them. You're not a fool for being with them for all the time that you were because they hide behind a mask. So many people find the situation confusing because of that. You don't even know what you're dealing with because it's so wishy-washy. Like, damn, I see some good. I saw some good, but damn, it's so much bad. I can't help but to notice that something this up this person is not who I think they are it can't be it just it just doesn't make any sense you never you've never known such a fake person until you've encountered a narcissist until you've been in a relationship with a narcissist you'll never know what a fake person really is like or what being with someone fake really truly is like and what it really looks like you'll never know this is the fakest of the fake I mean if you think about narcissistic parents so fake look at how they change around people look at how they switch up in public got you looking crazy that's why so many of you feel alone because you do end up looking crazy like damn this is not the person that you are when we're at home now we at church you you this giver you this ultimate big time lover wait a minute at home you a whole demon though at home you don't even talk to me though you somehow connect with everybody else but not the people you say you love because you're always wearing a mask and as a narcissist that's all it's about it's always it's about protecting that mask the reason why you got discarded the reason why you were being devalued for real for real is because they were losing control the mask was slipping as a survivor of narcissistic abuse I've learned I've learned there's so much power in it for you because you're dealing with someone who is completely powerless. They devalue because they're losing control over you. They devalue because their mask is slipping. They devalue because they're starting to lose their their their their sense of act is falling apart. And the real that the realness that you are makes it harder and harder for them to uphold the mask. the mask is so hard to hold on to when you're dealing with a real one because I'm gonna make you face your ---- I'm gonna make you stand on everything that you lie about and everything you say you're not lying about, prove it I'm gonna ask you some questions, I'm a corner that narcissist with questions, stand on that I'm going to make you discard me because to devalue an empath is crazy, making how you gonna devalue something that's more valuable than you it's because they're hiding behind a mask they devalue because there is a mask and the fact that that mask is slipping it's time to make you feel like how they really feel on the inside which is empty they're coming for you because they hate who they are and while they tried to be in a relationship with you and they fooled you in the beginning being in a relationship with you was actually hard because you have to match my energy dude you might have lied in the beginning you told me you was this you about this life you do this you all oh okay now you in a relationship so prove it now you gotta wake up to me every day so prove it you can't can you because you're not real you you you can't you can't can you because you're not real everything about your character is fake thing about who you are so because they hide behind a mask every time somebody call me and tell me they miss a narcissist I say man run your ass into a wall right now go punch a wall right now and then and then tell me if you still miss them go punch a wall because that's who that's what you miss you miss being in love with a wall you miss something that did not exist you miss something that don't do nothing but cause you pain it's nothing but a headache you miss someone that hides behind a mask you don't even know what you love you don't even know what you miss what do you miss please tell me please tell me every time I ask a client that you know what happens silence we sit on the phone for silence because there's no answer what do you miss what do you really love now that you know what they really are what is there to love what is there to miss that's how you know a trauma bond is real because once you see a narcissist you know that this is a narcissist how can you even put narcissist and I still love them in the same sentence narcissist and I still miss them narcissist and I love them and I miss them and I want to be with them and I miss them and I love them. What do you love? What do you miss? And what are you missing? And what are you loving? Because what you just told me is you were in love with somebody who hides behind a mask. So what did you love? Who are you in love with? The mask? Can I get somebody to answer? Because I don't have an answer. Nobody ever does. Because if you miss the fake good that they showed you, you're really tripping. Because the good with a narcissist does not outweigh the bad. Not at all. Not at all. Even on a good good good good good day even if you had a good good good good good week with them the next six weeks it was almost delusional it was like riding in a fantasy world with them because when you look behind it underneath it there was nothing there they created memories that meant nothing because look at how they treated you after the memories were created you created memories with somebody who had a whole mask on all the laughs was it real because now you discovered that this person ain't even happy nothing can make them happy so were they ever real when they were happening when they had those moments of laughter was it really laughter were you really because that you're this person who just is so full of hate now all this darkness like what is that so all of that that i thought was light was an illusion because you've been hiding behind a mask how could i not run for my life how could i not seek healing oh my god thank you so much for super chat focus I see that he says she was so sweet and loyal in the beginning now she avoids me exaggerates the truth silent treatment talking to everyone but me then flirts with me says she loves and adores me then ghosts me because she's hiding behind a mask thank you for sharing that thank you for dropping that this is why you could never be a loser by choosing to walk away this is why you can never be a loser by going no contact by breaking it off with them and then for those who are in the situations with them this is why you switch up the game now you devalue them now you find a reason to discard that ass because they're hiding behind a mask you're dealing with somebody who's fake that's why it's exhausting for you here you are this real person trying to do all this real stuff you giving in you you putting in the realest of the realest man your time your effort your money everything about what you're putting it is a thousand hurts when someone on the other end is not reciprocating that and you are being genuine, how could you not pack up your ---- and go, could you not look back and laugh at that clown and know that you've made the best decision in your life because they do not deserve you the best decision you could have ever made was to turn your back on that narcissist because they are hiding behind a mask and they're proud of it they're proud of it, they'll sit there and fake cry in your face, fake apologize just to keep you in the situationship, sit there and fake confess how dirty they really are just to keep you in the situationship, tell you enough to make you feel sorry for them so they can keep holding on to that mask and drag you along in the situationship for as long as you're willing because you have the power. They don't. Everything about your handling with a narcissist, your experience with them, the power is in your hands. They're powerless. They have to lie to get you. They have to steal. They have to cheat. They're not real about you. That's why they won't fight for you. They won't fight for that relationship. They are never going to do it because that's not what they want. That's not what they're truly after, that's not what they care about, it has nothing to do with that, that's what you want because you're a real one so just realize that as a real one, choose yourself and let that fake mask wearing entity go the best thing you can do for yourself dealing with a narcissist whether it's a relationship or whether it's family members is cut them off because they are hiding behind a mask, you're forever going to be looking like the crazy one trying to explain what's happening trying to make sense of it trying to be the one who's making logical, like it's, it's just too much for you because they're hiding behind a mask man and even when you rip that mask off of them, they're still finding a way to keep it because they got to protect their image in front of everybody else outside of you you might rip that mask off but they got to save face that's why they assassinate character that's why smear campaign exists because they're hiding behind a mask and they care only about that mask. A narcissist is more in love with that mask they have on than you. They are more in love with protecting and keeping that mask on than they love you or those kids that they have. It's about that mask. It's about being able to trick people so they can keep getting their narcissistic supply and getting rid of people when they no longer give them that narcissistic supply. They are hiding behind a mask. That's why you're victorious when you disconnect from them. You're doing yourself an ultimate favor by disconnecting from them because they are hiding behind a mask. A mask that they're not willing to let go. They're not ready to let go. They don't want to let go because that means that they have to actually show who they are and that is something that they do not want to do. Nobody can ever know who they really are at their core because they are ashamed of it. Who they are is this ugly, dark person who has accepted the wicked ways of moving in life. They are demonically influenced because they've allowed trauma to darken their heart. And they're too ashamed to seek proper help. So they'd rather go around and recruit people. They'd rather go around and drag people like you along with them. come in and bring you all the chaos all the drama so that you can feel empty bad and disgusted and ugly like they feel and then that way they feel better about themselves because now it's not just them they got somebody else who feels horrible too and maybe if you feel bad enough about yourself you'll keep hanging on to them and then y'all can sing kumbaya together for the rest of y'all's lives because a narcissist is in love with anybody who is willing to be in love with their narcissistic ass oh trust me that's why many have you know the story of the new supply they treating the new supply so good they love that new supply oh they doing stuff for them they never did for me as they should because the new supply ain't worried about no mask new supply ain't calling them out new supply ain't paying attention the new supply meets them right where they're at they're both narcissistically retarded so yeah they in love like a mug yeah they belong together the perfect narc the perfect narking couple they belong together let them be in love as for you though you don't work with fake people it's never gonna work out for you you care too much first of all a real one cares too much you care about stuff the average person don't care about so it just it just could never work you care about stuff that the narcissist don't even care about you care more about their health than they care about their health they falling apart out here got all kind of sicknesses illnesses falling completely apart but worried about a mask 50 60 something years old falling completely apart but worried about keeping an image worried about looking a certain way don't even know how to keep a real woman in your life they are some sad powerless weak disgusting individuals and they don't have no power over you at all. They do everything they can to make it seem like they do, but they don't at all. That's why they do the things that they do. And to be honest with y'all, man, narcissists do not smear your name and they do not ghost you and discard you and devalue you if their mask is not starting to slip with you. Trust me, things really get worse and worse with them when their mask starts to slip and slip and slide and slide. And really, when you rip it off, that's when they really are done with you. Many are hated by a narcissist because you're too strong for them, but they're too coward and too weak to admit that or to tell you that. So they mistreat you instead. They'll lie to you instead. They'll make you feel like you're insignificant instead that's what makes them a narcissist they're sick oh y'all I was trying to talk this whole time without having to blow my nose but yeah man they are always hiding behind a mask that's why they end up defeated how you gonna win when you fake I mean you can't win with a real one when you fake I ain't gonna do nothing but rip that fake crap off and look at the real you and be like oh I'm just gonna be like turned off because they hide behind a mask many of us got to the point where we became disgusted with them to be in the same vicinity with them was like it just make you sick to your stomach you almost become allergic to them because you realize how fake they are so fake to the point where they don't lie about money they don't lie about everything it's like you lied about things you didn't even have to lie about took you through this crazy experience all because of a mask that they want to protect and hang on to for the rest for the rest of their life it's crazy making with these people but they can't they can't outdo strong ones though they can't outdo real ones though that's the funny thing about it they end up narcissistically hurting themselves trying to mess with a real one like a real one is really going to make you face yourself I'm gonna really I'm gonna really make you you're really probably you're gonna end up hating me and I'm not even doing it on purpose and as a super empath I'm gonna mess around and really make you look at yourself a narcissist is running away from looking at they self but they encounter some certain people they don't got no choice but to look at they self I got you out here acting even narcissistically more crazy I got you really hating yourself because I made you have to face yourself I made you have to look at the demon that you are because I called you out on it so many times. It's a narcissist somewhere that ain't never been called a demon so many times in their life until they met me. And now they hear it all day. Now they just can't help but to know in the back of their head, somebody done programmed it in that sick narcissistic mind. You a demon. You fake as hell. And if ain't nobody ever seen it or saw it, I did. And I'm telling you right now, you fake. And I see it. I see you. You fake. You wearing a mask and I done ripped it clean off your face and now you hate me and that's fine I want you to hate me I want you to hate me you should hate me because I'm mad that you even tricked me the way you tricked me you done wasted my time so I want you to hate me you played with my life so I want you to hate me go ahead be mad be mad find you a new supplier please because I don't got nothing for you boo boo try that with somebody else for real for real I'm not the one y'all gotta realize these people are powerless man they're powerless too many people are afraid of what the narcissist is gonna do how they're gonna perceive me what they're gonna say no man they got too much control if you're thinking like that they're hiding behind a mask and everything they're doing to you is to make sure that they can keep control over you only person that can resolve that is you by cutting that life support ripping that mask off is gonna do it letting them know that you are not the one and walking away and turning back and never looking back is going to do it. They're just hiding behind a mask, man. They are. But we see them for who they are now. A lot of us, we've been saw it, but now it's like, yeah, you can't really get past me with too much narcissistic things. I'm just like, oh, I'm onto it. I'm onto it. What's up? I heard it. I see it. I'm on to it you're hiding behind a mask I know what to ask I know I know how to get you caught up in your own narcissistic lies you're hiding behind a mask I know how to expose and embarrass you I know how to make the devil flee expose shame the devil make you face who you are because what I know now is you're not confident a narcissist is not confident they don't have no self-esteem there's no self-love there if they are showing that it's fake because to have real confidence to have real self-love to have real self-esteem is also to have some level of empathy about other people so if you really are like that to your core you would understand other people you would be patient with other people you would be more caring and empathetic with other people but a narcissist is not like that because they don't carry those qualities and that's why many of you are hated for carrying those qualities because they hide behind a mask they hate you for how your light shines you out here freely being yourself you you you confident by nature you don't have to try it you don't need nobody to boost you or validate you you don't need nobody to boost your confidence you can you can you are confident you don't need nobody to tell you you are beautiful you know you're beautiful looking for those type of validations in life you inspire and can motivate yourself they saw that they know that and they really are jealous of you for that they hide behind a mask they can't tell you who they are in the beginning because they're too narcissistically jealous of the fact that you are coming raw you're coming as yourself you're able to be who you are you don't have to pretend you don't have to lie you don't have to compete you don't have to brag about stuff you just are who you are and you're happy that way and they were jealous from the beginning that's why they married you so that you could fall in love with them and then they could hurt you because to hurt you is to break you if you're broken everything they're jealous about it means they've dimmed it that happy version of you that highly confident you to break you is to put you in depression and to rip that away from you to dim that part of you then that's what they want to see that was the whole purpose they were jealous so they hid behind a mask that's why it's been a competition more than a romantic relationship you're competing you're competing about everything it's tit for tat for what because you're dealing with somebody who is not stable in their own identity somebody who hates themselves because their true identity the core of who they are is evil wicked dark they've done so much trifling things on this earth they can't even forgive themselves for it they feel completely unworthy for their own dirt so they're hiding behind a mask making you and everybody else suffer to keep up this fake sense of a person that they've created thinking they're going to get through life like that and then here you came you're like wait hold on this is not how a relationship goes this is not how we're supposed to love on each other this is not how you're supposed to make me feel hold on you're flawed you have issues hold on for them to have to hear that you change the game for them to have to hear that something is wrong with them and that it actually is not you it's them you rip the mask off and that's why you're probably hated right now that's okay I'm a strong believer that if a narcissist is not hating on you you ain't doing something right that's my perspective that is just how I feel that is the truth for me and it is what it is because their tactics get old and when you're a real one you're just not you just don't have time for those childish games the ups and downs the competition. What am I competing with? When you really don't even carry no sense of value, what am I competing with? You're not a good husband. You're not a good boyfriend. You're not a good wife. You're not a good girlfriend. You're not a good mother, not a good father. What am I competing with? Because they hide behind a mask, cut them off. Because they hide behind a mask, quit wasting your time. Move on. Stop thinking you're still in love or stop thinking you miss them. Stop thinking you need them. Stop thinking they need you or they miss you because they're hiding behind a mask and it's always gonna be like that it's always gonna be like that this is what and who they are and the best thing we can do is accept that reality and never forget it never forget it never forget it y'all I'm so happy I was able to come and talk to y'all I told you guys I'm recovering from this crazy cold whatever the flu I don't know what to call it trying to not to sit here and keep wiping and blowing my nose on y'all but man I can't help to share that thought because we are victorious. We are victors. We're winners. We will forever be because the fact will always remain that we've been dealing with some fake individuals, some weak, powerless individuals. And the only reason why we got trapped in their matrix is because they're liars. They're deceivers. And that's the only way to get us the way. I mean, that's the only way that was the only way so it's it's time now that I'm walking into year two post this relationship I am accepting the reality of what I've dealt with who I dealt with and I know that I did not lose nothing good that I came out a winner I came out victorious that as painful as it was as painful as it has been I see the truth and the truth is I was dealing with something that was unreal real on so many parts and i can't do nothing but but see the victory behind that i didn't lose nothing lose nothing i got tricked out of a lot of ---- but i didn't lose nothing I'm dealing with a fake entity, Devil came and just you know tricked me deceived me real quick but I snapped out of it, I'm woke now, thank you for the new pair of glasses that I got on, I got laser vision. I appreciate it. Appreciate it. Because now I'm walking. I'm walking the way I need to be walking. I'm headed the direction I need to go. And I would never feel bad for walking away because they hid behind a mask. And that has nothing to do with me. That's not my problem. That's not my fault. The best thing I can do is carry on. Moving right along. Somebody said I call him Lusty Busty Trudy Shepard, yay what's up I saw many red flags 17 years ago he came into our relationship with two and a half box of porno DVDs, oh my god, Lusty Busty for sure, hell nah Ryan Wallace, pronounced Ray okay Ray Wallace, I told her she was a narcissistic puss POS, POS, what on my way out that door told her and her eyes turned black on black on black and I'll and I want you to hate me for the good and don't come back pretty please damn I'm talking about rip, rip the whole mask off they say don't call him a narcissist but I'm so sorry, why, why am I calling a narcissist, why wouldn't I want to piss you off when a narcissist gets mad at you, that narcissistic rage where they turn blue black red yellow purple their eyes turn white and black man, I think it's like confirmation to run, it's like you have, you have, you have taken their soul or something, it's like they get so demonically pissed off I ain't messing with y'all, y'all gonna have me over here blow my nose for days laughing at these clowns but they get mad, they do, they get mad, I can't help but to just think back at the rage, the times where I've said things and pissed, I just saw the demon come out like how dare you call me out that's what it be it's like how dare you call me out oh you oh you truth-telling real human being you spiritually awoke son of a gun i hate you oh boy man ah oh man you guys i had to check in man look i'm gonna continue to recover i'm gonna get rid of the rest of this that's that's hindering me because i want to be able to talk without blowing my nose but i appreciate y'all joining me in this discussion i just i i i can't help but to laugh this is where i'm at in my journey y'all i'm just like wow if i was ever afraid sad down about this i can't no more it's like i i can't i see it for what it is and i'm just like wow you are a powerless weak demonically possessed clown hmm damn okay wow you took me through one heck of an experience but it taught me exactly what you are a demonically possessed clown clown a clown you are a clown a clown hiding behind a mask i don't got time for it thank y'all for being here man i appreciate all the engagement i love it i'm gonna go back and look at a lot of these comments there's so much funny things going on in the in the chat i love all y'all thank y'all for being here man keep keep keep keep going keep fighting this good fight stay strong just like i see you guys telling me i am i'm not giving up flash cane thanks for being here thanks for stopping in thank you guys uh katie joe i appreciate it i'm gonna feel better i'm gonna continue to take care of myself and i will feel so much better um i appreciate you guys stopping in and having this conversation with me. But the rusty, crusty, dusty, busty, lusty. I love it, man. Y'all are hilarious. But it feels good to laugh. It feels good to be thriving and moving forward regardless. I'm just happy that we know the truth and we see the truth. And to all of you guys, please keep going, keep thriving. Much love. Please continue to stay positive. Thank you guys for being with me. $20, much love. Stay positive. Yes, yes, yes. Thank you all. I love you all. Stay strong. I'll be back soon. I will see you very soon. And if you're new, if today was your first live with me, please subscribe. If you want to continue to see those weekly posts from me while I continue this journey. I'm here with you. I'm here with you. And I'm available for those life coaching sessions. For those who are interested, please reach out. Description has all my contact information for you guys to reach out to me. But so much love, so much light. Take care, y'all. Until next time. Bye, guys.