Moving On From A Traumatic Past | First Dates

First dates can be awkward, can't they? Yeah. Once you get the... If you get the first five, ten minutes of awkwardness, it's about getting to know somebody a bit more. Yeah, absolutely. I'm not the most confident person in the world. One thing I am not is an alpha male. OK. So, I'm a massive Disney fan. OK. OK. OK, yes. Love Disney. Good to... That's really good to know. My love of Disney has influenced my love life and just the person that I am, I think, massively. I went on a guy's holiday last year to America and we were next door to Disney and they said to me, did you want to go in? And I said no, because I want that magical experience with my future partner or my own family. Yeah. I just want that fairytale romance. Yeah. There's always a happy ending. The princess and the prince, they get together. They live the rest of their life together, happy, and that is kind of what I'm looking for. Yeah. I'm such a family-orientated person. Yeah. I can't wait to have one of my own one day. Yeah, same. I can't wait for the whole white wedding. Yeah. My sister said, whatever you do, don't go in there and go, kids, wedding. Right, OK. It's a bit of a beefy one. I'm going to try and tackle this. This is not going to be elegant. It's fine, I'm going to do the same. It's, to be honest, you are who you are. There's no point in trying to be someone you're not. Thank you. That's fine, no worries. No, you look really nice. You do too. Thank you. So what about your dating history there? Last relationship was about 11 years. OK. And we were engaged and we were trying for a family. About two years ago, he had an accident and suffered a traumatic brain injury. You know, he will need care for the rest of his life. I mean, that must have been quite hard. To see someone that you love so much hooked up to machines, you just want to shake them and say, wake up. But you know that's not going to work. Literally, one minute you've got everything that you wanted in life, the next minute it's gone. I mean, that must have been tough. He will always be such an important part of my life. But we can't have the relationship that we once had. He can't tell me, move on or stay. He can't tell me that. So having to make this decision for the two of us is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. That has been very difficult. That must have been hard. Sorry. No, that's OK. Not a problem. So this will be my first date since my decision to start over again. I can't put my life on pause forever. I can't stay the way that I have been because he is getting all the help that he needs and I will continue to be there. I have thought of nothing but him the whole time we were together and the whole time after. And now it's time to think about myself. It's, you know, taught me to know what I want from life and just grab life and just go for it. You seem a lovely person, so it's nice. Thank you. It's nice. I think if we had any more drink left, I'd say cheers and drink. We can still do that. We can still do that and just sort of drink the ice. Yeah, yeah.