If You Struggle With Self-Worth, Watch This (Cassie Phillips Poem)

My whole life I have struggled with feeling like I'm not good enough in any kind of relationship, whether that be a friendship, a work relationship, a romantic relationship. If things go wrong, I automatically blame myself without fail. I replay everything in my head, dissecting every word and every action and every conversation, searching for ways that I messed up, wondering if I look stupid or if I said something wrong. I'm absolutely convinced that everyone will eventually get tired of me and I don't say anything about it, but I think it makes me one of those try too hard kinds of people. I do a lot to get people to like me and that's always been because I'm more worried about whether people like me instead of whether or not I like the people. I use humor and fake confidence as a mask, always trying to control things and honestly to avoid getting hurt. It doesn't work. It took a while, but I finally feel like I'm going to stop blaming myself for everything bad that happens in a relationship that was really hard to realize because honestly, it still feels like it is. I'm not in control of your feelings about me, not my circus, not my monkeys. I can only control what's in my domain. Those who want to be in my life will put in the effort. I don't feel like I need to change for people to care about me. I can define what kinds of relationships I want, the ones that serve my soul and the ones that make me happy. People who don't want to be in my life, that's okay. My happiness comes from me, not from them. So I'm letting go. It's going to take some work, but I'm going to let go. I'm letting go of that not good enough feeling. I am just going to take a deep breath and trust that the right people are going to stick around in my life. There is a poem that I ran across and it's making the rounds on the interwebs and I'm going to read it for you to hear. The author of this poem is Cassie Phillips. It's entitled, Just Let Them. If they want to choose something or someone over you, let them. If they want to go weeks without talking to you, let them. If they are okay with never seeing you, let them. If they are okay with always putting themselves first, let them. If they are showing you who they are and not what you perceive them to be, let them. If they want to follow the crowd, let them. If they want to judge or misunderstand you, let them. If they act like they can live without you, let them. If they want to walk out of your life and leave, hold the door open and let them. Let them lose you. You were never theirs because you were always your own. So let them. Let them show you who they truly are, not tell you. Let them prove how worthy they are of your time. Let them make the necessary steps to be a part of your life. Let them earn your forgiveness. Let them call you to talk about ordinary things. Let them take you out on a Thursday. Let them talk about anything and everything just because it's you that they are talking to. Let them have a safe place in you. Let them see the heart in you that didn't harden. Let them love you. Love that. I hope you like it too. Thanks for hanging out. Bye-bye.