HAVE I READ ALL THE BOOKS I OWNED A YEAR AGO? (REACTION VIDEO) ✨ this didn't go the way i planned...

if i read one of these books when i'm 30 that was obviously just the right time for me to read it not necessarily now so i'm trying not to be you keep telling yourself that i feel very attacked hi everyone welcome back to my channel i hope you're well today i thought we would just do actually a really really fun video i have scrolled back to the start of time to um the third video on my channel well it's actually this is the first video i ever filmed so it's going to make painful watching are you comfortable not scared are you scared you should be but it's the third video i ever uploaded i called it swole book call to try and get more views for it being a book haul but it was actually all of my owned books so at that point in time all of the books i owned and i thought we could go back and watch it and see how many of them i have actually read i uploaded it on september 24th 2019 so it's been over a year now i don't know how many of them i'm gonna have read like i really don't from what i can remember i think i had about 20 25 books maybe maybe a bit more at the time and i remember being embarrassed by that i remember thinking that's extraordinary this is ridiculous and obviously i had not been on booktube very long because i now have i think i'm at about 80. oh you're not ashamed of yourself are you not embarrassed probably since this video was made i read 140 books in that time period so you would hope that i have read those 20 books we were all so happy that day it's it's actually hard to even imagine how terrible things would soon become i'm going for half i'm hoping for at least half hang on i'm gonna get a i'm gonna get a notebook and i'm gonna make a telly let me know also if you would like me to do this video again like i know some people do it all of my physical owned books so let me know if you want me to do that again because i will i now have like 80. so it's quite a lot hello welcome back to my channel today two nights so i have 31 oh 31. okay that's more than i thought currently i'm really prioritizing getting through these books before i buy any more because your girl doesn't have much money the science of girls by pat barker well i've already seen our first book and that statement didn't work megan haven't read it haven't read it does anybody care oh my god do you care i think i'm gonna be reading that soon for a video but i still don't really know anything that's about next then we've got the poppy war again five stars the poppy war i loved i loved it so much i think it's a wonderful book it is the story of rin as she becomes this kind of like military figure she gets to go to this military school and it's just very much based on chinese history but set in this fantasy world and it is brilliant amazing everyone's been talking about it so you've probably known about it but i love the poppy war five stars next we've got cersei by madeleine miller haven't read it it is a story i haven't read that one isn't that cover it is pretty so pretty it is pretty doesn't mean you've read it yet though next we've got heartless by marissa i've read it um i've read success okay i'm just gonna put my head here because i'm in the shade whereas if i'm here you can't see me so um i have read heartless i gave it i think four stars it was good i didn't love it as much as something like the luna chronicles and i just think marissa mayer like there's something brilliant about her writing i really love reading her stuff it's light fun quick we're two for two what's next next we've got skyward i do have it here but it's the bottom of a stack that's up here you can just trust me but it's there i didn't actually like skyward that much well i gave it three stars it's probably more like a 2.75 i just struggled with the writing style i didn't enjoy the kind of matter of factness about it i didn't feel like the world building was very good i felt like the story was boring as [ __ ] like so boring and yeah it was a real disappointment when i read it so skyward wasn't great i don't think i'm gonna be continuing on with the series my dad didn't particularly like it either we are now three for two i've read three of them okay the last book on here is biased by jennifer eberhardt this is basically a non-fiction book about the unconscious biases that we have haven't read it this is one that i keep meaning to get around to it's very highly recommended it is about race and kind of the science of race and racism and so i think it's something that i i want to get around to but like non-fiction at the moment i'm just struggling to read as much and fit into videos and stuff like that so maybe i'll do like a yeah but no one will watch a non-fiction vlog this is my thinking like no one will give a [ __ ] about a non-fiction vlog now more than ever this is a really important book to read you know dealing with race and racism and the science of it so next to the books that i bought at full price i have the first two books in the diviners okay which is the diviners layer of dreams and then before the devil breaks you i i was so excited to read these and i went to america in april april in april and it's august september now so i've really done well at getting around to these i don't know why i'm so mad at myself for like buying a book in april and not having read it by september now that would be good thing y'all should be so ashamed of yourself it was bad i have read the diviners and layer of dreams and i have not read before the devil break shoe but i am going to be reading this i would say i think next week i think i'm going to get to read this you all know that literally for months i've been trying to fit this into reading vlogs and i haven't been able to like i've been wanting to read it so so bad i'm very excited to finally get around to it and it's not a book that i have been putting off reading i just haven't been able to fit it into a reading vlog but now i have so i'm going to be reading this very soon so this that i feel like i should get a point for because like probably by the time this video comes out i would have read it but as of now i haven't and i i can't lie to you i'm sure the polygraph was going like this like the [ __ ] is lying she's lying the first is truly devious by maureen johnson i've read it those are times where i've actually wanted to read this where i wanted a bit more of an easy read it's a kind of young adult mystery book i love mystery books i really like the names because that's because i played fancy as a kid yeah there's a lot of times i want to pick it up but then i know i want to dive into the sequel and i do want to wait until sequel comes out in paperback soon isn't that so sad so i have virtually devious i think i gave it about four stars and i have read its sequel which i didn't have at this point in time but i wanted to wait until the paperbook comes out the third book has been out for like a year but i still haven't bought it because i want them all in paperback and i heard really mixed things like last year when the third one came out i really liked it i really liked that kind of like dark academia school murder mystery but lighter ya vibe the next book i have is next year in havana by chanel cleaton um i bought this on the recommendation of riley marie one of my favorite youtubers that there is i have read that and i hated it i gave it two stars it's one of my least favorite books of the year um all right we'll not be continuing on with that series i hated it so much like it's one i just hate i just hated it i'm sorry riley like i know we agree on a lot of other things but this book just no no no no no i was really polly written the romance was shy the plot was shy everything about it was shy i didn't like it but at least i've read it at least i get a point for that and then the last book that i have i bought for prize was mark atwood alias alice grace by margaret atwood all the way around margaret atwood i would say is one of my favorite authors however i have not read one of her books since i made this video i have wanted to read this book for so long the thing is though it's a very intimidating book it's quite long like how like it's over 500 pages it's historical fiction it's a bit more dense i don't know it's just not the kind of book that i reach for when i'm having to read three books a week for a video but i do want to read it soon like i want to get through more of margaret atwood's back list but i haven't read it i haven't read it so i don't get a point there's no competition here there's no one else fighting to get points but i am upset if i do not get a point so next we've got all the books that i've bought um produced um at used bookstores i did not buy books reduced that much anymore i mean like for the past seven months how long have we been living in this hell there haven't really been a chance to because a lot of the second-hand stores i would usually go to have been shot and i haven't been traveling as much i might actually get a couple 2018 this isn't going to go well i haven't read these the first is the wifi i haven't read it by hendrix and sarah i mean i've got no reason not to read it if it fits in a vlog i'll read it but i haven't felt particularly inspired to read it i feel like i don't read this kind of domestic woman against woman woman crazy thriller very i don't really like that i don't think this is not for me no but i will still read it and like all of these books that i bought second hand were like a pound so it's not really the end of the world but i haven't read it but the next one i've already seen is the seven deaths of evelyn hardcastle let's hear what i say first but i have not read that either then i also got seven yes heaven hardcastle for a pound um with sprayed edges and it looks completely new i don't even know if anyone has read this so i have not read this yet either however i do have it planned for a vlog and i will be reading it within the next month that's all that bad like like before the devil breaks you i'm getting around to them really soon anyway i've got both uh half of your son by to amanda ngozi adichie and america okay bye to amanda negotiating i've never read her fiction i've listened to a lot of her speeches i've read americana i haven't read half of the ghetto sand i really liked americana i gave it like four stars it was a really interesting discussion of race and examination of race and critique of racist societies and microaggressions but it was dense it was heavy and so i feel like it's gonna take me a hot a second before i end up getting around to half of the yellow sun i'm very intimidated by it but at least i've read one of them you did your best but i guess your best wasn't good enough next the help by catherine well we need a new category so i have unhauled that book because i just never realized how racist it is i don't know why i don't know i think i wasn't very clued up on like book discourse and discussion around books and i now know it's a very racist book so i unhauled it i got red then we got catch 22. now we need another new category again this is an absolute classic for a lot of people but i've never read it next is white teeth by zadie smith i've heard polarizing things about zadie smith okay let's talk about these next two books in succession i dnf'd both catch 22 and yt i at the start of the year this hasn't continued but at the start of the year i started this like mug where i put the books i was most intimidated by and i had to pick one a month it lasted like two months because i dnf'd both the books i feel like white teeth is one i'm never coming back to like i have no interest in reading that but catch 22 i may read like i i still hold the door open for that one it's not currently on my like physical tbr but i would be interested in giving it a go at some point in the future i'm sorry about the lying please don't hate me like it's just really uncooperative today the sun i'm not your friend of piss off lastly we've got a tournament by ian mcewen um i'm not a big fan of the cover this isn't going well cover and this one is a bit battered again it's like a classic so um when i saw this i was actually really excited to pick it up you're not reading that quickly says you can just tell when i'm talking about these books and i'm going oh it's a classic so i had to pick it up like you can just tell i don't actually have that much of an interest in reading it i didn't have a clear identity on what i enjoyed and what i liked reading i didn't know who i was like i still want to read this but the point is i bought all of these books not knowing who i was i didn't know me it is a classic i should read it at some point am i going to get around to it soon no i'm not i'm just not i can't see what it is by hearing mantle and everyone's excited about the third book in the series coming out soon it's very long yeah you don't say it so wolf hall haven't read this is getting worse and worse i thought i was doing okay i lost the hope today i'm empty it's massive like when am i ever gonna get around to this never i mean one day i will i do love kind of tudor fiction like i don't ever read it but i love the idea of it it's again that kind of literary fiction that i thought obviously i wanted to read but evidently don't now the next book i'm gonna put under unhaul mad adam whatever it's called by margaret atwood because i didn't know at the time this is actually like the third book in a series or something i'm pretty sure i've taken it off my physical tbr list technically i've put it on unhaul for the purposes of this video but it wasn't an unhaul because i didn't want to read it it was just an unhaul because i actually couldn't read it next please next we've got a battered version of we need to talk about kevin by lionel i'm not even going to listen to myself talk about it i don't even want to hear myself talk about it i still have it i haven't read it i've heard some like mixed things about the author and this book since i hauled it next we've got warlight by michael again i'm not listening to myself talk about it these books like i just get angry at myself because i i have no idea what i want to read at this point in time like i don't care i don't even know what this book is about it's at the end of the war i don't know my mum told me it was good it is writ to be fair out of all these books this is under 300 pages so like maybe i'll get around to this soon next we've got rebecca by daphne du maurier [Music] i'm gonna cry where is it okay so obviously i haven't read it i'm such a failure i thought i'd be getting way better at this stop it's actually painful to watch i did have plans to read this next week however i do not think i'm going to have time to get around to this one i do really want to read this i do want to get back into classics because i think i read them more so before i had my booktube channel i think on booktube there's just a pressure to read what's just come out what's new what's hype what's been generally hyped the past five years and it means that just classics aren't something i reach for i put them off i don't read them i still really want to give daphne du maurier's works a try so this is actually the most positive one we've had in a while [Laughter] so lastly we've got the non-fiction books non-fiction the first is ways of seeing oh okay i've read that i didn't enjoy it i think i gave it like two or three stars but i had to read it for a course i was doing but at least it means i've read something next we've got the power of now by eckhart tolle i'm quite into meditation and uh self-improvement and all that kind of stuff i have read that i think i gave it three stars and then i unhauled it because i read it mainly by audiobook anyway it was such an old tad copy i didn't feel like it was particularly enlightening i didn't care about it so i unhauled it but i've put it in red because like i did read it i don't think i really want to read stuff like that anymore next is forgotten women the leaders by zing string um i believe that's what's back on it boys this is a series part of a series all about powerful women through history i really love learning about women in history who have kind of been forgotten illustrations in here are beautiful each page has a different style of illustration yeah i loved this i think i gave it four or five stars maybe 4.5 i cannot wait to read the rest of this series i don't currently own the rest of the series but it was just such a cool look at forgotten women throughout history and getting to finally tell their story and talk about them and recognize the influence that they've had so i loved it loved that one we have the secret barrister um by the secret barrister also look at the uk justice system it's many issues and flaws secret barrister was fine it was fine it was like three stars it was interesting but it wasn't particularly engaging you know that's just my opinion everybody got an opinion second to last is the beauty myth by menomie wolfe fastly is educated by tara westover this is the story of a girl who wasn't really educated okay so those last two haven't read the beauty myth is so short where is she i'll read this at some point it's so sure i'll probably read it for like a readathon or something because it's only just over a hundred pages and obviously the book is like tiny educated i still want to read i think someone has my copy i don't know where my copy's gone so there we have it i did not do as well as i thought i should have kept my moof claws that's embarrassing that's actually embarrassing i'm actually ashamed in myself but i think it just shows that i didn't know my reading taste at the time i didn't know what i enjoyed reading what i wanted to read these 17 books that i haven't read yet they are all still books that i want to read evidently i haven't unhauled them but i think for a lot of them it will be quite a long time until i get around to them because i'm just not excited as i am as excited with a lot of my other book if i read one of these books when i'm 30 that was obviously just the right time for me to read it not necessarily now so i'm trying not to be you keep telling yourself that i feel very attacked so let me know if you enjoyed this video i'm going to be doing a few more reactive videos um in the next few months so keep a look out for that i enjoyed it until i lost i didn't i don't like the fact that i haven't read as many of them as i wanted to have read but listen it'll happen one day i'll read it one day but um yeah thank you very much for watching i will see you very soon in another video [Music] bye [Music] you