MEET THE ALTERS MAKING VIDEOS! Regular Fronters & Switch on Camera | Dissociative Identity Disorder

[Music] Hello everybody welcome back to another video by dissociated if you don't know what the dissociated project is the dissociated project is dedicated to raising awareness about dissociative identity disorder and other trauma Related Disorders a lot of you have questions on who are regular fronter are who are you most likely to see in these videos who are the people speaking to you so this is going to be a rundown of our most regular fronter that you are most likely to see on the channel of course other altars do make videos and you will run into them on the channel some of them already have their own meet the Alters videos where they introduce themselves and tell you about who they are in their own words from their own mouth my name is Mike my God I am Sally my name is Mara my name is Omega my name is Ka my name is Chloe it's Kyle my name is Nadia my name is Jade my name is n my name is Ruby my name is Mama my name is Nina my name is Gregory my name is Mary I'm sain my name is Jake my name is CA these are just the people you are most likely to meet making videos for the dissociative project at the point of me filming this first of all there's Kem and red you're probably less likely to see them fully fronting but they are almost always co-conscious with our host sain chem and red are our host's personal protectors they exist and work separately from the rest of the system but are able to communicate with some altars like m especially if they are close to the front or nearby to each other they split off together and they work as a Duo to help the host function red taking care of emotional support and encouragement whereas chem takes a more forward-facing role in terms of defense and support you might have noticed my voice changing then I think Jade got closer to front because I'm talking about Alters within the system you'll usually be able to spot Kem If you notice her voice taking on a Gravely tone he can be harsh direct Snappy and overconfident he doesn't tolerate any disrespect and generally dislikes people who haven't proven themselves in his eyes these are great characteristics in a protector but can be a little bit intense and confronting for people external to the system who might not have realized they're not showing either saign or chem or red enough respect red on the other hand is an absolute ball of sunshine we love red everybody loves red you guys love red he's been on Tik Tok like twice and the comments were like we love this guy so yeah all of us agree we all love red he is fantastic emotional support and he's very close to both Kem and the host sain but it is important that as much as we will adore red don't let his golden retriever personality fool you into thinking that he's a pushover he's strong confident and very sincere and he places a lot of importance on respect kindness and connection my name is Jade Jade is one of our highest level Gatekeepers she may make specific videos on her own or she may come closer to front to keep an eye on what people are saying publicly when it has something to do with our personal system as a gatekeeper my role is important high stress high demand she can control who has access to what Memories as she is in charge of memory filing so she can force Amnesia upon an altar or take memories from them I protect altars from each other I protect us from our own memories I protect from the realities of the abuse that we experienced and the trauma that came separately and and resulted from that it is significant if you are hearing from her in a dedicated video there's a chance that there's probably big trouble coming or it's a situation where we need to choose our words very carefully I'm actually I think I'm actually going to get chucked out you may lose me sorry um maybe I'm waiting see if there's going to be a switch or well not a switch or I can just feel her like looking at me disapprovingly like arms crossed uh I'm also the most protective in terms of vocalizing for the system I have a very sharp tongue I can be very firm and I'm also told that I can be quite unnerving because of how direct I am I do not pull punches I say what I mean and I choose my words very carefully I do not say anything that does not need to be said it is interesting to see how saurin sees me based on what he's put in his notes I'll just read to you what he's said Jade is firm eloquent and can be quite biting saurin has written she doesn't mince her words and will tell you exactly where the situation stands in a manner that is polite but leaves no room for argument or misunderstanding he's correct Jade is in charge of memory filing and can help control which altars have access to what Memories this can include forcing Amnesia after or during events on specific altars also correct also a fan favorite on the channel when she shows up to lay down the law many of you have said that she feels like she's looking through the camera into your soul and notice a difference in posture as well as voice and language I wouldn't say I'm a fan favorite this is news to me see now everybody's confused because now it's sain Jade and red and Kem all relatively close to front and nobody knows who's doing what oh I need to ground ground come on we need to get this filmed chances are you'll know Jade immediately when you see her unless she doesn't want you to know that she's there in which case you will not know this also means that I am aware of a lot I have experienced abuse myself and I have witnessed understood or filed memories of abuse and Trauma for other altars I know I may come across as harsh but I'm not vind addictive I'm bitter but I'm logical and I am measured and I have to be as a gatekeeper that is integral to be able to do my job effectively correctly there is little room for error another alter you're very likely to run into on the channel is Mike hi everybody my name is Mike if you followed our other social medias you're probably relatively familiar with me it's not unusual for me to be popping up on Tik Tok or switching out during the gaming streams on Twitch which our twitch is the system stream I'm a trauma holder I dealt with it badly not anywh nearest destructively is a lot of other people in the system and now people on the internet have called me Class Clown Mike is a protector and a recovered persecutor he's a lovable and funny guy and a fan favorite on the channel Mike may have a meet the alter's video on the channel you did a meet the alter's video right he's not close enough to tell me I don't know I just sound like an idiot speaking to nobody Kem says he thinks that he did do one okay me and K will end up sort of on top of each other or confronting and then we'll be arguing over who's doing what or how you know the body using the analog stick or whatever I'll be pulled front if there's like a lot of action or or a lot of brain work needs to be done and that originated as me wanting to distract because if I was focusing on these puzzles I couldn't be focusing on running from my trauma despite being a recovered persecutor and a very good protector he still struggles with expressing himself in healthy ways and connecting to people in a healthy manner he uses humor as both a defense and a deflection and A coping mechanism ISM he can be hilarious and energetic but he can also come across as harsh and insulting if his humor doesn't land right he'll also tell you what he thinks and won't be around the bush I am a guy who has a lot of humor a guy who's maybe a little bit mean sometimes but I don't mean to be mean it's just the best way I know to communicate when I'm not happy with something and sometimes I'm just funny because I am inherently hilarious frankly and that's a core part of who I am I have changed in the last 5 years I've gone from being a very very traumatized standoffish nasty person to be around to having some serious growth things are different now and and I am Greatful for my system oh Grim cheesy as if you aren't prepared to hear blunt truths that may feel very confronting don't ask Mike you'll be able to recognize him from a slightly lower tone of voice and like most of our male altars he has an Essex accent Sally is one of our most wonderful and beautiful caretakers hello everybody my name is Sally she usually stays and functions within the inner World itself and takes care of the majority of our young child altars which within the community are colloquially known as Littles lot of time in the inner world looking after the children now so a lot of what I do is is soo soothing the system I do do a lot with the children they'll either sit with me while I Garden or they'll sit on my lap in my rocking chair she has a very calm and feminine energy and is spectacular at comforting others and calming them down I'm more of an inner a caretaker I work mostly on the inside I used to exist primarily to sooth Chloe especially when she was having panic attacks or major depressive episodes if somebody calls you my darling in a comforting voice it's probably Sally Sally also has two accents she can be very classically English RP accent or sometimes she has a very American accent and this is because As a caretaker Sally adjusts it does seem to be just those two things but she will adjust to use the voice of whatever will feel the most comforting to the altar who is in need of comfort at the time we grew up in England in Essex and we were surrounded by people with different accents whether that be classically English RP accents strong Essex accents which a lot of our male Alters have and watching a lot of American television so Sally seems to pick up on the American and English side of things as what would bring the most comfort so dedicated to trying to change lives I guess trying to help and I I find that very inspiring and I think that we're lucky to have been given such a platform to be able to explore that and if we're helping people along the way then what more could we ask for Mary is our sunshine girl she is one of our trauma-free altars who holds no memories of abuse hello my name is Mary it's spelled m a e r i and I am um a physical external caretaker my role is essentially what Sally's role is except Sally's role is internal and mine is external so I help the body to relax and to calm down and help us remove ourselves from things like working or stresses or triggering things so that the body doesn't get overwhelmed she helps us to do things that will Cal the body down help us find enjoyment in life and allows us to do things that certain traumatic experience we might have had would have stopped us from doing in the past or the Alters who hold memories of trauma may be unable to do for themselves I'm really glad with the changes that I've brought into the system I'm really happy with my role I'm not a trauma holder my system is intense there's a lot of characters like strong strong personalities strong characters in our system some people who aren't very nice some people who are absolutely lovely I'd love to know Sally better I've only met her in passing Mara is fun to be around but very chaotic um Mike is also quite chaotic I'm happy to be here she's fantastic at helping us find small Joys and contentment in our life wherever we can I'm calm but I can get excitable I like cute stuff I like calm things I like reading if we had the chance to go outside more I think I would really enjoy walking around and being in nature she can be a little bit ditsy she still gets lost in the inner World sometimes despite having been there a while now but she is a sweet and funloving spirit through and through who looks for the positives in life wherever she can and last but not least is our host saurin who is mostly me we've still got Kem and red around um at the minute but mostly this is sain hello I'm our current host I am the result of an incredibly complicated interrupted Fusion our previous host Ka and another alter Mara were successfully fusing last year after years of trying to recover from work through and process their traumas together unfortunately this Fusion was interrupted by another traumatic event about 3/4 of the way through that Fusion occurring experiencing such a r traumatizing and traumatizing on its own crime Midway through that Fusion resulted in a split both Alters resulting from that split continued to partially fuse while integrating the new trauma the result of that is that I sain and my sister present as twins who are sometimes in the same body in the inner world we have never had such a complicated experience with splitting and fusing and we're learning and trying to figure it out as we go we're hoping that my sister and I will eventually fuse as well we'll see but essentially I am the result of Ka and Mara fusing and then integrating another new trauma event my preferred pronouns are he him but I obviously don't act particularly masculine most of the time but doesn't change who I am or how I view myself as existing I stick to decisions better than Ka did and Ka was good at sticking to decisions I'm also a lot firmer and just as KY was extremely protective of my system and those are the alers that you are most likely to meet making videos for the dissociated project thank you so much for watching this video if you'd like to see behind the scenes outakes bloopers and help vote on what videos you want to see next you can tell us hey saen guys Mike Kim red anybody anybody in this video too to be honest we want to see this next you can go to our patreon where you can vote you can see all the behind the scenes stuff about how our system interacts you can get merch which is things like this handrawn art you can get stickers you can get posters you can get hoodies you can get whatever you want you can also see upcoming clips and hints of what videos are coming next before anybody else has any idea of what is going to be publicly available and also some videos that may be cut that we've said you know what actually no we're not happy with that going public for whatever reason but they will be exclusively released on patreon as and when that happens so if you would like to join our patreon you can join from just1 or $1 a month or the equivalent in your currency and we would love to see you there we are also in a court battle against Sergio Costa if you don't know who Sergio Costa is and what he did to us we have a playlist called what happened to dissoci did where you can find out everything that happened to the court case and what this man has done we use crowd Justice which is a crowdfunding platform that sends money straight to our lawyers we don't get to touch that money we don't even get to see that money and it can only be used for this specific court case anything against SoJO Costa this is how we are able to afford to continue to fight him in court and try and get Justice for ourselves and regain full control over Associated itself and hopefully our life so if you would like to support us and donate some money please go to crowdjustice tocom slcas dissociated the link will be in the description and you can probably find it in a link up here as well if you aren't in a position to donate or you just don't feel like it you don't want to for whatever reason please don't feel pressured to donate you can always share the link share the videos about what's happened to us and what Sergio Coster has done and hopefully that will make just as much of a difference as donating money we really appreciate everybody who has donated so far it has made the hugest difference we would not have been able to do any of this without you and we are forever grateful to you so thank you so much thank you for watching please like subscribe and ring the bell to support this associ project and we will see you in our next video lots of love everybody bye [Music]