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Awesome. so you guys, thank you for being here. welcome to my channel. This is Mommy So True. Very honored and humbled to be in all of your presence right now and today, as you read the title, this is a very serious message for me. I want to ask you to just give me a moment to get into it and share with you what is on my mind and why I feel this is very, very important that we we we talk about because not only is this my healing journey but a lot of you resonate with me a lot of you this is your story too this is where you're like where you're at in life too and so from me to you wherever you're at I see UK I see Argentina Jamaica Bermuda I mean it's just it's just beautiful I see North Carolina in the house people from all over the world. And so this really confirms to me that this is the perfect time for me to talk about what I'm talking about today. So that message that you all saw today or the title that you see, it's very, very, yeah, it's real. It's real. Gosh, where do I even start, y'all? Of course, shout out to all the new people. If you're new here, special hello to you. Thanks for stopping and shout out to my day one subscribers today is going to be a different type of message may not be for everyone but obviously you know if it resonates with you i would love for you to hit that that like button hit the thumbs up for me subscribe if you have not already if this is a community that you want to be a part of you know um the game has come to an end and if this is for you if that statement resonates with you congratulations we need to celebrate cheers to you the game what does that mean let's talk about it i am going to be extremely open and transparent as i always do someone said that in the live one time you always you're always transparent mommy so true you're always you're always transparent i'm like yeah you're right You're right. Okay. You got me. But today it's a little different because what I want to do is be accountable. What I want to do is take accountability for me. This is not the easiest thing for most people to do, but gosh, it's so freeing for me. I know that a lot of you have been with me on this journey, watching these videos, joining these lives. You've been in these comments for quite some time some of you just discovering it um some of you maybe has been have been with me since day one and before me and even right now i am not the only person that you're watching that is talking about narcissistic abuse at least most of y'all i i know i'm not i mean come on let's be realistic right so saying that to say i have noticed that a lot of people can't seem to move past being abused by a narcissist. A lot of people can't seem to move past watching these videos and getting caught up with all of this content that's really saying all the same things in different ways about the same abuse. And even before I started my channel, watching other people and listening to certain, it just, it drove me crazy. I think that's what really drove me to start my channel, I was like, oh, I'm going to say this straight with no chaser so I can move on with my life. I just want to say this, get this off my chest so I can move on with my life because this is real. And what I'm hearing is cool. It's good. It's knowledgeable. But what's next has always kind of been my question. And of course, when I started this channel, I was in a place of pain, hurt, brokenness, because I had, you know, gotten into a marriage that did not work out. And it pulled a lot of wounds up in my life. It resurfaced a lot of wounds, a lot of childhood wounds, a lot of wounds that I thought I dealt with or that I thought I had been dealing with. But it was one hell of an experience that I had to go through because my eyes had to be open to a lot of things and when I say accountability I'm talking in regards to how I've now look at the way I've let myself down what I see and you don't have to agree what I see is there is so much knowledge and education about narcissistic abuse it's like at what point do you stop obsessing over the information and accept it at what point do you say okay it's clear that this is what it is all these people are confirming it validating it so what's next so you know how much more validation how much how much more do you choose to allow the pain to drag you along in life this is very tough for a lot of people to get to and understand or even want to embrace what I'm telling you. It's time to put an end to the game because what I've noticed since I've created my channel is that a lot of people are still caught up in the game even after the relationship has broken apart. You're still trying to learn and try to one-up them in a way. You don't even realize it. You're still, you know, pondering on anger. And once again, I'm really talking about me. I'm saying you, but I promise y'all I'm talking about me. Some serious self-reflection has been done in my life and I am at a different place. I've been saying that over the last few lives. I didn't even notice. I didn't even know what I was saying. I didn't even notice what I was saying until I said it. And I was like, oh my gosh, I've got to look at myself. I was so hurt that although the pain put me in a place where i see my purpose in life i still allow the pain to stagnate me in a way where the purpose started to blur out because now i'm like i'm just mad i'm i'm just like i i just i can't believe it and i had to notice that the obsessive thinking the ruminating, the trauma bond that won't break, it's all a result of being obsessed and not radically accepting the truth and saying okay, this is what it is, let me let me mentally strengthen mentally strengthen myself, work on me and move on with my... I have noticed so much since I've been on social media with my story, how many people are in pain, how many people are suffering, how many people just don't have clarity and understanding? How many people blame themselves? How many people feel they're the narcissist? How many people just don't have a true identity because of this type of abuse? And I've come to the understanding people cannot thrive and move forward and stop wanting to know the whys, because they are not accepting the truth about what has happened. This brings it back to you and your purpose in life. And ultimately, all of our purpose in life is to end of living a fulfilled, joyful, peaceful life. Bringing things and people that align with us so we can be happy every day, every moment, in spite of what life throws at us, simply by doing what we love to do. Many of us are working jobs and doing things that we don't really find joy in. We're just doing it and we're struggling. And at some point, a lot of us, we just want to keep pointing the finger at the narcissist and the narcissistic abuse and the trauma and the but okay at what point now do we say let me take my power back because I am mentally strong, I am mentally strong, let me tell you something, a mentally strong person is self-disciplined and that is really my nature I realized how much of that I lost, I realized how much I was still beating myself up In so many ways, I was still allowing those disapproving thoughts to hinder my life in ways that I didn't even realize. And I was like, oh, my God, let me reset because I know I have mental strength. So come on now. Self-discipline had to kick in and I and I had to radically accept that. You know what? This has taught me one major lesson, something I need to pass down. I will only do nice things for people who treat me with respect. A lot of survivors of narcissistic abuse don't realize how they channel their healing the wrong way. You really become this mean person now. You really become this person that's afraid of people now. You see the world as a dark place now. You don't trust and you just so just I don't know and it hurts me to see it. It hurts me to know that that is there but I know why it's there so I really need to get that message of really accepting the knowledge that you're hearing and let it be your empowerment. Because people ask questions like, how do you get rid of the trauma bond? How do you move on from this? What kind of thoughts are you telling yourself when you're by yourself? Are you reflecting on what you can be doing to improve your life, your mental? Are you self-disciplining yourself so you can mentally stay strong? And it's like, oh my God, I had to get to this realization like, whoa, the person that I truly am in my nature has been altered because of pain. And I don't like that. I'm just going to put it out there. I'm just going to put it out there because in my nature, I'm very sweet. I'm very calm, very peaceful. Like I am not a bitter person. I don't hold I'm just not like that, you know, and it's like I had to face that that disappointment, that type of betrayal almost resets my character and what that does is it affects my purpose because it starts to blur the vision that I really had I got to a point where I'm like I'm keeping up with the people that's never what I wanted to do yes I love you guys yes I'm here for you guys but I've never intended on living a life pleasing anybody not even y'all not to the point where i'm eager and and and you know trying to get on camera and post a video and and just make like that's obsessive because it can be a beautiful thing to get on social media now spread this awareness because it's a big topic and then you're you're growing these numbers are growing you're getting results people get paid for what they're posting but before i even started this i knew in my being that this was bigger than me and to have to reflect and notice that i allowed the pain to almost make me forget that and start focusing on the wrong things I was like okay hold on I it's time I go on live and let these people know you know what actually where mommy so true is that is really letting all of this go and moving on with my life respectfully because what I don't have time doing is putting my energy into this topic of dark that's what it is this is a spiritual battle that you're dealing with with narcissistic abuse and it's like how much longer you want to sit there and watch videos talk about it think about the past re-trigger things and just keep going back to it and if it's not for healing purposes if it's not for you to let it out so you can find ways to reframe how you're thinking about it is it really healing you are you really thriving you're really going how is it going to be next year are you going to be right here next year looking for someone to be talking about narcissists and how shitty they are and how trashy they are and why they do this and why they do that why do you still care or or you know like there's a disconnect there and at this point I want to be transparent and tell you if you're struggling seek the proper help don't don't cry victim because now I'm looking at you like are you are you narcissistic see I've identified myself as an empath and I still do but it's bigger than that it doesn't stop there and what that means is I am who I am I don't have to classify it in any kind of way I'm just who I am and who I am is somebody with mental strength and mental strength tells me that oh my god it's time to dead the game I don't have nothing to prove I'm not trying to I don't I'm not trying to compete I understand how the game works with the narcissist and I understand that I am far different from those type of people so I must move different operate different. Live my life different. My mind needs to be different because the programming and conditioning has been serious. And I'm at the place where I'm just like, I no longer want to live a life of want. I want to live a life of have. I don't want it. I have it. How can I do that? I must clear the road of all of these past dry bones that need to be buried. These feelings that no longer need to be validated because it is what it is because at the end of the day it's their loss and I just and it is what it is like it just stops right there it's their loss you know what you gave you know what you put in so it doesn't you don't even need to to like don't waste your energy anymore don't waste your time anymore it's like for what some of you don't realize why you're still trauma bonded after all this time because you're not focused on what's what you need to be focused on you're still making them important you don't even see that you don't even you don't even understand how that still affects your life in certain ways and this is so wholehearted like I've been saying I'm in a different place in my life on this journey and I see now clearly what I was saying finally accepting my own identity to the core dealing with narcissistic abuse that has been stolen from me and I it took for me to be in pain from that marriage to jump on camera I remember the first day I recorded myself I didn't I don't even think I brushed my teeth that day I was just so and hurt I remember I remember almost two years now and I'm like hold on how I'm not I'm not giving these people that much power anymore and so I have to be completely honest on my channel to people who show me support and love and people who have been drawn to you know be here in this community with me and let you know where I'm going and if it's not of interest to you I understand I don't have any expectations I want to go back to the being that I know I am the person with that humble spirit the person that has no expectations just doing it out of love because I am love and love is always all around me and I've always been that and I've always believed that but I've never been able to walk I've now been able to like step into the my my most peaceful dimension of life like this is the most peace I've ever had mentally spiritually physically emotionally and I am so passionate about what I do with you guys that I am so even more I'm even more passionate to show you guys what I mean by let's move forward let's thrive in life what's next what does what does it look like for us to really connect with ourselves the way we need to not egotistically no not not like oh it's about me and it's me no it's not no no no no it's bigger than you i want to encourage someone to let today be the day you stop these five things stop overthinking please stop overthinking number two stop trying to make everybody happy please stop trying to make everybody happy number three stop living in your past please learn to let the past go now stop living there stop dwelling there stop reminding yourself of how dark it was number four stop worrying let go let go stop worrying so many of you you carry the weight of worry and concern on your shoulders so bad because you've been conditioned to do that and it's neglecting you from your spiritual life your spiritual growth is neglecting you from emotionally becoming strong which is affecting your mental strength and capabilities got you out here looking weak and you're not come on now don't make that mistake that I made which brings me to number five let today be the day you stop doubting yourself let today be the day you stop doubting yourself one of the most powerful messages that come with narcissistic abuse is that you're not good enough and you need you need approval by somebody being in your corner you need their support no no no no let today be the day you stop doubting yourself these five core what I'm calling now is like just I don't even want to call it five core beliefs these are just five major ways to put power back into your life and into your hands start raising your vibration because trust and believe me when I say I truly wholeheartedly believe that narcissists are enjoying seeing these communities of these empaths and we're we got these videos and we're in these comments we're boohooing and we're crying and we're giving these people so much power we're we're validating so much of their bs we're making them feel good for the monsters that they are a lot of them feel great knowing that we are out here broken and suffering and down and out a year later two years later we still on these these like they love it i'm telling y'all it's time to re change it change change the narrative change the narrative let's stop talking about them in my opinion mommy so true my channel i don't i don't want to keep talking about narcissists that's not my that's not my goal it's not my destination they're a waste of time and energy to be honest with you and they're very draining now i'm concerned about these people who are you know npd awareness it's like you've been doing this for years you're not burnt out how are you still talking about these demons like you you not I it's just not my calling I happened to get into that situation run into it but I learned from it I learned what's important I learned the bigger I see the bigger picture here lovely queen thank you oh my gosh I see that did you leave me a message let me make sure I'm not missing it oh she said thank you thank you for that love. I appreciate it. All of this, you know, is from the bottom of my heart, the depths of my heart. I don't have the energy to give narcissists anymore in life. If you're seeking videos, you know, to keep educating you, there's a lot out there. There's a lot of people out there that have great information I have videos throughout my thumbnail that, you know, you may need every now and then. You can always go back. They will always be there, but we're not staying there we're moving forward because I am not and I'm not here to help you stay stagnated I'm not here to keep you pissed off on a narcissist I'm not here to make you mad for the rest of your life no I can give that energy but is that really what I who I am no I'm gonna tell y'all that right now mommy so true that name came to me for a reason I am true to who I am always been that way that that's really what's made me a threat in life that's really what's made the enemy want to attack me just like you just like you I've always been very self-disciplined and this has been the ultimate attack to keep me stuck stagnant in my bed keep me from from achieving goals keep me from really truly pouring love into myself mentally you can make it look good on the outside but what do you be thinking about yourself on the inside is what's really messing you up in life and I'm just like you know what I'm not giving these people any more power like that I am not giving you any power i cannot i refuse, I refuse, you know and um, that's why I said the game is over if you want the game to be over, this message maybe you need to go back and listen to it because you should want that, you should want it to be over, you should want it to end, you should want to move on and thrive on in life, you, you a lot of you are NPD scholars now, you could sit here and make these videos yourself but it's like who wants to wake up and be thinking about creating content about a demon, not me, that was never the vision, it just happened to be a part of the healing journey but it had to bring me to this very moment today where I have to be accountable and say I admit that I was going through what I was going through but I said that since day one, like look y'all I'm messed up, this person just almost tried to kill me for real and I don't know how to feel, but this is my story, and the more I take life coaching sessions with you all, the more empowering I feel to hear you all succeed and thrive and move past the abuse, getting calls, people have been forgiving themselves, letting go of things, you know and it's, it's beautiful, that's what I want to see, that's that's where we should all want to be, not you know waiting and anticipating the next video about narcissists and how terrible they are At this point, if you're still chasing certain type of content, it's time to self-reflect If you're still watching videos, making certain comments, it's time to self-reflect And, you know, it's not to be taken personal It's just, it is what it is. I'm at a place where, you know certain things I'm paying less and less attention to. I just don't have the energy for it it's just it's not going to help me and it's game over these people have lost because now I'm not interested in talking about y'all not interested in going back to the past and repeating it over and like it's it's for what and I think that one of the best closures for this chapter of my life was inviting that narcissist on my channel to really just open his mouth and say yeah we know we're demons basically like we know we know we've done some demonic stuff but because you because we are like that you better choose yourself you better run for your life to hear someone actually diagnosed to say that it was like okay at this point we need to leave y'all where y'all at it's just a lost cause you need to just you just you're a problem with yourself it's a self-hatred thing and i don't have time to to to focus on that i'm not gonna make that important because that's that's unbalancing unbalancing my life's energy and i don't have time for that I think the enemy wants to trick us to want to keep you know being in a certain place because it keeps them at a certain level and um it's just oh man I'm just um yeah that's just where I'm at and um just I'm more concerned with growing spiritually you know growing within in emotional intelligence just thriving in life and making reshifting the focus reshifting the focus as um you guys will notice i'm just really changing my scheduling um my lives if you was watching said i'm excited about my future i love it i love it you've been a member with me for um a few months now and i love it thank you so much for being here yeah ransom i just see that release and let it go yes yes my god release and let it go you know i mean we know so much information now, it's like, what are you hanging on for? What are you hopeful for? What are you even allowing yourself to torture yourself about these dark people for? For how long, you know? Find the strength to become self-disciplined and put some power back into your life. A lot of you are looking for answers you will never get. You will never get it. You're looking for some closure you'll never get. You really just need to learn the power of letting people go and accepting yourself and trusting the process of life, accelerating your spiritual, you know, path. And if that's not what your focus is, the narcissist is winning. I'm going to tell you that right now. They want you to be distracted watching videos about them. I literally got this revelation. I'm like, oh, this is what y'all want. You want to be talked about. Remember, y'all, we know these people are egotistical, prideful, and entitled. Focusing on them gives them more and more power. We got to love ourselves, take our power back. and move on with life. I am just really, really happy to be where I am, to be able to truly understand what let go means. It's taken me quite some time to get here, but it was necessary. Forcing myself to release my story finally forced me to step into my purpose and accepting what it really means, what it really looks like. That means killing my own self because it's not about me. I don't want, I don't, it's not about me. I don't want that. I don't want that. I promise y'all. I, that's why I was like, I got to a point. I said, okay, lashes off. They need to see my real face. Cause then I'm not playing. The game is over. We're not going to keep doing this. It's not about pleasing. Nobody is not about trying to like, nah, we're not, we're no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. And whoever is for it's for whoever it's not, you know, it just is what it is moving forward guys um when i come on live just know that i'm coming from this particular place and as i grow in my career as i enhance in my business um i'm changing my scheduling you guys will notice my lives will change and i will announce when i go but i'm taking a lot more time for me and focusing on those who reach out and need that real life coaching support not those people still caught up in that matrix playing games and not taking healing serious because I don't have time for setback and so you guys will see me you know once or twice a week on the video and a couple times a month on lives for now while I you know keep walking on my journey and remain steadfast on my path and get right for the next phase because it's really right here I want to be my best self i want to be the most healthy person i want to be the most happy woman i've ever been and so my attention has to change what i've made important i've made i've put them on a pedestal you make you're making that narcissist important you're you know you're putting you're keeping them up there and it's time it's time to do a 360 it's time to do a whole 360 and so i'm not going to get too much into the comments i encourage you guys if you want to you know stand out in comments as we move forward in lives because they're growing and um it's so hard to get to all the comments without keeping everybody up all night um either tag my name or you know join the membership and use those super chats i think you can do super chat without being a member i don't know i'm still learning but shout out to all of you I see y'all all in the chats if I haven't mentioned your name trust me I see you today I appreciate all of you so much love and light to you all I promise that I am with you I'm just in a different place now and there's certain things I will not tolerate to protect my peace and my energy and I will not continue to allow the abuse and the trauma and the years of conditioning to affect my identity or my character and I encourage all of you who are struggling to take your healing journey serious if you need to work with a therapist do that if you need to book a life coach session do that you know like really be proactive and fall onto your mental strength by becoming self-disciplined with your life take your power back only you can do that a therapist won't do it for you a life coach may not only you can do that some of you you don't need a therapist you don't need no life coach you need to just snap out of it you need to wake up and radically accept it you know and and take your power back man you know it's it's just this this uh healing journey for a lot of us is going to be a lifetime it will it'll be lingering phases up and down but it shouldn't stay that way I don't believe that healing has to be a lifetime I believe that actually it can get to a point where you become completely unbothered and fully at peace fully fulfilled fully at you know joy it just really depends on what type of things have you accepted because of this pain are you now broken enough to feel like you can't move on with nobody else you will never date again this is that and this is that and this is that no don't do that to yourself oh my gosh can underscore goods oh wow thank you so much what a blessing i am so grateful i truly appreciate that thank you for joining the membership unless you've already been there um but that's wonderful such a blessing such a blessing um but tonight i i you know and to be honest with you guys I've never felt so at peace with a message like I am today because this is the truth it's my truth and if you really want to heal from narcissistic abuse I promise you if you take what I said tonight to heart six months from now you will be different you will feel different than what you're feeling right now healing is only hard because we are still trying to make sense of their narcissistic nonsense but the game is over the game is over y'all this is such a victorious moment for me I almost want to cry but it's like I feel so good I can't cry I can't cry there's nothing to cry about it's like the the tears is laughter like it's like I'm just so at peace I just I don't I don't have time for any of that type of energy draining stuff in my life anymore i don't y'all and i invite you guys to join me if you are down with moving on with me towards the next phase of my life and you know if you're coming along to see what thriving looks like and just sharing with you how i'm still growing spiritually because that's more of my conversations will now be about us and god y'all because i truly believe a lot of y'all were sent to me because you're chosen just like i am and it's time for us to come together and really accelerate in certain aspects in life because the earth, the universe needs people like us we are those doctors, those therapists those teachers, those nurses, we are those people that the world needs so let's stop beating ourselves up, let's live our best lives, let's stop letting the freaking n-word disrupt our flow, okay? they are, they are just not worth it not for me anymore, i'm just in a better place a different place, i am ready to move forward been ready, but now it's like let's go who's ready to do this? if this video resonated with you on this evening if you're watching this live replay later on and this did something for you on this healing journey, i invite you to join me if you have not subscribed, already hit that like button if this you know touched your heart in a way but the game is over, put an end to it, you're the only person who can do it, take the scissors and cut that life support, let's kill off, let's stop the show, let's stop the game, you know and um, so i appreciate it and um, also fyi moving forward i will turn my comments off on live every now and then i may open it up, but it's really unnecessary sometimes because as much as i love the support, sometimes it's unnecessary for people to be in these comments um affecting others who are trying to heal you just need to pay attention to the message you know let's just pay attention to to moving on and thriving on i've said this before We're not here for the likes, the views, and none of that, man. And I don't want to ever allow the pain to create that type of a vision for me. Because I know that's not the purpose for me. I know the being that I am. I'm too much of an empath to allow this abuse to keep me stuck in sadness and pain. Like, no, no, no, no. I know what good my love does. And I know where it needs to be directed to. And so if it's for you, it's for you. And all the love and light right back to you. um so guys i'll leave you there so much to think about right so much to let process right i know i know but shout out to all of us we brought a stop to the game we experienced an experience that we really have no option but to move on from it's so dangerous so dark so heartbreaking so full of betrayal so cold your own parents your own friends people who swore they were soulmates went as far as to marry me and broke broke that vow so trust me i understand but i also understand even more that there's purpose behind that pain don't you allow that pain to keep you stuck and bound in any type of way release and let go let's move on let's wake up tomorrow and do something different let's go to sleep with different thoughts tonight much love guys until next time i won't be here monday night i won't be here next friday night i will announce my next live though soon. Just stay in tune. I will still drop my weekly videos, but it's a different flow now because I'm in a different place and I encourage you to hang on. I encourage you to follow along if you still need that support. I'm still a support for many of you, but I want you to reframe your mind, reframe your thoughts, change your perspective on how you're healing because what you don't want to do is attract another narcissist in your life. It's very easy to do if you have not healed properly all right guys until next time beautiful people thank you all for your time stay blessed all over the world stay true i appreciate you all i'm gonna go back through the live replay to look at comments i just i'm not gonna get into them tonight i'm just mentally not there and i have to be honest with you guys no offense or anything like that i'm just i'm just i just thank god for for keeping me and i'm gonna let y'all go here in a minute this is that this is that sad part I was trying to avoid, but I got to let it out because I'm being led to just be free. I just thank God for keeping me. I just thank God for never allowing those suicidal thoughts to overtake me. I thank God for never allowing depression to become my end result, not letting anxiety to drive me off the cliff. I just thank God for isolating me the way that he did because it was so necessary for me to step back, pay attention, and learn and embrace this on every level on every level y'all i am just so thankful any of you who have made it this far or making it i am so proud of you please don't give up keep going even if you slip and fall get back up again and do it again if you break get back up and stay up the game is over the game is over have a great weekend. Talk to y'all soon. Stay blessed. Deuces. I'm so cheesy.