A New Path Roger Reveals His Decision To Brianna | Outlander Season 8 | Love Love

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be here. But I have the strongest feeling that here is where I'm supposed to be. Whom shall I send send me? Jesus Christ, what is this? It's hard to explain. When Frances Marion refused to help with the guns, I felt I was so defeated. We'd come all this way. But when I looked around at the men, I felt I was overcome with a sense of purpose, of renewed conviction. You couldn't leave them. No, not like that. Desperate and dying in a godforsaken place. And I mean that in the truest sense of the word. The gunfire. It reminded me of going through the stones, actually. That fear of being torn apart. Something pulling at you. You feel your skull will fly to you. Don't, Roger, please. I don't want to know how close you came to death. My heart can't take it. It's all right. I promise. But I need to tell you if it's okay. Because it made me realise something. I want to be ordained. But you had so many doubts. Aye, I know. There was a loud blast near the end of the battle. Close to me, a cannon blast sent me flying. But I remember the sensation of falling just for a split second as a boy and being caught by my father. It was the night my mother died. I never understood how I got out alive. We'd gone to shelter in the London Underground and it was bombed. But she tossed me from the stairs as they collapsed. And I don't know how, but he was there. I think I saved my father when I sent him through the stones. And he saved me. We were always a part of history, Bree. Even if we didn't know it yet. We didn't change God's plan. We were always part of it. So I know now. I know. That I've been called to do the Lord's work. Called to be here. Well, if you're certain, I think you are. It sounds like a good plan to me. You know I worship you.