finding work-life balance with 2 jobs | 🏠 productive week in my life

Getting here like I swear I bleed every time I floss my teeth. It's Wednesday. So that means it's oh I hit the wall. It's exfoliation day I exfoliate just because I feel like oh, you know, it's the middle of the week My skin needs a little reset to refresh but first things first cleanser Feel like I'm low-key losing hair too much stress y'all All right. Now you guys know I've been a die-hard fan of this moisturizer for the last couple weeks This is the dr. G red blemish soothing cream and I love it because it's great for like acne prone skin oily skin Sensitive skin all the skins Okay all the skin type and this is a Korean brand that I just recently Discovered when I was having it breakouts and I damaged my skin barrier. We're still trying to like fix This situation going on but dr. G recently sent to me this This is the brightening peeling gel that's supposed to be formulated for sensitive skin and for all skin types that essentially just Exfoliates the skin helps get rid of dead skin cells, you know, the vibe their ingredients are clean They're not irritating non scented as well Which is a must for sensitive skin people and again It is super important to exfoliate every so often at least once a week to make sure that you're getting rid of all those dead skin cells And this has like little granules basically helps to peel away dead skin cells on the layer of your skin I actually really like that. This isn't like too harsh or the granules aren't like too rough. It's kind of satisfying It feels like I'm rubbing wet paper on my skin and all the good skin cells are coming off I really make sure to get in this t-zone. This is where I get the most congested. This actually feels really nice It's almost like I'm giving my face a little massage and then once you're done just rinse it off I feel like my skin just feels a lot smoother I can tell what I need to exfoliate when my skin starts feeling like really rough But my skin feels really really clean now and I had a ton of blackheads on my nose that seemed to disappear This is not sponsored. But if you want to check out this peeling gel or any of the other dr. G products You can go to the link in my description. I'm gonna go in with my toner It's actually crazy this made my skin feel really smooth and next to my vitamin C serum This is to basically help fade any hyperpigmentation and acne scars And then of course my dr. G and blemish cream. This is literally a liquid gold It just feels so nice on the skin, especially after a long day I think that's what my brain is operating on like 3% right now because I've just had the most exhausting day imaginable I mean, it was basically like any other day, but I'm just so tired Currently getting ready to go out on a Thursday. I don't know for me It's kind of like a big deal when I go out on the weekends or not even like go out just like leave the house To go somewhere else because that's just not the norm for me I mean it used to be but I'm just such a homebody now I mean, especially after like a long day of work The last thing I want to do sometimes is leave the comfort of my own home But I'm actually going to this escape room situation with some of my girlfriends And I haven't seen some of them in like a really long time and honestly, I love like every single one of those girls They're just like so down-to-earth so genuine It's like one of those friendships or friend groups where they don't need a lot of maintenance like they're just very Self-sufficient and you don't have to talk every single day or every single week But y'all are just like, you know, super tight. Let's see. What time is it? Oh my gosh I have like 20 something minutes to finish getting ready, which sounds like a lot But I you know, just love taking my time I also get very distracted and I start watching like tik-tok and then Suddenly the hour that I gave myself is like 10 minutes and I kind of need to hurry Not me getting here like 30 minutes early, I don't know why I always do this to myself I always overestimate traffic Wait, what happened? No We're hitting 30k on YouTube Very premium It's like the size of my face They say that your 20s are supposed to be one of the best years of your life But they've been the most challenging for me so far My 20s have been filled with a lot of questions on what should I be doing right now? And you know, is this the right thing for me? Should I hang out with these people? Should I get that job? Should I even apply? So far my 20s have been filled with a lot of sadness and Confusion in both my personal and professional life and one of the things that stresses me out the most is Change and in your 20s a lot of things change things you thought would last forever Actually don't and you have to learn to really be okay with things not staying the same I was talking to my therapist the other day and I told her that I really miss my innocence Because I don't know about you but now that I'm in my 20s the way that I look at the world has Completely changed as someone that used to be a very optimistic person I am now extremely pessimistic and it sucks because I don't like that about myself I wish I could be more hopeful but when life knocks you down a bunch of times It's hard to get back up this week in particular was extremely hard for me Unfortunately, my grandma had an accident she's okay now, but obviously like she's in pain and It's gonna take time for her to recover and I've showed my grandma a lot on this channel and you know It's very obvious that I'm extremely close with her So it hurts me a lot to see her like that and besides my grandma this week in general was just not the best Obviously work is always stressful and because I have like a leadership position Like I'm teaching a lot of responsibility falls onto my lap and the way I sort of stepped into this role wasn't like very clear in the beginning and everything just started to happen at once and then suddenly like I was Leading a department. It was quite a learning curve for me when I am stressed. I either have two reactions I either like drop everything and just sulk and just feel really bad about myself and probably start crying or It's the opposite and I just distract myself with work and things that I have to do And I feel like the pattern this week has been the second one I feel like one of my toxic traits or red flags is that sometimes I believe I don't deserve to take a break Like I just get so consumed in what I'm doing that. I'm like, oh well if I stop now I'm gonna lose all momentum or you know I'm just gonna be lazy But that is a very bad mentality to have because over time you just get really angry and bitter at everything and you start blaming like external things for your problems and why You're feeling the way you're feeling but the truth is we all just need to like take a step back And give ourselves that grace to take a break So yeah, because i've had one heck of a week I'm going to try to force myself to relax and to take a break and to not, you know Ruminate on the same negative thoughts over and over again But yeah, I hope i'm actually able to be fully present this weekend and enjoy the moment And not be too stressed about stuff that happened this week because for me like as soon as the weekend's over I wish that I had more time. So I'm gonna really try to enjoy And take advantage and relax Okay, let's go We are gonna take a break from watching christmas movies to bake some christmas cookies I really want to make these cookies with like the holiday m&ms And made me some collagen collagen protein hot chocolate collagen protein hot chocolate So, thank you, let's taste it. Mmm. Wait, that's really good. What is it sweetened with? You said stevia pretty healthy Tastes exactly like hot chocolate I'm gonna be making a chocolate pretzel rice crispy treat dish as well as some hawaiian roll ham and cheese sliders Let's get cooking Guys my chocolate Is hard I did not do this, right? This is such a fail. I'm, not a baker. Okay attempt number two, and it's much better If you know what, you know, this is the best bread of all time king's hawaiian bread Yeah, it was