Overcoming The Struggle

you won't believe that I set this up in one day it may look good but in one day I destroyed the tail on a street Mission look at that it's not I don't know I I feel I was trying every time I come escap with you bees attack me ah hey they're trying to be like you they're trying to be like me hey is this is this weird to explain like or how do I I don't know what I'm trying to say I just I'm not trying to feel ungrateful but look everything's good and and then this is gone and this happened in a day damn what the hell n that that's like as a skater that's like annoying though like it messes with you like little stuff like this yeah so no that's not ungrateful okay well if you ever seen the tail too yeah yeah no well if you ever see me and you just come up to me and say do you have a spare board cuz I might have a spare board and it looks like this and I'm not going to skate it and I'll definitely give it to you so I'll just put it that's my way of saying I'll give it to you but for right now I'm switching the board because we're about to hit the streets uh we're going to warm up at the park and I just want to feel comfortable on my board so setting up a freshy and that happened in a day and I'm not even talking about the whole 24 hours it was probably like 2 hours in 2 hours that happened damn yeah so all fres it is fresh like I was explaining like a beginner this would carry them for like 6 months real cuz it's not going to break yeah but they could learn everything they need to and like they wouldn't I'm not even trying to speak for a beginner but like I feel like this wouldn't even bother them cuz like a beginner is definitely going to use this probably as their tail to learn and that unless they try to kick flip or heel flip and it goes up then yeah it's not ashing as me bro these bees all right so Jesus and I went to borders uh close the mall close to this skate park and we got some good deals bro check it out we got the convers these were $40 bro these look like basketball shoes I don't know that's what it looks like I don't know what do you think did you look like basketball shoes skateboarding is really pushing like the boundaries of what a shoe's becoming or looking like but I'm super hyped uh I was feeling a lot of other shoes like laai Americas uh Adidas but then when I looked at these I was like I've never skated I mean I the last time I skated cons was in 2019 bro that's 5 years ago so it's it's only fair plus it has a rose in the back so we about to put these on I will say these these foys bro they put in work like they really put in work I got Clips New Tricks went to spots that they handled but you know every shoe comes to an end so we're going to put these on and then break them in at the park with the board I just set up the board so that's what I'm about to do set these up all right we're taking a closer look real quick like check these insoles out check the insole out the design looks dope I don't know if this is going to be good the homie did give me some insoles so I might switch them out after breaking them in but I like that I really like the flower I don't know man that that really speaks to me but I'm super hyped let's put them on all right we got the shoes on let's see what the first K looks like they're not good shoot imagine that n yo we just edit that part out we edit it out bro sad moment missed kickflip look at that on a kickflip it's all blue and stuff I know it's damaged though wear and tear I wonder how they're going to last now I'm kind of nervous I was like thinking they're going to last pretty good they ripping they ripping okay so I warmed up for like 5 to 10 minutes for my body so now I'm actually going to warm up before we get ready to go to the street spot so [Applause] wow [Applause] [Music] go e Going's do the 180 and then I'm going to do like a bakey half I on the [Applause] [Music] ledge there you go let close all right next one next F that was a fakey no slide what do you even skateboarding terminology is crazy someone would call it fakey tail slide I know and then fakey some someone else would say fakey switch nose slide or something yeah fakey slide fakey [Applause] slide no way he fell on a for slide after all that that's crazy on the SPS sline all right I did get the laser I'm hyped on that laugh what the hell I did the laser I did the front big I did the front to flip I did the front three should do the Noll H flip 180 nll H flip like the one I did when I M stop on5 okay I think yeah that look good I invested in these uh this mic MH I don't know how it's going to work so hopefully it works okay so it it would be like attached to you yeah so it's like connected to the phone and I'm over here so and it's two of them so I could pulling on you and me cuz like I know like if I'm trying to say something and I'm far away it's like yeah they like so we'll see I don't know when it's coming in okay soon though [Applause] oh oh that was it that one felt really good the last one went way higher this one went so [Applause] low you're getting them pie though you think so in my head it doesn't feel like that maybe it's just me my legs are feeling jittery jittery yeah we're not even at the street spot dang FaceTime you this morning what tell to pull up he he FaceTime me looking like this and then I was like Snappy what the [ __ ] what are you doing like are you filming something he was like no all right bye and I was like what the [ __ ] hey he missed you miss me S that's the homie just checking in on his homie for real damn yellow good yeah damn D I'm over here thinking other things like it's not good I was close bro I've been taking this math class mhm it's it's hurting my head and it's like basic stuff like scientific notation mhm like what is this this isn't math it was like this isn't math there is no numbers it's crazy so my head cuz like yesterday I started doing this work from like 5 to like 8 and then I got back on it around 9:30 to midnight oh man my mind is feeling crazy off the math not a big fan of math the only reason I'm doing it is cuz like I need that for to to finish mhm I need six classes and that's one of them and I think that's the hardest one hardest one have you had test yet or no I just been I'm doing online okay but I did the homework for lesson 1.3 and [ __ ] bro I got 63% oh man cuz I didn't like that scientific notion stuff really got to me and then it said uh something P scientific notion and I was like what is this that one was crazier it was actually way harder to understand no way I could have like done a 360 it felt like okay how you feel you think I should redo that what do you think yeah yeah all right homie says I should redo it I should redo it for the homie okay yeahuh let me see if I got this one still not late [Applause] 180p oh that wasn't a good attempt should probably just do it [Applause] huh [ __ ] hey that was the best late flip I ever seen and I for S seen some late flips what the [ __ ] hey that was a real ass L flip everybody else do that [ __ ] and they do it like they delay the scoop you did that [ __ ] off the pop in the air and then landed like that's a real the late flip he did that [ __ ] [ __ ] I missed the late flip it was a real one like I'm in the air let me hurry up like no damn here flip that [ __ ] kick the back foot down like [ __ ] hey I appreciate you I missed it I appreciate you CH bro D I appreciate them look at that the rails bent oh shoot czy how does it even bend like that I don't know I'm doing boide up axle and then back flip down okay he it was because of the bend it also feels like it needs a little bit of wax all right next one [Applause] I don't know what happened there I thought I was going to land on the RO okay feble up hold on maybe let me start off [Applause] slow [Applause] okay oh man yeah we did it all right cool all right I don't know what else I think I'm going just break it down right now these shoes are actually really good they actually felt broken in I don't know the impact didn't really well I didn't really jump down anything but the board feel felt like it was there and overall the shoe feels pretty good look at how the damage and then switch this is just day won that's all all right Jesus found the spot bro again shout out to my man's right here put the Clapping but girls he found the the spot I've been wanting to skate it's like this ditch looking spot it's pretty interesting I haven't been there in like years I'm talking about like maybe 2015 or 16 one of the two so we're going to go check that out we're just going to head to the streets right now that's all okay the shoelaces are already ripping this was session one so I'm going to put my friend's shoelaces extended shoelaces extended wear that's his brand I have his instals and his shoelaces got to support the homie so I'm going to take these off and put them on these shoes and have longer lasting shoelaces cuz yeah this is going to rip and then I have to take I'm going to have to tie a knot here and then it's just going to be a crazy knot shoelace so I'm doing that right now bro it would be called B Canyon all right we don't even know if the spot's still here we don't even know if this is the spot but right there kind of gives a clue that it's right there also this park is called B Park coincidence oh hey that's why Ashton didn't want to come right be park I think this is it I could see it look this is the run I I can tell the runway look there's like this little patch let's see if I can zoom in there's that I don't know if you can see it but there's like a small little path to the spot you can see where it's like kind of bonded and whatnot say this looks gnarly this is a crazy spot yeah bro dud look at that it's right there that's the spot yepe damn that's crazy and you let me pick this hey man you sent me a picture and I we found it found it this all right this is where it's Bondo so you go right here and you go into that down that dang all right or you could go like this go this way and try to slide that's sick too either way I have to make it between those two poles the ground looks so rough that's what I got to roll on it looks so beat up all right got to figure it out I don't know how you warm up you just I guess we're just jumping in right dude this this this looks scary it's like I was just looking at the bottom that's like I think the most scariest part like it's so beat up down there but hey let's let's get it you got it I'm roll up real quick okay okay cool oh my go this right here I felt it I literally just just went damn okay so maybe go lower like right here not too high cuz then I'm going to just run into this where it's like a deep a hole a crack yeah so aim for this right here okay all right we're doing this yeah what I I thought I was going to eat [ __ ] on the ground dude this is no joke there's glass right here damn that felt crazy like this whole area bro you like can't afford to fall down here D I'm wearing shorts what a good day to wear shorts look so this is not that bad but this right here ah damn oh this Crown sucks it really does suck but as long as I have a good hold on my board I think I'm good I'm I'mma all it again all right cuz that felt crazy do you want me to get it from down here yeah okay yeah all right that's clean that was way better that first one [ __ ] okay I kind of want to do 180 180 but then that means I have to roll switch I should probably do kickflip first right yeah probably kick flip cuz the 180 at cuz the whole switch thing oh you all right yeah just kind of awkward M oh man oh it just feels so weird to bail [Applause] [Music] [Applause] man no dang okay I got to drive my right shoe off that's what happens when you don't commit you get a dirty shoe and you're going to dirty your brand new grip okay [Applause] next one next one you got it I kicked that one out that one was close though all right next one [ __ ] I need to just commit I I think I'm just scared to commit cuz I don't know how it's going to feel when I go in I think that's what's happening but this one this one all right oh oh I know I just keep kicking out you had that one oh I stomped it you stomped it yeah okay next one next one yeah oh man [ __ ] yeah awesome bro okay oh [ __ ] let's look at that I did a kick flip so you got it I like what the [ __ ] I glitched on that how did that feel hit that little practice on that switch roll away I feel like I got once I roll down I got to like brace myself oh [ __ ] I ain't going to lie that's I was scared to go down switch okay but we felt it do you want to see that one yeah okay oh SHO what a save coming for the rebound I know it was coming for that that water man work out for sure definitely all right I'm thinking the next one I stomp that could be the one as long as like I go in confident you got it right here wish they could be skating in the streets but they are too busy to not Street skate so this is for them I'm do it right here oh you know how the gym has like level 15 yeah this is like level 30 you got the stair master and stuff for else no way why dude I kicked out oh like I get the thing is I get like this so much it's crazy like just I need to do it then I'm like [ __ ] I got closer part but I'm not getting closer and then it just spirals into this whole conversation of my head and then it just it's crazy but I know I got it right here right here I'm going to just do it right here keep it rolling I'm going to do it I'm going do it right here I'm going do it no cuts no Cuts right here no cut no cut right here I'm doing it this try here right here right here this is that I just needed that perfect flip I'm doing it though it's just that switch stance huh yeah right here yeah you got it okay next one I just needed to flip perfect now and I'm I got it okay when's the math do uh I have to do the quiz no I have to do lesson 1.4 and then the quiz oh man and that's do Sunday hey man if you landed right here you don't got to do it until you'll start it tomorrow or something I was thinking that too thought one is called pseudo scientific notion what I know right that sounds made up it does it's all good like these are the saddest moments cuz it's my fault it's my fault that I did this I just set this brand new board up and it's literally gone look at this my fault I could have stopped that all it had to be is 1 1800 land your trick I bailed bro all right let me let me dry this up I got to land it he's got it bro mark my words he's got it right here I need to stop kicking [Applause] out yo go yo first try ah let me see how switch back 18 180 feels switch back 18 180 yeah okay did you want a different angle yeah okay let got to like try to try to like roll away in that that's crazy oh just hit my wrist yeah all right better than my face it's true whoa oh it's about to dodge me man huh it's about to dodge me trying to go into the water look at this the board could actually go in there like oh you're not getting that damn all right what the heck I felt so good I just kicked out but if it felt good why' I kick out it's a good point I I I just had to correct myself I I think it's the I feel like cuz like when you were doing the other one I feel like you were like looking at the wall when you landed no and like this one you're like looking outward you're like blind I'm just going yeah oh all right you got it yeah oh I was close I felt like my foot do like a little oy North mhm oh that's side yeah you got it though oh oh no it's like the moment you pointed it out it's like I'm go that's where I'm going oh you all right yeah I just need to cuz I'm going at it fast for me so I don't have to doubt that I'm going to clear it even though it's not even something you clear yeah and then when I do the switch back 180 I'm just leaning back I need to lean more in there okay so it's happening though you know what it reminds me of when you play like skate three character are [ __ ] like you just like send yeah yeah dude mg's playing Skate three [ __ ] oh got scared that I was going to run into that pipe should have just Allied over it oh man hey that was good you have it though each time you've been getting like really good okay this one yeah we're putting it we're rolling away what the [ __ ] was that SL on my ass okay I got it I got it yeah let's go dang that one that one felt sick man what if I told you I wasn't recording we got to run it back no I got it I got it I'm going to try so the board's going to do a 180 but my body's going to do 360 so it's going to be like a bam this one I have no idea we're just going to see how it goes if it if we get it bro Hallelujah but I have that in my mind I think after doing the front Z flip which was really mental for me and then the switch back 1880 which was way more physical I think I could go for this cuz like it's prepared me enough for the spot after feeling it uh so that's what we're going to do we're going to see if we can do that so that's what we're going for okay you saw that yeah everything went I saw the vision yeah it's there now I have to just commit you got it oh almost yeah [ __ ] guys see that I just I just need one I just need one and then we're rolling away and we successful Mission today yeah cuz like that's something I would use in my video part so that's why I'm like I I did all the other ones yes they were hard but they prepared me for this and that's what it matters they prepared me for this all right right here you got it you got it right here right here got it oh no okay you have that all right we have it we have it right here what the heck oh it's not even like that it's a crazy kick out it's more of like I'm not committing yeah I have to commit [Applause] [ __ ] can't see how I'm kicking out no way like I can do that but I can't I can't do this that was close dude we're getting it dude you stopped it once that's it you're right we're getting it we're getting it yeah no way [Music] oh no I'm leaning too back I I need to lean forward I need to lean forward when I do the body 360 [ __ ] no next one yeah for sure [Applause] no okay it's happening it's happening you got it right here right here whoa that was good I swear yeah left let's go good stuff good BR got it good stuff oh my gosh on the try the crow left I know he didn't have faith dude he didn't see the vision got he had to see the vision I was clean bro damn let's check that out see if I can clean that up yeah okay now that's fine over there this sign okay this is like what we're working with just like a little reminder cuz it's like I've been down there so long but like almost first [Applause] try good save that was a good save go yeah damn dude we did it so I this spot was scary at first I mean if you made it to the end bro like if they made it to the end they saw the process this was insane like I thought I was gonna come to this SP like walk in the park all right I'm gonna do like from Big I'mma do front stli so quick look at that bug what the heck out of nowhere BR actually the thing that made me commit was like the crow I was like oh [ __ ] cuz I only St I only stomped one then we watched the clip to so I could get back in the zone then I heard the crow going and I was like all right bro you really you really are crowing at me and I was like I'mma just do it cuz I hear you doing that every time I go up and of course the one I landed the first one I landed the crow wasn't here like that one try it dipped but I thought I was out of all the tricks I did today I thought this was one of the quickest so I decided to do it again to make it cleaner and I'm really glad I did because bro I'm hyped like uh I haven't said this at all but I'm just going to spots and skating them like I would if I was filming a street spot like this trick right here I would literally save it for a street park so just to let y'all know I'm just going to be recapping a lot of Clips I would have used for a video part and I already have like 20 plus clips and this is an add onto it so I don't know what that's going to happen this is like a separate video part aside from like my actual video part that I have like I need two more Clips but I'm just kind of being very uh how do I say I'm procrastinating on that project there's too many things going on but I just want to make YouTube videos goost skate spots and shout out to Jesus bro like for reals broke came through with the spot I was like I front 360 this in 2016 I don't know how I did that I don't know if I did it really quick back in the day but I did it and then for some reason I was like dude I think I can do a lot more things now hell no spots never get easy if anything they remain gnarly and that's pretty sick cuz it's like oh [ __ ] it like put me in my place today which I don't know what's the next spot if you live in the valley uh or just Northern of valet please send us spots we're just trying to go to spots and like just film YouTube videos and like a lot of Street skating that's kind of what I'm focused on uh I don't know what else I think that's it for today I think I battled enough on this spot mentally and physically like I was already cramping on the Switchback 1880 when I was pushing my my thigh was cramping what the [ __ ] probably cuz I uh I didn't drink anything like for the whole remaining until the switch back 180 I was like oh [ __ ] I should probably drink something so aside from that this spot was sick I'm hyp bro we got a clip yeah I mean you all saw the clip but still yeah so signning out till next time