The Industrial Revolution And It's Consequences

all right this is um going to be entry 12 I think in my video Journal um this is more so just a test recording because I you can probably tell I've been messing around with a lot of settings on my webcam uh at least on OBS it's looking a lot better than it was so i' actually have true 1080p now in my videos CU they always said on YouTube that they were 1080p but that definitely wasn't it more like 480 but um yeah I messed around with a lot of lighting and um webcam settings and it's looking quite a bit better so we'll see how this uh recording actually turns out when it's uploaded they tend to look a little different when you actually upload them so um also I my like my two different I have two monitors here and they're both very different like quality one is actually just an old TV like an old flat screen uh RCA TV and the other one is like a nice Ben Q proper monitor so um yeah very different um but yeah this is pretty much just like a little test recording uh episode I want to so move this around a little bit here I like to have my OBS camera like my screen where it shows me I like to have that right underneath my webcam so that when I'm talking I can just look at myself and then it looks like I'm looking at the camera but I'm not actually like right now it probably looks like I'm looking right at you but I'm not I'm looking right below you at my my um what do you call it screen yeah that's what those things are called but um yeah um since I'm making this I might as well give a bit of an update I my last two videos have been like insomnia related and last night I did manage to sleep about another 6 hours um I had to smoke weed to do it again and I think this coming night uh it's Sunday today it's the 17th of September um it's also a calendar says it's Constitution Day in the US nice um but yeah uh uh I think tonight I'm going to try to I'm going to try to sleep with no weed maybe just take a melatonin and uh see if that's enough to get enough sleep cuz I do want to try going into work tomorrow I I've been off for like the last two weeks cuz I've been so messed up in my head but um I really want to try going in tomorrow cuz I like I I just can't like me taking two weeks off that's like like 1,200 bucks lost right there which 1,200 bucks I did not have to lose so um yeah I really want to get back to work as soon as possible and also it's just not healthy to just sit at home doing nothing um yeah it's not good for a guy so yeah try I'm going to try sleeping tonight with no weed cuz if I just start smoking weed again every night to go to sleep I'll fall right back to where I was and this Olive will been for nothing so I want to avoid that my light is now flickering can you not do that please that is can you see that in the video my light is just flickering like crazy here there it's stopped now I think and then it starts again I really want to get like um like a proper like LED backlight because this is just like a like a lamp that I have set up behind my uh uh it has a little foot pedal here so I can turn it on and off that's with my light off and that's with it on pretty big difference um but yeah I want to get like a proper LED light if I'm going to keep making these videos which I think I will uh making these videos has just been like really therapeutic for me and it's a good like reference to be able to look back on because often when I get into a bad mental state it's hard to like think through it so if I have like a catalog of these videos that I've made then I can just go back and be like okay well this is H this particular thing is happening again I can go watch this video at a time when it was happening and like see what I was saying about it back then but [Music] yeah yeah I woke up not that long ago so still kind of tired and I'm not drinking coffee anymore so I don't have that to really wake me up I've pretty much spent all morning fiddling around with OBS settings and webcam settings and all that but yeah this video was really not a not much of a point to it I don't even have much to ramble about today I don't think normally I want to make these videos I say they're going to be 5 minutes long and it ends up being half an hour along so I don't know if that's really necessary for this one probably not if I don't actually have anything to talk about H oh my goodness this light just keeps changing it just got like twice as bright out of nowhere I think my webcam is auto like adjusting for it but it in person it's the change is very drastic I'm also just like I've been PR pretty inside for pretty much two weeks straight so my eyes are not used to the light but yeah think I might go for a hike or something today I them feeling like I have a lot more energy today um after two consecutive nights of like 6 hours of sleep so yeah I think I might go do something today just get out and get some fresh air and exercise that hopefully will help me feel better for tomorrow for if I uh do try to go into work and yeah I also just think that lowering my dose back down from um 50 milligram a day of zolof to 25 I think that helped a lot um today will be the third day of going back down to 25 and um yeah my I just feel a lot less like brain fog and like like dead inside was also probably from uh sleeping a little bit I'm still definitely not like I'm struggling to like put sentences together just cuz I did go so long without sleeping it's still kind of um I can still feel it that that's uh that took its toll so yeah hopefully that'll goes back to normal soon and I can go back to work and start actually like making a living again I'm not one of these people that likes to sit at home and do nothing like I I I need to work or else I just go crazy um so yeah hopefully I can go back on on Monday or tomorrow and I'll probably make an update video after work letting you know how it went cuz last time I wented to work [Music] was dang last time I went into work was last Monday so like six days ago and um seven days and yeah I went in for I mentioned what my other video but I went in for like maybe three hours and I ended up having a a panic attack and then I went home because I'm not going to like stay at work if I'm having a panic attack it's just not uh it's not a good idea at least for me like I I I just don't want to like push my mental state to the limits like that like that's not I used to do that all the time and it it like you spiral bad then if you just push through it and just like oh I'm just going to man up and just go to work and like no like that's I used to do that I did that for years many years and it screwed me up pretty bad so now I I take my mental health much more seriously um that is something like that my generation like the younger generation is is uh taking a lot more seriously as their mental health like my dad's generation like uh Boomers and Gen X like like that generation they um a lot of them like typically like especially the old school kind of ones they um it's like mental health to them is just like a myth like something that just it doesn't exist it's all in your head right my dad's not like that but um a lot of people his age are um and they just don't take it seriously and you can tell like that they're just like barely holding it together like mentally so yeah I'm very glad that like people my age are starting to like take this stuff more seriously because it is serious um especially in this day and age where mental health just seems to be declining pretty rapidly like worldwide which I'm guessing the the common denominator in all of that is I guess like the internet and social media all this like inter connectivity that we have that we have never had throughout human history and suddenly we have all of this just all at once um I'm guessing it's just like a lot of this mental health stuff is just caused by stimulation overload from all these things all around us um there crappy food as well super processed garbage food economy is not doing good so people can't afford to eat as well um so yeah there's there's a lot of factors that go into this modern day mental health epidemic but yeah I'm just rambling at this point I already made a rambling video yesterday I don't need to make another one today and yeah this is the next day in yes I'm wearing the same shirt it's a flannel shirt you can wear a flannel shirt I usually go like two days in a row on a flannel shirt if I'm not like sweating like crazy and it's been pretty cool last couple days so haven't been I don't know why I'm even mentioning this nobody cares I also made my webcam bigger as you can see goes all the way it's all mirrored yeah I made it quite a bit bigger it was just like a little square before like this yeah like that and um yeah made it a lot bigger which should it definitely has improved the quality as well it's not so like zoomed in and low res and grainy cuz right now my other monitor I have one of my video from from yesterday pulled up just to compare the quality and it like it's bad and that yesterday the video yesterday was my best one yet and then this is this is like a whole another level so yeah I want to upload this now and check out the quality that was really the entire point of this video and I just ended up rambling a bunch about a bunch of random so yeah I think I'm going to end it or else I just end up rambling for another like half an hour all right yeah this has been recording 12 or entry 12 um it is September 17th feeling not too bad today and um yeah probably make another one tomorrow then I'll talk to you then