I am afraid to speak English (how to be confident)

Do you ever feel nervous to speak English in front of other people? Like everyone is smarter than you. Lately, I've been feeling scared. Scared to teach a lesson. Scared to go to a dance class. And I'm an English teacher with over a million followers. So this is a little bit Embarrassing or vulnerable to say, but today I want to be honest with you because I'm sure that you've felt this way before, but today I want to be honest with you because I'm sure that you've felt this way before too, especially when you're learning English. Hello, I'm Miss Honey. And this is my slow English podcast. I'm going to tell you how I got stuck in my comfort zone. And the one thing that made me feel amazing again. I have been lacking purpose lately. All of the things that I love to do, I haven't had time to do them. And I know why. It's so easy to stay at home. It's so easy to not go to a class that's difficult for me. It's so easy to do the things that I'm good at. To be around the people that I already know and feel comfortable around. It's hard. To do new things, to try new classes that I'm bad at, the classes that I'm still learning, and of course I'm bad at, because I'm just starting to learn them. But it's easy to avoid feeling uncomfortable. It's easy to avoid feeling self-conscious and Awkward. And I wanted to share this with you guys. I've been feeling self-conscious lately about the way I speak to groups of people, about the way that I speak to smart people, like my sister, for example. My sister is a great speaker. She's always been really good. at debating her ideas with other people, at expressing her point of view in a way that anyone can understand. She's always been very good at articulating her thoughts and putting them into words. It's something that I have always admired about her. And I'm really just an English teacher who accidentally became an internet sensation. I'm kidding. But I'm just an English teacher who accidentally became a very popular English teacher on YouTube. An English YouTuber. And now... I have meetings with people who studied business or who own their business. I interview teachers for my English community and I'm just an English teacher. Thank you. Of course, I have to give myself credit. I have to acknowledge My achievements, because I've been very courageous with handling all of these challenges. It's something that I'm very proud of, but I'm still human. I still get nervous. I get scared. I get overwhelmed. So I started taking communication coaching sessions. To improve the way I communicate and to make me feel more confident in these nerve-wracking situations. And I'm taking steps towards growing, even though it makes me feel uncomfortable. Because it's so much easier to stay where I am, to work on the things That are comfy and easy, where I don't join any live sessions, where I don't have to speak to anyone or challenge myself in any way, to challenge my body in any way, where I could just live in a state of constant ease and relaxation. And honestly, That's exactly what I have been doing lately, but it created a fear inside of me that I had never had before, and it just kept building up and building up until it got to the point where I was more afraid than ever to teach a lesson. And I'm an English teacher because I got so comfortable that I forgot how to be comfortable with discomfort. I didn't know how to be comfortable without feeling discomfort. Just listen back and you'll understand, I promise. And you know what? I think this is exactly what it feels like To speak English while you're learning it. You know you should practice, you know you should speak, but it's so much easier to just stay quiet. So a while ago I deleted Instagram and TikTok because it was just distracting me too much. I was using it, scrolling too much, so I started using Pinterest a lot more because I didn't have TikTok or Instagram. And I started seeing so many more people sharing their experiences, their progress in painting, in dancing. They showed videos of themselves When they first started dancing and had no coordination, it didn't seem like they were very good dancers at first, of course. Same with their drawings, photos of drawings and paintings. When it was just a hobby and they didn't have many skills, but they show their progress And how they just kept going. And they eventually, they finally saw results. It was so inspiring because before that, I had always just thought there are some things I'm good at and there are some things that I'm not. And that everybody has their own talents and their own set of skills. Skills that come easy to them but that's just not true. That's completely false actually because anyone can do anything that they want if they just set their mind to it. Maybe it'll be more difficult for you than it is for her but that's just life and even though it's difficult, You can still do it. Don't let that stop you from trying. So I realized something. Even though I didn't need to feel uncomfortable, I don't need to go to this dance class that makes me feel nervous. I don't need to go to a party full of strangers, but I should. And I only know that I should because once I do it, I feel so good. After I do something that I was so nervous about doing, even if it was a complete failure, I completely embarrassed myself or... Felt awkward the entire time. I will always feel amazing after. And I know that you would too. You would if you did. And just today, I woke up feeling very scared of the day ahead of me. So I knew exactly what I had to do. I had to get up. I had to go for a run. I had to join a live meeting, which I did, and I had to go to a dance class, which I haven't done yet, but I promise you I will today at four. It's two. And that's exactly what I did I will do. And I really wanted to share this with you guys. Because I know that sometimes we feel like we're the only ones who feel this way. And it's a constant effort to feel proud of yourself. And sometimes it's a constant effort to just feel okay. And that's normal. But we can't let the fear win. We have to be stronger for ourselves. Because you're worth it. All of this time and effort, it's all for you. And you're worth it. So I hope you guys enjoyed this little rant. I know I haven't made a video like this in a while. But I just hadn't felt like I needed to share anything for a while. But I love these videos. I love connecting with you guys in the comments. So if you like this video, be sure to comment. Something that scares you, but you do anyway. I love connecting with you guys in the comments, and I'm so grateful to have the best English students watching me here on the Slow English Podcast. I love connecting with you guys in the comments, and I'm so grateful to have the best English English students, here on my slow English. podcast. And I will see you guys next time. Remember, never stop learning. Bye.