Billie Eilish – Silent Cry (Official Music Video)

I smile when they ask me, I say I'm okay. But there's a storm inside that nobody can see. And when the world gets quiet, I hear everything. I learn to hide my feelings underneath the ordinary parts of everyday. I laugh when I'm supposed to laugh. Answer when somebody asks a question and keep moving. So nobody has enough time to notice the things I'm trying to hide. There are memories that return when the lights disappear. Little pieces of yesterday that still know exactly where to hurt. I tell myself I'm over it. But sometimes my heart remembers what my mind keeps trying to forget. I've become so good at saying I'm fine. But sometimes I almost believe it. Can you hear me when I don't speak? Can you see me when I disappear? I've been holding everything so quietly. I'm tired of hiding here. This is my cry. Falling through the dark. I'm screaming without a sound. Trying to find my heart. This is my silent cry. Nobody knows what's underneath. I don't need you to fix me. I just need you to see me. I thought being strong meant carrying everything alone. So I kept saying yes when I wanted to rest. And kept pretending that exhaustion was something I could simply overcome. The harder I tried to look normal, the further I felt for myself. I stopped asking what I needed and started worrying about what everyone expected from me. But pain doesn't disappear because you stay busy, it waits. And eventually, even silence becomes heavy. Maybe I can breathe without explaining. Maybe I can cry without apologizing. Maybe I don't have to hide every part of me. Maybe somebody can stay. This is my silent cry. Falling through the dark. I'm screaming without a sound. Trying to find my heart. This is my silent cry. Nobody knows what's underneath. I don't need you to fix me. I just need you to see me. Don't disappear. You're still here. There were nights I stared at the ceiling wondering how something could hurt so much when everything looked normal from the outside. I wanted somebody to notice without making me explain every detail. Maybe loneliness isn't always being alone. Maybe it's being surrounded by people and still feeling completely unseen. So I'm learning that I don't have to hide every wound. Some feelings are messy. Some days are difficult. And asking for help doesn't make me weak. It makes me human. If you're listening, stay for a moment. You don't need perfect words. You don't need to solve anything. Just stay. Let the silence breathe. Tonight I'm opening the door a little wider. I'm letting the things I buried finally have a voice even if that voice shakes. I can be tired without being defeated. I can be afraid without being weak. I can't ask for help without feeling ashamed. Maybe tomorrow will still be difficult but I don't have to solve tomorrow. Tonight. I just need to breathe. One breath. One word. One step. I'm still here. I don't know where this road will end but for tonight I can breathe again. This was my silent cry. Now I'm letting it be heard. I don't have to scream forever just to prove that I was heard. This was my silence. But the silence isn't me. I can feel it. I can face it. I can finally breathe. This was my silence. The way I did before. If you can hear me. If you can see me. Maybe I'm not alone. I was never empty. I was full of things I couldn't say. I was never broken. I was learning another way. If the tears come I'll let them fall. If the night feels heavy I'll wait for morning. My silent cry isn't silent anymore. My silent cry doesn't have to hurt alone. I can speak. I can breathe. I can finally let it go. My silent cry became a voice inside of me. And for the first time I'm listening. Maybe nobody heard me before. Maybe I didn't know how to speak. But I'm here. I'm breathing. And tonight that's enough.