Leaving my toxic relationship and moving in my car was the best thing I could have done/ Van life

All right guys we pretty much arrived where I wanted to show you this morning. Right here. Right there. This is the first time that me and Kelly met together. It was right there. Right there. I used to live. One second. I used to live in this house right there and I went down to go on my walk and I went with my music on and this time I decided to not go with my music and I heard a little cat meowing and that was my baby Kelly. And she literally ran to me and jumped in my arms. Seriously. It was so cute and I thought that she was one of the neighbor's cats so I bring her back to the house. I was renting the basement there and I phoned like I was a dog walker and I was walking a lot of their dog the neighbor's dogs and I phoned one of the neighbor which I thought that maybe that was her cat and she was like no it's uh she's been around for the past week. It's probably someone who dropped her. That happened every summer. She's not in the neighborhood and like it's a kind of older neighborhood here so people like they all know each other. They all know you know they all know what's going on so I was but I'm gonna keep her for the night. I'm not gonna let her outside so I kept her inside and six months before her I had my cat Kiki who died. Sad story. It's kind of like I don't know I do have a mixed feeling here right now. My cat Kiki died. I had to put her down unfortunately. She was really sick and she had a hard time to breathe so I had to do that rough decision so she's buried right there with her little brother who died six months before her. It was mostly my boyfriend cat but we were together nine years so you know that was my cat too as well but yeah they both buried their uncle Harley and Kiki so yeah I didn't have like any litter box and all that because when they die we kind of like you know throw the litter and all that so we had to get a girl like at the store there grab like everything for the night. Some cat food and all that. She was really hungry. She was tiny. She was shedding like she was losing her hair was insane probably from bad food and bad nutrition so I kept her probably for two weeks before I made my decision that I would keep her so I put in the ad where people get the mail. I phoned the SPCA the local SPCA to see if someone was claiming her and all that stuff and nobody claimed her so yeah I bring her to the vet and that's the first time that I saw that she was really good in car because she was pretty like she wasn't a lot carrier that time and she was sleeping in the passenger side so I was like that's strange no cats do that so yeah it's kind of like a misfit ending yeah when I bring her to the vet to everything get checked you know she had the intestinal worms so they had to take care of that and after that she got back to get spayed because that's really important for me that all my animals get spayed or neutered so yeah she got spayed and um yeah so since then she's my little baby who's under my seat right now I don't know she's been sleeping there or when I drive now. Kiki, Kelly, sorry I guess my cat's thinking about me right now look where we are look before our neighbors decide to call the cusp because we allowed to be here but the neighbors are really like you know it's almost like a gate community here it's kind of like it's got more house than it was before it's been three or four years that I've been here but um yep this is where my story with my cat and not a story here it's kind of like a mixed feeling this is where me and my ex-boyfriend were living and you know that's where everything when I decided to keep her my cat I knew that my relationship with my boyfriend was not working and I didn't know I didn't know I would be able to keep the cats kind of like a little bit hard especially if you do have a dog it's hard to rent a room but I knew that I would not be able to have a house on my like a room on my own because really expensive so I have to have roommate and it's hard to find a place where the roommates want to have cats you know so it's really hard to have a pet here oh there you go bubby come see come check what's going on look where we are you see right there that's your that's your first house well your second one because I don't know I don't know your first story she was probably eight months when I rescued her um so yeah a lot of story here so I'm gonna show you around and yeah kind of mixed feeling really today like um yeah it's you know that's where like if you want a relationship with my birth boyfriend and and which is like a good thing now but at that time it was really a hard decision I was still in love with him I don't know why sorry he's got a lot of cat hair um I don't know why but yeah um it was um kind of yeah hard decision I never really told the full story which I'm not gonna tell the full full one you know like maybe a little bit of time but um the main reason why me and my boyfriend we end up splitting is um my ex used to have like drug problem and when I met him he was out of rehab and you know like he was sober no alcohol no drugs and he was good and I told him I'm like you know what you did in your past I really don't care and I you know it's I'm still like this you know like what you done in the past it doesn't matter but I'm not gonna stay if you take drugs and the night here we were together everything was good and he got hurt at work um really bad accident which gave him a lot of migraine and headache and he was really having a hard time to keep working he was a welder um something felt it and I really messed him up you know like mentally and he decided to take drugs again and I tried to help him if you know if you know people who take drugs and alcohol you know um we try to help him more than they want sometimes and this is what happened I was trying to figure out solution try to figure out to help him and I try way too much to a point that I was you know ruining my my life you know like I was grabbing his problem and just making almost mine you know I was trying to find solution and I was just miserable and I gained like so much weight when I was with him because like I was just constantly just mentally in pain to see him suffering and see him like this all right a lot of talking right now sorry uh so we're gonna go further I will show you the lake because we do have a view of the lake here look at the mess that we have this morning guys it was beautiful and um yeah so the lake is right right there I'm gonna show you some picture I have a bunch of picture of the area so this is a lake smoky let's get some little duck yeah you see the mountain there better you see it supposed to clear up later on so yeah it was a mixed feeling I was kind of like thinking I was like oh I'm gonna show them where you know I used to live and where me and kitty met and I'm just making breakfast I realized that you don't see it right now but I didn't thought that would kind of bring me some kind of like emotional almost you know um like I'm so happy that I'm not in that relationship anymore and it was like the best thing but that time like I said it was a really hard decision and I'm gonna be honest like the last year we were together he was still taking drugs and I was still trying to help him and all that and that relationship should have like end like way sooner and the reason why I left him with kitty is I didn't have any place for her and I didn't have like any any reason me to doubting that he was not taking care of her I was seeing him once in a while and make sure that everything was good for a little bit and you know like kitty she was especially at that time like very low maintenance and he was like really liking her it was said that she like he really liked to you know having this company all that so and yeah she was like going outside from like sunrise to sunset so you know the only thing that he had to make sure was giving her food and water and I was being bag of like cat food like so many so often so you know so everything yeah so everyday mix of feeling this morning um so for those of you wonder if me and my ex-boyfriend we kind of like contact each other once in a while or if he doesn't even know that I live in a van uh it's been last time we talked to each other it's a good year and a half now um so two years ago I got a phone call that someone found Kelly she's got a tattoo on her hair which any animal shelter if they bring that to the system they know that they can call me to have my phone so someone called me that they found my cat in Kamloops which is an hour from here so I was like what's going on I tried to contact my ex-boyfriend no answer so I drove from Squamish to Kamloops with my car I was sleeping in my car that time so I didn't really have any place for her but I was really actively like looking for a van so she kind of pushed me to get like a van sooner not sooner but you know working on it a little bit more so I bring her to a cat boarding place she stayed there unfortunately for three weeks too long but yeah I had to do what I had to do to find a good van really fast and yeah finally call like contact him and pretty much the owner kick him out of the place um and it was living in the streets to be very honest with you and yeah we talked to each other one more time after that and he was just about to go in jail so he got caught with some drugs and I think he enter in one property or something around that but yeah so this is the last news that I got from him I don't know what he's all about now I don't know if he's still in jail hopefully for him he's in a better place but yeah I don't really have plan to talk to him or to you know is over I wish him well that's it you know I mean so yeah so a lot of uh I didn't plan of uh talking that much but yeah there you go it's all good so uh we're gonna enjoy this little view hopefully the sky's gonna clear up and the smoke's gonna clear up I should say and yeah we have a couple things to do in town after that so I'm gonna enjoy this I hope you enjoy this little uh roundabout and see where me and caddy used to live and all my story and if you are in toxic relationship whatever it means to you I hope you find a good way out and I will see you soon