Jackie And Cole - Love Story (My Life With The Walter Boys)

That's Cole. Want to introduce yourselves? She'll figure it out. Where are you gonna help? I can do it. No, you make yourself at home, okay? Yeah, don't worry about it, New York. Come on, New York. Get in. It's big. Not like them fancy Manhattan schools, huh? Cole! Good luck today, New York. What did I tell you, what did I tell you? I have money. Lunch can be rough on your first day. This is New York, New York. This is everyone. It's Jackie, actually. Hi. It's about that. I should have waited for you. Yeah, you should have. Let me make it up to you. Custard? I named him when I was like six, okay? Let me take you out for a ride. Like I said, I don't really like it. Come on, trust me. You'll like it. You see, if we ratted on each other for every time someone did something, we'd probably be grounded forever. So when they find out you snitched, well, you're gonna want to let them cool off. I'm not a dork. Oh, you sure are. I'm not. Cole! Come on. Damn, girl. When are you gonna sleep? When I've got the acceptance offer from Princeton. For you. Thanks. Hey. It's not so bad. Give it back. That's not funny. Like I told you, it's the Cole effect. That's ridiculous. If he isn't so special, why can't you keep your eyes off him? I can. Mm-hmm. Gotcha. I'm getting it. Come on. You can't win until you learn to lose. All right, that's what peewee football is about. Learning how to lose, getting back up, and winning. I was headed for Alabama for college, but now that's, well... Hey, Cole, you know anything about a bet with Isaac this morning? No. I didn't get that. Seriously, Cole? It was a joke, okay? Going for a ride. Wanna come? No. You owe me an apology. Oh, yeah. I'm sorry. Skyler, what is happening? I believe we are witnessing a romantic gesture. It was very sweet of you to sacrifice an entire afternoon working for Edna to give the drama club the new theater. Well, one of us should hold on to our dream. You coming? Maybe another time. Is it too late to bid on some help breaking down the cider cart tomorrow? I will be there. Cross my heart. Alex, wait. You wanna hang with us? Besides, what were you gonna do, wait for Cole? He's not exactly the poster child of dependability. Need a ride home to New York? Going to the Lark for the food drive. Suit yourself. Are you okay? Me? I'm fine. You keeping secrets from me in New York? Today's just been... a lot. Oh God, I'm so sorry. It's okay. Sweetie, I just, I feel terrible. It's fine. You got to relax for once. Take your mind off things. Okay, well... You wouldn't. Oh, I wouldn't? Truth or dare? Truth. Are you happy here? I'm not sure. Not yet. I mean, in New York, I never would have done any of the things that I did yesterday. And I don't know if that means I'm changing for the better or the worse. Truth or dare? Truth. Are you happy? Sometimes I... just feel kind of... broken. My mom always said... nothing is so broken that it can't be fixed. It was... Lucy's birthday... yesterday. I'm sorry, Jackie. That's why I was using her teapot. It's part of our birthday tradition. It was silly, but... we would buy each other teapots at birthdays and Christmas. That one... that was her favorite. Where did Jackie go? Found him. She's not going anywhere, so let's... Actually, I might be. What do you want? Do you know what you want? The only thing I know for sure... is... what I want is impossible to have. Your secret is out, Cole. You think you're not? You went after your brother's girlfriend, which is a horrible thing to do. I didn't do anything wrong. Outside. Now. Maybe I have pulled some dick moves with girls in the past, okay? But I swear, Paige came on to me. Look, if I'd have known there was anything going on between them, anything at all, it would have never happened. And I thought, after everything, that you, of all people, more than anyone, you wouldn't know that. But I guess I was wrong. I know things are hard for you right now. I get that. But if you let me, then we can fix this together. I don't want to fix anything with you. I want you to have never come here. Well, I want my family not to have died. What is it this time? Oh, like you don't know. So I guess we both want the same thing. Jack? Jack Yadin? I don't really remember that night. You know what? Everyone uses that as an excuse, but I don't buy it. Drinking doesn't give you a free pass to be an ass. Over here, New York. Where's Danny? He's supposed to- You're right. I know. Benny wanted him to read him his bedtime story, so you get me instead. Can you fix it? I don't have my toolbox. I'm on my way home to get it. I got asked to pick you up. Oh, I see. It's my fault. Is it really warmer? See for yourself. Things were bad between me and Alex long before you got here. Okay, and I was trying to fix it, but then you showed up and made that impossible. But didn't you say that you and Alex did fix it? Yeah. Finally. It doesn't mean it's not still complicated. I won't break my brother's heart again, but I can't not want you. I can get some flowers for you. From where? What kind of flowers? You know there's a theme, right? Yes, I'm not an idiot, but if you don't trust me, come with me. Is that Jackie on a horse? Yeah, with Cole. He seems happy. Looks like I'm gonna be around for the summer after all. You are? Summer school. That's fantastic. I knew it. I knew you would figure things out. Okay, New York. Don't get so excited. I guess you don't scrub up too badly, New York. You either, Colorado. So I guess when you meet your person, you know nothing else really matters. I know that you've been avoiding me. You don't have to. All that stuff I said, just forget it. Didn't mean anything. Okay? Cole, what is this? Just need a little more work after the breakdown. No, I meant this. Doesn't mean anything. Just, I know how much you miss him. You had it, all this time. I wanted to give it to you, but Jackie... What did you do? What? I haven't spoken to her since I left New York, but it's a good thing she's here though, yeah? Need any help? No, I'm good. Mom said you were moving him into here. It's time I made the room mine, I guess. Why are you carrying all the garbage? Because I'm trying to atone. Jackie, can you stop for a second? I should give these to Danny. Can you please stop running away from me? We need to talk. I know. Every time I make a little headway somewhere, it feels like I get pushed back somewhere else. Why did you really come back? This is the only home I have now. And I almost lost it. You could never do that. I wouldn't be too sure. There's quite a few people who don't seem thrilled that I'm back. I am. I missed you. A lot. Don't. Don't what? You know what? Everything that happened between us, it started this whole disaster. I can't believe I did that to Alex. So what do you want to do now? If I'm ever going to fit in here, if I'm ever going to be a Walter, then nothing can happen between us. I guess it could be hard to be that close to something you love, but you know you can't have. I think I need a little space. If that's what you want. Want some coffee? More like need, desperately. It just takes time to get there. How is it? It kind of sucks. It just takes time, Colorado. You'll get there. Easy. I know it was you who got Dylan and the football team to buy tickets for the pop-up shop. It's just, there's hay in your hair. They did it on their own? Seriously. Thank you. I know I'm the one that said I needed space, but this is nice. Yeah. Does your mom know you stole her laundry basket? Not if you don't tell her. What would you say if we tried the whole... Friends. Friends give friends rides home sometimes. But you can ride in the back seat. Friends. Yeah. You just beat your biggest rival. I didn't beat anyone. It was your play, it was your idea. But I wasn't on the field. Congratulations, New York. Thanks. You like it? I thought that this would feel different. It would feel good, but... So, Ruby, huh? Huh, what? Nothing. I get it. Did that hurt your feeling? We decided to go all out for Paris. It's perfect. It just seems like you've been hanging out a lot. Not that it's any of my business. You are completely free to hang out with whoever you want, obviously. Jackie. Yeah? She's tutoring me in biology and chem. Oh. Oh, just a reminder that this is all important to you. And that's not a bad thing. You still have a life, just because it's not playing football. I get it. I should be over it by now. Oh, you got the disappointed speech. Harsh. Cole, let her go. She needs a minute. Oh, it'll be fine. I think you might be, like, my mom's favorite person. Congrats on another successful fundraiser, New York. So, you decided to coach? Yeah. You good? Ask me tomorrow. I made breakfast. What? You can take shotgun. Seem like the right thing to do? Yeah. You have longer legs. You guys are always the first to ready and waiting, except for the one day I have to get to school early? I don't care that you messed up. I don't care what happened with Cole. That's between you and him. Like I said the other night, I'm not over you. I should have been here. Maybe I could have helped. Cole. What do you want from me? Go find somebody else to fix. And there shouldn't have been such an ass at the dance. I'm sorry, Jackie. I'm more mad at myself. Why? Because I thought you changed. It was awful. I doubt that. You weren't there. So, I guess you told Alex? Sorry, I should have told you. But everything has to be your way all the time. Well, if that were true, you wouldn't have ruined the dance. That had nothing to do with you. You knew how much that meant to me. I'm sorry, okay? Can we not right now? This band already found a drummer. Old. You just keep falling and getting back up? Are we still talking about the rodeo? Do you want to be the first? No. I'm good. Did summer school help? Not enough. What if I help? This is your chance to stand out from all the other applicants. You have to go. We'll get you into college. I promise. Can't wait to get rid of me, huh? I guess. Good luck. I just want you to be happy. I know. I'm not ready for this. Come on. You're gonna do fine. Thank you. Welcome to the Jackie Howard College Boot Camp. What if I say something stupid? You won't. Can we not tell anyone about this? I'm tired of being a failure. Of needing people to step in all the time. Can we keep it just between us? Of course we can. Just us. I think I can do this now. See? I knew it. What are you guys doing? I'm just going to practice. By being prepared, you can get everything you want. Everything, huh? And you didn't dress up? What are you talking about? I'm James Dean. Everybody deserves to dream big. Especially my friends. Like you. It's about the driving test. Because Will failed his first time out. Not for the highway. Are you serious? Yes. You've got this. How did you know I didn't pass? Well, there's no secrets in the Walter household, so... Good. Now. What is it? I know it sounds stupid. But it's about tomorrow. A little more gentle. You're gonna have to shift again. I got it. It's supposed to be a celebration for those who have died. New York? You want to play? I warn you, we're ruthless. And I just, I can't do it. Don't beat yourself up. What is wrong with me? And take all of your candy? Are you sure? Why can't I celebrate my family? There is nothing wrong with you. Oh, she's a hustler. Okay. Let's see what you got. I'm kind of, I'm kind of losing myself. You're not losing yourself. Challenge accepted. You will always be a Howard. And to me, you'll always be New York. How's it going? It's going. Congratulations. Yeah. Thanks. I haven't seen you much since Halloween. Are you happy? I am. Have you gotten your new SAT scores back yet? No. Oh. Felt good this time. Great. That's great. I feel like they should have gone through by now. Maybe you should call them. Yeah, you're right. I will. I, um, I'll see you at home. Do you want to work on college applications together like we talked about? No. What did you get? Like a 1250. When did you get that? A couple weeks ago. We're kind of running out of time. I mean, I could do like a first pass for you. Jackie, just leave it. Why didn't you say anything? You know what? You guys celebrate. I'm going out. I got to get back to these plays. Like you said, tomorrow's a big day. Can we not do this again? I know you're not fine. You've been off with me for weeks. You've been avoiding me, staying out of the house. Please be honest with me. Like you've been honest with me? I have been honest with you. I don't think you've even been honest with yourself. Here's some honesty for you. I saw you and Alex at Richards. I was giving you space, like you asked, but I thought we had something. We said that we were going to be friends. We've never just been friends. Why is it that you can't stay away from him, but you can stay away from me? I can't stay away from you. I keep trying to, and nothing works. And I can't have that, Cole. I can't be with someone who makes me feel the way that you make me feel. I love you, Jackie. And I thought you felt the same way, but if I'm wrong, then just say it. I love you, okay? Why would being with me be so awful? When we kissed before, it was the only time that I've ever stopped thinking about everything. I felt really free, like I was out of control. And I can't have that, Cole. I can't, I can't lose control. Why? Because I don't know what might happen if I do. You love him? Always.