Outlander Season 8 _ Claire Reassures Jamie After A Painful Argument

Jamie, don't punish Brianna and Roger because you're angry about John. Now, I don't like it either, but they've obviously thought it through. They're not going. They don't need your permission. They asked for it, did they not? They asked for your blessing and your help. They don't need my help. John Grey has taken care of everything. I could have lied, you know. No, you couldn't. You can't lie to anyone, Sansa, let alone me. Given his lordship, it already told me the truth. You can't have been sure it was the truth. I could have told you that he was talking out his backside because he wanted to annoy you, and you would have believed me. I don't want to hear anything about his lordship's backside. Here. Why didn't you lie then? Because I promised you honesty. If honesty turns out to be a double-edged sword, well, I think the wounds tend to be worth it. Did Frank think that? I'd have to ask him. This is about you and me. What do you want me to say? That I wished I hadn't slept with John? Do you? Does he know, Sassenach, I may do something I regret? You forgave me. You said so. I didn't. I said I will love you forever, and I will, but... You can't love someone if you won't forgive them. I forgive you. How dare you? First you're angry with me because I didn't forgive you, and now you're outraged at me because I did. I didn't do anything wrong in the first place, and you know it. You did. You did do it. You think I was unfaithful to you, and I wasn't. Do you want to get what's wrong with me? Yes. I swear to myself I will put this thing out of my head. And mostly I manage. And then he sends you a letter, and it all comes back again. When I think of it, and I see you, I need to have you then and there. He is there in my head. How do you think I can stand to think that you and I are sharing a bed with him in it? We're not. I have never, not for one second, thought of anyone else but you when I'm in your bed. I ought to be offended that you think I do. I don't. It's only that I'm afraid I might. I tell you what, you leave that to me. You think very highly of yourselves, don't you?