Jennifer Lawrence on Her Infamous Trip at the Oscars and Fear of Ghosts _ Screen Tests

My first audition that I went on was for a video for vet, like people going through veterinarian school, and my horse had just died. My horse in the audition died, my real horse didn't die. But yeah, it went super well, they never called me, and I haven't forgotten. My audition outfit, oh God, it was these green knit boots and a multicolored scarf and a denim miniskirt. Did I change the top out? It kind of topped, I don't remember the shirt. I just remember green knit boots and a Kentucky miniskirt, a denim skirt. Did I dress like a hooker? Sometimes, but I had a very limited closet. But every once in a while. But the green boots were probably always involved. Poker face. No, I'm laughing because it's called poker house. Poker face. It made me feel like Lady Gaga, which is not a bad feeling at all. I was 15 when I got that, I was 16 when we filmed it. It was my first real movie, I guess, my first lead. My agent would send scripts, and then sometimes my parents would read them, but they weren't really paying attention. But I knew if they read this one that they wouldn't let me do it, but I really loved it. There was a rape scene in it that I didn't think they'd be too crazy about, but it was too late. She didn't want to see it, but I guess something legally, you have to watch your daughter get imaginarily raped. I mean, I think it's kind of traumatizing for the first, and then after take five, six, seven, you're like, okay, God. Oh, what movie makes me cry? Terms of Endearment. Go. Obviously. The moment when she dies, and she said, I thought I would be relieved, I'm so stupid. Oh, God. Every time I watch that movie, I think it's going to be different. It's like every time I watch Cool Runnings, I'm like, they're making it to the Olympics. They're going to win the gold. I know they're never going to. Go. I was worried that even if he did say my name, I might not understand. So I was like, listen very carefully. And then, I don't know, my whole, I mean, it's kind of like a really shocking, overwhelming moment. I honest to God don't really remember it. I remember feeling myself start to step on my dress and knowing I was going down, and just repeating the F word in my head really fast as I went down. Go. Kick, walk, kick, walk. Yeah, I had, like, I was sitting there, and I remember, like, something was running through my head, like, kick, walk, kick, walk, kick, walk. And I was like, why is kick, walk stuck in my head? Kick, walk. And then, as I started to walk up the stairs, and I started to get the fabric tucked under my feet, I was like, kick, walk, kick, walk. You were supposed to kick the dress out while you walked. And I totally forgot because I was just thinking about cake. Go. Star-rated movie. First thing I snuck into. Um, oh, God. Probably something scary. I don't know why I always did it to myself. And I still do it to myself. And now I'm like, I'm an adult. I don't need to do this. If I watch this show or I watch this movie, every time I go pee in the middle of the night, I'm going to sprint back to my bed because I'm going to feel like something's chasing me, and I'm going to be scared every day. And I do it all the time. Why? I'm not afraid of zombies. Well, until the whole basalt thing happened. And I remember texting somebody, zombies are real, call me now. Um, no, I'm terrified of ghosts. I'm more afraid of ghosts than, like, an actual killer. Which, again, makes so much sense. But yeah, no, terrified of ghosts.