Woman Dies;Meets Jesus & Receives Messages For Her FUTURE and CHANGE Everythings! (NDE)

I think I just died. And right when I said that, I realized that some creature, some being, was next to me up there on the ceiling. And to me, it felt like such incredible love coming from that being that I just assumed that it was God. Hello, everyone. My name is Barbara Bartolome, and I'm talking to you today from Santa Barbara, California. I grew up in Salem, Oregon, and that's way north of here, a thousand miles north. And when I was about 27 years old, I moved down here to Santa Barbara, California. And I've worked at a number of different places here, done a lot of different wonderful things. I've had a security clearance with the Department of Government in a secret status, secret rating. And I had a missile system that I worked with here in Santa Barbara. I also taught customer service in Southern California Gas Company and had customer service calls that I took and handled. I felt really strongly as a child that I had a very strong connection straight up to God. And my parents questioned that they didn't understand why I felt that way. And I didn't even understand why I felt that way. But it was because when I was 53 years old, my older brother ended up telling me that I had had my first near-death experience when I was 18 months old. I was a baby. I was a little toddler. And I got very sick with some sort of a flu bug or some sort of disease that came. And I was extremely sick and I went into convulsions and I stopped breathing. And my parents called the fire department, which is where they sent the ambulances out from. And they were sending the ambulance over to my home to take me to the hospital. And they told my father on the telephone to tell my siblings, my older brother and two older brothers and older sister, to go over and get more ice because we had to put me into bath water that was tepid, my body. And I had stopped breathing and my heart was stopped, et cetera. And they were afraid that I would be dead for too long before the ambulance got there. So they told me to, told them to put me into tepid bath water, just neutral bath water, and then add ice cubes to slowly lower my body temperature. And so I was in that situation. My brother said that he thinks I was dead about 10 minutes before the ambulance showed up. And just as the ambulance drove up in front of our home, I self-resuscitated. And he said that all of a sudden, you know, you were purple. He said you weren't breathing. Mom was crying over the top of you. And all of a sudden, you took a deep breath in. You changed from purple to red because you got oxygen back into your body again. And he said then the ambulance people came rushing through the front door and took you off to the hospital. So I didn't know that that had happened as a child. But I had incredible experiences all through my young life, as well as my teen years and my 20s and 30s of experiences that most people would not have. I had interactions where I was told what was going to happen. And then it turned out that it did happen. And that kind of shocked people around me. I kind of knew ahead of time things that were going to happen. And so that was that was really shocking. I learned to not talk about it and not tell people because it was too upsetting to people around me. So that happened a long time before my second near-death experience, which happened at age 31. I scared people. And I had an incident where I knew a car accident was going to happen when I was five years old. And I, you know, said to my mom who was holding my hand, I broke her grip from my hand and her hand. And I covered my face and I said, they're going to crash. And behind me in Salem, Oregon, on the street corner, a car came down the street and ran through the red light and hit a car right in front of us. And it pushed it away from us. And it was a big, loud crash. And my little sister started crying. And my mom was shocked that I had just said that before the accident even occurred. And so she actually got down on one knee and she took my shoulders and she shook me and she said, don't you ever tell anyone that you can do that. So it was very upsetting to her. At night when I would go to sleep, I was just a little young child. And I would be in my room and I knew that she was going to come in and kiss me good night. And I would be talking and I'd be talking and I'd be talking and my mom would come in and she'd say, who are you talking to? And I'd say, I'm talking to God. And she would look at me like, who are you? Who are you? Why? What kind of a kid are you? Who are you? So it was really difficult for me as a child. I was a lot different than most other kids. I really was very different. So I didn't find out what the near-death experience after effects are until after I had my second near-death experience. I was at a conference maybe 12 to 15 years after my experience. And there was a very famous woman speaking. Her name is P.M.H. Atwater. And she's a researcher on near-death experiences and she's written a number of books. And she was talking in this particular talk at this conference that I was invited to go to about the after effects that near-death experiencers have. And they've done a lot of research on that. And at the conference, I was listening to her talk and I thought, wait a minute, wait a minute. Why do I have those particular things? But way, way before I had my near-death experience that I remember every second of at age 31, why do I have my after effects all the way back to my childhood? So I asked her after her talk at that conference, and she took my hands and was so gentle. And she said, I think that if you had those exact after effects and you identify with those, you should talk with your family because something probably happened to you that you haven't been told about either in your birth or later on before you can remember it. And I think you should talk with your family. So that's what got me to ask my older brother who's 10 years older than me. And that summer I was seeing him and going out to dinner with him in Oregon. My husband and I were going up. And so I didn't want to tell him I had never told my family about my second near-death experience at age 31. I never told anybody about that at that point. So my second near-death experience happened when I was 31 years old. It was here in Santa Barbara. And I had been living up in Oregon. And at age 27 or so, I moved down to Santa Barbara because the person that had met me up in Oregon invited me to move down to Santa Barbara with him. We had been dating. And he said that if we did, then we would get married down here. And I had been divorced up in Oregon from a person I had dated in high school. And I had a son. And I thought that that sounded like a good life ahead. And I loved the person that was asking me to move down here. So I moved down. We got married. And within three months or so, he was, I think, stressed at work. And he would come home and be angry. And he started hitting me and pushing me, kicking me, shoving me, controlling my income, which I had gotten a job and was working. And he controlled my income and didn't give me anything for spending money. I did actually leave him. And I moved out into an apartment. And I lived there for a whole year with him begging me to move back in again and him saying that he would never do it again. But of course, after he lied to me and told me that he'd gotten counseling and that he was over the anger issues, I moved back in and trusted that he was telling me the truth. And he wasn't. And he started hurting me again. So what happened was that he ruptured a disc in my lower back, in my L5 S1 vertebrae. And I couldn't walk any longer. I had just had a child with him. When it happened, it was the child was little girl and she was only about one month old when he hurt me really badly. And I went to the doctors to see if they could do something to help me. And the first doctor told me I would never walk again, that he could not fix it, and that I would never walk again. So I was very upset with that. And friends of mine here in Santa Barbara that I had made at work, told me of a neurosurgeon here in town in Santa Barbara that was very, very good and suggested very strongly that I go see and get a second opinion from him. So I took the different tests and scans that they had done on my lower back to him. And I was sitting in his office and he was looking at these scans up on the wall on a lighted device that he had on his wall. And he very offhandedly said, I can fix this. Well, I really wanted to believe that because I wanted to walk again and I wanted to have a normal life. So they injected the dye into the back of my neck, had me on the x-ray table. The two doctors were leaning against the wall, kind of to the side behind the x-ray tech's body. And the other x-ray tech was sitting on a high stool looking at a monitor. He was going to be watching the dye go down my spine. And the x-ray tech that was controlling the table with a button on the table to raise my head and lower my feet accidentally pushed the wrong button on the table. So instead of the table moving slowly to raise my head and lower my feet, it was lowering my head and raising my feet. So immediately within 30 seconds, I started feeling really funny. And I thought, what's going on? This is weird. I feel like I'm going to faint. The two x-ray techs were talking to each other and the two doctors were talking to each other. And the nurse was over at a table by the door. And I didn't want to interrupt the x-ray techs. And I waited too long. And by the time that I realized I should say something, this is, I'm going to faint. I know I'm going to faint. I couldn't actually speak. By then, the dye was going into my brain and I couldn't open my mouth and I couldn't say anything. And I couldn't reach my hand up to touch the x-ray tech. He was standing right next to the table. I could have reached up earlier, but I couldn't. So I panicked at that point. I was very panicked. And it ended up that I started hyperventilating, which is breathing very fast. And my eyes were rolling to the back of my head and I couldn't control them. I couldn't keep, I kept trying to bring them forward, but they were rolling to the back of my head. So when I hyperventilated, the two x-ray techs heard me. And the one x-ray tech that had his finger on the table, bent over the table and looked at my face. And then he leaned back to look to see where his thumb was on the table. And he made this look like, oh, and that was the last thing that I saw. My eyes shut in my body on the table. And in the next second, I was looking down from up on the ceiling straight down at my body and the tops of the people's heads and the top of everything. And I felt completely fine. I wasn't panicked anymore. I felt wrapped in the most beautiful blanket of love. I felt acceptance. I felt wonderful. And I looked down and I said, huh, if I'm up here and my body's down there and he's calling code blue, I think I just died. And right when I said that, I realized that some creature, some being was next to me up there on the ceiling. And to me, it felt like such incredible love coming from that being that I just assumed that it was God. And I don't think he honestly cares whether you call him God or any other name. I think that he's just this amazing being that is there when something happens to you. And so I began up on the ceiling watching everything that was happening down below. They were panicking. The doctors were calling out orders. But I was talking to the being and I was saying very calmly, I really would like to go back into my life. If I leave my children in this way at this time, they'll be abused and I won't be there to help them. Please, I need to go back into my life. And so I said that a total of four times. I waited in between each time and I didn't get any response from the being. But finally, the neurosurgeon, they had gotten in an oxygen cart. So the two x-ray techs stopped blowing in my mouth. And they both switched off every two minutes doing chest compressions to keep my heart beating. This man had brought in a box that was set on a shelf that was right next to the table that I was laying on. And he was taking these white round things and he was peeling off the of them. And he was putting them on my body. And I didn't know what he was doing. And so I ended up saying in the midst of me talking to this being, I said, I understand everything else that's happening in the room. But I don't understand what he's doing. And when I said that, I was moved down, my consciousness was moved down right in front of the box. There was a green glass window at the top of the front of the box. There was lots switches and there was a toggle switch on the side. And I was right in front of it. And I saw his hand cross in front of my consciousness and flick the toggle switch on the side of the box. And this little white light lit up inside this green glass screen. And it went straight line across the screen. It was making this monotone sound going bee. I didn't know what it was. I wasn't a TV watcher. I'd never seen a heart monitor before. And it went all the way across the screen the first time. And then it started again and went across the screen a second time. And it was very slow. So it was quite a bit of time, like, at least 1520 seconds. And then the third time it started to go across the screen. And all of a sudden, it came to me. Oh, that's heart monitor. It's a flat line. I'm watching that I don't have a heartbeat. And the second that I thought that I was back up on the ceiling again next to the being. And the doctor, that's the neurosurgeon ended up saying, in a moment or two, maybe a minute or two after that, he said to the orthopedic surgeon, too much time has passed, she's going to be brain dead, we need to do something. And so the orthopedic surgeon said, stand clear. And everybody backed away from the table, the guys that were doing the chest compressions and pushing on my heart, the nurse, everybody on the side that the orthopedic surgeon was on the table, they all stepped away. He took two steps forward. And he took his fist from behind his back. And he just went out and he pounded my center of my chest right there. And I watched from up above my body react to that because it kind of jerked. But I didn't go back into my body. But that's when the being finally spoke to me that was up there next to me. And I heard this beautiful voice that said, but if you go back, you'll still be in your marriage. What will you do? And then I saw all these film clips that just went flash, flash, flash, flash, flash, flash, flash, flash, flash. And it was reminding me of all the incidents that I had lived through in this time with my husband, all the abuse. So then after that all showed, then I was given time and I realized, I need to think about whether I really want to go back because I'm putting myself in terrible danger if I go back. And I thought about my children. I thought about all the things that I had done to try to help my husband change. And I then realized, okay, it's not him that can change. It's me that needs to make a choice to do something different in my life. I needed to get away from him, whatever it took. So I then said to the being, if you let me go back, I promise you, I will get strong enough to leave him. And the second that I said the word him, the doctor did a second precardial thump with his fist on my chest. And that was when my eyes shut from up above. And I opened my eyes and I had the oxygen mask on my face. And the doctor had just struck me. So he was only an arm's length away. And I looked at him and I said, what just happened into the oxygen mask? And the nurse leaned over me and said, stop, don't talk. We need to stabilize you. So for about 20 minutes, they stabilized. And then they took the oxygen mask off. Both the neurosurgeon and the orthopedic surgeon were standing right next to the table next to me. And I looked at them and I said, what just happened? I was up on the ceiling and I could see and hear everything. And the neurosurgeon went, oh, brother. In other words, he didn't believe it. So that at age 31 and me being the kind of person that I am, I'm very honest all the time. I said, no, I was up on the ceiling and I could see and hear everything. She was on the phone, that nurse calling for the defib unit saying stat a lot. And that lady brought in the oxygen cart. And before that, the two guys were doing CPR on me and blowing in my mouth. But what they brought the oxygen cart in, they put the mask on me and then they just did chest compressions and they traded off every two minutes. And then that guy brought in the heart monitor. I watched the flat line. And you said to him, too much time was had passed. I was going to be brain dead. And then he did two strikes to my chest and I came back. Well, while I was saying that, the neurosurgeon clenched his fists up and he pulled them up next to his body and he went, I am not going to stand here and listen to this. And he stormed out of the room. Well, then the orthopedic surgeon took my hand and gently said, tell me about what it felt like. Tell me again what you saw. How did you feel up there? He was really interested in it. Everybody else was interested in it. But the neurosurgeon was obviously freaked out about it. I stayed in the hospital another three days. They did the surgery the next morning. It was successful. They did a laminectomy, discectomy on my ruptured disc. They didn't have to do anything for my spinal cord. It hadn't chipped my spinal cord. And so I was in the hospital three days when my now ex-husband came in the next day after my surgery. And I told him what happened the night before. He went, oh, brother, that's not that. You probably hallucinated that. Well, I knew that I had not hallucinated it. I don't hallucinate. I never did drugs. I've never done drinking. I don't do bad stuff. My mom was a police officer and I am actually a volunteer in the police department in Santa Barbara, California. So I don't do bad things. And I never did. So I knew that that wasn't the truth, that I had not hallucinated it. But I kept quiet about it because no one at the hospital would talk to me about it. They would just ignore when I asked questions. And then when I got out of the hospital, I didn't have anybody to talk to about it. So I kept it inside me for about 12 years. It was as clear to me as when it happened. And it's clear to me right now when I talk about it, I can actually if I shut my eyes, I can look down and actually see the whole thing below me. When I was out of my body and up on the ceiling, I did get a message, but it wasn't about humanity's future. It was actually about my future. I was told that I had a really strong purpose, that I had to go back into my life to complete. And I feel as though I have been working on that ever since that NDE occurred. And I do a lot of volunteering in Santa Barbara and I try to help people that I can, anyone that I can. I am not wealthy, but what I try to do is try to help in every way that I can in all the ways that I am capable of doing. So I actually got an award at the university for being what they called an unsung heroine for all of the volunteer work that I had done here in the community. And then now I'm volunteering for the police department here in Santa Barbara and helping the officers to do. I do minor things like greet people in the main lobby of the police department and walk through the farmer's market and talk with people and be a positive person and a positive. I'm actually uniformed and I have a badge and everything, so I look like a police officer, but I'm greeting people and giving people a good feeling about the police department. And that's what I do for them. I'm the only woman right now and there are 10 other men that also are doing the same kind of work volunteering. Well, I'm worried, but I really feel that if we can get, if we can get the love out there and then we can get NDE information out to people and they understand that helping and connecting with other people, doing good work in the world, it can be as simple as smiling at a baby in a little baby carriage and giving that baby happy little looks and saying, aren't you the cutest little thing? It can be picking up litter that's out on the street. It can be helping a homeless person in some way. It can be working, volunteering in some organization that you like. It can be picking up garbage off the beach. Anything that you feel is making the world a better place, then if you step out there and do that, it makes your heart feel so much better about the world and about yourself that you cannot believe how you will want to do this day in and day out. It really is something where if you spend any time at all helping someone else, an elderly person, a child in your neighborhood, anybody donating books to a school, anything that you can do to make someone else's life happy, happier, better, more balanced, then that is what will make your heart feel much better and there won't be any depression in your life because you won't be focusing on yourself. You'll be focusing on others and how you can make the world better. And that is a big, big, wonderful thing. So if I were to say anything, I worry about the world. I worry about the leaders of the world not having this kind of attitude, the ego, the power, the money. That's always been bad. But if all of us step forward and do good, then maybe we will make a difference. To prepare for the future, keep focusing on helping and doing what you can in the world. Take care of yourself. Don't worry about what you can go out there and buy in the way of things. Instead, focus on what you can do to be a good person out here in the world, helping others. I think that's the most important thing that we can all do is to keep focusing on not only helping your family, not only helping your neighborhood, but reaching out and helping beyond that people you don't know and finding the joy of doing that in your life and continuing to do it all the way until it's time for you to cross over and go home. If you're suffering and you have pain and you're thinking of suicide, you're thinking of anything that's negative, just please remember that you came here with a purpose to do something to enrich your soul, to grow your soul, to go through situations that aren't easy. All of us have them. I've had multiple ones in my life, not just the abusive husband, but I made it through those situations, learned from them and grew from them. So if you're struggling with something, a person, a situation, a place you're living in, a workplace, anything at all, think about how that's teaching you something. Think about how perhaps you can move beyond that, find your solution in whether it's a counselor, whether it's a doctor, maybe you're facing cancer, anything that it might be that can help you get beyond that situation and then look back at it and think, how did that teach me something that I needed to know? Because that situation, you probably pre-planned it before you even came here. So it is something that you were meant to grow from and there's no reason to commit suicide because the point is you're here to grow your soul and to learn. If you end it before you've grown and learned, then you will simply come back again and you will have the same problem to face again. So face it this time around, find solutions for getting through it and then learn what it's teaching you and how it's changing your soul and that should be what you do with your life rather than try to end it. It's not going to help if you end it.