POV facing problems as a small business owner...⭐️ OPENING UP MY OWN YARN BRAND

It is December 16th. The drop was crazy and this vlog is a different one because we are currently struggling with our logistic team, the team that should pack all the orders. And well, let's say it in one sentence. The team is working so slow that I am now driving to the logistic place, where my stuff is, with my friend and Bivalina team member. And we are packing everything to get it to this place, to pack it with friends in the next two days, because we are so behind. And I could cry every second because this is the last thing that I want to happen. Like, yeah, I don't know what to say. But I want to take you guys with me because sometimes there are struggles that you haven't thought about. And if you're new here, hi, I'm Bivalina and I opened up my own yarn brand. And this is the second drop that happened. And now, well, we are dealing with some problems, but gladly we can fix these problems. So I am now packing all my things. We thankfully also have a friend who drives for us the pickup for all the big parcels. We're like driving in front of them. My head is a mess. Also, I'm feeling like I'm getting sick. So everything right now is a big mess. I'm going to prep myself a tea and then off to the logistic team. Two hours, two and a half hours drive to them and then back here. My bag is packed. It's so heavy. I have like all my technical stuff just in case we have to link our systems again so that we can check what parcels actually have been sent out already, because this also apparently is a struggle right now. Guys, I am my nerves. Time to go. Let's grab a car, pick up my friend and then let's go. Road trip. We're here. It's raining. Here we are. That's everything we're picking up right now. Here's the yarn and here's like the printed stuff. Yay. Oh my gosh. Hello loves. It is the next day. It is Tuesday 17th and my living room looks like this or more my living room and kitchen looks like this. Oh my gosh. Look at that. Yesterday we prepared all the packages and put all the yarn here in the right order. So we have white cotton, the number zero. Then we have the mohair, then the beige cotton, light blue cotton. Here's the blue mohair. I love it. The dusty blue color and the dark blue. Look how tall these are. That's crazy. We prepped all the packages and today we're gonna pack them. On this table we've laid out all the extras you're gonna get for the sets. Here are the cute postcards. I can finally show you because I didn't have the final ones. I only got the drafts from the postcards. Now I finally have some too and the stickers. Everything's here. My birthday flowers had to move to the floor. Here we have another table. I kind of improvised. It's like for drinks. Also yesterday we packed some orders because some of the orders something were missing. So we packed that already and also the first I think 10 orders that also didn't got packed. Not the first in general but like the first 10 that weren't shipped already. You know what I mean? So as you can see we already got some packages. Today I'm gonna get help from I think eight friends of mine. We're gonna be three this morning and then six I think this evening or five. Now I'm gonna prepare everything here because we're still having some mess in my kitchen from yesterday because we ordered food and then we're starting. The weather in Berlin is as always gray and dark so it's perfect to stay home all day. Also I'm still feeling a bit sick but I'm not allowed to so we're gonna do that I guess. Let's go! Silence in between, one station where we don't say what we mean. We're listening, waiting on the ice to break. Fix this if we get out of our own way. Can't call you when it's late at night. Can't call you love but at least we tried. Can't call you friend when I'm in my head on a downhill dive. Can't call you cruel for changing your mind. I still can't call it a waste of time. I don't know what to call you. Wednesday 18. Almost three o'clock. Not really but almost and it's a wrap you guys. We have packed all the orders. It was like over 100 orders left and we made it. They're still here like I think half of it almost. We already gave to like one of the post offices. They were still open but they don't take 100 parcels like they only sometimes take 10 and 20 and sometimes they're like no sorry you're too late. So we already gave them I think 40 or something and the rest is for tomorrow. Also in six and a half hours I have podcast recording with my friend and the guest so I have to clean this mess now before I can sleep. I really thought we would finish early but it is now 2 30 which means I don't have a lot of time to sleep which is bad because I feel sick and if you feel sick you have to sleep. But I am more than happy that we packed all the orders. Thank god I have so many cute friends like really we were here like we were four people here until almost 3 a.m and most of my friends have to wake up earlier as I am going to tomorrow. How do I deserve these kind of people in my life? This really showed me how lucky I am to have my friends in my life because who else will pack packages with me like hundreds of packages spontaneously one whole day until 3 a.m in the morning. I don't think a lot but mine do and that means they are the right ones. Also like just chatting with everyone and like being together here and working as a team it was like such a nice feeling and also it's so crazy because we have packed 100 of packages today in one day and I'm so happy because I now know that tomorrow all of your orders are going to be on the way and that no one of you has to wait even longer because I don't know how long it would have taken the packages to get to you if we would have let the logistic team that we had hired pack them for you because it wasn't the pace that I want the packages to be at your place like I don't want you to wait so long and at least to get them to you before Christmas and so I'm now happy to know that I did everything possible and that I now also know that for the next job we need a like bigger team that works reliably, professionally and faster than we could because this is what I want this brand to be. I want it to be reliable and that you know that you get everything in time and of course we're a small business and it's okay that it takes longer but it's not okay that it takes so much longer you know and it's definitely not the standards that I have and it's good for learning that now I know what I have to change for next time but also it was too much drama for this job because like I hired someone who should have taken stress and work away from me so that I can work like the creative part like post content, create content and now I don't know if you noticed but after the drop I didn't post anything almost because I was so stressed at all the behind the scenes like writing mails, chatting with them, trying to get information that I couldn't do anything else like creative and now I had to pack everything by myself again so it was like it was a hard lesson like the lesson could have been nicer but also I could have found a better team or like I mean how would I have known that they work how they work if I haven't worked with them? Does that make sense? I now know for next time how to better brief a team to pack and I hope that you're now happy with your orders. I'm sorry for the delay, next time everything will be better if I don't find a team that works better than me and my friends do we're going to do it again in my apartment because we can do it and I'm so thankful for all your support and I cannot put in words how I don't even know what to say like I don't have words left to say how thankful I am because this is crazy like packing all these orders I was like I didn't even expect someone to buy anything and I think one of the parts that made me feel so sad about it is that also I couldn't enjoy like what we have created like my team and I we worked in this job for so long and my like my team is with my team I mean my friends like one of my closest friends she helped me post my boyfriend helped me shoot one of my other friends helped me with the mails and now all my friends help me with packing and I couldn't even enjoy like the feeling and be like okay what is happening right now is crazy because we sold out and we have so many orders and I couldn't even enjoy it because I was like so stressed that like the orders aren't sending out to you you know like that the that the logistic team that we hired that they were not working like we were and it was like it was stressing me out so much that I couldn't enjoy what's happening and I hope that in the next days I can finally relax if I know that all the orders are underway and kind of realize what is happening right here because this is this feels so real like this is this really is what I want to do it's like my dream crochet brand and you guys are loving it as much as I do and I want to enjoy it and I just want everything to be perfect that's also why this happened and again I am sorry for all the delays I am working on it my team and I we are getting better and this is not going to happen again it was a learning and a hard one but also a good one let's always take the positive thing and I think I'm gonna stop talking now because I have to clean this and the time is running I'm going to end this vlog here thank you for watching this was a very spontaneous vlog that's happening I didn't want this type of content but here we are at least you have another vlog um so yeah I'm gonna end the video now I'm gonna clean my apartment and thank you for your support I'm so thankful this is crazy this yeah I don't know what to say and I'm excited for what's coming next let me know in the comments um I don't even know what just let me know in the comments what you think um and I hope you like this vlog if yes don't forget to like and subscribe if you haven't already I'm sending love to all of you and yeah I can't wait for what's coming thank you and good night