Anke Evertz had a profound near-death experience following a fire accident that resulted in tertiary burns, which required her to receive a facial skin graft and sent her into a coma for nine days. Not only did she experience “spacelessness” and “timelessness”, but she also received a phenomenal healing.
In this interview, she describes what happened during that time of “nine days of eternity” as she refers to it, and what impact the near-death experience had on her life and worldly sensibilities, and why there is no longer a division between body and soul.
Contents: 00:42 The fire accident 03:55 So you experienced the emergency measures from out of your body? 08:52 Were you conscious the whole time from the time you began feeling flames up until the moment you departed from your body? 10:01 You mentioned that you were able to put your hands through the wall – could you feel any resistance? 11:19 What happened after you had left the hospital? 16:28 When you dipped into these alive situations, was there also some sort of an evaluation? 17:45 Did you also perceive your behavior towards others differently in light of these experiences? 18:44 Was the experience of important events up to your birth like a chronology where you moved from the presentence back to your birth? Or did you experience everything at once? 20:06 Was your body put into a coma for nine days? 21:02 Did you experience timelessness? 22:11 Was there something during this light that turned out to be an outstanding realization? 24:32 Has your attitude to life changed due to your experience? 27:33 Were there moments during your coma where you felt close to your body? 31:21 When you finally went back into your body, was this a special difficult moment? 35:30 Do you think that this flow had something to do with your wonderful healing process that you experienced later on? 36:41 From your perspective today, why is our body so important? 38:06 The intensity of experience – would this term summarize it? 39:04 From your point of view, do you think this would be the part for everyone to live life as you have perceived it? 42:07 What importance does language have for you today? 44:00 Does the view of a material world seem constructed to you? 46:09 What experiences do you connect with the topic of reincarnation? 48:00 What happened after this intense experience physically and how did you cope with your earthly everyday life? 50:45 All the things that you had experienced – were you able to classify them? 52:28 How long did it take you until you were able to speak about all these things openly? 53:19 Do you still have a connection to the spiritual world, to your teacher? 54:44 What do you offer as a coach? 56:09 The common fear of death is actually the fear of life – is that an important conclusion drawn from your experience with people?
Credits: Director: Heike Sucky Translation: Katrin Salhenegger-Niamir Voice-over: Kate Howlett-Jones, Peter Cox Editor, Interviewer: Werner Huemer
Within seconds, I was standing like a burning torch in our living room.
Then there was this inconceivable moment when I realized,
I'm going to die, because I couldn't breathe anymore,
and the fire was everywhere. I was breathing in flames.
Ms. Eifert, a number of years ago, you had a near-death experience
about which you have already reported several times.
I would like to talk to you about a few of your experiences and insights in more detail.
However, first I'd like to ask you to describe the events that happened at the time once more.
About ten years ago, I took the wrong lighter by accident, namely ethanol.
It seeped into my clothes. My clothes caught fire.
I tried to extinguish the fire by beating my clothes with my hands,
but it had the opposite effect. The flames just became bigger and higher.
So eventually, my arms, my hands and my upper body were burning.
Within seconds, I was standing like a burning torch in our living room.
Then there was this inconceivable moment when I realized,
I'm going to die, because I couldn't breathe anymore, and the fire was everywhere.
So I couldn't breathe in anymore. I was breathing in flames.
This very moment, I offered myself to a greater power.
There were these thoughts popping up like,
Father, do whatever you want to me.
Whatever happens, I'm giving myself completely into your hands.
At that moment, I was catapulted out of my body.
All of a sudden, I was situated two meters away from this burning body.
I looked at this body and saw that my hair was on fire
and how the high ceiling was turning black from the soot.
I was watching as this body suddenly started to stagger and reel.
And all of a sudden, I felt completely neutral.
It was a thrilling moment. I was just waiting for what would happen next.
And then I noticed that my son was rushing into the living room and he jumped on my body.
The emergency physicians came, and then we were heading to Munich by helicopter.
However, I'd been present the whole time, meaning I did exist twice.
Firstly, there was that body that needed care
and was carried into the helicopter under anesthesia.
Secondly, I was there myself and watching as the emergency physicians
compassionately took care of me, checking my well-being at all times.
So you experienced the emergency measures from out of your body?
Yes, and I felt completely neutral.
I didn't know what had happened to me at all.
And I hadn't given much thought to the idea that I could be dead.
That came later in the hospital in Munich.
I was wondering why the doctors were so hectic.
I then watched them as they were bringing this body to the emergency room
and how they were performing first aid on it.
I then realized that I knew all the thoughts of these doctors and what they were feeling.
Only in Munich I noticed there must be something wrong with me.
I then realized that this matter wasn't a problem for me anymore.
Well, that I could put my arms through walls if I wanted to.
And I was really confused.
Some time later, I don't even know how much time had passed.
My body was lying there.
They had put it into a twin room in the emergency ward
and there it was already attached to tubes.
It was lying there as if it was sleeping.
I realized that I wasn't really interested in it anymore.
That I barely felt connected to it.
That I was very confused because I was thinking,
man, things must continue somehow.
There must appear a tunnel or a bright light or something along those lines.
There's something that should happen when you're dead.
Nothing was happening at first.
Why were you thinking that?
Did you know accounts of people who had experienced something similar?
Yes.
I was raised by my parents to believe that we have more than one life
and that everything has a meaning.
I never understood the meaning in my own life.
But it was clear to me that we'd have more than one life.
I already knew that.
My father had told me a few times that people are often pulled through a tunnel.
I was waiting for that tunnel but it never came.
It felt like a really long time until all the matter completely changed all of a sudden.
And something happened unexpectedly.
I realized that the room was expanding.
Everything was illuminated by light.
It also looked a bit as if the walls were shimmering like a rainbow.
It's really hard to describe.
Suddenly I heard a voice speaking to me.
It was the very first time I realized that I was being watched or that somebody could see me.
Then I discovered a very tall light being in this room that reared up in front of me.
Became clearer and clearer.
And it eventually said to me,
Anke, there isn't anything left for you to do here.
I'd like to take you with me.
I'd like to show you something.
I thought this was really great at that moment.
I didn't have any connection to this material level anymore.
I was extremely touched.
Because this light seemed very human.
Well, really personal.
Very loving and soft.
It seemed masculine to me.
It came towards me, hugged me and pulled me out of hospital.
He took me with him.
I've called him teacher ever since.
It was like a hug.
Everything was fine from that moment on.
Everything fell off me.
This complete tension, this insecurity regarding what was happening to me here.
I actually had the feeling that I'd arrived.
Were you conscious the whole time?
From the time you began feeling the flames up until the moment you departed from your body?
Or are there gaps in your memory?
No, I was conscious the whole time.
I even had the feeling that I was more conscious than ever before.
One factor I find the most incredible by today's standard
is that I felt exactly the same in my body as before.
I had the feeling I had a form.
I had legs, I had hands.
I had eyes from which I looked out of.
The big difference was that I sensed a lot more.
Feelings and sounds that I wouldn't have been able to hear with my human senses.
I was able to hear and perceive these feelings.
All this matter, which wasn't dense matter in this state anymore.
I was constantly conscious.
You mentioned that you were able to put your hands through the wall.
Could you feel any resistance?
I didn't try and go through the wall.
But I tested how my body would react to the bed.
I was lying there and sat down on the bed at the bottom end of my body.
And I was surprised that I was able to sit down on the bed,
because at the same time I was able to go through the bed.
And at that moment I realized, wow, I seem to be able to control this.
Or also that I was standing on the floor,
but actually I would have been able to go through the floor if I'd wanted to.
It was pretty crazy and completely different to the human world here,
where matter is dense.
Here it wouldn't be possible.
There is nothing we can go through.
That's when I realized that it depended on me,
whether matter was dense and whether I was able to stand on the floor.
I think I would have been able to go through it, but I didn't try it.
During your experience, you left behind the hospital.
What happened next?
At first I was incredibly happy,
because initially I had focused my attention on this body in this room.
Then I was pulled out of this hospital.
I saw Munich from above.
It was dark.
It was night.
I realized that I, as a human, I'd say I was able to breathe in deeper and deeper.
I was able to expand more and more.
More and more weight and ballast.
All this insecurity fell off me.
Eventually I focused on the areas I was pulled towards.
I assumed it would pull me up,
but today I'm not quite so sure about it.
I felt lighter.
The hug with my teacher made me feel incredibly secure and protected.
I refueled.
At first my teacher brought me to a level that only consisted of light,
a lively light.
It wasn't like a light we know here,
but a light that was full of sounds
and where feelings could be sensed.
It was a light that seemed to contain everything that exists.
That was completely new to me.
My teacher calmed me down and told me to take my time to get used to this energy,
to this high frequency of light.
I was also pretty excited that I was able to stand
but there seemed to be a flaw.
He even showed himself to me in the form of a light being,
but he didn't explain to me really who he was.
Interestingly, I always had the feeling,
now I'm at home.
Now I've arrived wherever in this light.
There was always this question in me.
Am I dead?
He then explained to me that I wasn't dead.
How can I describe this?
But that it was about showing me something.
Then this life review began.
He showed me my life.
Because my life had been marked by extreme experiences,
by a lot of grief, loneliness, losses
and several phases where I had wished for my own death.
He showed me the experiences I'd had in my life.
Starting from my birth and ending at the moment I arrived in hospital.
And he explained the connections to me.
The crazy thing I noticed was that every time I relived a situation,
I seemed to experience everything at the same time.
For example, when I had a conversation with my father,
I could sense the feelings of my father.
I knew why he was acting the way he was acting.
I could feel my own feelings and everything at once.
This increased even more because I was shown that if I or my father
had made a different decision at that moment,
something would have happened differently.
I could perceive this as well.
It was so multidimensional.
It was like holograms that opened up.
And you were able to zoom in as if with a microscope
and you'd capture everything simultaneously.
If I tried to describe it briefly,
I'd say I completely comprehended my life review.
When you dipped into these life situations,
was there also some sort of an evaluation?
My whole life I'd thought the way I was was wrong
and that I should do something or change something to be proper.
I'd always been afraid of evaluations
and I realized that any form of evaluation from outside didn't exist there.
Everything was carried by this unconditional love,
by this freedom from value judgment.
However, I realized that I evaluated myself.
That's the wrong word.
I was deeply moved by how badly I'd treated myself,
how hard I'd been on myself.
I was very sad when I looked at myself in different situations,
why I hadn't had the courage to change things,
why I'd put myself down,
why I'd lost myself more and more during my lifetime.
That made me really sad.
Did you also perceive your behavior towards others
differently in the light of these experiences?
Yes, I'd never been a bad person.
I'd never done anything that really hurt others.
There was this one situation.
My little brother really wanted to play with me.
He's six years younger than me.
I was annoyed about something at the time
and slammed the door in his face and pushed him away.
At that moment, I could feel how rejected he felt,
that he hadn't meant any harm,
that he just wanted to spend time with me.
I felt so sorry.
Although this incident wasn't really that bad,
I felt so sorry for him.
And even then I got the feeling
I'd like to make this right again if I could.
You mentioned that you experienced
important events up to your birth.
Was it like a chronology,
where you moved from the present tense back to your birth?
Or did you experience everything at once?
It wasn't chronological.
It happened multidimensionally,
where every little moment had a cause.
And this cause, even if it had happened years ago,
was perceptible simultaneously.
I've got the feeling that I could sense
and experience everything simultaneously
and comprehend it for myself.
I just can't describe it.
Everything was the result of those various situations.
During those nine days,
it also continued in a way
that former lives started playing a role too,
so that situations in my current life
made sense once again.
You mentioned nine days.
Your body was put in a coma for nine days?
My body was put in a coma for nine days.
I was further away from my body than ever before.
I was so glad I'd come out of its confinement.
I wasn't interested in it at all.
I also don't know how long this near-death experience took.
I know that shortly before I was woken from my coma,
I was asked by my teacher
whether I wanted to go back into this body.
That's why I assume it took nine days.
The way you described your life review and your experiences,
it sounds like you experienced timelessness.
Yes, there was no sense of time.
Time didn't play any role,
neither did space,
because everything appeared simultaneously.
The incredible thing was
that as soon as you thought of a question
or as soon as you considered a thought or an impulse,
all the answers popped up in front of you.
It depended on what you focused on.
If you wanted to find out,
why did I suffer so much?
Or why was I so hard on myself?
At that moment, all the answers would emerge.
It was like a hologram that opens up to you.
You recognized all the connections
in a single moment.
Was there something during this light tour
that turned out to be an outstanding realization?
Something you took with you?
Yes, even as a small girl,
I used to be very creative and I sensed a lot.
But I was taught to let go of this.
I was always told,
nobody's interested in what you sense
and what you've got to tell.
In this life review,
I realized that during my life,
I cut off myself from the spiritual quality more and more,
but I tried to function more and more
and adapt to this society.
That I became more and more unhappy.
Eventually, I stopped asking myself,
what makes me actually happy?
Who am I?
How would I like to live my life?
I did everything to please the outside world.
This was emphasized in several situations.
Again, there was a situation where I thought,
oh God, that's so sad.
It's such a shame.
And how wasted this life is.
For example, I put a lot of emphasis
on material things.
I was quite wealthy at the time when this happened.
I drove a fancy car and lived in a big house.
In this life review,
I realized how irrelevant all these things were.
How little value they had.
But moments like laughing with the children
and playing hide and seek
were very important all of a sudden.
I realized how everything opened up inside me
and that an incredibly deep feeling of happiness
bloomed inside me.
Sometimes it is said that near-death experiences
are actually near-life experiences.
Has your attitude to life changed
due to your experience?
What does life or liveliness mean to you?
That change came when I returned to my body.
My life turned by 180 degrees.
When I was back,
my body looked anything but beautiful.
They had shaved off my hair,
my face had been transplanted,
my hands had been transplanted.
I was wrapped in thick cloth.
I didn't recognize myself in the mirror.
Nevertheless, I left the hospital
at my own risk very quickly,
only two days after I'd been released
from the intensive care ward.
Because I knew from now on
everything would be okay.
I was so embedded in this spiritual love,
this feeling that I was carried and safe,
that I knew I wouldn't need a doctor
or a hospital anymore.
So I came home and quickly realized
that everything I had lived before,
all the things that had been important to me
didn't play a role in my life anymore.
This included my marriage,
my friends,
food I had eaten,
clothes I had worn,
the interior of our apartment.
Everything seemed wrong.
All those things seemed like a mask.
Everything felt so unreal.
Nothing seemed to be alive.
It seemed as dead as my life
before the near-death experience.
So as soon as I was able to move again
quite reasonably,
I sorted out everything.
I threw out a lot of things
and also gave them away.
I couldn't have a normal conversation anymore.
I wasn't interested in the TV anymore.
I listened to a lot of radio,
but not to the things they were speaking about,
the music they were playing.
I could stand in front of the TV for hours
and watch the snowflakes,
or I would constantly touch fabrics.
I had the feeling I was sensing things properly
for the first time in my life.
So, while the doctors were fighting for your life
and relatives and friends feared for your life,
you experienced something beautiful.
Were there moments during your coma
where you felt close to your body?
When you were transferred back to your body, so to speak?
Yes, my teacher brought me back to this hospital
every now and then,
which I didn't understand at all.
Yes, that's true.
My teacher brought me back to this hospital a few times,
which I didn't understand at all.
It irritated me,
because I had already finished with this body and this life.
One time something happened
that is still bothering me today.
Must have been during the time
when the doctors cut into my windpipe.
During that time,
it pulled me back into hospital like a catapult.
I'd been on a wonderful spiritual level before.
I think it was about the bond with my family,
my parents.
So something very natural.
And all of a sudden it catapulted me back
into this tight body.
I could feel its pain again.
I felt anger.
I felt despair.
All those things I hadn't felt
during my near-death experience
came back again.
I noticed how a doctor,
very professional but emotionally very cool,
cut into my windpipe
and performed the surgery.
And I yelled at him internally.
I said,
hey, can't you do that more gently?
You're hurting me.
But he didn't react at all to me.
There was a great nurse
who was sitting by this bed.
She was speaking to this patient in a coma.
She always spoke to me in thoughts,
relaxed me and explained
that he was the best doctor they had there
and not to worry if he was a bit rough
because he knew exactly what he was doing.
I was so happy because this woman
made me feel safe.
I also thanked her at that moment.
She knew that a coma patient would hear
and feel what was going on around her.
She instinctively did the right thing.
It still touches me today
because this was very important to me.
And suddenly it pulled me out of this body again.
I realized that there's tightness,
that the things we feel as humans
can only be felt in our bodies
when our consciousness is situated in our body.
As soon as I let go of my body,
everything fell off me again
and I felt free again.
I was so glad.
When you finally went back into your body,
was this a special, difficult moment?
It was a bit of a fight.
For me, those whole nine days
were about having lots of questions,
questions regarding the meaning of life,
why we humans lose ourselves,
why we lose this connection,
why we have to make certain experiences.
I didn't really understand that for myself.
My teacher explained a lot to me
and showed me the connections.
Eventually I dissolved in the,
what I call the source today.
Suddenly I had the feeling
that I was fully connected with everything,
with God, with the creation,
that I was part of all this.
At that moment he asked me,
where do you think you are now?
And my answer was,
I am at home.
I've arrived.
I'm where we all come from.
I could hear him laugh then and he told me,
I'll show you where you are.
And then he pulled me back into this body.
We were going deeper and deeper
into the organs, the tissue.
I could see the blood vessels.
He pulled me into my cells.
All of a sudden,
I recognized this source
in the core of each cell of my body,
in which I had been just earlier.
I'll never forget this astonishing moment.
I was completely perplexed
because I realized that everything
that I'd been looking for out there
did exist in me or my body.
I then heard the laughter of my teacher again.
He said,
you are the embodiment of creation.
I think that was the point
where I began to like my body again,
where I began to see my body
with a fresh eye,
where I unexpectedly perceived
a different way of body awareness.
It was the moment when I perceived
the liveliness of my body
and not just its weight,
this material means of transportation
as I'd seen it before.
But all of a sudden,
I perceived it as this lively wonder.
And eventually I,
today I'd say it was the moment
when I was actually incarnated.
Only then did I begin to inhabit this body again
with my whole spiritual consciousness
and I flowed into it
and was completely aware of it.
It was a feeling as if I'd taken everything with me
that would make up my soul,
as an energy field,
as a consciousness,
and that I'd let everything flow into this body.
I made sure that I would also flow
into my feet and my legs,
into the organs and the brain.
This was incredible
because I always used to reject this body.
Do you think that this flow
also had something to do
with this wonderful healing process
that you experienced later on?
I'm convinced by it.
I can't find any other explanation for it.
I never had any surgery after that.
I didn't have rehab.
I just released myself from the hospital
and the rest was done by my body.
The one thing I find quite incredible
is that I always thought of this near-death experience
and that I was at home now.
The more levels and areas I experienced,
I was always thinking,
now I've arrived.
And just as I flowed back into this body
and inhabited it properly,
only then did I realize,
now I am at home.
And how important this body
is for us humans here on earth.
From your perspective today,
why is our body so important?
Because it gives us so much.
For me, there isn't much of a difference anymore
whether I'm a human here
and look out of my eyes
and I'm not able to reach through matter anymore,
or whether I exist in my spiritual consciousness
over there.
Actually, I can perceive both simultaneously.
There is no either or anymore,
but I live both.
But I can't feel as a spirit,
although I am in a state of unconditionality,
in a state of peace,
in a higher state of consciousness.
But these human feelings don't exist over there.
Doubt, fears and worries don't exist there either.
These things are non-existent there.
But we can live them here in this body.
We can have an argument and make up again.
We are hungry and can cook something great to eat
and have the enjoyment of eating.
These are all experiences that don't exist as a spirit.
The intensity of experience.
Would this term summarize it?
Yes.
When I compare my life now and then,
I didn't live at the time.
Maybe I only lived 5%.
Now I live as intensely as possible.
Now my perception is a lot more aware.
I pay much more attention to myself and my needs.
I enjoy life.
I don't just function anymore.
I especially take care of my feelings,
what feels good and what doesn't feel good.
I don't judge myself anymore.
Life's got a completely different intensity.
From your point of view,
do you think this would be the path for everyone
to live life as you've perceived it?
In a time-lapse, so to speak?
The funny thing is that we've experienced
all these things already.
Every child lives in this state.
They live in this flow where space and time don't exist.
They play, busy themselves with things they enjoy
and then just stop doing something
and start something new.
And then we are trained away from this.
We're raised to make ourselves fit into society.
I think there's a transition happening now
where parents and grandparents
start to raise their children differently
and try not to drive out their spiritual selves.
Yes, it is part of the meaning of life
to listen to ourselves,
to have our own experiences
and to experience our own conflicts.
It doesn't mean that life is always easy.
It doesn't mean that there won't be any challenges,
that we won't face any tests.
But I cope with this completely differently.
I don't turn anything off.
There is nothing I wouldn't be prepared to face anymore
that I'd resist.
But instead, I observe what happens in my surroundings
or in my life.
And somehow I also observe how I react to them.
It's very hard to explain.
I'm in a sort of perspective of observer or double.
I don't know.
On the one hand, I experience life like an astonished child.
And on the other hand,
there is always a big part that observes everything,
that is in a state of unconditionality,
that is completely neutral,
non-judgmental and loving.
And I can easily switch between these perspectives.
Even if I have doubts or this human part has doubts
or in this human part doubts or doesn't know how to react,
then I can go into this perspective of observation
and I see the higher meaning behind it.
Thus life isn't all that dramatic anymore.
You've experienced something like an immediateness.
Now in normal interpersonal interactions,
even while we're speaking here,
language has a great significance.
What importance does language have for you today?
Well, that's what makes it quite hard for me.
Actually, every word is empty.
I try to convey something in words that cannot be conveyed.
You can only experience it yourself.
I try to tell people about it,
but I notice that I move them by things I tell them.
It's just about this movement.
It's not about words at all.
Words are like a drop in the ocean.
Actually, I could or would like to withdraw to an alpine hut
where I wouldn't need to speak anymore.
Everything would be fine as it is.
So language would just be a tool to move people.
That is what it's about?
Yes, I believe we perceive each other with our senses.
Especially the senses we're not aware of.
And this works on many levels.
Facial expressions, gestures and the tone of a voice.
I think we also sense each other's feelings.
So that words are just a little aid.
In ideological debates,
there is often a strict differentiation
between the body and the soul,
which is kind of a black and white way of thinking.
Here is the physical, the living,
that divides itself from the body after death.
And the question as to how the non-material
influences the material is often unanswered.
I assume this viewpoint appears quite constructed
after experiencing a holistic world.
Am I right here?
Well, what does constructed mean?
It's the viewpoint of people
who haven't experienced what I have experienced.
If they'd even experienced a fraction
of what I have experienced,
they'd immediately dismiss their entire views and ideas.
For me, this body was created
in order to have experiences I need
for myself as a human.
And this body is just alive
because I inhabit it with my consciousness.
I used to say it's like a car which I get into.
And then I put it to bed or park it
and get out of it again.
It's not that simple.
A big part of my consciousness stays in my body.
But for me, my body is like a mouthpiece
on this human, material level.
I don't share this either-or way of thinking at all.
Everything is an as-well way of thinking.
We exist multi-dimensionally.
And that is permanent.
Even if we believe in 3D
and are bound to space and time,
we are still multi-dimensional beings.
We switch constantly between various levels
and areas of our consciousness.
It's just that we don't notice it.
We don't realize it.
Regarding the topic of switching,
you briefly mentioned that you also experienced
elements and moments of former lives on Earth.
What experiences do you connect
with the topic of reincarnation?
It was exciting.
I asked about the meaning of life again.
My teacher showed me that I had had
various experiences in former lives.
Once I was fat.
Another time I was skinny.
I was rich.
I was poor.
Once I was the predator.
Another time the victim.
I wasn't all those things just once,
but several times.
One time I was an alcoholic.
Another time a teetotaler.
I had all the experiences that were possible
during those lives.
I incorporated them and connected them with each other.
They took place in various periods of time.
And then I even became aware
that these periods didn't exist,
but that they existed simultaneously.
Actually, if you like,
there is just this present
and there is just this one moment.
I'm experiencing myself in this consciousness,
in this year,
during this conversation with you.
But simultaneously,
all my other realities are taking place as well.
It's hard to describe.
I'm sure a quantum scientist
would be better at explaining this.
If we, let's say,
dip into the aspect of space and time,
what happened after this intense experience physically?
And how did you cope with your earthly,
everyday life?
At the beginning it was extremely difficult,
seen from a purely physical perspective.
Because all my senses were wide open.
My senses of hearing and sight were so sensitive.
I sensed all the material and spiritual levels
at the same time.
I knew what my husband was feeling.
I heard what my son was thinking.
Also, I perceived everything simultaneously.
And I was completely overtaxed by this.
For example,
I was supposed to lie down on a pillow
and I couldn't take this pillow anymore
because I could feel the pain of the geese
that had been robbed of their feathers.
I touched certain clothes
and couldn't wear them anymore
because I knew where they had been produced
and how they'd been transported.
Clothes contained all this information
and I was able to retrieve it.
I thought I'd go crazy
because it was just too much for me.
If you walk over a wooden floor
and you know where it comes from,
then this is just too much.
You can't focus on yourself anymore.
That's how I learned why the ego is developed,
why we need this protective wall.
If our senses were that open to everything,
we'd never be able to focus on ourselves.
We'd never say anything bad about people in front of them
because we'd know right away
what the other person would feel.
For me, this was a very life-changing event
and very intense.
So then I learned that I could separate this from myself.
It calmed down together with my perception
and I started to sort out everything in my life,
things I didn't feel good about anymore,
everything that didn't comply with my truth
or the new feeling of me.
And all those things that you had experienced,
were you able to classify them?
Were you aware that you'd had a near-death experience?
No, I was not able to classify them.
That was only possible years later.
I didn't know at all what had happened to me.
I carried this with me like some treasure.
I didn't even dare talk about it.
I tried to do it partially a few times,
but at first I had to process these experiences by myself.
I thought I'd gone crazy.
But on the other hand,
I knew I'd never been as aware and fulfilled as now.
But all of a sudden, my whole life was completely different.
That was a big challenge.
Eventually, it took me four years to change my life.
I wasn't able to continue in my old job.
I wasn't able to live my relationship the way it was.
And I couldn't live in my house anymore.
I no longer dealt with many things
that had been important to me in the past.
And I was allowed to relearn everything.
Like a small child, what are the things I like doing?
What kind of people do I like to meet up with?
What kind of things do I like to talk about?
Would I like to read now or go outside?
I hadn't known all these things before.
In my life, I had focused so much on the needs of others
that I had to relearn everything.
How long did it take you
until you were able to speak about all these things
as openly as you are able to now?
It took me eight years.
Two years ago, it was the first time
I opened up about it in great detail.
That's how a publisher approached me
and urged me to write my story.
But even today, I'm still looking for the right words.
I believe I'll never get used to the fact
that I won't ever be able to do justice
to what I've experienced.
I think it's not possible to do this in words.
Your world of experience today, how can we envision it?
Do you still have a connection
to the spiritual world, to your teacher?
Yes.
When my teacher asked me to go back into this body,
or whether I wanted to go back,
I was scared of two things.
Firstly, that my body would stay as disfigured
as it was at the time.
And secondly, that I would lose this connection
with my teacher,
that I'd lose this connection on the spiritual level.
And he promised me that this wouldn't happen.
And that is what really happened.
Today I have the feeling
that I live in both worlds simultaneously
and I can't just switch back and forth.
But that I perceive these parallels too.
On the one hand, I'm in this conversation.
But on the other hand,
I'm on higher levels in my consciousness.
This is what stayed.
It's phenomenal.
When I speak to people today,
I notice that my teacher intervenes
and that he's present.
There's no separation.
It didn't exist before.
And it doesn't exist now either.
Today you work as a coach.
What do you offer exactly?
Have you developed a certain approach?
No, because I can't deliberate anymore.
I can no longer make plans.
I can only act spontaneously now.
And that's a little difficult.
When I speak in front of people,
I can't plan in advance
what I'd like to tell them
or what the topic will be about.
But I look at what might develop
in a certain moment.
That's why I don't have any tools.
My cause is to inspire people
with my story
so they can rethink their lives.
I'd like them to benefit from my story
so they stop being so hard on themselves,
so they start listening to their feelings,
their intuition,
and maybe change their lives.
I'd like to move people.
I'd like to remind them of themselves.
That's what I do
by telling them about myself.
On your homepage,
you write about the common fear of death
and that it's actually the fear of life.
Is that an important conclusion
drawn from your experience with people?
Yes.
I think that most people
are not afraid of death.
They might be afraid of the way they will die,
but not of death itself.
However, we're extremely scared
of loving ourselves.
We don't want to hurt anybody.
We want to fit into society.
We want to be part of society
but have no idea how to.
Many people are extremely scared
to live their individuality.
They get to a point in life
that can be compared to a one-way road
that becomes narrower and narrower
and eventually they realize
they can't go any further
or their body shows them
these steps of transition
in the form of an illness
or something happens on the outside.
Some people change their point of view
only then concerning certain areas
that are really important.
It was the same for me.
If this accident with the fire hadn't occurred,
I would still be an empty puppet today.
You wrote a book about your experiences
with the title
Nine Days of Eternity.
Your book turned out to be a bestseller.
Nine editions have already been published.
You've also made an audiobook
with your own voice.
Do you have a follow-up project in mind?
Yes, currently I'm working on a second book.
I'm curious as to how it's going to turn out.
It's partly about
what am I going to do with all this knowledge?
How can the reader implement it in practice
if they want to change their life
but don't know how?
Ms. Eifert,
I wish you all the best
for writing your second book.
A lot of inspiration
and success for your work
and many thanks for this interview.
Thank you.