Jude Bellingham | 'Out Of The Floodlights' | Episode 1 | Casa Blanca

Not sure there's much to talk about, is there? That's the motivation for this whole thing. Bringing people in. I think the perception of someone like me is that I live a really kind of lavish lifestyle. The shoots that I do. The way I play. I feel like at times, like I've got the stadium like that. You can feel everyone just going, you know? I just feel like, oh my God, you're like that. There's too much negativity anyway, I need to be confident. Someone has to believe in me, you know? I feel like I'm a really normal guy. I thought it was going to go... You going again? See you. See you in 15 minutes. I'll never be satisfied. I've got to do what it takes to win. Yeah, if it helps people to get to know me better, that's great. If people are still unhappy, then... Oh, man, the last year's been mad. It's one of those cities that are built around the football team. You know, everything in the city is black and yellow. The people are very working class and industrial city. It reminded me a lot of Birmingham in some sense, which gave me a bit of a connection to the city and the people of the city. And you know what the club means to them. If they're last game of the season, and if they win, they're winning the league for the first time in 12 years. Might be the last time I step out here as a home player. At the start of the season, playing at home, last game of the season, if you win, that's it. They would snap your hands off. The atmosphere around the city is always a big sort of game-day atmosphere. I think it's a little bit different today. I think you can feel a little bit of tension. I've missed the last two games because of the problems I've had with my knee. I was in good nick this week. I think the last two weeks have been a little bit political with everything that could happen in the summer. It was a bit of pressure, perhaps not to play, and I wasn't cool with going to bed. And that was flicked on, and hand goal. Mainz score the first goal. Leeds cross, and he's seen it. It's there! And they have a second goal. This is unbelievable. Heartbreak. They had to win here at home to Mainz. They couldn't find a win. Bayern and not Dortmund are champions. Just everything kind of fell. I felt numb, to be honest. I felt numb, and then when they all started saying my name, the tears just started flowing out. And to be honest, I was just heartbroken. I had three amazing years at Dortmund, and obviously the player that I am now is because of those years, because of those experiences that I've had. Jude will be world champion with England. He will win the Champions League. Jude will be in the history of football. And he was made a little bit here, and I'm proud of it. Transfer to where Jude's been announced today for the presentation and the signing tomorrow. Jude's about to interview me, apparently. So we'll see how it goes. So... Sacked. So, you were a four-year-old when the last Englishman played for Real Madrid in 2007. What are the earliest memories of Real Madrid? I always remember watching Revista de la Liga. Remember that? Which match are you most excited to play? I think the Clásicos, obviously. But any match of the Bernabeu, really, in the Champions League, I think is going to be special. What would be your favourite moment from Real Madrid in the Champions League? Looking back before my time, I'd say Zidane's volley. Since I've been alive, I'd probably say the one against Atletico when Ramos equalised with the header late, and then they won 4-1 an extra time. Thanks for your time. You were good at that. Yeah, nice. It's really nice. I'll get the shoes, but... I'll take them. Bye now. Cool. No, thanks. I'd like to eat. Anything else you want? Of course. Thank you. Just do the coffin, is it? Yeah. White coffin. Thank you. Jesus, you've got to sign that. At the end of the door. Neil. OK? That was awful. Yeah, we're not getting a bath there. Hola, chicos. Come with me on my presentation day. This way. Oh, sorry. Right here. It's too big for me. When I first saw Bellingham 5, it will live with me forever. It's amazing to carry on the legacy of one of my favourite players. Amazing. I'm not coming here trying to be Zinedine Zidane. He was amazing. I'm trying to be Jude Bellingham, who continues the legacy of the No. 5. Enjoy. Hola, todos. And hola, madridistas. I just want to say thank you, everyone in the room and everyone watching online, for joining me for the proudest day of my life. My speech, there was nerves, but as soon as I got there, and seeing my dad smile, my mum filming, and my brother, who actually looked quite mardy, I said to him after what was up, he's just like, I'm so focused on what you wanted to say. And you think like, well then, why am I worried? And finally, Alema did. Everyone says it's a heavy shirt, and it just felt so light on me. I felt like, just, this is meant to be. In that moment, there's a sense of, like, not completion, there's still a lot to do, but I'm very close to it. Make-up on the ball. You try and be a good footballer, you try and be a good person for everyone else, but really, you just want to make your family happy. This is in Glasgow, no? Glasgow. Leverkusen? Leverkusen. To what? For me. Yes. It's... It's for me. Thank you. I still can't really process how well the day's gone and how much I enjoyed it. I'd live it over 100 times if I could. He's sorting out the rentals next, that's going to be the thing. Actually, we've got to start looking at properties, getting them comfortable. Good. Extremely hot. Wow. Gosh. 40, bro. Yeah. He's going to be swell. See you in 15 minutes. A lot of fire pit here. Get a table there, some cards. I don't want to go in too early and then end up seeing something better. Don't want to walk around and be like sold. But he's nice. Real nice. Three years from Birmingham to Madrid isn't bad. Straight to the food. I looked across at Jude and he looked very choked and I thought, this is his moment. He finally gets it. There's been a couple of moments for me. One was when he went to the World Cup and he said he sat on the plane and he was talking to me and he said, Mum, I sat on the plane and I thought, this is it. This is... And he was teary and I thought, it's one of his moments. And that, when he looked across at me and I thought, I was teary. He looked at me, I looked at him and I thought, yeah, it's his moment. Yesterday was nice. But now it feels like I want Job to have his day. Finally someone to say, it's not Jude's brother, you've got the Sunderland fans who've got no connection to Jude now who'll just say, that's Job, he's ours. I just want to see Job on the pitch. In a Job shirt, not a Bellingham shirt, just starting and having his moment. So next week again, lovely, but I just want him to start and have his moment. When Job signed for Sunderland, I got to be there with him. Following this guy can't be a good thing. Come on! It was one of those where I was kind of just as proud of him being at mine. I think he looks really cool, the seven. And my name, my first name just over it, it's really cool, I like it, yeah. You're absolutely sassy. First ball. It's difficult not being together all the time now that dad lives with Job and mum lives with me. It's just tough, isn't it? You can't put your finger on like one emotion, it's just a range, isn't it really, where you just miss your mum. I think every time I'm with my brother, I'm just laughing. We're just constantly making jokes, we barely really talk about football. My mum is kind of the backbone. She's the one who kind of gives me the support I need kind of as a son, like emotionally and mentally. Obviously, my dad was the exact same when I lived with him and still is, but from afar, and he does that job now for Job. These people at the club have been telling me as well, you've been sending them, like, kisses and emails? Er... Yeah, I've been writing to you, son. What emails? Why would you do that? What emails? No, I don't send emails. Oh, Sam! Yeah, yeah. That's why he's sending you contracts. Thanks, pal. Kiss, kiss. He's been sending, like, exes, kisses. You know that embarrasses me as well, though? Yeah, but that's my job. That is so embarrassing for me. Maybe if Jude learnt how to cook and drive, then mum could come back and live with me, but, no, yeah, he's useless, so I'll have to make do, won't I? Training with the Madrid squad for the first time was a little bit surreal. You know, these are players that I've used on FIFA. Playing with those guys just takes your whole game to another level, makes you understand the game better, makes you feel like you belong. It's such a good relationship between everyone. They're down to earth, and despite what they've won and what they've achieved, they've welcomed me with open arms and want to get me involved in everything. It's the same for me. I've just thought, why not throw myself at it? It was difficult at the start of the season, obviously. As a Real Madrid player, you're just desperate to play at the Bernabeu. The first three games were away from home because of the construction. Weekend of the season in La Liga. Jude Bellingham, he will make his debut today. You know, you look down, or you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror just before you go out and you see yourself in that beautiful all-white kit, and you just feel a connection on it, and in the end, it's kind of hit perfectly into the ground, lofted over. When you score against an opposition, you're not doing it to provoke them, you're just doing it because you're happy that you've scored. So, yeah, I put my arms out, do the celebration that I always do, and I remember a couple of their players come over to me saying, like, you can't do that here, you can't do that here, and, yeah, I've not listened, so, yeah, I'll probably keep doing it. I'm getting ready for the game, and I was watching Joe play. Like, I remember I was actually brushing my teeth at the time. I sent a video into the group chat. The stream stopped working on my phone, I'm gutted, I'm like, ah. Gone on the scores app, and he has scored again, and then I'm, like, shaking, I'm, like, in shock that he scored twice. And then I'll never forget, as we're coming out, Ancelotti goes to me, he goes, f***ing hell, we bought the wrong one. And I'm like, are you joking? He says, no, seriously, I'm going to bring him in, I'm going to bring him in. I says, well, where are you going to play him? He says, in your position. I was like, f*** that. And then finally, kind of gave me a little smirk, and my heart just dropped, and I thought, okay, fine. And I'm like, oh, no pressure for today. In with the chance, and it's in. Goals in two games. Coming back out for the second half, one of the staff said to me was, well, Jobe got two, go and get another one. Makes it three goals in two games. Just a really good day for us, that was, and I remember the first thing I did after that game was call him. It's really special when you have that moment to share. Another very impressive performance all around from Real Madrid. And he's scored an inch, and every one of them, it's his fourth goal of the campaign. Really good way to start my Madrid career, and then I think that just gives you the confidence and the platform to keep building. So when it rolled around to play at the Bernabeu, I felt more than ready. It's unbelievable. It's like a proper arena. The atmosphere. When it dropped to me, I was like, yeah, it's like Christmas. It was my first game there as well. It was extra special, and it was extra loud, and it was just a great day. Never forget it, ever. Stressful, but couldn't have ended that. Come on, boys! Football first grabbed me when I think I was about seven. My dad would take me to a lot of his games and a lot of the coaching sessions that he used to do, and it just didn't really appeal to me. During the games, when the other kids were playing, I was trying to make little daisy chains for my mum. And I remember my dad looking at me, just thinking, God, what a waste of space this kid is, by the way. I remember just starting to go and starting to think, all right, I'll kick it around a bit. My mum was upset because she stopped getting daisy chains, but after that, I just really wanted to play. Good, good, good, good. This is the way to score. Then I remember scoring a lot of goals. I'm Jude Benningham. I'm a striker. I was a horrible loser, though. I'm still not great now, and then it became just everything. When it grabs you, it's something really special. That's the effect that football's had on my life in general. And to think that little kid is now playing for England blows my mind. I don't take for granted what it means to be going to play for England, and it helps going in with good form as well. It means that I'm confident and I can go in and just play my game, really, the same way I've been playing it here in Madrid. At the start of this season, we hadn't qualified. We'd had a bit of a tough group, actually. A couple of the ones that are like dark horse ones where the games can be quite tough. One of those games, it wasn't a disaster, but it also wasn't amazing. Of course, you have to listen to the media and all the people talk about how poor we were and how bad England are and how we've got no chance of the Euros. And I think that fuelled the team as well because it was a big game, the next one, Scotland. It's a friendly, but it's never really a friendly, is it? I remember doing a few chops on the left-hand side and setting one for Phil. We crossed it in and had a little bit of a mix-up at the back. The ball dropped to me and it was the end of my celebration in front of the England fans at Hampden. It's like, what more can you want as an England player? All of a sudden, after that one, we went back from being the worst team in the world to the Euro favourites again, so that's always enjoyable as well. Boys, and now it's back to Madrid. Champions League time. Real Madrid and the Champions League are synonymous, really. It's just a special feeling going into those games that they can't be beaten. I always felt that watching as a fan and now as a player, it's like a force field that the Bernabeu is where you feel like whoever comes there, they won't beat us. The history of the club almost rubs off on the players when they sign and you understand how important it is that when you play for this club, you represent the people and the players that have come before you. It's a lot of pressure. They say if you haven't won the Champions League yet as a Real Madrid player, you're not really a Real Madrid player. So, you're looking around the changing room and players have five or six or whatever it was and you have some players who've won them with other clubs and you're kind of sat there and never been past the quarterfinals. The Champions League group stage always is an important date on the football calendar. The 20-year-old Englishman who is making his mark on the world. I was surprised that I'd started so well in terms of goals. The team makes it so easy. They make it so enjoyable. I think when you're playing with such great players, it takes the pressure off you and makes you feel like I can rely on these guys wholeheartedly and know that they're going to produce even if I don't. The first derby of the season was difficult. We'd won all the games heading into the game against Atletico and yeah, it was difficult. Pride takes hit, you know, in derby games when we were playing so well, winning so many games. You expect to go there and win and then when you don't, you almost feel a little bit embarrassed because you'd built all this form in the games that maybe weren't as tough and you feel like, oh, the first tough game you play you've kind of fell at the hurdle. It's so important. Failure is in football and losing, it's just, it's so, it's such a big factor in picking yourself up. Not only because you make tweaks tactically in terms of football side, but the mental side as well, you know. I always feel like I hate losing more than I enjoy winning. Now it's time to get ready for a massive game with England. Italy at home was my favourite England game so far. You know, the last time we played there against them, we'd lost the European Championship final. Knowing for us that we could be comfortably one of the top nations even from a losing position, I think it does amazing things for the confidence of all the players. That was a massive turning point in terms of the way I viewed our squad, definitely. England people are just so mature. I can't even get changed on the ice.