IT'S BEEN AN EMOTIONAL WEEK | Suzie Bonaldi

[Music] Hello everybody welcome back to a new Vlog we are picking up where we left off last week on my boat for those of you who didn't watch last week's Vlog we are aboard ILO which is the Ritz Carlton collection's new super yacht I feel like my head is too big for this that's not great how am I only now discovering I have a huge head but yeah anyway we are aboard ilma we actually it has not set sale yeah I'm picking up where I left off in the last Vlog because I didn't want it to be really long and like mismatched so we are all aboard we are getting ready for the kind of sailaway drinks like the celebratory drinks which should be really fun along with us on the boat and when I say us I mean Ryan who I think you can see a smidge of his arm here yeah hello it's actually very rare that Ryan and I get to he's shaving by the way which is why the tap is like on off it's very rare that I get to bring at Ryan on fres trips and I was saying earlier you know that going going to be a good trip when they say you can have a plus one like you just always know it's going to be so good thought you're going to say when I'm there well also that that it's it's it's twofold it's good on the brand because I just know like it's just going to be a really great trip they're just being super nice obviously it's fine when we don't get a plus one but it is also just really fun cuz I know it's going to be a good time because I have you with me and it's just it's so nice like it's just nice being in the room and like you're here I feel like I'm at home with which is nice oh that's nice a this is also our final voyage voyage I don't know why I said it like this is also our final voyage together as a fiance situ so Ryan is with me and also aboard ilma is Victoria and Amelia and Alex and Pia and so it's just the best group like it was already good to begin with when they said ran could come and then I found out that Victoria and Amelia were also coming and you just know we're all going to have the best time and we are here hello is that the is that a door announcement do we need to get our swimming Cs on WE that's a doorbell that's so funny not the door so weird right has he been murdered what's happening are you okay yeah you I wonder if that's the we're moving situ CU it's meant to be 6 o00 oh very good evening ladies and gentlemen this is captain darl speaking from the navigational bridge to welcome everybody aboard this beautiful yacht ilma we hope you're enjoying uh the festivities on board okay our guy has finished his chat where was I so we are here on the yacht as guests of 111 skin they do the spa treatments on the ship and I get to have a spa treatment tomorrow I'm so excited I can't wait so tonight we're going up onto the deck for sway drinks and then we're having dinner with the woman one skin team which will just be so nice so for those of you that didn't watch the last Vlog we're in Barcelona at the moment that's where we're sailing from we sail to sand trpe overnight stay there for a little bit and then end up in Monte Carlo which is just going to be so fun and then we fly home from nce and I'm so looking forward to it me and Ry love going to the South front but anyway I'm just going to do my normal makeup routine tonight just something super quick and easy because I actually have to do my hair today my heatless curls just they dropped on one side great so I'm going to have to actually curl my hair I think and then it might need to be an updo situation for the rest of the trip but we're going we're trying for the first night this your is its first voyage ever so everything on it is like brand spanking new the bathroom is stunning everything is stunning perfect imaculate Vibes the dressing gown is fresh fresh and it is the softest dressing gown I've ever worn in my life and they also the slippers I actually haven't told Brian how comfy they are yet cuz I I'm scared he'll steal them but oh my freaking God I've never felt something so soft and Squishy in my whole enti it's like an actual slipper not like one of those little flippy flappy things that you get in hotels like it's it's an actual Cloud slipper it's so nice and very comfortable right now I don't want to get changed but don't worry I will be I'm actually really excited about this evening's outfit again not to bang on about it but if you watched the last Vlog I think you'll know what I'm wearing this evening you will have seen it and it's just so nice so equally whilst I'm loving this dressing gown I'm also very excited to wear said dress I'm going to crack on and get ready because like I said I have to do my hair I literally since may have or June can count the amount of times on both hands that I have heat styled my hair which is Wild for the girl that used to heat sty her hair every day so the thought of actually having to do my hair does now stress me a tiny tiny bit so I'm going to crack on and get ready and I'll be back with you shortly when I am a little bit more ready bye okay it's time to get ready this is my walk-in wardrobe I unpacked everything and I'm very very happy with that life choice is actually just made seeing everything so much easier obviously but it's also just very pleasing like I even did all of my jewelry so I can see it all oh it's just so nice so satisfying it was really I actually really enjoyed doing this and I never thought I would ever say that I've got quite a hat collection going on on this trip which is unusual for me there's another one up there yeah anyway this is my I was about to say small capture wardrobe for this trip but this is actually this is a lot of clothes you need choices okay you need choices anyway this is what I'm going to be wearing tonight the theme is blue and I'd already seen this before I even saw the dress code for this trip and I just loved it so much so going to get this on now dinner I forgot to show you my outfit but it's fine I'll show you when I'm back in the room I'm with my favorite human I'm actually wearing su's dress and earrings but it's so cold I really want to put on this jum look soed no do it be be everyone else knows you look underneath I don't want this back now it looks so good on her I like it does not look like this on me you keep it I don't want it back it's so cute like I love this you look do you like my earrings this oh my God I love them on you I need to get they actually even look good with jumper they do they look good with everything at first I was like oh these are quite a dressy earring that like they'll be like night out only but I think they' look great like a white shirt as well iaz I've gone to the other end of the spectrum with perfect thank you go like this we got like a beard a rocket beard Captain greenard oh he's so cute look at him [Laughter] a oh my God that's so cute fish bowl ber can you talk us through this evening's outfit yes oh my God I actually didn't show them my outfit that's so funny you said that this is a really snuggly blanket from the cupboard so we have these two walking wardrobes I don't know if I showed you Ryan's one but Ryan's one is equally as like neat and tidy as mine it's really cute he's very domesticated we love very Dem very mindful I got my quter of one Tik Tok reference per video in right at the beginning so that's good yeah so I was going through Ryan's wardr when I was like putting some things of his in there and I opened this case up and inside is I thought it was going to be a fleece dressing gown but it's this this is the softest honestly I wish there was touch Vision it's like one of those fleece you know when you go to dlm and you get those fleece blankets it's like that but the bougie people I was only joking but you've actually given a full review no I I really want this blanket like I'm going to be taking a photo of the tag and I'm going to get one for every room room in our house cuz it's just so nice yeah take a good look people cuz you need that I was more doing it just so you could look back oh that too but everyone else needs to know everyone needs one of these Ryan just turned around and I was sat doing this if anyone remembers the lockdown Tik toks oh my God it' be like when you find your girlfriend in her room on her period And I just do it every often and it's so funny if you couldn't already tell I've got to that delusional point in the evening I I really need to go to bed so I think we're going to see you in the morning I don't even I can't I don't even have it in me to take off my skin care with to take off my skin care to take off my makeup with you and do my skincare like I will be doing it but I just I can do no more need to catch some Zeds I need some Zeds oh my God sweet dreams sweet dreams good morning wow this is spinning me out of this way I can't lie in my head I'm in a hotel but when I look out the sea is moving I'm just getting ready to go to the gym this morning I was going with Amelia but she has not messaged me back so I'm just going to go got my headphones and my phone I'm about to have my one one skin facial I'm excited the brief is I want to be hydrated G by the end of this okay before and after oh my God the cheekbones my face has truly been like sculpted [Applause] wow can see France I think we have about 3 hours until we're in San trpe it's just somewhere up there it's around 11:30 it's time to get ready for lunch I also have some photos to shoot before lunch so it's go go go around here so I'm going to do a quick daytime V and about 3:00 we should arrive in sandree which is so exciting I go to sandree a lot for work but because it's work I only really end up seeing like a street the itineries are normally jam-packed and you are taken from like wherever you're staying to dinner and you don't really see too much so I'm really excited to just have time in santra to actually see santre that's going to be so nice just have a good wand around Ryan and I have never been together either it's always somewhere that we' said we wanted to go we love a little south of France trip so this is really up our street oh my God my skin is so glowy wow she really sculpted my face as well I'm very appreciative of that because I've been feeling really really puffy I wish I could have one of those facials the morning of my wedding cuz I would feel 10 out of 10 okay SPF is on we're going to continue with the glow we're going to be using the Charlotte Tilbury unreal skin this is a really lightweight stick Foundation if you like a glow but you don't want anything heavy coverage this is beautiful it's kind of like Flawless filter in Stick form but there's just something about it that just makes it a little bit less in your face than Flawless filter like this you could just wear alone whereas Flawless filter I can't put all over my face it just looks too glowy whereas this is like the subtle little sister but it's just beautiful and I think it has a tad more coverage as well but really not a lot lot of coverage I personally really like it as a like pre base so I love to put this on and then put my Charlotte Tilbury airbrush wless filter over the top and it's like the perfect glowy combination especially when I'm having photos taken so I literally just take this is such high coverage so just take a tiny amount of this foundation and then I apply that where I need it kind of in the center parts of my face over my pigmentation which is just ruining the vibe I should probably have that peeled off but it's just so close to my eye area I'm scared okay Flawless filter is on the glow is still coming through even with flawless filter on which is really saying something cuz that Foundation is High coverage and it's not the most luminous foundation so I'm impressed corrector which is very needed today cuz I didn't sleep the best the beds are so comfy though I love this hourglass brush for my concealer nothing Blends quite like this every so often I feel the boat Rock it's the strangest feeling when I was trying to run in the gym it honestly it was like end of the world apocalyptic training I was on the treadmill trying to run and the ground was moving underneath me so I just played a little game in my head of end of the world training that's quite fun one of my tips if you're ever struggling in the gym and struggling for motivation and just you just want to give up is just pretend that you're in gladiator training okay what are we wearing today I think I might go for this you might have seen this before in the last Vlog and then I have this pair of trousers that are almost like a bit matchy and they're really gorgeous and I haven't actually worn either of these before they're both from mango both super old I had to take the trousers up it's taking me a good year and a half to take the trousers up the top has actually been worn I just haven't taken the tag out and then I think this bag y very nice very south of Francy and then I'm thinking these shoes but I might take another flat pair to walk in but these the pigs and then drawer of dreams I think oh God actually this is a tough one this is a tough one I might take a few pairs in my bag I really want to shoot these gorgeous Pearl vintage earrings I also just desperately need to get photos of me wearing the hearts cuz they are the best ones in my opinion also have these as well maybe I go with something more daytime oh I don't know not the Libra trying to make decisions and spectacularly failing okay let's take these sunnies actually I'm going to shoot these later I'm going to take these now and then also these engagement ring let's not forget that okay perfect so this is my outfit for lunch I love this outfit it's actually criminal that it's taken me a good two years to take up these trousers because they're so nice they're really Slim and lightweight and just like skim over my body really really nicely honestly I'm kicking myself for not doing this sooner I just wonder where them at the bottom you can kind of see a little bit I'm going to have them properly altered once I am home but I love it with this mango top they just pair so nicely together and then the addition of the Rafia bag is just perfect Posh holiday Vibes that's what that's what I'm calling this it's not just it's not casual holiday Vibes it's like Posh holiday Vibes and I love it in terms of jewelry I have got oh I've got no earrings in I need to put my earrings in I'm going to wear these let's put them in in the wardrobe this is my dream closet like down to the wood everything this like cool toned wood has been on my mood board for years it's so spinny though so you know me I decided to be really practical and pick a wedding instead of a walk-in wardrobe which some people think is practical but a Walkin wardrobe is for life not just the day you know I couldn't resist so yeah I'm wearing these ripped drop earrings I always call them ripped but I'm sure they have a like cuter name than that but that's just what I'm calling them for now until the actual names eventually sink in over the course of a collection they will eventually sink into my brain so those are the earrings just perfect perfect perfect for this outfit and then I've got the chunky tea bar necklace which I just love and then I have my statement ring which I'm actually going to put on this finger and give this hand space to breathe and then I've also got my textured Tea Bar bracelet as well that is me ready to roll time for lunch look at Victorious we're just getting ready to go out to San TR for the day and it's so funny you can just see all the boats coming out from underneath and starting to depart it's so cute you got these little tiny Green Boats we've gone for a little change for the afternoon this was unplanned but I actually just wanted to make sure I wore this outfit on this trip because it's just too good not to and I just love it and there's just not that much of Summer left you know so we're just we're just doing the most I think I might switch my earrings for The Battered coin earrings I think that could be really nice that they make a nice statement but yeah this is a whole odd Muse outfit so we've got the top is from OD Muse this is their lime cream from the summer Resort collection and then the white trousers which are just such a staple and they go with the white Blazer which I also just got and I'm waiting for this to come back into stock in the white as well and then I will be a very happy I will be an eternally happy girly so yeah I'm just going to switch my earrings over and we are ready to go to Sant Peg leaving the boat bye you like my earrings they're so cute they really suit you I need to get you them they're going to be they hide my side band love it I'm wearing the little I think Ryan calls these shredded Wheats we've been naming them after cereals we keep naming them off the cereals at the for some reason shreddy I was going to wear these but I've donated them I did message him hello please can I have come for ice cream there's so many choices how are you meant to choose oh my god oh sweet baby that is enormous chocolate what you what flavor is you're about to I'm dripping everywhere can I try the is that allow thank you oh my God oh my God it's the red place from Emily in Paris oh my God you guys here doesn't know this but whenever I come to France I turn into an Emily in Paris fan girl I did the last time I was in Paris I did the walking tour no you know what I do remember the last time when I saw you in and we you did um I don't know you did an audio or you refer something and I was like that my friend is embarrass it was it it was it I'm Trey exite cuz that one will always get me where she's like that doesn't mean excited that means horny you'll actually hate this but I haven't watched season 2 or three yet to be fair I feel like the first season is the best season but I do love it season 2 I think they come to santree and it is a Vibe and I love it she's going to roam in the next half of season 4 and I'm so excited for that this are so pretty guys whenever Ryan stands on a curb I have one thought imagine how much harder our relationship would be if you were this much taller than me thanks for the under CH this is so pretty cute it's the cutest yeah it's so Nicea a a you so nice oh sweet boy this is stunning like this feels like what I was expecting everyone is it way easier to Hold Your Hand like this that was weird well cuz I'm actually holding it at your level Jee this is the bougiest pharmacy I have ever been in oh my God just this place someone's been shopping bougie guy shopping in Sant Trope cute sunnies me me all I bought was dry shampoo because I'm so disheveled I feel like a shell of my former self when I woke up this morning about cute it's very warm I've been very wind swept you girl needed dry shampoo back to the boat that's not the boat that's the boat come closer and big step big step right hello welcome back would you oh my God yes thank you we are back in the room look at that view how fun is that it's gorgeous got the whole view of santra this this kind of view makes cruising like worth it I just want to lie out there but I need to get ready for dinner Ryan's having a snack having snack being a snack we also need to pick an outfit for tonight I'm thinking I'm either going to go for this dress which you have probably seen me wear many times or this dress which I actually think I wore the last time I was in the south of France but I want to wear it with my with my shoes cuz I want to get a pick of them and then I'll probably change cuz I don't want to get them dirty yet but yeah potentially potentially that and yeah then around to this side we have Ryan's wardrobe which just looks so cool this is a very cool man's wardrobe I like the vibe that's going on in here now I need to jump in the shower cuz we do not have long until dinner so I'm I'm determined to not be late tonight God loves a try I think suzan's just had another Radio One play yay I think this is going to be a very sad clip if you're wrong well I've just been tagged in from the pr which says what radio things we've been played on so I don't know what her like show like when it is I can't take another one another [Music] one called was my first ever DJ interview on the I'm probably going to cry every time stop crying get ready right let's get this R shampoo in my hair cuz we do not have time for a hair wash today so this is the chlorine dry shampoo oil control they do a gental one as well which I probably could have done with trying out but I just know that this one is good I am going to throw my hair in a bun do princess layer and it will look dumb in the moment but it will all work out in the end and then once I'm out the shower hopefully this will have Blended in a little bit this is my outfit of the evening I'm wearing this gorgeous OD Muse dress again I love this so much it's so flattering so comfortable it really does the most with the girls I'm big fan of this one I also have my new simai bag which I just love it's so so sweet I love interesting bags like this has been the love of my life for the past year is ating interesting bags they make me so happy and then I have my Pearl chain clipon earrings from my aelia edit and then also the vintage necklace as well this has now sold out there were actually a few more than nine apparently but they are all gone a few of you lucky girlies managed to bag this I love this I have a few others that I like it but this one is thicker and I just love the way it sits it's a lot shorter so it sits like higher on my neckline I just absolutely love it so sorry to those of you that missed out I'm just really rubbing it in your faces right now but to the girlies that got this I'm so happy for you cuz it it's amazing I've left my wrist spare I'm just going very easy breezy this evening and we're doing the most on the ears and the neckline so I'm just leaving everything else bare I should probably put my engagement ring on that would be a nice a nice touch to this I then also got my Charlotte Mills shoes on let me show you these properly so these are launching on Friday I wasn't originally going to wear these up to dinner I was considering not in case I just marked them up but they're just so comfy they're so comfy and they go so perfectly with the outfit that how could I not so I'm not going far really am I so my chances of ruining these are hopefully very slim so this is my outfit of the evening I love this I feel so like nice and comfortable in it it's just [Music] perfect good morning wow that's so gorgeous oh my God morning girls just washed my face I'm getting ready for the gym I have been fully dedicated to the gym life recently and I honestly don't know what's gotten into me I'm just rolling with it I've actually started running which is the most UN me thing because I hate high intensity cardio of any kind but I've actually been really enjoying it turns out endorphins are real so getting ready to go to the gym yeah again I actually slept so much better last night than I did the night before like I actually feel human today which is so nice but anyway my skin is so juicy right now like after I took my makeup off last last night I normally look absolutely Haggard when it's late it was so late when we got back last night and I took my took my makeup off so I'm post cleanse where my skin normally looks it's deadest I was like how am I still glowy like that facial yesterday was on another level if you ever get the chance to have a onean skin facial I would highly recommend it was lovely and we did like the there they could go harder but obviously because we're so close to the wedding we really did just like a super gentle really hydrating really Plumping facial on me and it was everything it was everything I would absolutely have another one so I'm trying to keep up the effects of yesterday's facial and I've used this moisturizer which is one of their new ones from one1 mons skin it's the cryo revitalizing moisturizer and it's meant to give the same amazing benefits and like effects that cryotherapy actually give you and they've done loads of research into it and just honestly hearing them talk about it I didn't know last night was so fascinating I'm also going to use this sun cream it's a repair Sun cream this took them 5 years to make sun cream is so hard to make this is SPF 50 plus plus plus plus plus plus plus it's amazing they were telling me about it last night and I was like I need to try this SPF this sounds incredible trying this today I'm very excited I'm going to be going in the sun today so I'm really intrigued to see how my pigmentation is at the end of the day cuz that's how I judge a good Sun cream is how my under eye pigmentation flares up if it does or if it doesn't I have a list of sun creams that are like on my approved list for not flaring up my pigmentation and being like really good protection on my skin so I have high hopes for this it sounds incredible and oh my God it just makes my skin look so nice apparently it absorbs really nicely as well like really quickly so you're not like left with a lot of residue on your skin which I know a lot of people don't like I personally love the glow but yeah this is the SPF it has so many benefits to it and I'm so excited to have a one to one with the founders today and I'm so excited to just ask them all my skincare questions because I love skare I have so many questions so that's going to be very fun also they delivered Alma milk and syrup to my room this morning how nice is that so that I could have my matcho in my room this superar is is not a joke it is the bougiest thing I think it might be the bougiest place I've ever been I got that dry shampoo saved me if you're going to a French Pharmacy you must get this I don't know if we can get it in the UK but if you do see get it get it I'm going to run some product through my brows and then I think I'm ready I can't let people see me without eyebrows these days you know like when you're a kid your mom would always have that one non-negotiable my one like non-negotiable is my brows even if it's just a tiny amount I have to do my brows I can't go out with their be brows we're now officially live on the radio website I'm so excited I didn't get a chance to look yesterday it was such a busy day but look there's me oh my God so cool oh I love these images this was such a fun shoot fun fact water actually started pouring through the ceiling halfway through sold out oh my God this is so exciting I get so emotional with these collections I just they like have a special little piece of my heart like I just jewelry just sets my soul on fire I just absolutely love it and it just get so like emotional when you guys like just are enjoying it so much like I've been loving seeing all of your DMs with what you've been buying it's just so on our way to the gym oh it's this one this is my outfit of the day we are spending it by the pool this shirt doesn't really go but I've just thrown it on because I don't want to like offend anyone just like walking around basically with my top off but I've got this Jack mous shirt on and then the I think it's sinin don't know that that bikini I'm obsessed with this print it's so beautiful I love the design and like the gold bits it's just so nice and then I've got some very lowrise really easy trousers on my YSL sliders because what else and then my YSL big tote cuz we've got to take all the spfs oh and then for jewelry I just have on the heart earrings I just wanted to keep it a little bit simple and Seline sunnies and then I've got a little hat in my bag to protect that parting [Music] got a really sexy hat and sunglasses combo on right now cuz we are having all day how amazing is this got my fav here bonjour we get ready with me for dinner don't mind me I'm just having a cry a stress cry this is the behind the scenes of trips That You Don't See I'm hosting my first event ever next week and I'm just so nervous I think I have hit the point where I can't like hold myself together any longer since I came off the pill I find it really easy to hold myself together and stay composed even when I'm like at boiling point but just I am really struggling today yeah so we're getting ready for dinner we're going to put some makeup on and like just hope that I P my together it's been a really emotional week like launching collections is like so much pressure and I'm still putting a lot of pressure on myself and then I have another launch on Friday and in between that I'm trying to like work and be very present and socialize and then I have other things that are like going on and needing to be signed off and then I have an event that I'm hosting next week and I just have just reached the point it's getting a bit too much now my pot's just like boiling over so the reality of what goes on on a brush trip need more eye cream just use the one one skin eye cream it's so nice and like Cooling and de puffing which is exactly what I need having just bowled like a baby I also used the Repair Serum which has a little bit of their like Secret Sauce in it that helps your skin like heal really beautifully and gives it that like lovely juiciness and as you can see it's very [ __ ] not me having just done a full like deep chat and emotional outburst and I'm talking about skincare but it's it's it's nice to diver and then the cry revitalizing moisturizer which is just gorgeous we have more eye cream I don't want to be puffy okay corrector let's do pretend like we didn't just cry makeup honestly it's my own fault though I don't know how we ended up doing so much in the space of 7 days it's actually quite ludicrous so I did this to myself apart from having a complete breakdown upon on getting back to my room I had a really nice off afternoon at the pool with Vic and Amelia and Alex Amelia has now left the boat which I'm so sad about so we have one final evening together with the one1 one skin team so we're going to all go and eat at I think it's a Japanese restaurant that's on the yacht which will be so nice I love Japanese food and then I need to come back and pack up all of my things cuz we leave tomorrow I'm so sad I've absolutely loved it I I have to say I didn't love like the the journey here I found it quite choppy and that was quite difficult especially obviously when I was trying to sleep but it's worth it for being here it's just amazing the point1 I don't want to leave I could definitely do I think I could do another 3 days of this it would be so nice maybe another two outfit of the evening we have my favorite Reformation dress it's this gorgeous cream silk and then we have my sim Kai bag all of my Aurelia collection Jewel we've got the drop Parts the tea bar necklace the pebble ring and then also three bracelets on my wrist as well I've gone for this little half up half down and then my Chanel perspect sandals which have been a fan fave on this trip Ryan's looking gorgeous in brown we're both very neutral today it's very blue in here they can't really see you but think gorgeous Brown shrimpy shade shrimpy wearing a he's wearing the shade of shrimp that's what it reminds me of gorgeous shade of shrimp I was so scared of dropping my camera out there's no [Music] glasses morning wow every morning there's a different view it's just incredible good morning morning I feel like we haven't seen you at all in the Vlog aing cut me out wasn't here really I've barely vlogged outside of the room you know I haven't either I'll have to look back my footage I feel like it's all room based I know maybe it'll be better than we think it's going to be yeah surely I've been in it once or twice hi hi have the best time we missed you it's been a whole one Vlog that you haven't excellent It's been a whole week are you no no when see you next for your wedding I think I that's so far it is the wedding isn't it unless you're free on the 11th of of September yeah it might be we'll see my diary doing we'll see you you say that it's me who does this syy is having a breakdown I said I won't see you for a while and this is what happened she just got really upset tears of joy she she broke down she was like p no I can't not see you for a week please and I said B calm down it's okay and then this happened it together I don't know whether I'm crying out of like laughter or sadness oh [Music] gness everything's fine everything is fine so good to see sad to leave sad to leave this so gorgeous look at this oh my God I haven't seen this part of the view wow I know I always say this when we go away but is that not in James Bond it could be I wouldn't be surprised oh there's the other pool oh I wonder if Vick and Alex are down there bye guys guys we're trying to leave the boat we're trying to leave and every time Ryan goes he goes down there to pee and instead he keeps coming back up with more food have you have you peed no what have you got now sber what sber is it just like a mixed berry I think is it nice can I try feed me and this is where it ends up on my nose I was so scared leaving the boat my boat as if we were just done that not lie I'm so excited to go home and see my dog wow bye Elma good morning everybody today we are going to pick our wedding sting our wedding sting so bie I'm very excited into ger go that's a really nice one as well I used to wear that quite the perfume [Music] yeah I'm going to go and grab the grapefruit C lot I think we have our three these smell so good together that one's at UK for wedding a together that one's just UK like SP War [Music] [Laughter] nice that's so nice that's fit f and casis oh yeah nice it reminds me a little bit of the green tomato Vine it's got that like black cartin to it so nice is it we've made our choices think we're there the more we smell the more difficult it get are you excited I feel like more excited now you know like when we were doing the mood boards for the visuals and then we were doing the playlists and it's almost like you can it's another part of envisioning the day yeah so nice now I can smell the day be amazing as W so fry be wow that's so nice yeah that's nice you can keep going there can't you yeah I really I could I I just said there's so many smells that I am yet to smell from like Jo Malone just keeps on going yeah yeah have you spell the new by the marmalade orange marmalade oh W there's so many smells I am yet to smell every time I think I've smell every Jo Malo fragrance there is they're like but what about this marent Tonka it's the best one yeah I think that's a good one to both yeah it's so versatile I'm I'm obsessed I'm having to betray myself from buying the fragrance of it I love it that much but I might do that after the wedding cuz I don't want to it's nice to save it for the wedding yeah especially when I'm so stressed at the moment I don't want to remember just being strong at some point the next year or so this is so cute isn't it I love it thank you so much that's adorable my little rose on the top thank [Music] you good morning we are going to be doing some speed makeup this morning you guys I need to leave for London in the next half an hour which should be enough time I know to get makeup on your face but I wear a lot of makeup I just wear a lot of makeup okay so today it is the 2nd of September it is officially my legal wedding month she's going to be a wife this month I'm so excited but also I can't let I'm crumbling slightly at the moment there's just a lot of emotions going on right now and today is actually a very special day because today my Charlotte Mills shoes are launching we actually had to push the launch back slightly there's always a last minute setback isn't there but today I am hosting an event with Charlotte Mills to celebrate the launch and I'm so excited but also so nervous I've never done anything like this before and classic me it's not been entirely smooth sailing to be honest on Friday I found out that the dress I was going to be wearing it wasn't able to be altered in time I didn't have my usual lady alter it who is just Mega fast and amazing and I just I I know I should have just stuck to what I know but yeah I was told on Friday it wasn't going to be ready for today so C me trying to find a last minute outfit the theme is obviously white by the way I have two dogs in the house at the moment if you see a little white fluffy thing running around it's my mom's I believe they are by the sounds of things playing under the bed guys okay they can just chill there that's that's nice but anyway yeah I had to find an outfit at the last dying second so if my outfit is just a little bit like not me I was meant to be wearing something a lot more fun but I've decided to go for something kind of like Bridal Chic it's it's like a it's a look I haven't done before in my Bridal wardrobe I haven't gone for anything like this yet so I thought that could be fun to do something a bit different especially as the event is more East way and my hotel is in East London so it's a little bit more cool I thought i' go for something a little bit less cutesy just popping on a little bit of ey Shadow to set my concealer I've decided just to do my base just in terms of saving time when I get to London but I'm very nervous for tonight my safety blanket my safety blankets plural are um actually away this could not have been avoided in any way I am so sad about it it's completely not their fault there's no drama cuz that's my first panic when we set this date I knew Amelia and Victoria were not free and we could really do any other date and like push back further so my besties are not going to be with me and they are like my social safety blanket I am I'm okay in social situations but I always feel a 100 times better obviously when my best friends are in the room with me but yeah they are in can they're not going to be with me and I have severe fomo but there are some amazing girlies coming to this event tonight some of my other lovely lovely friends who I'm just so grateful to them for coming out just to everyone and for the brand I'm just really really grateful do you know what one thing I really need to do at the moment is look back at my makeup from this time last year because I saw a photo and my makeup was just T out done I just really enjoyed it I'm going to be watching back an old Vlog to get a little tutorial on what products I was using cuzz I don't feel like I'm loving my makeup routine at the moment I think I'm over the over blushing and I want to look how I looked in November there was a lot more eye makeup going on and I really liked it I'm going to do brows and then I think I'm going to save the rest for when I'm in London and I've got contact in I am obsessed with these brow productss at the moment I was using one from UK lash which I have completely used up and I'm now using the Rafi which no longer says RFI because it's so well loved this is the brow Pomade in the shade medium I think I used the same or similar shade in UK lash as well these are so nice they're very very quick and easy to use and I really like the shades so would recommend these if you have quite sparse eyebrows that you want to fill in quickly I'm going to use Armani 102 I was using this this a lot last Autumn and I know I really liked this so going back to that this is Charlotte tilb Hollywood honey this is a really nice dark ready like a warm brownie lip liner it goes really nicely if you've got like a peachy nude lip we are done just need to finish my smoothie get my stuff packed up and I think we're ready just had to carry the suitcase all the way up here did arms today what bad timing Hi how are you yeah thank you we're going to sh ditch thank you so much have a nice day o my God these corridors are crazy 615 this way wow it's giving bougie as hell mixed with American Horror Story is this me yes oo oo gorgeous I can't lie they really Snak you with the size of this room online need to check out the bathroom cuz I'm very passionate about the bathrooms ooh pretty tiny but cute I've just sat in silence for a good 20 minutes because I I think I'm very nervous I don't even know why I'm nervous I go to events all the time this is technically no different I mean my name is kind of on it it's not even fully me hosting it I'm like co-hosting it it's not it's not t it's not my whole yeah I'm definitely nervous it's it's almost like a paralyzing kind of nervous like I just don't feel feel like I can do anything I just feel like a bunny in headlights but it's half 3 so I guess I should get ready okay we are running a tiny bit behind but that's fine I hope I did under eye mascara for the first time in so long I would say a good 6 months I think this is what my face has been missing it's nice it's nice I like it I feel like my eyes look more balanced now obviously we are going to put on some jewelry before we really quickly steam this dress right jewelry I'm going to go with these ones from my vintage aelia collection I think and then the Chain O oh no that was a hair clip that's fine the chunky chain and we're going to go for the cross tennis bracelet oh we'll go for the textured as well that's nice I like that peble ring would be rude not to I'm also going to do an updo which I haven't done it in a while also I didn't get to show you my outfit earlier I'm wearing my my Capri trousers with this odm water top on this is the new one I've had it watered now so it fits really like not too snug my other one's a bit too snug here but like this one is perfect I think perfect amount of like support but not too tight and my arms don't feel too restricted I might oh I think I might switch it up I'm going to wear these These are the best studs ever I'm obviously biased these are from my aelia edit yeah this is nice nice and nice and simple because the dress is kind of simple but also statement at the same time and then we're doing a chunky neck effect love love love oh no I've got eyeliner on my pH I do have these earrings okay now we're going to go for these and I'm going to take my clipons with me because Rosie messaged me saying she does not have jewelry I can't have her being without she was like I've forgotten all my jewelry I was like you are you're seeing the right girl this evening everything will be fine okay great we are on to hair I've curled the front pieces and now I'm just going to do the world's fastest bun hopefully so ponytail I'll pull bits out in a bit in front of the mirror on the second one we're going to bring the hair like this be a little bit more P it in and then we are going to wrap it around and you take this little end and you pin it in and hope you've got enough hair clips to hand I really could have done with big ones of these but I don't really think there's through this is a last minute hair job it's also way nicer if you curl your whole head of hair first and leave pieces like dangling but we do not have time make sure the front pieces are fully pulled out all of the wispy bits always dry shampoo front curls maybe not that much that was a lot oh my God always do this with your front bits I don't know why I just think it makes them look really good okay cute okay too okay I am ready I am boob taped to the High Heavens because I'm sure everyone has seen enough of me after this summer okay all of the essentials in this bag okay I need the perfume and I need shoes and then we are good to go I am going to go with a slightly newer fragrance today Scarlet Poppy I have been loving right okay taking this pair of shoes for one of my friends who is going to wear them at the event her has actually didn't get CED on time which is very sad and then I have two of my Charlotte Mills designs to wear so the first pair we have these gorgeous polka dot mesh shoes which have been a firm favorite almost all of the girls that I was allowed to gift I had five in terms of like the stock allowance I had five girls I was allowed to gift like my exact shoe to the rest of the girls tonight are going to be wearing like various choices from Charlotte Mills so lots of them are wearing the Mia which I also own and I think is an amazing shoe choice but pretty much everyone that I was allowed to gift one of my shoes to when I asked them which they prefer they said this one however so this is the Taylor they're named after my cousins I think Taylor is going to pee her pants when she finds that out but then we also have the Luchia my little cheich my aunt actually sent me a video of her reacting to finding out that i' named it after her this morning which was so cute so we have the Lucha which is the adorable bow back open sandal and this comes in a block heel and also sexy thick heel cuz I'm just not a block Hill girly but I understand that some of us get married on grass and some of us are just sent ible I am less sensible but I just think they're the most gorgeous shoe ever I think I'm going to wear these this evening with the dress because I don't know I feel like this dress is just naked dress naked shoe I tried both pairs on at home and this this was the pair so this is what we're going to go with okay this is the outfit there is not a mirror in this room that is not in the dark so I hope you can see it I just love my friends I just love okay we have made it we are in a very old building this is old clerk house I'm whispering cuz it's very echoey old Clerk old sessions House Old SE house oh my God you look amazing yeah okay just get a [Music] drink so pretty I just your hair lovely yeah I was just crying in the car cry got whole backstage room wow a hello suy Vlog we're very very proud of you doesn't she look gorgeous the food smells amazing by the way it really does tomato but it smells so good honestly cheese and there is no better tomato than cheese say as well thank you so much for coming and thank you C for giving us the opportunity to create beautiful shoes it's been [Music] amazing doing this collaboration such high like one of my favorite moments of the whole wedding journey and just to have like the perfect shoes they really are so perfect and you guys have smashed like the most comfortable shoes like they really are I literally run these they're amazing thank you to everyone everyone's effort it's amazing and I appr so [Applause] [Music] much on to dessert I barely Vlog honestly I literally have got here when you're hosting things like you have to speak to people you can't V pass I know I talk too much it's my whole half of the table is sat here like their star signs and I'm like this is this is the most meoded thing that could happen at an event my no you honestly I do it to people all the time when I meet someone new I'm like okay when is your birthday and then we get to know each other a bit better and I'm like what time are you born like relationship learning the Love Languages oh I love that yeah yeah yeah so no he's like a he needs to be spoken to and he loves like for example if he's had his hair done which by the way when boys get their hair done barely any different when he comes back from the above he needs uh your hair he needs the affir he needs he loves the affirmation if I had to rank them my top two acts of service cuz I was a child that was ask me independent way too early and then physical touch are like my I don't need to hear from you I don't need to hear from you at all I don't need gifts but I need like the trash taken out on my behalf like my mom came over the other day and she was like I'm going to come and help you cuz I feel like you just need some help in life at the moment I just I lit I'm the same I'm service like if someone makes me I'm always AAR h it's been such a cute evening I've had the best din it's been like a little bridal shower hasn't it this is my influencer bridal shower thank you so much for coming welcome to the Vlog the vog little take oh my goodness me it's just incredible hello so it turns out it's really difficult to host an event and do content all yourself all at the same time honestly no idea what we're going to end up with from that so I hope you enjoyed seeing a snippet into my evening it was just such a while when it was really nice really good to see everybody so many of my friends came which was so nice and the shoes launched whil we were there so again TVC but I think it's going really well which is amazing so if you did buy a pair of shoes thank you so much all I know is that the team were very happy and very Smiley when they left so I feel like it's going well so far I'm going to catch up with them in the morning and chat to them about it properly but it was just such a lovely evening it was so beautiful I kept saying to everybody like okay we need to lower our expectations for what we think my wedding is going to look like cuz I don't know that it's going to be this stunning like the events team I will list like everything was perfect from the events to the food like everything was insane I will list everyone that like helped out because honestly the food team I have not had a dinner like a event dinner in this industry that was actually that good in a very very long time like the food at these events is normally not what you go for but that food everyone was like wow this food is really good and I was like like yeah we need to we need to be spreading the word about this catering team because they are stunning yeah and it was just so so beautiful the location was amazing it was old session house on clerkenwell road it's really really beautiful and the team there that kind of like we running everything were really sweet as well so just like such a lovely evening it was really nice to see Eva we had Luc lyia we had Emily Blackwell Sabina who I just love she's just the sweetest human being FL came it was really nice to see her and then IIs and Olivia as well are just so nice I'll list everyone that came in the info box CU they're just honestly like the nicest nicest girls we are going to take some makeup off I really like this hair I feel sad to be taking it out [Music]