VLOG: О личном // 24 августа 2023

Good morning, everyone! This is Olya, you are on my channel, I am at work. Today is Thursday. Oh, I got confused with the numbers. Is it the 24th or the 25th? It's probably the 25th, right? The 25th is tomorrow. That's it, I got confused. Today I came on time, rested well. Of course, yesterday my head hurt a lot, and when I came back home, I didn't even film anything. I sat in the kitchen for a while, talked to Yana. Yana went to bed early, because her head hurt all day, and she didn't feel well. Well, I also went to bed later. Now I'm going to edit the video, and you know what I wanted to say? I wouldn't upload a video like the one I shot yesterday. This video would be deleted, but I'm showing it to you, only because we agreed on a certain schedule. Why am I focusing on this now? Because how often in our lives we do something that we don't really like, we see that there is some kind of mistake, or it's not worked out, or there is no perfect picture, no perfect result, and all this is hidden in the table, as they say. There are genius writers who write tables, and the whole world doesn't know about their genius, their talent, and so on. This is a perfectionist syndrome. This is a syndrome when you always want something perfect, and in the end you don't do anything, or you do, but you don't show it to anyone, you don't show yourself in any way. So, the most important thing you need to learn when you have this syndrome is to show your imperfection, because it's also your job, it's also your work, it's also your energy. Yes, it's not perfect, yes, maybe you can do better, yes, you could have shot more interesting videos, you could have talked about something more, but I told you that yesterday I didn't feel very well, and, to be honest, I had no idea what I was shooting yesterday, and how my day was going. So, yes, I'll show you this too. I'll show you so that you can see that it happens, and this is also my way, and it's normal when something doesn't work out perfectly. Learn to take this step, because it's scary to show a video about nothing, because you immediately start thinking, oh, now there will be comments, why are you shooting this, why are you showing this, it's not interesting, it's about what, I didn't even shoot the ending, but this time I'm doing it, before I also deleted it and didn't show you such videos, I have a huge amount of such material, which didn't end up on my YouTube channel, but this time I understand that I will show it, because this is my way, this is my experience, this is my practice, I also make mistakes, I also want to show that it happens, yes, it's not perfect, yes, it's not super interesting, but it's life, and it can't be otherwise, we can't always be super perfect, super productive, super happy, super successful, everything will always be stages, but showing even such stages, we work on ourselves, we become better, we develop, the most important thing is to be able to show it, to be able to show our weaknesses, because sometimes our strength is in them, and this is one of the things I'm trying to develop in myself, I mean, I really love perfection, it's very important for me that everything is perfect, but now I'm working on myself to show you that it can be different for me, sometimes it's not perfect, it's not perfect, it's not super productive, it's not interesting, but it's okay, it's okay, and that's why I'm showing it to you. And also, usually I say this at the end of the video, but here I decided to say it at the beginning of the video, I want to thank you right away for turning on the new video on my YouTube channel, and I'm sure it will be absolutely easy for you now, and I will be very pleased if you click on the like under this video, and also write some of your comments, either now or when you watch the whole video. I love you very much, I went to drink coffee, edit, yesterday I uploaded my imperfect video to the channel. Yes, you see all this, the fact is that I have an order bouquet with Juliet, they specially brought Juliet to the order bouquet, but apparently overripe buds, because it is of good quality, look, I just touch it and that's it, you see, the petals fall out, that is, it has dense, wet, elastic petals, this is not a bad rose, it just happens that it is cut off very late, when the bud is already as ripe as possible, that is, overripe, and due to this, it is already very poorly attached to its place, and such a situation is possible. So now I urgently write to my client, who ordered a bouquet with Juliet, that we urgently need to do something, change something, because the bouquet should have been from Juliet with Mateola. I offered an option of alstroemeria, because it was important that it was something peppery, pink, so that it would be, here I have alstroemeria, it would be very beautiful, I offered this elustoma, which I showed you yesterday, such a poppy elustoma, you can mix it, and in the extreme case, if it is very important for the peach shade, I have azora, a good strong bush rose, in general, now I am waiting for an answer, I will invent something, but this happens, these are the nuances of the flower business, we decided, in general, it was very important that there was Mateola, and we agreed on this elustoma, that is, I will have a bouquet, you see, with elustoma and with Mateola. I wanted to make a choice, because I wanted something beige, for my client, who ordered, but I stopped, I showed you only elustoma with Mateola, and here is also alstroemeria and azora, but I will put it on sale, now I will disassemble such a bouquet, I now have almost 5, in general, the last news, I need this week see the last module and make a diploma project and submit it, that is, the end of this Sunday night, I have to send it, but I have a complete rejection of all this, I terribly do not want to do it all, there is simply no desire, you know, I think that this is my brain already resists, that Olya, you kind of finish, and what's next, I'm already used to studying, well, in general, in fact, but nevertheless, I will explain to my brain now, that we will have a little rest, we will hold a marathon, after that, I still have new courses waiting for me, as I said, it will be Target, it will be hashtags, it will be Reels, so a lot, a lot of interesting things, and there will also be courses where you can immediately go, and order some services, and pay, and so on, in general, I still want to figure it out, in general, as I said, this year I dedicated myself completely, completely to education, investing new knowledge in myself, and the knowledge that is as comfortable as possible for me, as interesting as possible, and you know, the more I get all this now, the more I ask myself the question, why didn't I do it before, what I am studying now is what I dreamed of since childhood, only then there was no Internet, I could not understand how it should be, but this is just what it is, I dreamed of going to study as a director, as a host, I dreamed of creating my own projects, my own programs, on television, to give some information to people, to be a host of a program, I never dreamed of being a singer-actress, I wanted to create some interesting, informative programs, and to bring something new to people, to tell something, to teach something through my programs, I really wanted it, it was interesting for me, but again, I did not go in this direction after school, I went to a completely different area, although the scene never left me, I was always engaged in this, to lead, to organize, to come up with something, it never left me either, I was always engaged in this, well, before the birth of Yanka, probably, before I got married, because I even worked as an art director in a restaurant, I also organized everything, then I just worked as a host at night events, also in different restaurants, but then I still settled down and sat down quietly, to live an ordinary life, and this ordinary life ate me, ate me very much, because I gave up my dream then, I listened to other people, everyone who told me that it was time to have a normal job, in the morning I went to work, in the evening I came back, and I listened to all this, I listened, I realized that, well, yes, probably it should be so, these are just child's dreams, that's what I'm doing now, that I'm running a YouTube channel now, that I'm creating this marathon, or rather, I've already created it, that I want to open my blogging school, there I also want to shoot all the lessons on video, tell you all this, show you, I want to meet you, so that this blogging school is, on the one hand, online, but at the same time, who will be from the city, for example, in Minsk, where I am, I want to meet in offline mode, yes, with personal meetings, and for me it's so interesting, for me it's so cool, and that's what I'm doing now, that is, what I am learning, and I understand that I am returning my child's dreams, I feel as comfortable as possible now, I feel myself in my place, finally, as someone wrote to me, that you, Olya, now, as if, as there was this comment, I don't remember, this is the topic of comments that do not bother me at all, now I will try to remember, in general, there was something like this, that while you were a florist, I liked you, and it was yours, but now, when you started talking about these personal brands, about training, about marathons, the feeling that you did not wear your own clothes, it was written like that, maybe I added something from myself, and you understand, really, people judge somehow by themselves, that is, I was not in my place, when I only showed you floristics, I was convenient and necessary for those people who needed knowledge about floristics, yes, that is, I justified the expectations of those people who came for floristics, but I always said, flowers were never my dream, floristics was never my dream, but it was thanks to the fact that I opened a store, thanks to the fact that one day I wanted to open my YouTube channel, I did not know what to shoot about, and of course, what to shoot about, if there were flowers in my life, I myself studied with flowers, and I wanted to show what I do, and that's how it all went, but it all led me to today, to the day when I really realize that I am now in my place, I am exactly in the clothes that I had to put on myself a long time ago, not to give up my desires, my path, what was close to me, what my eyes shone for, what I lived for, what I enjoyed, that's how it is now, you know, education is a thrill, and I am so happy to do re-blogging and marathons, I feel so good in my place, here it is, the theme of the purpose that everyone is always looking for, the most important thing is just to listen, you already have all the answers, and you have them since childhood, because it was then, then your intuition communicated with you what you are for, what your path should be, but again, because of different events, different imposed opinions, different convenient, convenient moments, convenient is for someone, so that you are convenient, because whoever says anything, no matter how they tell me that there are people who think, take care of others, especially those who say I'm not selfish at all, I take care of you, this person is the first sign of selfishness, a person does not care about me at all, and about what I feel, a person at this time is only looking for his own benefit, it is beneficial for me that you continue to be a florist, it is beneficial for me that you, for example, sat at home and did nothing, it is beneficial for me that you, instead of fulfilling your dream, that is, when you are told remember, it's not about taking care of you, in general, at this moment they think about you least of all, a person thinks about how beneficial it is for him that you behave, and this is not love, this is not caring, this is just the selfishness of this person, but at the moment a person just does not realize it, many think that selfishness is someone who walks and says that I love myself, but he will demand from everyone to be loved, to be appreciated, so that everyone did as he wants, so that everyone went according to his expectations, that is, for example, a person wants Olya to show only floristics, and Olya must show only floristics, and this is just an example that a person thinks and cares about himself, not about me, not about my inner world, in general, in fact, I say all this now, not because to raise this comment, to catch a person somehow, no, this is just an example, in our life there is a lot of this, a lot, I constantly encounter this, because I get a lot of information about how I should behave, what I should say, how I should breathe, how I should eat, what I should do, what I should show, what I should not show, where I should study, where I should not study, where I should work, and this is not only from people who do not know me, but who just look at me, but this is also from my environment, how I live, no, but this is normal, you can force a person to do what you want, but make an agreement, there should always be an equal exchange, that is, you want me to shoot a video on floristics, no questions, let's sign the contract, agree on the payment, and everything will be fair, that is, I will shoot a video on floristics for you, any bouquet for your money, this is normal, you need others to do, so you learn to pay for it, pay, thank, appreciate, and not just like that, I just want, I just decided, and because it is so convenient for me, and because I will get some bonuses from this, and because I will sleep peacefully, walk at night, host programs in restaurants, I don't like it, because I'm nervous, and so that I can sleep comfortably, you shouldn't work there, do you understand how it goes, what is egoism, what is the inability to accept yourself, inability to take care of yourself, you are waiting for others to take care of you, that is, I have to stop working at night, so that a person can sleep peacefully, not be nervous, but sleeping peacefully and not being nervous is the responsibility of the person who sleeps, who wants to sleep, and who is responsible for his nervous system, because it is inside this person, and he is in charge of all this, through his brain, by the way, oh, we returned to the topic of the marathon, everything happens through your brain, girls, boys, who is watching me, so life changes, when you start to be friends with your brain, just incredible, and in the refrigerator you can immediately see that I work, in general, you need a normal cleaning, a general one, because when I work, I have a creative process, but I wanted to show it to you, look, a girl came in, one of my regular clients, she actually takes one or three flowers home, just to please herself, and today she came to please me, she brought sweets, which she makes herself, as I understand, she wanted to thank me for the shop, which she always creates, here is my shop, this is very, very cool, this is what I love this shop for, what I love this job for, I always loved communicating with people, I always loved open, open, sincere communication, pure, so sincere, why am I telling you that I will never sell obsessive, aggressively sell, because in any case, any of our communication is already a sale, even when we just meet with relatives and talk about something, we somehow sell at this moment, we sell ourselves, as a personality, as a brand, as an interesting person, we sell something that we share, for example, I can share with you that the other day I bought myself this, or they asked me, oh, Olya, you smell, what kind of perfume, we always sell something to each other, therefore, sales are a natural process, and to make it aggressive, I don't see any sense at all, because it should be built, first of all, on trust to each other, and in this store there are such rules, the client must trust us, who works in this store, and when the client sees, trusts, and receives in return a good, high-quality service, a high-quality product, a good relationship, then, again, everything is interconnected, everything is in a circle, returns with pleasant gratitude, I really love when my clients come, my buyers, even the client sounds like a buyer, I don't know, they are practically close people to me, because I already know all their faces, I know their stories, I know their joys and sorrows, because both on happy and sad occasions, they come to me, and when they come with gifts, just like that, without any reason, it is very pleasant, it is very pleasant and very valuable, that's why I love this job, that's why I love communicating with people, that's why I love this place, which allows me to do all this offline, and with you, I try to do the same, but already in online mode. You know what I forgot to tell you, I already made all the orders on September 1, well, based on my sales analysis, I roughly calculated what sales to expect, how many flowers to bring, plus a little more for sale later for a week, and today I received an order, 11 such more, and 17, kind of compliments, and they should be ready at 9 a.m. on September 1, and the main flow will go in the evening of September 31, that is, I would do it in the evening of September 31, and in general, in the morning, on September 1, but now you know what I think, on September 31 there will be a lot of people, in the second half of the day there will be a queue, probably up to 10, because in the evening many take flowers, and in the morning the next day. Well, on September 1, I just won't have time to make these bouquets, it means that they need to be made from the very morning of September 31, and somehow figure out where to hide them, where to put them, because at this time there will still be a full delivery, that is, a full refrigerator of flowers, it means that there will be no free vases, and in general, I don't know what to come up with, although why am I nervous, do you remember March 8, how many huge bouquets I had ordered, about 30, yes, I showed you, I also closed the store then, because we could not cope with these orders, and everything was fine, and we found vases, and we placed them normally, and there were 4 times more flowers than on September 1, or 5, or 6, or 7, so, probably, why worry about time? In general, I already have 8 hours, I am now taking an account at the checkout, and, I am proud of myself, I overestimated myself, and 3 lessons out of 4, and 3 lessons out of 4 I worked out today, it means that I have one lesson left, and that's it, I sit down for a diploma, it's tomorrow, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, well, I think I can handle it, we will do everything in a lively way, especially since the creation of the diploma itself is already so interesting, such a creative process, to make a presentation, to put everything there beautifully, that's how I created this autumn guide, I really enjoyed it, by the way, who wants a guide, come to my Instagram, there is a link in the info box, the second one is now in my tape, and there are conditions for getting this guide absolutely free, autumn inspiration, ideas for photos, how to spend this autumn, enjoying and observing beautiful around you, even in the autumn, rainy weather, how can it be beautiful, there are simple conditions, you need to subscribe to me on Instagram, mark those people with whom you want to spend the autumn, and you can download it and take some ideas for inspiration, or in order to just, as I said, to spend this autumn, to see what I showed there, or in order to repeat the photos somehow, again, to adapt them for yourself, for your city, for your house, for your animals, I even made a selection with animals, and that's it, you can put it in Instagram, Telegram, or just leave it for yourself, to browse your gallery on the phone, to smile, to enjoy, to remember good moments, I think it's great, because there are always good moments, by the way, about good moments, I... Okay, the report is done, everything is fine, yesterday I met an interesting man, I told you about him, he came in, he quarreled with one of the neighbors, I mean, with someone who lives in this house, and he came in, he looks unhappy, and says, I came to you to complain about the neighbors, and I look at him, and I say, let you not complain to me, let you tell me something good, he didn't expect this, I stand and smile, and he says, okay, a joke, and told me a joke, then I look at him, his mood began to improve, he began to tell me how he loves his wife, and he left me, not irritated and nervous, but happy with thoughts about what a wonderful wife he has, how he loves her, switch, because there is always both good and bad, there is always, even in the worst days, when there is bad around, when there is grief, even in these days there is always another side, there is always good, we just don't notice, we are so caught up in our negative emotions that we stop seeing everything else, we see only horrors, we see only blackness, but in fact, there is a lot to pay attention to, that is good, a lot, and it's all in front of us, in front of our eyes, and we are like blind kittens, we don't pay attention to it at all, so, that's it, I spoke, I turned off the cash register, well, then I turn it off, my dear, it's almost midnight, I've already washed up, I want to go to bed, and I remembered that yesterday I came home, I was already resting, I was sitting on the phone, I was sending stories and posts, I was sending reels, I was resting, that's how I call it, in general, now I will go to bed, so I turn on the camera to thank you for watching, for your likes, subscriptions and comments, and remind you that the next video will be released on Monday, I'm leaving for the weekend, I love you very much, it was Olya, see you soon, bye-bye!