SCHIZOPHRENIC EPISODE ON CAMERA

Hey, what's up guys? Welcome back to another video. In this video, I decided to record me having an episode, which is I'm currently having and I Am going to talk about what I'm experiencing so I am currently hearing voices And they are telling me that there are communist spies out to get me I've not checked the windows like I normally have because I'm trying to fight it and Not Go to that dark deep hole Here we go I Okay, so there's one voice. It's a man telling me to turn off the Record recording software and stop recording I before I started recording. I I'm kind of fading in and out of Of What's going on if that makes any sense at all? I don't know. Um, let me explain one one second, I'm Just trying to cope and I'm talking to my parents about how I feel and then the next second. I'm Thinking they're communist spies and I just I don't even know. I don't know. I I I should have wrote a script for this, but I I'm not functional enough to write a script but I'm apparently functional enough to record It's like a shopping app. It's like for cheap things Ordered it two months ago, and it came in yesterday Yeah, it's a laser pointer. See look at the background I don't know. I'm trying to make light of the situation When my necklace broke my I don't know if I mentioned I have this my security alert or medical alert necklace It has my name Says schizophrenic my blood type and a phone number to call So in case I go crazy out on the streets and someone finds me I got this necklace wrapped around But it broke a while back And I need to get it fixed I Don't know who's laying here. So I decided to talk about it But what I need to be talking about is what I mean what I'm dealing with. I'm sorry. I need to get the point Freaking I heard a voice all of a sudden just yell I got you and then I made me jump Yeah, they're very like Verbal and out now that I started recording. I don't know if that has to do with anything They weren't as bad, but now that I started recording they Gotten real bad So for those of you watching You know, it's really hard to explain what I'm dealing with unless you're schizophrenic and watching this then you probably understand I mean, I know every person's different, but I I think Things are most of the same now. I don't know What causes schizophrenia all I know is that it can be genetic and it's or caused by Illness or something like that But I don't know why There's a lot we don't know To Block out the voices. I I listen to music Really really loud and it helps block out the voices So I'm gonna do that, but I'll still be talking to you guys It's just I like listening music If you wonder what kind of music I listen to I listen to everything Like I like all music, but my least favorite our country and rap. Those are my least favorite country and rap Don't hate me for that But uh right now I'm listening to Enigma their 1990 album That's on YouTube. It's like an hour long Heard an explosion Like like like an old classic footage of a bomb exploding is all Makes a mushroom cloud. That's what I heard just now. I Don't know if that's a message Of meaning something I Keep getting these these messages are these these Coincidences coincidence stuff and and I think they mean something but I don't know what I don't know what their message from Obviously someone good I think or bad. It could be bad, but I would think there's someone good I keep hearing this phone ring. This is a common occurrence for me. I hear this phone ring. I don't I don't know Hello freaking I Just heard a voice on the phone It told me to kill myself You know I hear this a lot, and you know I really debate if I should or not, but I never do I Guess that's a good thing I'll put my music back on And I'm gonna grab my phone again because I threw it across my room Man I've been recording for 16 minutes, and it feels like only like two I Really like enigma I Do that's nothing to do what's going on, but I don't know I'm just listening to him They're awesome At least the first song on the 1990 album sadness Sadness I don't know something like that Okay, so the song is coming to an end, and I'm going to go ahead and go back to without without headphones Because I'm going to talk about what I'm hearing because I realized for the video. That's what I should do I should I shouldn't block out the voices. I should listen to them and talk about what they're saying So I heard the phone ring I Got the phone it was quiet for a little bit, and then I heard a voice to say kill yourself and so I Threw my phone Okay, they're telling me to look out the window I Know there's not I know there's not any spies, but I have I have to look out the window like this heart I Have to it's like I mean, it's like I need to like I know there's nobody out there, but I need to My window is literally right in front of me Stark though, so I can't see anything Yeah, I don't see anybody out there. They're telling me. There's people out there. I don't know I Well guys. I think I'm going to end this here. I'm kind of done I'm I don't feel like recording or anything like that so Like and subscribe if you subscribe hit the bell icon so you know when I post more content Like it and all that stuff Thank you for watching. I hope this was somewhat educational. I don't think it is, but I hope it helped out and Thank you very much for watching see you