【人生変わった】「自分はADHDかも？」「あの人はADHDかも？」と思ってる人に伝えたいこと

Enjoy life with surprises This is Mako This video I really hesitated about whether to post it or not I had an experience that could be called a life-changing one and I think that people who are struggling like me might find some relief from it I've decided to go ahead and talk about it It's quite a sensitive topic I suppose Some people might even wonder what I'm talking about Then I think this video itself won't get that much attention but I'd be happy if some people watch it and take action In short what I want to say this time is that I'm usually very forgetful careless and impulsive and I think I might be a bit like ADHD People who have long been troubled by this issue are very early to seek help from mental clinics general medicine or psychiatry departments at hospitals I hope you have the option of getting a prescription Not just for yourself but for those around you too If there are people like that I would like them to consider it as one of the options Relying on medication should be a last resort and instead one's own efforts habits and environment should be addressed first I have lived my life that way until my 30s I think I should put in the effort myself but I still think that things like habits and environment have their limits and I've always said in my videos that I've been like someone with ADHD It ends up sounding like people are using the excuse of saying "maybe I have ADHD" to justify not keeping time forgetting things and not listening to others Doesn't it feel a bit unpleasant That's why I usually don't bring up the topic myself What I'm about to say is purely factual I think I'll talk about what my childhood and teenage years were like I remember first getting a letter from the school addressed to the parents which I think was a PTA authorization form I had to hand it over to my parents but for some reason it would disappear every time and the teacher would call the parents if I didn't present the power of attorney That's why my mother always gets calls from the teacher Because of that I get really angry From my mother She says you should be more reasonable I tell her I haven't received any such thing You can't say you didn't receive it because all the other students did get it and about a month later I found one that got all messed up over there I took it This kept happening all the time I'm not trying to get in trouble but I think I' ll be more careful next time but for some reason it disappears every time I'm told it's not just the PTA authorization form that disappears This also shocked me but I got a cavity and I tried to go by bike to the nearby clinic it's a story about a primary school student and I got money from my mother I didn't have any small change so I got a 10 000 yen bill and was told very clearly to bring back the change I was on my way out of the house and had just gotten on my bicycle when I realized I had lost 10 000 yen and couldn't remember where I had put it and I completely lost the money there and it still hasn't been found I got really scolded I also cried I didn't want to cry but I played basketball all through elementary middle and high school and for some reason I got really yelled at by the coach You're not paying attention so don't space out You never listen when I'm talking This is what I've been told every time in elementary middle and high school I wasn't looking at the coach's eyes when were all gathered I got really angry at that It always gets noticed every time Because our eyes didn't meet Hey Makko if you're going to start you can go home I was told this every time I don't really want to hear it I get pretty nervous every time we gather Even so I still get scolded In school tests mock exams or entrance exams I make a lot of careless mistakes At that time I probably understood that it was due to my insufficient studying I was quite aware of it I can solve difficult and big questions but Chi-chan makes a lot of mistakes in simple problems like really simple calculation errors This could just be that I'm not practicing enough to solve the problems of course but from my own awareness I seem to have a lot of careless mistakes it's just carelessness That's so careless of me My friend from middle school high school and university said that I'm really a natural which really annoyed me I think about things very deeply and I'm not naive I didn't want to be seen as naive so I tried to avoid being careless or thoughtless but it's hard to get rid of it Even after becoming a university student I really felt it when I was working part-time I couldn't do any of the convenience store internet café or cafe jobs properly I couldn't remember anything Even if I remember I make a lot of careless mistakes I always forget when taking orders at the cafe I got really yelled at by a female high school student colleague I didn't know anything about ADHD until my early 20s I just thought I was someone who was really forgetful and this really isn't good I tend to get really heated up in arguments and get worked up easily and when I get angry I often use strong words so of course I don't want to do that and have been trying to change it for a long time The one thing that never gets fixed is keeping time I'm always ten or fifteen minutes late That's never changed since elementary school My mother also probably said something like "you should definitely go with plenty of time" but it's not fixed yet and I get all sorts of comments like "you don't seem to want to fix it " but that's not the case at all I started to realize around the time I turned 25 that maybe I was one of those people that are often talked about as having ADHD It wasn't that severe in terms of symptoms and I could still go to university and I could basically manage my daily life I've become increasingly aware that I'm often careless and impulsive and that I don't keep to time especially as I've reached my late twenties This is one of the reasons I didn't go to the hospital but I was able to cover it quite well with habits and systems For example I' ve lost my wallet and phone four or five times I've probably lost my house key more times than I can count I've probably called the key hundred lamp thing more times than I can count From experiences like that during university days I always carry the same bag never switch bags and always put my valuables in the same place Then around the people around me I can't do this anymore Cleanly acknowledged he said to his friend "I really tend to forget so I'll make sure to check multiple times in advance sorry " he said He no longer loses his keys anymore Since he was a second-year university student I never locked the house even once Now that we've introduced electronic locks we make sure to lock it properly Back then there was nothing to be stolen so I never bought anything that could be lost So I don't have a wallet either and I don't wear an Apple Watch because I might lose it and I've been using the Oura Ring for a long time but I recently lost it and I didn 't feel any sadness at all That's how it is you know I definitely lose my glasses too I don't buy expensive glasses the glasses I use are just for show things like that I only buy the cheapest things on Amazon This is something I've been working on for many years Understanding my own weaknesses And creating habits and systems So I can basically manage my life I have a sense that I'm different from others and I'm aware that this is a big weakness that can cause trouble for others but I've always thought it was also my greatest strength For example I was bad at listening to classes because I couldn't listen to people for long I didn't understand what the teacher was saying during class and then there were parts I couldn't understand along the way Even if there was just one thing it would always bother me I couldn't hear a word the teacher was saying after that I had already thought that the class was impossible since I was around elementary school age So I was reading the textbook the whole time during class I was solving problems Because I couldn't understand even when I listened So I often got angry at that Listen to the class instead of solving problems on your own Even if you listen you still don't understand I can't maintain my concentration It's impossible to do group classes I've never been to a tutoring school like that everything was one -on-one instruction but because I had a discomfort with such classes they didn't do any lessons or lectures at all What if we created a programming school where students could ask questions That's how Tech Camp was born As far as I know in the form of "ask me anything " There were no schools that could help you learn programming all at once back then but now there are schools that follow that style It's because I have a bit of a bias so I have a different perspective from others I think that by doing this you can achieve something but if you try to treat and cure it you end up going to the hospital and then you lose your strength but I can still manage my life I had been avoiding going to the hospital I've always avoided getting diagnosed with ADHD until I was over 30 but recently I've started taking medication Those of you who have been watching this channel all along I think you know but I stepped down as president of the company I started and now I'm starting a new company again and I' m running it as my own personal company The founders of the company regularly talk with the executives and have reached the point where they provide support and they are still working on new businesses and various initiatives including YouTube activities The rest is about sharing inside stories and doing it at the same time but there's a lot to do especially the cost per YouTube channel The cost per street has increased significantly compared to a few years ago and we no longer have the abundant resources we once had I felt like my head was really tired I also started having insomnia So I thought maybe I should go to the hospital once It started with getting sleeping pills but I thought the sleeping pills and the medicine were really effective and it turns out habits are also important I thought that when all else fails choosing medicine is quite a viable option and that made me feel a bit less resistant to the idea of medicine There are quite a few people around me who struggle with ADHD but they told me that they change quite a bit with medication and they recommended it to me I'm not saying you absolutely have to drink it but they said " Why don't you try it once " and I got medicine from the hospital If I explained everything that I just said from my elementary school days they would say I'm perfectly diagnosed with ADHD and I thought after starting the medication I wish I had started taking it sooner my life has really changed it's like I'm finally doing things properly for the first time Oh there was a moment when I thought "Hey this view is different from what I've seen before " and another moment when I thought "This feeling in my head is completely different " and I was moved at that time Then there was this feeling of regret you know but it 's pointless to talk about the past I really thought I should have drunk it sooner the first thing that was really good was being able to concentrate completely on work My productivity has really doubled In my mind whenever I do computer work my attention keeps getting distracted and I feel like my brain is really tired This has been going on for a long time That's gone now From the friends Maruko-san has amazing concentration you know It's always been amazing but something's different this time I feel it too Then there's no request We used to have deep discussions and meetings and then felt really exhausted mentally but now despite being this age I do manage to control it I felt really tired that's why I don't really ask others for anything when I take the medicine I become more gentle I am usually kind when I start taking the medicine I was afraid that my strengths would disappear but it didn' t happen at all No this really shows how different the effects of the medication can be from person to person I would like you to carefully listen to the doctor's advice and make a judgment based on that just to clarify in my case in terms of my personal experience it felt like all the parts that were beyond repair had completely disappeared in any case life has become much easier to live Not only me but there are a lot of people around me who have been saved by medicine Of course everyone takes it differently some only on weekdays I've been prescribed a smaller amount than usual but everyone has various patterns but they say there's a big difference between taking it and not taking it which is natural The risks of taking AD Choo medication There are side effects Please thoroughly research and understand before taking it Some people may not tolerate it well especially children so you should be careful I think it's up to the parent's judgment but there are doctors who say it's better not to take this AD medication There are things where doctors' opinions differ but from my personal experience it's better to have at least some options I really think it's worth giving it a try once it takes that kind of time in life I sometimes think I should have gone to the hospital sooner But if the question is whether it would have been better to keep taking the medicine since my teens that's a pretty complicated issue I've always found it hard to do things that people take for granted I thought that if I lived the same way as normal people it would definitely not work out so I thought I had to fight in a different way than normal people I've been thinking since university that I wouldn't be able to show my value in this society and that's why I'm talking to you all here now That's why I ended up choosing to start a business and also started YouTube but honestly I think I was a bit too lucky I'm just lucky I'm able to do this now but I definitely considered the regular path of getting a job and I was really torn between starting a business or getting a job until the very last moment Probably I would have failed to do things that are considered normal when employed and caused a lot of trouble for customers and colleagues and I probably would have dropped out with a high probability But if someone quite similar to me were working at a regular company I think it would be really tough Being in an environment where you have to process a lot of information at the same time can really stress the brain and lead to more mistakes I would like to recommend considering going to the hospital as an option for such people As I mentioned at the beginning ADHD is not just about medication Habits and other issues are resolved through various approaches The absolute thing you must not do is to arrive late I can't keep time because I have ADHD That's not acceptable Rules are rules and promises are promises It doesn't matter if that person is bad at keeping time So I can't use it as an excuse but I really feel a big gap between people who can easily keep time and not forget things and those who can't I think we don't really understand each other very well here I've really wanted to change that But I just can't seem to I guess the difficulty level really varies from person to person You might think why someone can't do something like this but really they can't do it it's better to have some understanding that there are people like that because that might better for the person I think I wanted to mention that in this video it's ultimately my own issue so I'll cover it with my own habits and environment that's the first choice and recently people around me have been Understanding of such congenital developmental disorders has improved so we shouldn 't use that as an excuse but we should clearly state that we are not good at it It's more convincing to get a proper diagnosis in order to say that and I would like you to have the option of taking medication when you get the diagnosis This video is not recommending that people with ADHD take medication but rather that it's a video encouraging you to consider it as one of the options and think about it carefully Since symptoms and environments vary from person to person I hope you will study properly and make your own decisions Watching this video oh I look like the president Maiko Or if there are people around you who are similar to you I would be happy if someone could realize that taking medication is also an option See you in the next video